It’s been three weeks. Morning, noon, and night the super soldiers chanted non-stop. It was driving everyone crazy. Well, everyone except me. There was something about the noise that soothed me. I was still tired often and found it hard to stay awake most of the day, but even still the sound of the chanting put me at ease.
I was about to take my first nap of the day when our room door flew open and Dr. Strong and his usual band of merry men entered.
“Get up, get dressed.” Dr. Strong demanded.
I sat up in my bed, the thin blanket barely covered my body.
“What time is it?”
“Morgan, get out of that goddamn bed.”
Ashley was standing on the other side of the room nervously watching me.
I wiped the sleep from my eyes and stared back at him.
“Why?”
Dr. Strong sighed and ran a hand through his hair. “You’re going to see Alpha.”
“No.” I rolled back over in bed and laid back down.
For a moment there was only silence. I imagine they were all confused by my response. I spent most of my time here begging to see Alpha. Now they were offering to take me to him and I wasn’t interested.
“What do you mean no?” Asim asked from behind me. “Morgan you have to. They won’t stop if you don’t see him.” The hysteria clear in his voice.
So that’s what this was about? The grunting was because I wouldn’t see Alpha. Well he could bark and grunt all he wanted, I was done with men using me. The time away from Alpha had allowed me to really think. Maybe I wasn’t as pretty as girls like Ashley and Monroe with their exotic looks. Maybe I was awkward and sometimes I get hung up on certain words, but I had value. I didn’t care if no one else saw it, I knew it was true.
“Tell Alpha, if he wants company he should seek out one of his other breeders.”
The sound of the grunting grows louder and now in the distance the sound of metal banging accompanied the noise. I sat up in bed and turned towards the sound of the noise. Everyone else seemed to notice the new commotion.
“Morgan, you will get up and get dressed. That is a demand.”
“No. You wanted me to see the truth, well I have. Alpha is now your problem. Congratulations, Dr. Strong, you win.”
The banging increased and the tempo of the grunts changed. It’s faster paced now.
“For fucks sakes, Ryder, I can’t take much more of this shit.” Donavan shouted over the noise.
Ashley had even covered her ears to block out the sound.
For the first time since I met him, Dr. Strong looked absolutely out of ideas. I guess if he really wanted to he could make me see Alpha. He obviously wasn’t opposed to acts of cruelty in order to make me comply, but he knew that even that would take time. I went weeks without eating before he could make me obey him about how to act around Alpha. Even then, I didn’t exactly do as he asked. I think the noise has everyone at their wits end, even the mad doctor.
“Fuck it! Get Alpha in here.” Dr. Strong demanded. Asim started tapping at his tablet instantly.
I pushed the covers down and climbed out of my bed. I didn’t care that I was only in a t-shirt and my too little panties.
“I said I ddddddon’t want to see him.”
Asim appeared in front of me with my blanket, he wrapped it around my body like a robe. I held the front of it closed. I didn’t give a shit that everyone could see my panties or my pudgy belly, I just wanted them to know I wasn’t going to see Alpha. I couldn’t. Yes, I’m feeling empowered after weeks of crying and feeling hurt. I’d finally gotten to a place where I could think of him and not start sobbing again, but I was definitely not at a place where I could see him. It’s too soon for that.
“Take the other girl to one of the breeding rooms.” Dr. Strong pointed to Ashley. “She can stay there tonight. Morgan and Alpha has some things to work out.”
“Are yyyyyyyou not lllllllistening to me?” I stomped my foot. “I have nothing to wwwwwork out with him.”
Everyone in the room continued to ignore me. Ashley gave me a sad look before being escorted out of the room by two green fatigue guards. I don’t have to worry about anyone hurting her. Ever since those two bodies were found, the guards barely looked our way.
“I don’t care what it takes, Morgan, as long as you get them to stop that goddamn noise. Do you understand me?”
Both Dr. Strong and I glared at each other. I can see the threat in his eyes, the chanting has him on the verge of losing it. I’ve never seen the man this shaken. Admittedly he’s always danced on a thin line of sane and insane, but today he looked closer to the latter.
The door to my room opened again and he entered. The moment he walked in those keen eyes are on me. He’s without a shirt, but he’s still in his boxers. His body looked bruised and dark circles are under his eyes, just like they were the day he was in the breeding room. Thick silver cuffs were on his wrist and feet. He looked like he was coming from a maximum security prison. I’d never seen him this locked down.
“Remove the chains.” Dr. Strong’s voice rung out in the room bringing my attention away from Alpha.
The sight of him, no matter how battered and bruised he was, did nothing to curve my desire for him. I still wanted him. Even the soft flutters in my belly seemed to ignite when he walked in.
“I ttttttttold you I ddddddon’t want to ssssssee him.” I wrapped the blanket tighter around me as I focused my eyes on anything but Alpha.
Despite my aversion to his eyes, I could still feel him watching me. That silver gaze is like a furnace burning a hole through me.
“I’ve given you what you want Alpha. You get an hour, now make the noise stop.” Alpha growled and the noise outside increased. How is that even possible? It was already loud enough to rattle the walls.
“FINE,” Dr. Strong shouted over the noise. “Four hours.”
This time Alpha didn’t have to say anything for the noise to increase. The banging noise sounded like metal scraping across a floor. It even made me flinch.
Dr. Strong’s face turned bright red. “I’ll come back in the fucking morning, is that enough for you goddamn animals?”
Like a light switch flicking off, the noise stopped. For the first time in three weeks, there was true silence.
Everyone in the room let out a collective sigh.
Through gritted teeth, Dr. Strong said, “Someone will be up to take you back to your room in the morning. You will not make this a habit, Alpha.”
Alpha cut his eyes to Dr. Strong in a way that had everyone in the room, including the Doctor, stepping back.
“We will go.” Dr. Strong said before he led everyone out of the room.
Once the door closed, I am left alone with Alpha. He turned back to me.
“Yyyyyyyyou wasted yyyyyyyour time. I don’t wwwwwant to see you.”
“Morgan, please.”
I had to close my eyes at the sound of his voice. I realized it was something else about him that I’d missed.
“No! Yyyyyyyyou’re just like Ttttttrevor. You got what you wanted from me and moved on. Well I hhhhhhhave news for you, Alpha, I am not useless. I’m not stupid, or worthless. I am not someone that can be tossed out like she doesn’t matter. You don’t get to just hurt me and come back when you want.” With each sentence my voice grew higher and the tears fell more. By the time I was done speaking, I was screaming, sobbing, and barely coherent.
Alpha walked towards me and I backed away from him until my back hit the wall. When I had nowhere else to go, Alpha stood in front of me. His imposing height towered over me. I was so tiny compared to him. If he wanted to, he could’ve easily taken from me whatever he wanted. I was left alone with him and for the first time since we met, the thought of him not being human frightened me. Maybe he didn’t understand why I was upset or what I was feeling. Dr. Strong might have been right about Alpha not understanding emotions.
Suddenly Alpha dropped to his knees in front of me and hung his head dejectedly.
“I’m sorry, Morgan. I have failed you.”
His words hit me in the heart. Alpha was a powerful, strong, and dominant man. His name wasn’t just a name, but a specific stamp to who he was. Seeing him on his knees in front of me was empowering, yet disturbing. I didn’t want to see him like this.
“Get up, Alpha.”
He shook his head no.
“I allowed them to use me in order to hurt you. In my weakened state, I was unaware of the drugs they gave me.”
“Dddddddrugs, what drugs?” I lifted his head so that I could see his eyes. I knew that his eyes would tell me the truth no matter what.
“I need the sunlight, Morgan. It is my only requirement. When I go without it, I become susceptible to things. The drugs they gave me made me see things. You mostly. I always saw you. I was not myself with the breeder and I thought she was you. It was your scent.”
Everything started to make sense now. The way he looked, those intense eyes weren’t nearly as focused as they usually were. His body all battered and bruised, even the way he inhaled that red robe. The robe just like the one I hadn’t seen since being brought into this room. Even the way he seemed to catch himself and pushed away from the breeder. I was so blinded by my own self-doubt that I couldn’t see the signs that were right in front of me. Dr. Strong truly was playing a game, and he almost won. He almost took Alpha away from me.
How could I have been so stupid?
I dropped to my knees in front of him with tears in my eyes.
“I’m so sorry. I’m so so sorry for ever doubting you.” I wrapped my arms around his neck and cried into his shoulder. He pulled me so tight into his chest, I could feel his double heartbeat.
“I missed you so much. I lo……” I stopped the words before they flew out of my mouth. It was still too soon for those words.
Alpha pulled away from me and sealed his lips to mine for a kiss I didn’t know I needed until his tongue was dancing against mine. He turned his head to the side to deepen the kiss and I moaned into his mouth. Alpha stood to his feet lifting me with him. Without breaking the kiss, he snatched the blanket from my grasp, yanking it away from my body and dropped it somewhere on the floor. He backed me up against the wall, breaking the kiss just for a second. His eyes scanned down my body and stopped at the meaty flesh of my belly. He noticed the little weight I’ve gained since the last time we were together.
I placed my arms over my stomach shamefully. “Iiiiiiiiii’m an emotional eeeeeeater.” I tried to explain.
Alpha knocked my hands away and smiled down at my stomach. That fluttering in my belly started again. It’s amazing how much control he had over my body. When his large hand came out to lie flat across my stomach the fluttering turned into a grumble. No way could I be hungry again.
Alpha laughed out loud. It always made him laugh when my stomach growled.
His beautiful eyes came back up to mine and the laughter gave way to his passion. His lips found mine again in a hungry kiss. The sound of my panties being ripped had my pussy tightening and me moaning. Alpha lifted me up against the wall, he placed his arms under my knees opening me up so wide the cool air flowed across my wet sex.
He placed the head of his cock at my entrance, then he dropped me down letting gravity do most of the work. I threw my head back and cried at the sudden intrusion. There was no time to adjust to his girth. He lifted me again and repeated the process. My body weight forced me to slam down on his cock. He was so deep inside me he took my breath away. Again and again he lifted me and dropped me down and every time I cried out at the beautiful bite of pain. He eventually leaned my back against the wall, allowing it to support me while he drilled into my center. My hands reached up over my head trying to find some kind of support, something for me to hold onto to ground me. I watched as his glistening cock exited and then quickly entered me, splitting my lower lips in half. It was a beautiful sight, pale flesh moving into dark brown. I came on a loud scream and Alpha continued to piston into me through my orgasm causing me to spiral into another one. My body shook from the impact, my eyes rolled to the back of my head. Alpha slammed into me so deep my nails dug into his shoulder. He growled as he flooded my insides with his cooling semen. He didn’t pull out of me, instead he walked us, still attached, over to the bed where he laid me on my back and crawled on top of me to kiss me.
I had to come up for air to catch my breath.
“Don’t ever stay away from me that long again.” I playfully scolded Alpha as I caught my breath.
It amazes me that after all the work he just put in, and trust me he put in a lot of work, he didn’t seem to be out of breath. He’s not even sweating.
Alpha smiled down at me, that beautiful smile breaking up the seriousness of his face. “I will keep that promise to you. This I swear.”
I felt him grow inside of me, his length and girth stretched my walls again. Jesus, I don’t think I had it in me again. Yet, when Alpha grabbed the back of my thigh and hiked my leg over his shoulder to move inside of me, my back curved off the bed and I moaned. I guess I did have it in me for another round.
**
Another round turned into five. Each time I thought I would be too tired to go again, but Alpha had a way of reawakening my body. He finally decided to allow me to rest once my stomach started to growl again.
I laid quietly on my back as he laid his head in my lap. One hand wrapped around my thighs while the other rubbed my belly.
“Tell me of your husband.” My fingers paused in his hair.
His words caught me off guard. Not like it used to when I didn’t know he could speak, but because I had no idea why he would want to know about Trevor.
“You don’t want to hear about that. It’s not a happy story.” I admitted.
Alpha sat up from his position, he crawled back up to the top of the bed and laid down beside me to face me.
“You said I was like him, tell me how he hurt you so that I never will again.”
It was in these moments, when Alpha said things so pure and raw that my heart sped up and I fell so hard for him. Despite Dr. Strong’s words of caution floating around my head reminding me that Alpha did not feel the same way I felt, I still knew in my heart that I loved him. It’s pathetic, I know, but it was true.
“You aren’t like Trevor, Alpha. I shouldn’t have said that. Trevor is selfish and uncaring. He was only nice to me when we first started dating. He treated me like I was a queen. He seemed to always know what I wanted or what I needed without me having to tell him. He liked the same things I liked and he was so understanding. But in spite of all of that, I still couldn’t make myself love him. I liked him and enjoyed his company, but something inside me just couldn’t fall for him. I should have listened to that inner part of me. When he asked to marry me, I didn’t want to. Everyone thought I was crazy, even my sister thought something was wrong with me. The only people that agreed with me were my grandparents. They never liked Trevor. But I married him anyway. I thought that I would grow to love him over time. Besides, it wasn’t like I had the right to be picky. There weren’t many guys knocking at my door to take me out.” I sighed and looked away from Alpha. I turned onto my back as I stared up at the top bunk. “He was perfect up until the day I signed that marriage license. It was like a switch had turned off. He went from understanding, caring and thoughtful, to cold, mean, and dismissive. He lost interest in me. The things he once told me he loved, he started to hate.” I didn’t realize I was crying until Alpha wiped away my tear. “By the time he started to hit me, I felt like It was all my fault. I had obviously done something wrong that turned him away from me.”
“I am not like him. I will never be.” I turned to face Alpha and those penetrating silver eyes are staring back at me. His truth spoke from his eyes. I cupped his jaw with my hand and placed a gentle kiss to his lips before pulling away.
“Sleep now, Morgan. When you wake, I will show your body that I am not like your husband.”
I smiled at his words, then snuggled into his chest. My were eyes heavy and almost closed until something popped in my head. “Alpha,” I yawned.
“Yes!” His fingers came up to my head to massage my scalp.
“What did Gamma do with the other guard?”
I felt his body tense beneath my head. “He threatened you, so he had to answer to me. Rest, he is done.”
I probably shouldn’t have been so at peace with that explanation, but I was. My eyes finally closed and I drifted off to sleep. That night, I dreamed of that farm with lots of land and open air. I had Alpha by my side and children at my feet. It was beautiful.