Fuck, that got embarrassing fast, thought Luke as he stood under the hot stream of the shower. Maybe it was him that could turn any situation from amazing to awkward.
He had felt so very good, better than good. That was up there with the hottest experiences of his life, and he had come in a white-hot rush. Even afterward neither of them seemed to be able to get enough of the other. When Jai had gently touched his neck, as they kept on kissing, Luke knew he had never felt this close to another man. Hell, Luke didn’t think he’d ever felt this close to another person. Jai knew all his secrets, knew Luke, and it was the first time Luke had sexual contact with someone who wasn’t a stranger.
However, how good it had felt didn’t mean he could forget how fucking awkward it was saying goodbye. Luke felt like hiding behind his hands at the memory. It was pretty clear Jai hadn’t meant for it to go that far and probably didn’t think they should do it again. God, there should have been a witness protection that allowed you to hide from people who pretty obviously regretted they made you cum in your pants and had done the same.
• • •
Two days later Luke was about ready to give up staring at the wall he and Jai shared, hoping it would give up Jai’s secrets. Because, so far, nothing. At least it was Friday and the weekend meant he had something to do other than paperwork and remembering that particular night with Jai.
He was one part turned on at the thought of seeing Jai again and the other part mortified. As if he had summoned the man, his phone sounded a familiar ringtone. He had designated a unique tone, in his defense, only after his stomach turned over at every text that turned out to be from either Mitch or Tom.
[Can I come over now] read the message.
He could only type in [Of course] and be glad that he had already showered and changed into his sweats and a T-shirt, ready for the weekend to begin.
The knock sounded within thirty seconds; you didn’t get much warning when the object of your nightly obsession lived next door. Luke was more than a little ashamed at his gratitude that the flat’s front door was at the back of the station where no one could see Jai arriving or leaving.
Luke opened the door and stepped back. Jai stood there looking a little hesitant but followed Luke into the lounge room. When Luke turned and finally got a good look at Jai, he couldn’t help a momentary shiver of pride that this was the guy he’d gotten off. Jai had his hands shoved into his fashionable tight black jeans in a way that only showed off those perfectly ripped arms, and he had braided his hair in an intricate pattern that made his high cheekbones and full lips seem even more compelling. That his lips looked inviting to Luke shouldn’t be a surprise considering how often they had been appearing in his fantasies.
“I came to say what I should have said Wednesday night. Thanks, that was fun.” Saying those words Jai came closer and kissed Luke gently on the cheek.
Luke couldn’t help the hands that came to Jai’s elbows involuntarily to steady him, as Jai’s few inches in height had meant he had come to his toes to make that kiss. “I’m not sure if the thanks should go any one way. I think you know I had a good time.”
Jai’s smile was wry. “Blowing our load together was the obvious bit. Me being weird at the end wasn’t as well done.”
Luke stood there, still not taking his hands off Jai. His hands were loosely bracketed around Jai’s triceps, the feel of his skin addictive enough that he didn’t want to let go, even when he felt the need to duck at Jai’s upfront words.
“You put it all out there, don’t you?” he said, a little embarrassed but mostly charmed at Jai’s directness.
“Too many years in talk therapy,” Jai replied, smiling. “I can’t not talk things through, whether you’d prefer me to or not.”
“It’s been two days though,” Luke said, knowing it sounded like a complaint but not managing to hide the wistfulness of the tone.
“Well, I wasn’t quite sure what to do from here.” This time it was Jai stepping back. “Luke, you are in the closet and not coming out, so there aren’t a huge amount of options going forward. We’re friends and as a rule, friends don’t usually kiss and hump and make each other orgasm.”
“They totally should.” Okay, that one did sound petulant, and Luke knew he missed the feel of Jai against his hands. That only slightly eased at the sound of Jai’s irreverent laughter.
“Total guys, thinking everything is better with an orgasm.”
It was the laugh that did Luke in as much as anything. All good reasons, more than a decade of pleasure being taken after the most careful planning be damned. He wanted this moment for himself.
Following his most basic instinct, he backed Jai up against the wall, though he was careful to make sure there was no objection in Jai’s eyes before Luke pressed him against it. “Why don’t we try this, again, upstairs, with fewer clothes?”
“Such… a… bad… idea…” Those words from Jai would have been much more convincing if each one hadn’t been punctuated with a kiss against Luke’s neck.
Luke couldn’t stop the tremor that originated in his cock but involved his whole body. He kept up the pressure of groin to groin until he realized that if he wanted more than last time, coming in his jeans again probably wasn’t going to help. He stepped away from Jai’s body, resenting the space between them.
“So are we going upstairs then?” He needed Jai to make that decision too. More than he needed to get off, he needed to know Jai wanted this as much as he did.
He tried not to show the relief he felt at Jai’s nod before he led the way to the stairs. Though if Jai looked closely at the very apparent bulge in Luke’s jeans, he would definitely see how needy Luke was. For this. For him.
They got through the bedroom door and Luke reached for Jai and was surprised when Jai took a step back.
“I fucking want you,” said Jai. He must have seen the hurt in Luke’s eyes. “But we don’t have that good a track record of staying in control once we start something, so I think clothes off and condom and lube close by isn’t the worst way to start.”
He had a point, and Luke started stripping. “Lube is in bedside table; just give me a second on the condom.”
Luke struggled kicking his jeans off, while walking to the other side of the room. He avoided looking at Jai as he pulled open the cupboard doors and started scrambling around looking for the bag he had taken on the last trip to the city.
“You literally keep your condoms in the closet,” Jai said, sounding too amused.
“I don’t have much use for them in this town, and do you want my dick hard or do you want to make jokes?” Luke replied as he looked through his suitcase. Why the fuck did it need to have so many pockets?
When he turned back to the room, packets in hand, he could see Jai had stripped and was lying in Luke’s bed running the side of his hand up his own cock.
“If your dick is not hard, we may as well go home now,” Jai said, with the full smile of a man who knew how hot he was.
Luke gestured down at his dick, which was now slapping against his stomach. “Turns out you’re not so funny that we need to call it off.”
Fuck, could Jai be any more of a living fantasy?
Luke had to take a minute, even though he wanted to dive right onto that body. He wasn’t a teenager, even if his leaking dick wasn’t showing much maturity. It was Jai, who was lying back on Luke’s own pillows, his long lean limbs touching every bit of Luke’s large bed. Turned out reality was better than fantasy because his imagination hadn’t provided the Technicolor picture of Jai’s teeth worrying at his own lip in impatience or the sheen of moisture at the end of his dick as wonderful proof of how ready he was for Luke.
There was an answering moisture filling Luke’s mouth and before Luke had made a conscious decision about what to do next, he was climbing on the bed and reaching for Jai’s long, heavy dick. Without thought, he had shuffled down the bed and taken Jai in his mouth. Just the tip at first; he needed to taste the evidence that Jai was turned on. Jai groaned in a way that had Luke taking more of him in. Luke pressed forward until he had almost taken Jai the whole way in. He could smell the clean musk of Jai’s groin and wished he had developed the knack to take him the whole way down, to let Jai into his throat.
Jai though didn’t seem to object if the constant stream of words and rough noises from his lips were any indication. “Luke, your tongue is fucking good. Do that again, like that, uhh.”
Luke hadn’t taken his gaze from Jai’s blissed out expression as he flicked his tongue against the underside of Jai’s dick, even when Jai’s taste made him want to close his eyes to savor. He was too entranced that he was the one who was making Jai arch of the bed, who could feel his shudders in the back of his throat.
Luke let his throat relax more, which allowed Jai’s dick farther in, before he brought up his hands to play with Jai’s balls. He tugged them a little roughly and felt them pull up in response.
“You better stop sucking if you don’t want me to come down your throat,” warned Jai.
Normally this was the time Luke would pull off, mission completed. Tonight, though, the reward was going to be the taste of Jai, so he redoubled his efforts and kept his eyes on Jai’s face, not wanting to miss the moment he managed to push Jai over the edge.
It didn’t take long for him to taste the gush of salt and see the force of Jai’s release. Jai’s body shook hard enough that Luke took a kick to the thigh. Luke embraced the pain of the kick and kept on swallowing until he felt Jai’s body go limp.
He laid his head against Jai’s groin and breathed in the scent of satisfied man, with his own arousal throbbing against the sheets, until he felt Jai tugging him up.
Jai’s movements were lazy, but the kiss that Luke got was anything but.
“So good,” Jai said, breaking the kiss for a moment. “So do you want me to suck you, or do you want to fuck me?”
Luke’s cock jerked against Jai’s thigh at those words, and Jai lightly bit Luke’s lip in response.
“Fuck you,” Luke replied, certain. “I want to fuck you so bad.”
He kept on kissing Jai, and the kissing was even more addictive with the taste of Jai’s orgasm in his mouth. Luke groped around for the lube. One handed, he managed to unscrew the top and get a fair amount of slick on his fingers, before he reached down and rolled Jai on his side so he could get access to Jai’s hole.
At first, he just tapped against Jai’s hole with his wet fingers and thrilled at Jai’s shiver in response. He was eager enough to feel that tightness around his finger, so he could only tease Jai for so long before slipping his finger in.
Luke had considered preparation as a boring necessity before he could get to the good stuff of being able to get his dick in someone’s body.
Now partly because of his own recent play on his body, there was an ache of arousal in working his fingers into Jai, as if he could feel the push-pull pleasure in his own body and when he got two fingers onto Jai’s prostrate, he almost felt an envy that wasn’t in his own body. However, Jai’s body was a much more fun playground, and the feel of him clamping down on Luke’s fingers, and the sight of his dick erect again, was enough to have Luke pull away his hand and shakily put on the condom and slick himself up.
“Let’s hope you’re as good with your cock as you are with your mouth.” Jai might be flushed with arousal, but he couldn’t resist the smart remark.
“People who are one orgasm in front don’t get to critique,” said Luke, hand steadying as he brought one of Jai’s legs to his shoulder.
Jai was lying partly on his side, so Luke could duck to tongue one of his nipples as he positioned his dick.
“Hey, I gave you the option to even the scoreboard.” Jai’s voice got a little shaky on the last word, as Luke started pushing in.
Luke’s instinct was to shove into the tight warmth of Jai. He could feel in the resistance it had been a while since Jai had done this and he wasn’t going to risk hurting him. He moved more carefully than he ever had before. His muscles trembled both with the effort and the sheer pleasure of Jai’s body taking him in.
All of his body had been concentrated on that simple push, but as his balls pushed against Jai’s body, his own body screamed with relief he put his head to Jai’s nipple again and bit. He was rewarded with a flutter that he could feel around his dick and the breathless command from Jai to move.
Jai’s position on his side gave Luke enough maneuverability to twist and hit his prostate with the next thrust. Hearing Jai make a keening sound was enough to get Luke to create a punishing rhythm.
He loved watching Jai claw the bedclothes, as if he needed something to ground him. Luke tried to last, by concentrating on his stroke, quickly though the friction and pressure on his cock was going to put him over the edge. He leaned over, got his hand on Jai’s dick, and found a rhythm. A bite on his arm, as Jai came, proved enough to have Luke come like a steam train inside his condom. He kept gently pumping as they both rode out their orgasms and then untangled himself from Jai and flopped on his back.
They gasped in silence, as Luke removed the condom, and they both fought back to regular breath.
“Mmmm, well, that was worth the stairs,” said Jai, as he turned toward Luke.
“Two orgasms and only worth one flight of stairs. High standards here in bed,” Luke replied in mock outrage, unable to keep the note of satisfaction out of his voice. Not only had he had the best sex of his life, but he’d had just had to wipe the evidence of Jai’s undeniable enjoyment off his hand.
It only got better, as Jai snuggled closer and pulled the sheet around them. He looked down to see Jai’s smirk grow after he got a close look at Luke’s arm.
“Sergeant, it’s lucky that you wear long sleeves to work,” Jai commented.
Luke actually laughed when he saw the perfect bite mark on his upper arm. “I’d arrest you for that one. You do have the perfect defense though.”
“What is that?”
“Temporary insanity due to pleasure. I mean, that big a dick in anyone’s ass would drive them out of their minds.”
“I wasn’t aware that I was in bed with a man whose dick was so big it turned men to vampires.” Jai pulled up the sheet and looked under it. “Nuh, I’m sure I’ve been misled; it looks pretty ordinary to me.”
The huff of Jai’s laughter felt amazing against Luke’s chest. He hadn’t experienced this in bed—the laughter and the camaraderie. The feel of Jai relaxing against him made him hope Jai wouldn’t leave his bed.
• • •
Two hours later, the sex haze had worn off Luke and the panic had set in. Was Jai going to stay there the whole night? What would Luke say if someone saw Jai leaving in the morning? Jai’s tight jeans and mussed braid were obviously not the outfit of someone having popped in after a morning run.
Jai was still asleep nestled against Luke’s chest. Cuddling. What were they thinking? Luke couldn’t deny the stiffening off his cock at Jai’s loose-limbed embrace, but at the same time his panic was such that he couldn’t seem to force the air completely into his lungs.
The rigidity of his body must have woken up Jai. “What time is it?” Jai asked hazily.
“Just after nine,” Luke replied, trying his best to keep his voice as normal as possible.
His attempt at normality was obviously a failure as the weight in the bed shifted and Jai pulled out of his arms to sit up.
“Fuck, Luke, you’re panicking, aren’t you?”
As stressed as he had felt with Jai in his arms a minute ago, it took only seconds for Luke to miss Jai’s weight. “I wasn’t panicking. I was just a little hungry and wasn’t sure if I should wake you.”
What he didn’t expect was the look of amused affection on Jai’s face. “Hey, Luke, it’s fine. We’ll get up, have dinner and I’ll head on home. Nothing has changed except we’ve had sex once, and it was fun.”
Luke should have been relieved, especially at the idea that Jai was going to get out of here in an hour. That would give their relationship deniability, but instead he felt pissed off. Jai’s overly calming tone could have been directed at a fractious child instead of the man who had given him two orgasms this evening.
“It’s fine, Jai. I told you I was just hungry.”
Luke watched as Jai pulled on his boxers and his jeans. Something about the calm way he pulled himself together made Luke want to tug his hair, muss it up—do something to get a reaction. Instead, Luke tried to do the same. He pulled on a long sleeved T-shirt and jeans and followed Jai down the stairs.
• • •
Jai had kept up a flow of work-related anecdotes as Luke had warmed the pizza in the microwave and they had demolished it fast. Even with Jai’s light flirtation, the outrageous comments seemed to have stopped. It could have been Luke and Mitch talking shop, for all the intimacy between them. In fact, if it wasn’t for Jai’s lack of animation and the unusual wrinkle between Jai’s eyebrows, Luke would have been convinced that the last few hours hadn’t happened at all.
“Okay then, I’ll let you get back to your weekend plans,” said Jai, not even doing his usual dance of clearing the table and insisting on washing up.
“You’re coming to the pub tomorrow night like we had planned?” Luke asked.
They were loose plans made a week ago, but all of a sudden it seemed important Jai not walk away like this.
“Do you still want me to come with you?” Jai asked. It seemed to be a genuine question rather than a challenge.
“Half the town will be there, and most of your colleagues will be.” Luke knew it was the wrong answer, but he didn’t know how to take it back. “I can come knock on your door tomorrow night when I’m heading out,” he continued.
“Sure, I’ll see you then.” Jai headed to the door, and it didn’t look like he was going to say more.
Luke knew he’d been given an out, that there would be no scenes of recrimination that he couldn’t offer more of himself, but he couldn’t resist the question that slipped through his lips.
“Why did you come here tonight?”
“My friend Kris said I was getting a little too good at self-denial. When we kissed this week, it was really hot. I’ve never been so hot I’d come in pants before, and I guess I wanted to see what it was like between us.”
“It was good,” Luke said, half-statement, half-question. From his end he had felt bloody fantastic.
“It was good.” There wasn’t any question in Jai’s voice, just a finality as he turned doorknob and headed out the door.