She felt the coolness of the lubricant as Cade spread it around her rim. She chewed at her lip, nervous but excited. When he’d put his finger in her, it gave her a feeling of fullness that she didn’t even know she craved.

Lily had wanted to ask him to fill her entirely, for his cock or hand inside her wetness, but a wave of shyness had washed over her.

Cade’s finger found its way back to her clit and she felt herself grow wetter.

“You ready?” he asked.

“Ready,” she said—though she didn’t know if she was.

She felt his tip press against her ass and Lily squeezed her eyes shut. He worked her clit just the way she liked it. A little hard and in small circles. Lily felt herself open to him and an almost unbearable feeling of fullness. She gasped out.

“Are you okay?” he asked.

“Yeah,” she said. “Keep … keep going.”

Inch by inch, he buried himself into a part of her she’d never known needed his touch. There was both pleasure and a touch of pain, but the little pain there was took the pleasure to another level.

Cade kissed her shoulder. “You feel so good,” he said. “I’m going to release it, okay?”

“No,” she said, and shook her head.

“No?”

“Fuck me,” she said. “Like this.”

She hadn’t even known that’s what she wanted until the words were out.

“Slow,” she added.

Cade continued kissing her shoulder, her back, as he slid out of her. The vacancy he left behind demanded to be filled.

“Fuck me,” she said again, more demanding. She felt the cold wetness of the lubricant again, and he filled her up once more.

Lily brought a hand to her breasts and pulled at her nipples while Cade continued to expertly play with her clit. After just four slow thrusts into her ass, she knew she was close. It was a different kind of orgasm than she’d ever known before. Even more intense than the time she’d squirted.

“I’m … I’m close,” she said.

“Really?” She felt his hardness jump inside her. That small movement made her squeeze her eyes together tighter.

She answered with an orgasm harder and stronger than she’d ever felt before.

“Cade,” she said between gritted teeth.

The waves rocked through her while the wetness poured down her thighs. Lily could hear her heartbeat as it pounded through her body.

When he released her, she fell onto the mattress, drenched and satisfied. But as Lily turned to face him, she saw how hard he was.

“You didn’t come,” she said.

He grinned. “I figured what we just did was kinky enough without me adding to it.”

“But I want you to come again,” she said, and reached for his cock.

He shook his head and laughed. “You really can’t get enough.”

“Come on,” she said. “Tell me something you want to do. Something you’ve always wanted to do, and never have.”

“Lily, I’m not that—”

“There’s got to be something.”

“Alright.” Cade grabbed a towel. “No judgment?”

“No judgment,” she said, her interest piqued.

“And just so you know, this isn’t something I’ve always wanted to do. It’s not like that. But… since you brought it up …”

“Anything,” she said.

“I’m going to go take a shower. And when I get back, we’re going to pretend it was five years ago.”

“What?”

“It’s five years ago and you’re in your old bedroom. The one with the pink wallpaper and that white desk in the corner.”

“Okay?”

“And your brothers are in the room next door. I’m staying the night, but they’ve already fallen asleep.”

Lily grinned. “Got it. See you five years ago.”

She listened to the steady fall of the shower in the next room. Lily pulled out the duffel bag of her old clothes stuffed in the back of her closer.

I knew I kept this for something. She pulled out her cheerleading uniform from her senior year of high school. The scratchy material was instantly familiar, and it still carried the scent of the perfume she’d worn that year.

She positioned herself at the little vanity table in the corner when the shower water turned off and pretended to write in a notebook.

“Hi, Cade,” she said when he opened the bathroom door. A towel was wrapped loosely around his waist. “What are you doing in here?”

Lily watched his eyes widen at the cheerleading uniform.

“I, uh, I couldn’t sleep.”

“Oh. You want to hang out or something?”

“Actually, I thought maybe you could help.”

“Sure. How?” He walked toward her and she turned in the little wooden chair to face him.

“I can’t sleep because I keep thinking about you,” he said. She could see his hardness through the towel, inches from her mouth.

“About me?”

“Yeah. About you … in that little cheerleading uniform. You know, I’ve always wondered, what do you wear under that?”

“I… I’m not supposed to tell.”

“Oh?”

“I mean… technically there’s this special underwear we’re supposed to wear? But I don’t like it.”

“So what do you wear?”

“You want me to show you?”

“Show me.”

She smiled up at him and spread her legs. The short material lifted to reveal her perfectly smooth skin. “Now you show me yours.”

Cade let the towel drop to the floor. His cock sprung forward. It took all her willpower not to immediately bring him to her mouth.

“Wow! I’ve never… I’ve never seen one before,” she said. “Can I touch it?”

“I don’t know … you just turned eighteen, right?”

“Last autumn.”

“I guess it’s okay, then.”

She gripped his base and felt her wetness spill onto the seat. “My brothers would kill me if they knew,” she said.

“Then we better be quiet. You want to taste it?”

“Like this?” She brought her tongue to his tip and heard him suck in his breath.

“Yeah. That’s real good. You sure you’ve never done this before?”

She shook her head. “But I’ve always thought about it. With you…”

He bent down, scooped her up, and set her on the desk.

“Hey, that’s my homework—”

“Fuck your homework.” He entered her with ease and she immediately wrapped her legs around his.

“Cade,” she started to moan.

“Quiet, they’ll hear,” he said.

She clamped her mouth shut and focused on the waves of pleasure that rolled through her with every thrust. The rough material of the uniform scratched against her skin.

Cade pushed her legs up until she rested her feet on the edge of the desk. With her legs spread wide, he leaned back.

“I want you to watch,” he said.

They both looked down and took in the view of his cock as it slid into her. Cade’s thumb went to her clit, and as he started to rub she groaned. “You have to be quiet,” he reminded her.

“Cade, come on—”

“You don’t want to get grounded, do you?”

“No,” she said with a grin.

Cade stopped suddenly. “Do you hear something?”

She lowered her voice. “Are you being serious?”

“I think someone’s awake. Be quiet, come here.”

He lifted her up and she bit her lip so she wouldn’t laugh. He carried her to the bed, lowered her gently, and got in beside her. As Cade spooned her from behind, he pulled the blanket over them.

“Be still,” he said. “And don’t make a sound.”

He kissed her neck from behind and let his hands travel beneath the top of the uniform. She delighted in the feel of his hands across her breasts.

With her eyes closed and the scent of whatever detergent the dry cleaner had used back when she was in high school, she could almost believe it. Lily felt like she was a senior again, and that Cade was hanging out in the room next door.

His hand moved to her thigh. Slowly, he hitched up the cheerleading skirt. She felt the press of his hard heat behind her. Lily lifted her top knee skyward and two of Cade’s fingers slipped inside her.

“I’ve always wanted this,” he whispered into her ear. “I’ve always wanted you.”

She opened her mouth to reply, but he slid his cock inside her and she gave a small moan instead. As he fucked her from behind, the heat built up beneath the covers.

Cade had one hand on her clit, the other on her breasts, and somehow Lily was both eighteen years old again and in her twenties.

“Tell me you’ve always wanted this, too,” he said.

“I did. I do,” she moaned.

“I see the way you look at me.”

“What?”

“You’ve always wanted me as much as I’ve wanted you.”

“Yeah,” she said. “God, you’re going to make me come.”

“Not yet,” he said into her neck. “Not yet.”

Lily closed her eyes and let his voice and the feel of her uniform take her back to the first time she got herself off.

She’d been eighteen and the pressure was so intense inside her, she had to find a release.

Lily had taken the new vibrating toothbrush she’d gotten for Christmas and held it against her clit. The jolt of instant pleasure it gave her was mindblowing—and all she could picture was Cade’s face.

“The first time I ever masturbated, I thought about you,” she said.

Cade slowed. “Are you being serious? Or is this part of the game?”

“Both.”

“Tell me about it.” He started to fuck her faster.

“It was in the spring, like now,” she said quietly. He pinched one of her nipples and she mewled. “You were a new recruit, you’d stopped by the house in your uniform. And it was just so fucking hot. I… I got my new toothbrush, the kind that vibrates.”

“Yeah …”

“And … I locked myself in my room. I didn’t know what I was doing, but … I held it to me. There,” she gasped as he flicked her clit in a new rhythm. “And I just… I thought of you.”

“Keep going.”

“When I got close, I put it in me.”

“Yeah? You fucked yourself while you thought about me?”

“Yeah,” she said. “Fuck, Cade, I’m close.”

“Almost. Tell me how you made yourself come.”

Lily let out a groan. It was getting hard to breathe underneath the blanket. “At first I was scared. I’d, you know, never… had anything in there before. But it felt so good.”

“Tell me how hard you came.”

“Really hard. I… everything was so wet.”

“Just like you are now,” he said. “Tell me more.”

“I said your name when I came.” She’d never even fully admitted that to herself before, but she remembered all of it. The surprise, the feeling of relief after years of the buildup. And then the disappointment that it wasn’t real.

“How good did it feel?”

“Amazing,” she said. He fucked her harder and she felt herself arrive at the edge. “I didn’t know it at the time, but … I wanted you to come in me. That’s all I wanted.”

He let out a groan and she felt the rush of his release into her.

“Cade,” she called out, and reached behind to keep him close. His orgasm rocketed into her and made her come against his cock.

“Just like this,” she said.

Cade kissed her neck and slowly rolled onto his back. She could smell the combined mixture of their sweat, sex, and the scent of her last year in high school all rolled up into one.

“Hey,” Cade said. She turned to face him, and he grinned. “You think anyone heard?”

She laughed and slapped his arm. Cade motioned for her to come closer, and she spooned into his chest.

“I could do this all day,” she said.

“Let’s do it. We both don’t work again until Tuesday, right?”