Weak winter sunlight filtered through the chink in my curtains where I hadn’t quite pulled them enough, highlighting a strip of floor at the end of which lay the long, gangly legs of our family’s Great Dane, Apollo. His big square head rested on the rug beside my bed as he peacefully snored, the gentle rumbling causing the large pink tongue that lolloped out of the side of his mouth to reverberate with each exhalation.
I rolled over and watched him for a while, then dropped my hand down out of the warmth of the covers and stroked his golden coat gently with my fingertips. He snuffled a little, stretched out his back legs, and pushed himself closer to the bed, then went back to snoring. We both lay there for a while until nature could no longer wait for either of us.
Getting up, I padded over to my door, and unlocked and opened it. Apollo scooted down the steps, sniffed around for a suitable spot, did what he needed to, and then charged around the back of the house to find his breakfast. I did what I needed to, threw on some clothes and – after inspecting the bread I had in my little kitchenette – binned it and followed Apollo’s example of heading to the main house in search of food.
Both suitably fed and watered and having given time for the dog’s breakfast to go down, I pootled back up to my room and tidied myself up a little more, slapping some protective BB cream on my face before wrapping a cosy scarf around my neck and shrugging into my down-filled jacket and pulling up the fur-lined hood over my woolly hat. I grabbed my boots and sat on the doorstep lacing them up as Apollo wandered out, a lead attached to his collar and trailing behind him.
Mum tapped on the kitchen window, gave me a thumbs up and waved. I returned all the gestures and descended the steps, which, since hearing about my incident the other evening, my dad had been religiously gritting every day. When I got to the bottom I picked up Apollo’s lead.
‘Come on then, boy.’
Apollo did the little excited dance he always did before going on a walk and we set off. Heading across the fields, I unclipped the catch and let the dog run free. He charged about crazily for a while, braking suddenly every now and then when the possibility of an interesting sniff distracted him. Occasionally he would run back to me, assessing that I was still there, before charging off again.
After a little while, he returned to my side and we made our way through the crunchy, frost-hardened grass and leftover stems of the autumn. Together we plodded along, Apollo stopping occasionally when he caught the scent of something else worth investigating, before trotting along to catch up and walk beside me again.
Cutting across the edge of another field, I clipped Apollo’s lead and held it loosely over my wrist as we made our way back onto the pavement at the top of the village. In front of us stood the beautifully converted barn that was now home to Cal and George. I pushed open the gate, closed it behind me, and together we crunched over the gravelled circular driveway of the house.
I faltered a little as we approached the door, losing my nerve. But I was here now. What if Cal happened to see me and I just left? That wouldn’t be awkward at all … I knocked on the door quickly before I had too much more time to overthink. There was no answer and I hesitated for a moment, shifting my weight from foot to foot as Apollo sat beside me patiently, his bottom out to the side in a slouchy puppy sit.
‘What do you think, boy?’ I asked him in a whisper, ‘Do I knock again or shall we just go?’
Apollo looked up at me and tilted his head.
‘Good idea. I totally agree. Come on then.’
As I made to turn away, I heard the lock on the solid wood door thrown and it was pulled open. Dressed in blue checked pyjama bottoms and a white T-shirt, Cal looked absolutely shattered, not to mention way too sexy in a rumpled, just-got-out-of-bed way, for this time on a Sunday morning.
‘Lexi! Come in.’
I waved a hand. ‘No, it’s fine. I’m so sorry, Cal. I didn’t mean to wake you. We were out for a walk and thought I’d just pop in and see how George was feeling.’
Cal rubbed a hand over his face and gave me a sleepy smile that I responded to in more ways than I’m sure he’d planned for – and certainly more than I’d planned for.
‘Better, thanks. I’m sorry, maybe it wasn’t just too much Christmas food. He really went down with it a little while after we left you and he’s had a pretty rough night but seems to be over the worst now, thank goodness. He’s got a little colour back and he’s managed a bit of porridge so I think once he’s caught up on his sleep, he’ll be fine. I hope he didn’t manage to pass it on to you or anyone else.’ Cal looked sheepish.
Lexi shook her head. ‘I’m fine. And what about you?’
Cal looked confused for a moment. ‘Me?’
I smiled. ‘Yes. You.’
‘I’m … OK. Thanks.’ He gave me a half-smile that did little to disguise his apparent surprise at him being asked after.
‘Right. Because you look dreadful.’ As soon as the words were out, I was aware how different they’d sounded in my head. Cal was just looking at me. And then he was laughing, really laughing in a way that couldn’t fail to make a woman smile – even if she had just made an idiot of herself. Again.
‘Thanks.’
‘That sort of came out wrong.’
‘Did it?’
‘Yes.’
‘So I don’t look dreadful?’ One eyebrow raised over still-sleepy eyes. Being auntie to a small hoard, I knew mischief when I saw it.
‘No, you do but … oh crap. OK. I’m just going to stop talking now and let you get back to bed and rest.’
Cal threw me a half-smile. ‘I wish. I’ve got a car to go and see. Martha should be here shortly to look after George and then I need to head off. It’s a long drive anyway.’
I took in the utter exhaustion on his face, and the way he was using the door to hold himself up.
‘Are you sure that’s a good idea? You look absolutely exhausted. Can you not put it off until tomorrow or something?’
He shook his head, stifling a yawn as he did so. ‘Unfortunately, not. This guy already told me he’s had offers from other people. If it’s as good as it sounds, I’ll be laughing at auction. But they won’t wait. They’re moving and are just trying to clear stuff out as soon as possible. I can’t afford to miss out on this.’ The last word disappeared on a yawn and I shook my head.
‘OK. Then let me drive you.’
‘What?’
‘If you really must go today, then let me come with you and drive. That way you can at least get some rest in the car.’
‘You don’t have to do that. I’ll be fine.’
‘Don’t take this the wrong way – but you look far from fine. And if you won’t do it for yourself, then think of George.’
Cal tilted his head down at me. ‘Low blow.’
I screwed up my face. ‘Did it work?’
‘Yes. Are you sure?’
‘Positive. It’ll be nice for me to do something different too. Plus it’ll give me a chance to connect with cars in some small way again.’
‘You miss it.’ It was a statement rather than a question.
I nodded. ‘I do.’
He gave one quick nod in response before his gaze dropped to the dog. ‘Is Apollo coming for a ride?’
‘No, I think he’d probably rather be sprawled out by the Aga for the afternoon.’
‘Smart dog. Do you want me to pick you up or do you want to wait? I’ve just got to jump in the shower quickly.’
‘I can wait, if you don’t mind the dog coming in too? We can just stay by the door.’
‘Don’t be daft,’ Cal said, ushering us both inside. ‘I’ve got an old towel here somewhere …’ He stuck his head in a cupboard in the hallway and pulled out a towel, ‘Here.’ He tossed it to me and I gave Apollo a quick rub over and then carefully dried his feet one by one as the dog gently laid each paw in my lap, ready for the familiar procedure.
‘Wow. He’s really good at that.’
‘Practice,’ I replied, glancing up at Cal as I stood. ‘There. All dried.’ I kicked off my own boots and wiggled my toes. ‘But we’ll stay here anyway.’
‘No, you won’t. I need coffee. Want one?’
It did sound good. ‘OK. Yes, thanks.’ We all shuffled off towards the kitchen and Cal made himself busy with the fancy coffee machine on his worktop. I could strip a car engine practically with my eyes closed but the coffee machine looked far more complicated than it needed to be for such a simple task. All I generally needed was a spoon.
‘That looks fancy,’ I said, eyeing the equipment.
‘Yeah. I had a moment. Although I do have to say, it makes really good coffee. But then again it should.’ He pulled a face.
I shrugged. ‘You should enjoy the indulgence. If you work hard, it’s good to reward yourself sometimes. You shouldn’t feel guilty about it.’
Cal gave me a maybe yes, maybe no face. ‘I know you’re right but …’
‘You have trouble believing you’re worthy of it?’
He shot me a look and I could see the faintest blush on his cheeks.
‘Sorry. Mum tells me I can be a bit blunt sometimes. I didn’t mean to –’
‘No. It’s fine. I like blunt. I know where I stand with blunt. And yes, I think you’re right. No one has ever put it like that before. Or at least they haven’t told me to my face.’
This time it was my turn to blush.
‘I promise I’ll just drive. I won’t say anything else.’ I made a zipping motion with my fingers across my mouth, and mimed tossing away a key.
Cal gave that deep laugh. It was one of those that surrounded you and made you smile from somewhere deep inside. ‘I really hope not. That would make what was shaping up to be an enjoyable day far more dull.’
I pulled my mouth to the side, unsure. Cal stepped closer to me and touched my fingertips with his own.
‘I like your honesty, Lexi. Like I say, I know where I stand with you. It’s … not always been the case.’ His thumb brushed the back of my hand and I lifted my gaze, but his was on our hands. Sensing that he was being watched, his eyes shifted and met mine. I knew I should look away and that this was veering into dangerous territory for me. But I couldn’t. I stayed exactly where I was, my gaze locked with Cal’s.
His mouth remained serious for a moment, and then, suddenly, he stepped back breaking the spell. The sensible part of me was relieved but the churn of emotions rushing through the rest of me said something else and right now, I wasn’t sure how I felt about that.
‘Thanks for coming round. George was really upset about feeling poorly and missing out on the snowball fight and everything last night.’
‘There will be other times, I’m sure. They’re forecasting snow for the next few weeks, I heard this morning. The bookies have been cutting the odds of a white Christmas left, right, and centre, apparently.’
His mouth began to curve. ‘Didn’t take you to be the betting type.’
‘No, not at all.’ I laughed. ‘I’m more the full of useless information type.’
The half-smile grew and I did my best to remember that the last thing I needed was romantic complications in my life. Been there. Done that. Not prepared to go there again. I risked a glance back up at him. Bloody hell, he was gorgeous. How did anyone look that good after a night up with a sick child? Was that even legal?
Cal took a breath in and the half-smile was back. ‘Lexi, I –’
‘Daddy!’ George’s voice, wobblier than it normally sounded, rang down the hall towards us.
Cal gave me a look and a little shake of his head, the smile turning from whatever it had been – I was still working on that – to resigned.’
‘Yeah, Georgie, I’m coming.’ He turned to me. ‘Do you two want to come and say hello? He was pretty miserable earlier. I’m sure seeing you both would cheer him up no end.’
‘We’d love to.’
Cal smiled at me and I patted my leg for Apollo to come to heel and he plodded beside me, now a little weary from his explorations on our walk this morning. George was wriggling upright in the bed as his Dad pushed open the door wider and went in. Cal held up a hand to Apollo and I following just behind.
‘Just let me check there’s not been any more …’
I nodded so that he didn’t have to finish the statement.
‘What is it, little mate?’ Cal’s voice was gentle and soothing and I couldn’t resist peeking around the corner of the doorjamb. I wasn’t worried about seeing anything that might upset my delicate sensibilities – primarily because I didn’t have any. I came from a large family that mostly consisted of men and I had spent my college years mostly with blokes who, for reasons I still failed to fathom, felt that the best thing to do after downing a vat of beer at night was to top it off with a greasy kebab. I also had a small brood of nieces and nephews, from which not a single one stood out as not having weed, pooed, or thrown up on me at some point in time. In short, I didn’t scare easily.
‘I’m bored and my tummy hurts,’ George said, his face pale and tired as Cal squatted beside the bed.
‘Martha is going to be here soon and she can read you some more of your story. I know your tummy hurts but it’s better than it was, isn’t it?’
‘Yes,’ George replied, nodding sadly.
‘Good. And it will get easier as the day goes on. It’s just a bit worn out, like you and me, and needs some sleep. After your story, and a little snooze, you’ll be feeling much better. I promise.’
‘OK. Do you have to go out?’ George’s little hand snuck into his father’s large one.
From my hidden vantage point, I saw a wash of pain cross Cal’s face and something twisted inside me.
‘I’m sorry, Georgie. I do. If I could put it off, I would. But I want you to sleep as much as you can today to make up for last night, so you won’t even notice too much that I’m not here.’
George nodded but he was clearly unconvinced, even though I could see by the state of him that Cal was right. The little boy was heading straight for zonkville. In an ideal world, his dad would be too but we both knew that wasn’t going to happen.
‘In the meantime, there are some people here to see you.’ Cal leant back and saw me peeking. A smile slid onto his face at catching me. He indicated for us to come in and George’s face beamed as he saw us. My smile got wider at his joy as Apollo loped towards him and laid his big head on the duvet around George’s lap and looked up at him with big, heartbreaker eyes. George giggled and folded himself down to wrap his arms around Apollo’s head and cuddled him.
‘Do I get one of those?’ I asked.
George sat up, still grinning as he threw his arms out for me. I wrapped mine around his little body and gave him a big cuddle as Apollo watched us, quirking first one brow and then the other. The dog let out a sigh and slid back into his puppy sit position, his hip resting against Cal’s leg now that he had stood to make way for us next to the bed.
‘I’ve had a poorly tummy,’ George said, as he released me.
‘I know, sweetheart. But you’re looking much better than you did yesterday so you just concentrate on getting better now.’
‘OK.’ George nodded, his hand gravitating to Apollo’s head resting on the bed. He began stroking it and, within moments, both George’s and the dog’s eyes were beginning to droop.
Cal motioned to me and we moved quietly from the room. Once outside, he turned to me. ‘Next time I have trouble getting him to sleep, can you pop over with the dog?’
I grinned. ‘Sure. No problem.’
He returned my grin. ‘OK, I’d better grab that shower. Martha has a key so she’ll let herself in. Wait anywhere you like. Just make yourself at home. I’ll see you in a few minutes.’
‘OK.’ I watched as Cal walked at a fast pace off down the hallway and turned out of sight, before pushing all random thoughts of Cal and showers firmly out of my mind. Wandering back into George’s room, I saw the little boy had now snuggled down in his bed, one arm still around Apollo and the other around Bear. Someone was snoring softly. I ruled out Bear and after glancing at both the other sleeping forms, pinned the blame firmly on the dog and gave him a gentle stroke.
Apollo had soothed many a child – and adult – to sleep since he’d come to us as a gangly puppy three years ago. His gentle nature and mere presence had a way of calming even the busiest of minds. Which probably accounted for why he was currently sleeping at the side of, and occasionally on top of, my bed most nights now. Just knowing he was there made everything that tiny bit less overwhelming. And I was glad he had now worked his magic on little George.
I crossed the room quietly and headed back to the kitchen, listening out for movement on the gravel drive that would signal the approach of Martha. The kitchen was a bright, airy room, mostly white with flashes of lemon to add a bit of zing and take away any hint of sterility. There was plenty of workspace, plus a large island in the middle. An extension housed an eating area, and large bifold doors covered one entire wall, leading out onto a wide patio and the sprawling garden beyond.
Even on a grey and uninspiring day like today, light flooded into the room, making it cheery and bright. I wandered over to the fridge and smiled at the childish drawings held there by magnets from landmarks and cities around the world, as well as closer to home.
My stomach grumbled and I chewed on my lip for a moment, glancing around. I walked away from the fridge and sat down on one of the bar stools at the island. Another loud growl from my tummy broke the silence.
‘Oh, for goodness’ sake!’ I mumbled and headed back to fridge. Inside I found everything I needed for my plan bar one, which I saw sat on the side. I rummaged for a moment in one of the deep drawers of the island, pulled out what I needed, and set to work.
***
‘That smells amazing!’ Cal padded back into the kitchen, his socked feet making his approach more stealthy than I’d anticipated. I jumped about three feet in the air. ‘Hey! Only me.’
‘Yes. Of course. I’m just used to noisier blokes. George and the dog are asleep. Here.’ I handed him a plate with a warm bacon sandwich on it. ‘I hope you didn’t mind me taking over your kitchen but walking the dog always makes me hungry, and I didn’t think you’d probably had much to eat looking after George so it seemed a good idea to have something before we set out.’
‘Mind? A gorgeous woman shows up to check on us, soothes my sick child to sleep, and then hands me food that I didn’t have to cook myself? That’s definitely not a scenario I mind in the slightest.’ He took a massive bite of the sandwich and made appreciative noises. ‘So good!’ He mumbled through it.
I smiled and began tucking into my own sarnie as I pondered over the fact that Cal Martin had just referred to me as gorgeous. Although that could just have been the bacon talking.
‘As much as I’d like to accept all that, in the interests of accuracy I feel I have to point out that it was technically Apollo who soothed George to sleep. I had very little to do with it. Nothing in fact.’
‘You made the decision to pop round in the first place. That means you had everything to do with it in my eyes.’
Oh my God. Those eyes.
‘Am I interrupting?’ Martha’s voice broke through. I glanced down at her shoeless feet, encased in thick, warm tights, perfect for silent movement – something that seemed to be the order of the day in this house.
‘Not at all,’ Cal replied, his tone easy and relaxed. ‘Martha, do you know Lexi? Her family own The Four Seasons shop in the village. Lexi, this is Martha, George’s childminder.’
I held out my hand and Martha shook it. ‘Nice to meet you.’
‘And you. I love that shop. It’s always so interesting and full of such lovely things.’
‘Thanks.’
‘I must have missed you in there though.’
Aha, here we go.
I hadn’t missed the look of curiosity that had passed over Martha’s face when she’d found me standing in Cal’s kitchen on a Sunday morning, sharing laughter and bacon sarnies. There had been more as well – a sense of protection. Yep. I was most definitely getting more than a hint of Mama Bear vibe. George was her charge but clearly it wasn’t only little George under her wing. Cal was firmly nested there too, even if he didn’t know it.
‘No, I’ve been working away a lot for the last several years. I’ve only been home properly for a little while.’
‘Oh. Will you be leaving again soon or are you here on a more permanent basis?’ Her tone was light and interested but there was no doubt I was under scrutiny. Cal, busy loading the dishwasher, completely missed it. But then he was a man and, in my experience, men weren’t always good at subtle so that wasn’t exactly a big shock.
‘I’m not really sure to be honest. But I’m enjoying getting to spend time with my family and friends.’ I smiled, hoping that was enough to satisfy her for now. I saw her mouth begin to open.
Obviously not.
‘So!’ Cal stood back up from the dishwasher, closing the door as he did so. Perfect timing. ‘I’m just going to go and check on George. He was bit fretful earlier but Lexi and Apollo have the magic touch and had managed to get him to sleep while I was in the shower.’
‘Apollo?’
‘My dog.’
‘Oh!’
‘We just popped in after our walk this morning to see how George was feeling.’ Perhaps if I let her know I hadn’t spent a passionate night with her employer, it might make her worry less that I was about to break his heart. Or whatever it was that she was worried about me doing.
‘Oh, that was nice of you.’
Did I detect a little softening there?
Cal led the way and George was still out like a light to the soft accompaniment of doggy snoring. I hated to wake Apollo but I had no idea how Martha felt about dogs or what time I’d be home. I didn’t want him missing his dinner later if we got held up. I glanced at Martha, catching her expression. OK, so she might be a dog person after all. I gently nudged Apollo from his slumber. George’s hand slid softly down his fur until it landed on the duvet and Cal snuggled his son into the bed further. Martha and I walked out, the dog close by my side.
‘He’s beautiful,’ she said when we got to the hallway.
‘Thank you.’
‘The name suits him. Very regal.’
I laughed. ‘You might not think that when he’s on his back, legs in air, snoring like a freight train.’ She laughed at the image of a not infrequent sight at our place.
Cal joined us. ‘He’s still zonked. Thanks so much for this. I would have put it off if I could –’
Martha waved his protestations away. ‘It’s my pleasure. Derek’s decided that a Game of Thrones marathon was his calling this weekend and after a day of it yesterday, honestly, it’s a pleasure to be here even more than usual. There’s only so much tits, arse, blood, and gore I can take.’
My mouth had dropped open and Cal was laughing. Martha had that whole prim, respectable look going on and certainly didn’t look the kind of woman who said tits and arse!
‘What did I say?’ she asked, genuinely confused.
I snapped my mouth shut and Cal just shook his head and gave her a squeeze around the shoulders. ‘Nothing. Thanks again and just text or call me if you need anything at all. OK?’
‘Of course. Now go if you must. But for goodness’ sake, have a window open or something. You look shattered, boy!’
‘Don’t worry. Lexi’s driving. She very flatteringly told me I looked hideous and then used George as emotional blackmail to make me relinquish my keys.’
‘Did she now?’ Martha turned to me. ‘Well done, you.’ She winked and weirdly I felt like I’d passed some sort of test. Or at least one stage of it.
‘In my defence, the word hideous was never used. He’s exaggerating.’
Martha shrugged, ‘He’s a man …’ She left the rest of the sentence open to speak for itself as I laughed.
Cal raised an eyebrow. ‘I’m feeling distinctly ganged up on here so I definitely think it’s time we left.’ The shower had revived him somewhat but his face was still drawn from tiredness and the worry of last night. But right now, his eyes sparkled with the fun of the tease.
‘Come on, boy.’ He looked down at Apollo. ‘We know when we’re beaten.’ Apollo looked up and tilted his head.
I pulled on my boots and grabbed the hat I’d stuffed in my pocket. It wasn’t the most flattering thing I’d ever worn but it was warm and until the car warmed up, I valued my ears too much to give vanity the upper hand.
‘Cute hat.’ Cal grinned.
Being the mature adult that I was, I stuck my tongue out at him. ‘I don’t care. It’s warm.’
Cal leaned briefly towards me. ‘I was actually being serious.’
I looked up, surprised. ‘Oh!’
He gave a dip to the side with his head, considering. ‘It suits you.’
‘Thanks. I think,’ I replied, laughter bubbling through my words. Even after a night of no sleep – and not for the good reasons – Cal Martin still had a smile capable of knocking me right out of my fur-lined boots. To prevent that happening, I bent and fiddled with Apollo’s lead for a moment, giving myself a moment to reset and have a little mental shake.
I had a whole day with this man ahead of me. Yes, he’s hot. And yes, I liked him. And even though I was usually really obtuse in such circumstances – I blame growing up surrounded by men – I was getting the idea that he might sort of like me too. But I had no idea what I was going to do with my life right now. And like I’d said at Giselle’s, at the most inopportune time possible of course, getting involved with anyone right now was probably not a great idea. Absolutely. Right! Good. That was sorted then.
‘Are you anywhere nice?’
A deep voice with a definite hint of smile broke into my thoughts.
‘Huh?’ I stood back up and came face to chest with Cal. He bent his knees a little and looked at me straight on.
‘You were miles away …’
‘Oh … that. Yes. No.’
Cal quirked an eyebrow and hit me with that smile again. Oh crikey. This was going to be an interesting day. Pull it together, Lexi!
‘Come on, boy. Up you get.’ Apollo leapt into the back of the Defender and Cal shut the door. We both walked around to the driver’s side.
‘Umm, you’re not driving, remember?’
‘I’ll be fine.’
‘OK. Then you don’t need me to come with you.’
Cal took a deep breath. ‘You can sit and talk to me and keep me awake.’
‘The idea was for you to get some sleep. Which you need.’
‘Yeah, but –’
‘No buts. Keys please!’
He gave me a look. ‘Considering you’re best friends, you and Giselle are very different, aren’t you?’
‘That we are. She’d get you to give the keys over without even realising you were doing it. I, on the other hand, don’t have her beauty or persuasive skills so I tend to find that a more direct approach has to be employed.’
Cal smiled. ‘Direct can be good too.’
‘I’m glad you think so.’ I held out my hand for the keys.
Cal laid the small bunch in it, but as I closed my hand around it, he didn’t quite relinquish his own hold.
‘I’d take issue with the beauty thing too. You shouldn’t do yourself down.’
‘Huh. Oh. Right. Good. Thanks. Thank you. Good to know.’ I nodded a little too vigorously and did a mental eye roll at myself. It was quite impressive how inordinately bad I really was at this kind of stuff. From the corner of my eye saw Cal run a hand across his chin, and I was pretty sure it was disguising a smirk.
Keeping my eyes averted, I pulled my hand a little to gain full control of the keys and opened the door of the Land Rover, putting myself into territory I was far more relaxed in. As I settled myself behind the wheel, I risked a glance up at Cal as he walked around the bonnet to the passenger side. He was grinning. Well, I definitely wasn’t going to win any prizes for my feminine wiles but at least I provided amusement for those around me. That was always nice. Better when it was planned, but still.
Cal pulled open the door and hefted himself in. Leaning forward he switched on the satnav and pulled his phone from a pocket in his jacket as he waited for it to boot up. I glanced back at the dog whilst I waited. Apollo had his head resting on the back seat, watching and waiting patiently.
‘He’s a great dog,’ Cal commented without looking at me as he tapped a postcode into the machine.
I smiled at Apollo and stretched back an arm to give him a quick head rub. ‘He is.’
‘George has been going on about getting a dog for ages. I don’t think this morning is going to have helped much.’
I looked round at him. ‘Oh! Sorry. I didn’t mean to cause any awkwardness. We were just passing and –’
Cal held up his hands. ‘That came out wrong. It wasn’t meant as a criticism. Maybe you’re right in that I need a rest.’
I studied the satnav for a moment. ‘I don’t think there’s any maybe about it.’
He laughed and pressed ‘Go’ on the device.
‘Fair enough. What I meant is if I can find such a great dog as this one, it might not be a bad thing. I’m aware that George is an only child – it could be good for him to have some company at home. Someone to bond with. Nothing I said could bring a smile to his face or get him to settle this morning and then you and Apollo walk in and he’s happy and asleep within minutes.’
‘It’s my scintillating personality. It often sends people to sleep.’
‘Now that I know is a big fat lie.’
I gave him a shrug. ‘OK. So if I can just drop the dog off at home and let my parents know that I’m out with you and not in a ditch somewhere, then we can head off.’
‘Is it likely they think you’re in a ditch?’
‘You’d be surprised.’ I turned over the engine as Cal plugged in his seatbelt. ‘It’s my mum’s catchphrase. Whenever one of us was late, even just a few minutes, we’d be greeted with her telling us off, saying that she had been convinced we were lying in a ditch somewhere.’
‘On the plus side, it’s nice that someone cared if you were or not.’ Cal’s mouth was smiling but as I gave a quick glance to check the road was clear, I could see that the smile didn’t reach his eyes.
My stomach twisted. ‘I’m sorry. That was insensitive. I didn’t think –’
Cal laid his hand over mine on the wheel for the briefest of moments, before resting it back on his lap. ‘It’s fine. I don’t want you second-guessing everything you say to me. But I can understand how your mum feels now. Every minute your child isn’t where they should be feels like hours.’
I nodded.
‘You seem very close to your nieces and nephews so I’m pretty sure you’ve already got a good idea too.’
‘True.’
‘Just wait until you have your own too.’
I swallowed, and looked away from him up the road, checking for traffic.
‘Is it clear your way?’
‘Yep.’
I pulled out and headed back towards my parents’ place, doing my best to push Cal’s innocently made comment out of my mind.