Chapter Nineteen
Luke lay in Krish's bed staring at the ceiling. They were still in the same position from the previous night--neither of them had moved during the night. He rolled his head over the pillow and looked down at Krish's head where it rested on his chest. He raised his hand and stroked his fingers over Krish's features. Across the eyebrows and down his nose, and then he traced Krish's full lips. He lifted his hand and ran his fingers through Krish's hair, feeling the thickness, the fullness of it. That same hand then ran over Krish's shoulder and down his back, feeling the warmth of Krish's skin against his palm.
The night before had been a revelation. That was the only word Luke could think to describe it. If anybody were to look at them, they would assume that Luke was a twink and Krish did all the fucking, but the opposite was true. Luke wasn't quite sure how he felt about that, but he knew he was happy that Krish didn't want to fuck him.
He liked being in control, but at the same time, part of him had been frightened by it. Not the fact that Krish could easily give up control to him but the fact that he liked being in control. He admired Krish's ability to be able to hand over his body to Luke, to let him do whatever he wanted with it. He knew there were lines they had to discuss, but they hadn't yet.
When he had ordered Krish to do it, and he had obeyed... Luke shook his head. The way his body had felt, the way his own body had responded. Even now, thinking about it was arousing. He briefly considered rolling Krish onto his stomach and doing what he wanted. He knew he couldn't do it, but where was that thought coming from?
There was part of him that enjoyed dominating Krish, and he was worried that maybe he was slightly sadistic. Having no control on the streets, having to do things to survive, that maybe he was punishing Krish for what had happened to him.
Luke snorted, shaking his head. Maybe it was part of his personality coming out now that it had the opportunity. At no point had he wanted to hurt Krish, he just wanted to prolong their time together so that when he came, his orgasm was more intense. And it had been. For both of them.
Luke had to be honest with himself. He'd liked being in control, liked making Krish hold on for as long as he could because he knew what the result would be. Most importantly, he liked that he'd made Krish feel that way.
Slowly Luke nodded. Yes, he liked being in control of himself and over Krish. Inhaling deeply, he exhaled heavily. Now that he had admitted it to himself he needed to know where this would take them.
Would Krish expect this every time they had sex? Was it a one-off? Would there be scenes that they would need to sit down and discuss before they played together?
He understood BDSM. Ben and Geoff enjoyed that lifestyle, even going to a club where they were members. Ben had surprised Luke originally when he'd admitted that he enjoyed giving up control and handing it over to Geoff.
In a way, Luke could understand. The life they'd had on the streets had been stressful and difficult. Doing things to survive and being someone you weren't. For him, he wanted to be in control. More control than he'd ever been in before. Even though he and Ben had experienced similar situations on the street, they both came away from it wanting different experiences.
Ben wanted to give up control, whereas Luke wanted to gain it. Ben had found that with Geoff, and now almost four years later, their relationship was still going strong and showing no signs of deteriorating, for which Luke was grateful. Ben had been through so much, and now to see him happy and content made Luke happy for him.
But he wanted that for himself as well. Glancing down at Krish, where he lay sleeping on his chest, he lifted his hand, running his fingers through his hair again and enjoying the sensation of it between them. Could he have that with Krish? After last night, Luke came away knowing two things. Krish liked to submit, and he liked to dominate.
As he thought before, a revelation, a part of himself he'd never known existed had been revealed.
Thinking back to the BDSM aspect, Luke again stared up at the ceiling. Would they need a contract and safe words?
He shook his head again. There was so much he didn't know, and the only way he was going to find out would be to talk to Krish. Lying here in bed and thinking about all the situations and scenarios that may occur wouldn't help him at all. Only Krish could provide him with the information he needed.
What had really surprised him was the fact that he'd been able to give Krish a blow job. He'd never expected to be able to go through with it, but he'd wanted to try. And he was glad that he had. Nothing was better than seeing Krish in the throes of passion.
He lay quietly, stroking his fingers through Krish's hair, waiting patiently for him to wake up, and it wasn't long before he did. He heard the change in his breathing and his body as it moved slightly and Luke dropped his hand from Krish's hair.
Krish's head slowly lifted, and he opened his eyes, blinking up at Luke. He saw the relaxed smile Krish gave him, and when he didn't immediately smile back, he saw the tension creep into his face.
Lifting his hand again, he palmed Krish's cheek. "Morning."
Krish breathed out. "Hi," he whispered back.
"Do you want to go out for some breakfast?"
Krish nodded and rolled onto his back, away from Luke before stretching his arms above his head. Luke watched him wince slightly, then glance back up at him, smiling ruefully.
"You feeling okay?"
Krish blushed. "Just a little sore, that's all."
Luke frowned, his eyebrows drawing down. "Did I hurt you?"
"No!" Krish shook his head rapidly. "It was what I wanted, and I enjoyed every second of it."
Luke exhaled heavily. "Thank God."
"You haven't been lying there thinking about it, have you?"
Luke snorted, glancing away, feeling his face flushed with heat. "Maybe," he mumbled.
Krish rolled onto his side, his head on his hand, staring down at Luke. "Okay. It's all right. You gave me what I wanted. In fact, I was a little worried that you wouldn't be able to." Luke watched Krish run his hand over his chest, and Luke's muscles clenched in response. "We never really discussed it, except the fact that you knew I like to bottom and I like to give up control. You probably thought I meant something else. We should have talked properly."
"Maybe." Luke smiled in return. "I wasn't quite expecting that, but my friend, Ben, he likes that, so I do know a little about it."
"Let's have a shower, get dressed, and go get some breakfast. There's a pub down the road that makes a great breakfast. We can find a spot and talk about last night. What do you say?"
Luke nodded and sat up when Krish did. "Shower together or separate?"
Krish smiled, glancing over at Luke. "Oh, I think together, don't you?" Krish waggled his eyebrows. "Imagine all the fun we can have, both of us all wet and slippery."
Luke laughed, shaking his head. "Okay."
They both got out of bed, Krish grabbing a couple of towels, and Luke followed him into the bathroom. Once the water was nice and hot, they both stepped in, and Luke realised how small it was. It was a tight squeeze for them both to fit in it.
As the water cascaded over them, Krish lowered his head, biting and kissing Luke's neck, sucking on the skin. Luke's eyes closed, and he moaned, enjoying the sensation. He heard Krish move around and then felt his hands on him, all wet and slippery, covering him in shower gel. Krish's hands moved over Luke's body, and he stepped closer to him. His hand moved around to the front and grabbed both of their dicks in a tight grip. Luke moaned again when Krish stroked them slowly. Krish's other hand began fondling Luke's balls, moving them around with his fingers.
Luke leaned back in the shower stall, the cold tiles against his warm, wet back, and he shivered slightly at the contrast in temperature, goosebumps appearing on his skin.
Luke tilted his head, giving Krish more access as he continued to kiss and bite his neck. Krish's grip tightened on his hard cock and Luke groaned loudly, the strokes gaining speed.
His balls tightened, pulling up, and he could feel a tingling in his balls spreading up his shaft. "I'm close," he whispered. "Make me come."
Krish obeyed, gripping them tighter, his hand moving faster. As the tingling erupted up his shaft, Luke arched his back, standing up on tiptoe. Ropes of come erupted from his cock, splashing up his abdomen and chest, and he groaned harshly, his legs shaking as his orgasm flowed over him.
He was dimly aware of Krish groaning too and Krish's hand tightening almost painfully on their dicks as he continued to stroke them through their orgasm. As his orgasm ended, Luke panted, slumping back on the shower wall. His legs still shook, and for a second, Luke wasn't sure if they would hold him up, but then Krish leaned forward, letting go of their dicks and wrapping his arms around Luke's waist, pulling his body towards him, holding him tight. Luke lifted his arms up and wrapped them around Krish's shoulders, his fingers threading through Krish's hair.
They stood like that for a minute, enjoying the closeness until eventually Luke pulled back and looked up into Krish's face. "Come on, Krish. Let's get clean, and then we can go and have some breakfast and talk."
Krish smiled slightly at him and then reached past him to grab the shower gel again. Luke stood as Krish washed them both and then rinsed them. When he switched the shower off, Krish stepped out first, grabbed a towel and handed it to Luke before getting one himself. Luke smiled to himself. It was almost like Krish was taking care of him.
In the bedroom, they quickly changed, and it wasn't long before they were outside the house walking down the street towards the pub Krish had mentioned. As it was a Saturday, there were a few people already sat eating when they entered, but they were able to find a table out of the way where they would be able to talk.
Krish went up to the bar and ordered breakfast and drinks for them both. When he sat down, they both stared at each other for a few seconds before Krish chuckled. He leaned forward on the table, looking at Luke. "I guess I surprised you last night?"
Luke swallowed and smiled. "Just a little."
"I should have said something before we got this far, but to be honest, I never thought we would." Krish shrugged.
Luke nodded. "Yeah, I know." Mirroring Krish's action, Luke also leaned forward on the table. "You know about my time on the streets." He waited until Krish nodded. "That was the reason why I swore off men. I was never going to be involved with a man again. I was never going to let one fuck me." Luke glanced around the pub for a few seconds, gathering his thoughts. "This is a surprise to me too. I never expected to be sat here with you." Luke then muttered, "The morning after the night before."
"Was it too much?"