‘I enjoyed last night,’ Jodie said as she poured coffees for her and Ben at breakfast the Sunday morning after supper at Annette’s. She’d decided not to challenge him directly about his rudeness to Thierry but she had no intention of letting him think she’d forgotten about it.
‘It was lovely to see Nicola again. Did I tell you she’s invited me down for coffee any time? And your mum’s friend Thierry seems nice.’
Ben, concentrating on pulling his croissant apart and heaping a spoonful of marmalade on it, grunted.
‘I don’t understand why Mama encourages him.’
‘Maybe because she likes him?’ Jodie said. ‘Why, don’t you?’
Ben shrugged. ‘He was my father’s friend. They grew up together in the next village. Best men at each other’s weddings. Then they had a spectacular falling out. Thierry’s wife was from down near Toulouse and they moved down there when that happened. Since he’s retired and moved back up here, he’s been hanging around Mama more and more.’
‘What happened to his wife?’
‘She died.’
When Ben didn’t say any more, Jodie said, ‘They’re probably drawn together because of shared memories of your father then.’
Ben gave her a look. ‘Maybe. So long as he’s not after her for any other reason.’
Jodie looked at him. ‘You can tell they’re fond of each other and that they’re good friends. Thierry certainly doesn’t look as if he needs anybody else’s money either, if that’s what you’re worried about. You should be pleased for Annette. She’s still got her life to lead and she seems to want Thierry to be a part of it.’
When Ben shrugged and didn’t answer, Jodie helped herself to a croissant before changing the subject and saying, ‘So, the London Book Fair. Are you going to tell me which hotel you’ve booked us into? Or are you planning on surprising me with somewhere glitzy?’ She smiled at him hopefully.
She’d been too tired when they left Annette’s at midnight to broach the subject on the drive home.
There was a brief silence before Ben said, ‘Nowhere. We’re not going.’
‘That’s not the surprise I wanted,’ Jodie said, deflated. ‘I was so looking forward to it. Why aren’t we going?’
‘I know how much you were looking forward to it and I feel really guilty about disappointing you,’ Ben said. ‘But my edits came back from the publisher yesterday and, even though they warned me, I can’t believe how many there are. I’m having to rewrite half a dozen chapters.’
Jodie sighed. ‘There’s still a few weeks before the Fair though. Maybe you’ll get through them quicker than you anticipate?’
‘Perhaps. I promise you if that happens we’ll jump on a plane and go. Even if it’s only for one day.’ He stood up. ‘Right, back to the typeface.’
‘I was hoping we might go for a walk together sometime today?’ Jodie said. ‘Or even out for lunch? Spend some time together – it is Sunday, supposedly a day of rest.’
She knew she sounded petulant but right now she didn’t care. She was fed up of spending so much time alone. And she was cross and upset about Ben cancelling the London trip. He didn’t seem to realise how important it was to her. As she stood up and went to clear the table Ben took her in his arms and hugged her. Jodie pretended not to hear his smothered sigh before he spoke.
‘Shall we have lunch in the village restaurant? But I warn you, I’ll have to work when we get back. And Jodie, I really am desperately sorry. I was dreading telling you about the Fair. That’s why I couldn’t tell you in front of everyone last night.’ He gave her a gentle kiss before saying, ‘You could go on your own if you wanted.’
‘I suppose I could,’ Jodie said. ‘Wouldn’t be the same without you though. I was looking forward to introducing you to more of my friends. Taking you to my favourite haunts.’
‘I promise we’ll do that soon,’ Ben said. ‘Go ring the restaurant and book a table for one-thirty. The number’s in the book. Give me a shout about one o’clock and I’ll have a quick shower before we leave.’
‘OK. I’ll take Tess for a walk this morning,’ Jodie said, feeling happier at the thought of at least spending some time with Ben.
An hour later, as she stood at the top of the hill behind the village, listening to the church bells tolling out across the valley, she thought about the new life she’d thrown herself into a few short months ago. A life she’d longed for. Falling in love with Ben had unleashed emotions and desires in her that she’d repressed for so long as she concentrated on her career, she’d forgotten they’d ever existed. Feelings of loving someone and being loved in return; wanting a family; needing to lead a less stressful life.
So why did she feel so unsettled at the moment? Had Tina been right when she’d tried to warn her? Tried to make her think more about whether leaping into marriage with Ben was the right thing to do?
As she’d flung herself into the excitement of loving Ben and planning the wedding, Jodie realised she hadn’t given enough – or any, really – serious thought to how her life would be as a married woman. Or how different life would be for her in a foreign country.
Watching the cars travelling along the main road through the village to pick up the main route up to the local ski resort, she realised she’d also failed to take into account her independent streak. Jacqueline had often told her, ‘You’re too independent for your own good, young lady.’
Had she been foolish when she’d assumed she and Ben would talk and make joint decisions about the things that affected them both? This past week alone, he’d arbitrarily taken two decisions without discussing things with her. First, he’d dismissed the cottage she liked, and now he’d cancelled the trip to the London Book Fair. Was it a French thing? Did all Frenchmen like to play the dominant husband? Although, to be fair, on both occasions he’d given her good reasons, and an alternative when he’d suggested she went to London anyway, on her own.
Maybe she should go on her own. She could stay in her old room at Tina’s so no need to worry about finding a hotel. A few days away, chatting to Tina and catching up with other friends; a day at the Book Fair, going to a show. Living life as she’d known it for so long. And then, when she got back here, she’d sort her life out. Make more of an effort to find some freelance work.
‘Come on, Tess,’ she called to the dog, who was happily inspecting some rabbit holes. ‘Let’s go home.’
She’d phone Tina when she got back, make the arrangements and tell Ben her decision over lunch.