Chapter Thirteen
Taking a deep breath, she placed her palms against the hard plane of his chest and pressed her lips on his collar bone. The heat generating from his body nearly scorched her lips. He stood still beneath her tentative kiss. She knew she’d have to turn things up a notch. Jocelyn licked his skin. The tangy, musky taste of him was all male and potently arousing.
Cade flinched, causing her to bring her head up to meet his gaze. “Do you like that?” she whispered.
He stroked the back of her head. “More than you could ever imagine, sweetheart. Don’t stop.”
Emboldened by the passionate plea, she pressed light kisses along his chest as her fingers trailed along his tanned skin. Jocelyn flicked her tongue across the flat disk of his nipple.
Cade grasped her head, holding it against his body. “God, Jocelyn. You’re driving me crazy.”
His statement brought a smile to her face and increased her confidence. She circled the hardened tip before taking it into her mouth. She loved the way he responded to her and the low growl flowing past his lips. Taking her time, she savored his unique flavor. After licking, laving and nipping the taut peak, she turned her attention to his other nipple, giving it the same attention she had the first. Finally, she lifted her head to gauge his reaction.
Cade’s eyes were closed tightly, his teeth gritted and breathing shallow. She needed no words to know he liked what she was doing. As each second passed, her sense of empowerment grew. Jocelyn scaled the hard plane of his body with her palms in a downward motion, not stopping until she reached his belt buckle.
A gasp tumbled from his mouth. “Jocelyn. Don’t do it, if you don’t mean it.”
“I do mean it. You wanted me to show you how much I wanted you, and that’s what I intend to do.” With trembling hands, she undid his belt and fumbled with the button of his jeans. Cade moved to assist her, but she pushed his hands away. “No. Let me.” Her next attempt was met with success. Slowly, she pushed his jeans down lean hips marveling at every single angle of his body, the personification of pure perfection.
Going to her knees, she found herself eye level with a thick bulge pressing against his briefs, straining to break free. It seemed larger than she remembered. She brushed her fingers against it, outlining its length.
Cade inhaled sharply, causing her to pull her hand away. “Please don’t stop.” He groaned. Taking her hand in his, he guided it back to his stiffness.
As she began to stroke his cock through his briefs, his breath became shallow and his body trembled. “Oh yeah.”
With her newfound confidence, Jocelyn pulled his underwear down and helped him step out of them along with his jeans. His cock jutted forward, so hard, proud and thick, capped with a bulbous head that had a pearly drop of pre-come on its tip. Circling her fingers around his rod, she leaned forward and licked the satiny tip to test his reaction.
A groan tore from Cade’s throat and his body shook. Jocelyn took this as a sign to continue. She took him fully into her mouth and tightened her lips around his stiffness, loving the way he couldn’t stop trembling. With one hand, she cupped his balls, fondling them lightly. As she moved her mouth along his organ, wetting, sucking and savoring him, warmth spread throughout her body. Surprisingly, she was becoming aroused from the simple act of pleasuring him.
If someone would have told her weeks ago she would end up with Cade, like this, she would have laughed. Not only did she believe there was no chance of her reuniting with him, but to be able to respond to him sexually was a whole other issue. Perhaps she wouldn’t be able to feel this way with any other man but him, but it didn’t matter. What did matter was they were together now, and she intended to satisfy him as he deserved.
Jocelyn tightened her grip on his cock, sucking harder and faster. Nothing was more important to her in this moment than giving him pleasure.
Cade stiffened momentarily before his body began to jerk with frantic shakes. “No more, Jos, God I can’t take any more,” he said in a throaty groan.
Releasing his cock, she raised her head to look him in the eyes. Apprehension filled the pit of her stomach. “Di-didn’t you like it?”
He hooked his hands beneath her arms and hauled her to her feet, crushing her against him. Instead of answering her question, he covered her mouth in a ravenous, seeking kiss. With a sigh, she parted her lips beneath his marauding tongue and threw her arms around his neck. Cade’s actions said it all as his hands roamed the naked expanse of her back and buttocks, sending shivers of sensual delight coursing through her entire being.
Jocelyn clung to him, not wanting him to let go, so aroused she could barely think straight. It was all so surreal, a beautiful dream she didn’t want to wake from. Cade broke the kiss, only to capture her bottom lip between his strong white teeth, giving it a playful tug. He nibbled and licked her mouth with unhurried movements, sending her senses reeling. She didn’t know how much more of this erotic torture she could take before she burst into flame.
“Mmm, you taste so good, baby,” he murmured against her lips, his forehead resting against her. Cade cupped her face, massaging her cheeks with his thumbs. “I can’t believe this is real.”
“Me neither. It’s been a long time since we’ve been together like this, but it’s almost like—”
“We’ve never been apart.”
“Exactly.”
He brushed her lips with his. “I don’t know about you, sweetheart, but I need to make love to you now, or I think I’ll go insane.”
A smile tugged the corners of her lips. “Then what are you waiting for?”
A deep chuckle rumbled from his throat as he scooped Jocelyn up in his corded arms and carried her the short distance to the bed. Gently laying her on the bed, he allowed his cobalt gaze to lovingly roam her from head to toe like an intimate caress.
Goose bumps lined her skin as a mixture of emotion tore through Jocelyn. Moistening her lips with the tip of her tongue, she wondered why he didn’t join her. Feeling self-conscious, she made a move to cross her arms across her exposed breasts, but Cade reached down to grip Jocelyn’s wrists.
“Don’t. Let me look at you a bit longer.”
“You’re making me nervous standing there like that. Why don’t you come here?” She crooked her index finger at him in a blatant invitation.
“In a minute. I want to look at you just a little longer. God, you’re beautiful.”
Jocelyn giggled. “You keep saying that.”
“Because it’s true. Darling, words can’t describe how I feel right now. You’re like a salve to my aching heart. I’ve hurt so long—”
She cut him off upon hearing the pain behind his words and sat up, pain searing through her core as she thought of how she’d treated him. If only she’d been honest, maybe things would have turned out differently for them instead of suffering through all this wasted time. “Cade, if I could take back what I did to you, I would.”
Shaking his head vehemently, he sat next to her, taking Jocelyn’s hands in his. He brushed his lips along each of her fingertips. “Don’t. It wasn’t your fault. And, I promise, I wasn’t blaming you. I only wanted you to know how much this means to me. You here, in my bed, is the greatest gift you could have ever given to me. I never want this night to ever end.” He smiled, brushing her cheek with the back of his hand.
She tilted her head against his touch, her heart swelling with love. She didn’t think it possible to love anyone as much as she did Cade. “Thank you.”
“For what?”
“For loving me.”
“Sweetheart, as long as I could remember I’ve loved you, even when I tried to convince myself I didn’t. I intend to spend my life making you happy, starting tonight.” Leaning over, he dropped kisses across her lips. He trailed his fingers between her breasts. “Such beautiful skin, and I’m going to enjoy tasting every inch of it.”
She gave him a playful wink. “I’ll hold you to that.”
Cade grinned, revealing strong white teeth, hooking his finger inside of the elastic waistband of her skirt. “And I intend to deliver. But first, let’s get rid of this, shall we?”
Her shoulders shook involuntarily. There was no turning back after this point, and she didn’t want there to be. “Yes.” Her voice came out as a breathy whisper. Jocelyn kept her gaze locked on Cade’s rough-hewn features. In her heart, she knew she could trust him, and he’d make this a pleasing experience for her. There was no need to be afraid.
She raised her hips as he tugged off her skirt and slowly peeled off her panty hose. As he worked on removing her panties, she shrugged out of the blouse. Once she lay bare beneath his intense blue gaze, Jocelyn suddenly grew self-conscious, but she resisted the urge to cross her arms over her breasts.
He ran a palm across her belly. “Mmm, I don’t know where to begin. How about I start here?” he murmured, settling himself beside her. He moved down the bed until his head was level with her waist. Lowering his head, Cade pressed a kiss against her belly. His tongue darted forward to tease her navel, licking and circling it.
Jocelyn grasped his shoulder, squeezing it as a fluttering of wicked delight flowed within the pit of her stomach and slowly made its way through her entire body. A soft sigh escaped her lips. She remembered how good it had been in Cade’s arms, making love with him, but somehow this seemed more intense, her emotions seemed more in tune with his.
Cade took his time nibbling and exploring the skin around her mid-section, seeming to be in no rush to move on. He was driving her wild as he caressed her with such reverence tears sprang to her eyes. A range of emotions filled her, joy, love, and lust featuring prominently among them.
When he moved lower, and gently nudged her legs apart, she stiffened.
He raised his head, brows knitted together “Are you okay, sweetheart?”
She nodded, catching her bottom lip between her teeth.
“If you don’t want me to continue, we can stop this right now.”
“Please don’t stop,” she whispered. “I want you. I want this.”
He frowned, concern and uncertainty etching his face. “If you’re sure…”
“I am. Please.” She closed her eyes briefly. Relax. This is the man you love. You owe this to him but most of all to yourself. Despite being aroused and knowing she could trust Cade, in a tiny corner in her mind, the fear threatened to rear its head. No! The last time anyone had touched her there, it hadn’t been an act of sex or love. It was violence, pure and simple. They had taken from her what was only her right to give, but not this time. This time, it was her choice.
And, it was love.
That very thought gave her the strength to relax. Slowly, the tension eased out of her muscles, allowing Jocelyn to open her eyes again. A smile pulled the corners of her lips up as she stared into the eyes of her beloved Cade. This was right and meant to be. Why had she been fighting so hard when it seemed as if she and this man had always belonged together?
She grazed his jaw with the back of her hand. “I’m all right, Cade. Please don’t stop.”
He searched her face as though looking for some kind of clue, until finally he returned her smile. “I love you.”
“I love you. Make love to me.”
He chuckled. “You don’t have to ask me twice, sweetheart, but first, I’d like to get reacquainted with this pretty little body of yours.” Cade repositioned himself until he rested between her legs. Brushing the tight nest of curls between her legs, he kissed her inner thighs.
A spasm of pure ecstasy slammed through her body. He’d barely touched her and already she felt as if she’d explode. How on earth would she make it through this without going insane with passion? She pressed her lips together to hold back the cry hovering in her throat.
Gently, he parted her damp slit and grazed her clit with his fingertip.
Her body jerked, as if it had a mind of its own. “Oh!”
Cade gave her a lopsided grin. “Like that?”
“Do you even have to ask?”
“Sometimes a man likes to hear those things.”
“I liked it very much.”
“And how about this?” He gave her clit a light pinch between his thumb and forefinger.
Again, her body shook. “Oh, yeah. Definitely.” She wondered how she managed to get the words out, especially when she could barely think straight.
Cade dipped his head and this time captured her ultra-sensitive clit between his lips, sending flickers of incendiary heat crashing through her. This time when she trembled, Jocelyn couldn’t stop. She threaded her fingers through his blond locks and held his head against her pussy, wanting more.
Seeming to understand her silent command, he sucked on her pussy as if he couldn’t get enough. Her grip tightened in his hair as she ground her hips against his face. Overwhelmed by the strong sensations tearing through her body, she cried out. “Oh God, Cade! That feels so good!”
He pushed his middle finger into her damp sheath and then pulled it out to the fingertip, before stuffing it deep inside of her again. His mouth continued to suck and sexually torment her swollen clitoris.
Jocelyn was quickly reaching the peak she never believed she’d ever have again, but sure enough it was happening. “Cade!”
The harder she tugged on his hair and mashed her pussy against him, the more it served to spur him on, making him suck more voraciously, like a man possessed and she loved it, couldn’t get enough of it.
Her climax started as a slow build-up in her toes that leisurely spread all the way to the top of her head, and then came full blast throughout her like an explosion. Her eyes rolled in the back of her head and she screamed with the force of her feelings.
Cade lifted his head to catch her gaze, but he continued to work his finger in and out of her. “How’d you like that?”
She didn’t have the strength to respond verbally, so instead she held her arms open, inviting him in.
Slowly, he removed his finger, and licked off her cream, murmuring, “You’re delicious,” and then moved on top of her, his mouth covering hers in a devouring kiss.
Jocelyn parted her lips beneath his tongue, pushing hers forward to meet his. He tasted so raw and wonderfully male. Being here like this with Cade felt so right. Emotions she couldn’t quite name moved through her body and she didn’t want this moment to ever end. She wrapped her arms around him, holding him close.
Cade was the one to finally break the tight kiss to nuzzle the side of her neck. “I want you so badly, Jocelyn.”
She stroked the side of his face. “Then take me. I’m yours, I’ll always be yours.” Parting her legs, she invited him to complete their act of love.
Cade wedged his knees between her thighs. Grasping his cock, he positioned it against her slick opening. “Are you ready for this?”
Hesitating for only the briefest of seconds, she nodded.
With careful precision, Cade slid into her wet channel, inch by delicious inch until he was deep inside of her. He groaned as he moved inside of her, his eyes shut tight as if he was obviously relishing the moment. Inhaling sharply, he opened passion-glazed eyes, focusing them on her. “Are you okay?”
Jocelyn released the breath she hadn’t realized she was holding. How did she feel? She’d expected to be a little apprehensive, fearful even, but for some reason, this felt so incredibly right. Their bodies fit so perfectly together, it was as if they were created to be together like this. She was meant to be his woman and he her man. Too overwhelmed to speak, her mouth formed words but nothing came out.
She could only hold her arms out to him.
Cade needed no further encouragement. With a moan, he lowered his head to hers, and their lips met once again. Slowly, he began to move, filling her so deliciously and wonderfully she couldn’t keep still. Raising her hips, she met his thrusts. Her movement was awkward at first until she found her rhythm until they were in sync with one another.
Cade raised his head, his gaze roaming her face, eyes full of love. Their hands found each other, twining together and holding on tight as they continued to gyrate, grind and move in a dance as old as time. Waves of fiery heat rippled through her body. Her desire for him was so powerful, she didn’t think she’d be able to handle what she knew would be another cataclysmic orgasm. If the first one was powerful, she knew this one would be nothing short of that or more so.
Again, she couldn’t help wondering if this was a dream she’d wake from any minute. If it was, Jocelyn intended to hold on until the very end, not wanting this to end. Ever.
Their coming together was a balm to the years of pain and separation they’d suffered. It touched the deepest part of her soul knowing he was willing to be with her, despite what he’d learned. Some uncertainty still lurked in the recesses of her mind, but that was something they’d discuss later. For now, she simply wanted to enjoy this moment.
Squeezing his hands as a familiar tingling worked its way along every nerve ending in her body, Jocelyn knew her climax was near. “Cade, I don’t think I can hold on much longer,” she groaned.
“Don’t hold back, sweetheart. Don’t ever hold anything back from me.”
Just as she’d predicted, she reached her peak. Her body convulsed uncontrollably. Never had she experienced something so powerful. It was like an awakening of her soul. “Cade! Oh, God! Cade!”
“Oh, sweetheart, I’m coming, too.” Gritting his teeth, he braced his upper body on his forearms, threw back his head and released a loud grunt before filling her pussy with his seed. His body jerked and shook for several moments before he collapsed into Jocelyn’s waiting arms. “I love you,” he whispered against her skin.
Jocelyn, no longer able to hold back the emotion within her, burst into tears.