CHAPTER FORTY - CHRISTINE
My eyes open just as Alec’s salty come hits my tongue. And then, just when I think it’s over, Danny’s fingers slide along my cheek, collecting the parts that missed their mark, and he drags even more sweet, salty climax over my lips.
I lick his finger, then wrap my mouth around it as he pushes it back and forth, in and out between my lips. Fucking me one more time, in one more way, before Alec collapses onto the bench seat next to Danny.
We sigh together. And that sigh tells me that we are back.
We are one, and all the sides to our triangle are equal for the first time ever.
“I don’t want to move,” I say.
“I don’t think I could move, even if I wanted to.” Danny laughs.
We both turn our heads to glance at Alec. His clean-shaven jaw just another sign that things are normal again. His head is resting against the wall. Slight smile of contentment on his face. Eyes closed.
Normal.
Probably a bad choice of words because none of this is normal. Hell, we’re not the least bit normal even when we’re not fucking each other in a perfect threesome. Our lives are chaos, and danger, and daring missions. We are thieves, and killers, and liars.
But fuck it. I feel lucky to be a part of this abnormal family. And maybe, for the first time in my life, I’m not jealous of those who have it different.
Good for Eliza and her perfect, thatched roof. She and her fairy-tale back yard can go fuck itself.
But then the little mini-Alec pops into my head and I reconsider.
Because even though it would be easier to pretend that I didn’t want a little me, Danny, or Alec, I do. I desperately do.
“I’m not on birth control.”
It takes me a second to realize those words just came out of my mouth and then all I want to do is take them back.
But Alec leans over and says, “Good,” as he kisses my mouth.
I glance up at Danny and find him in the same position Alec just pulled himself out of. Head resting against the wall, mouth slightly smiling, eyes closed.
Content.
“Yeah,” he mumbles, not bothering to opens eyes. “I could maybe dig a kid.”
Which makes me chuckle and Alec sigh.
“Your kid’s not bad,” Danny continues. “But I’m not playing hopscotch with her.”
This makes Alec laugh and scoot just a little closer to us. His hand finds my thigh and he twirls the pad of this thumb along the outside of my leg. “I can’t imagine you would,” he replies.
“I sorta promised her.”
“When?” Alec laughs.
“Earlier today. God, how is this still the same day?”
“I don’t know,” I say, nestling deeper into Danny’s chest. “But I think we’ve done enough for one day. It needs to end.”
“Then let’s end it properly,” Alec says, standing up and walking under the rain shower. “Come here.”
He extends his hand. And even though I’m perfectly comfortable ending this day in this shower, I know we have to get out eventually. So I take his hand and let him pull me to my feet. My legs are still trembling from the exertion of clamping them around Danny’s waist as they fucked me from both directions. So Danny stands too, reaching for the bottle of shampoo Alec is handing him.
I lean against Alec now and let him hold me.
It’s kind of a sad hold because I know we’re both thinking about the baby we didn’t have.
But I’m distracted by Danny’s hands on my scalp as he massages the luxurious tropical-scented shampoo bubbles into my hair.
“That feels nice,” I say.
“That’s the point.”
Which makes me smile and close my eyes.
Alec comes up behind me and begins rubbing liquid soap along the curve of my waist. He reaches up and fondles my breasts until large soapy bubbles cover my nipples.
I sink back into him as he places his mouth against my ear and whispers, “We’ll have our baby one day. I promise. Maybe it’s mine, maybe it’s Danny’s. It doesn’t matter. We will have that life you want. We can let go of the past.”
I nod my head and keep my eyes closed. No words necessary.
We wash each other like that for a while, slow and easy, taking turns standing under the rain shower. Not saying much. Just kinda enjoying the calm silence.
That’s why I loved the Cook Islands so much. There was a lot of stillness there and stillness is hard to find in our world.
But eventually the washing is over and I think the entirety of the day hits us all in the same moment.
Danny turns the water off and Alec gets out first, holding a towel open so he can wrap me up as I step out.
I don’t bother with clothes, just hold the towel against my body as I walk to the huge master bed, and then drop it to the floor and climb under the covers, naked.
Danny and Alec both join me, dropping their towels too.
We are a tangle of arms and legs. Danny behind me, his hands around my belly like maybe… maybe he’s thinking about that baby we’ll have some day.
Alec lies flat on the bed. My head on his shoulder, his hands behind his neck as he gazes up at the ceiling.
I sigh and they echo it.
All of us relax and drift into our own dreams.
Happy.