Chapter Two

Ruby

In all of my twenty-seven years, I’d never felt more out of the Christmas spirit. Instead of running around town, window shopping for gifts, decorating a gorgeous tree with all the trimmings, or baking perfect little sugar cookie angels, I was scrambling to hold my life together after what felt like an off-the-Richter-scale earthquake had torn through it.

Six months ago, I’d finally landed my dream job, or at least my place on the first set of steps toward my dream job, and moved across the country from Southern California all the way to New York City. I loved the buzz and electricity of the city, the frantic pace swept me away and made me feel like I was part of something big and exciting. Sure, the apartment I could afford was nothing to write home about, but it was big enough for me and my cat, Juniper. I was going to reach Carrie Bradshaw levels of fabulousness. I was sure of it.

And then…piece by piece…it all went to shit.

At first, I tried to rationalize away the dark, ever-present despair of loneliness. After all, this wasn’t summer camp. I was an adult. Homesick wasn’t something I should be feeling—or at least not dwelling on it. I pressed onward, ignoring my own emotions. I tried to make friends but most of the people in my office were men and wanted to be a little too friendly. After a while, I got into a routine, but it only managed to make me more isolated and alone. I woke up at four in the morning, squeezed in half an hour on the stair climber at the gym, showered, got dolled up, and raced to work in time for the opening bell. Twelve, thirteen, sometimes fourteen hours would pass, but somehow managing to fly and grind by all at once. After it was dark, I’d drag myself home, curse my way up to my sixth floor and throw myself into bed with whatever take-out box I’d snagged on my dredge home.

Grueling was the only word for it. Most of the time, I was a zombie all through the weekend as well. All my visions of spending my weekends taking in exciting Broadway shows, spending hours looking chic in Central Park, or finding my own quirky cast of characters to sip coffee with at a local shop like an episode of Friends were all popped like an overinflated balloon within the first month in the city.

I was miserable. And even worse than that—I couldn’t let anyone know. Which only perpetuated the cycle of misery. Whenever my parents called, I slapped on a smile, infused some cheer into my voice, and gushed about my job and my make-believe friends and the things I’d seen or done since arriving. To anyone back home, I was living the dream, and I was going to keep that rouse going as long as possible.

Fake it till ya make it, baby!

And then Doom’s Day hit.

A week ago, I was called into my boss’s office. I stupidly thought it was to receive some kind of holiday bonus. But instead, a bomb was dropped right onto my head. I was being let go. My department was being disbanded and I was no longer needed.

Two weeks before Christmas!

Who did that? Who let people go right before the jolliest—not to even mention expensive—time of the year?

The monsters that lived on Wall Street, that was who.

So, instead of filling out embossed foil Christmas cards for all of my friends and family—I spent my evenings at my coffee table filling out online job applications. In place of decorating festive cookies, I was digging through my shoebox-sized Manhattan apartment, looking for things to hock at the local pawn shop, trying to scrape together enough cash to combine with my paltry severance pay, in order to buy myself a little more time.

Otherwise, I was going to end up with an eviction notice as an early Christmas gift.

The only bright spot on the horizon was knowing that in a week’s time, I’d be back in my home state, sunny California, surrounded by my family and the people who are always there for me. I was most excited to see my brother Rick, his wife Vanessa, and their new little bundle of joy, Kayla, who was just about to pass her four-month milestone. I hadn’t even met her yet, my own niece! Wall Street didn’t stop for things like births or deaths or weddings or birthdays. A lesson I’d learned the hard way when I’d put in for a day off and was denied and then laughed out of the HR office when I meekly explained that it was my birthday and I wanted to spend it with some girlfriends at the spa.

It was disheartening to find that after years spent getting my master’s degree in economics, dreaming of the buzz and excitement of life in the Big Apple, it was a lot less like Sex and the City and a lot more like The Shawshank Redemption.

Sigh.

“Soon you’ll be home,” I reminded myself under my breath as I rummaged through my closet. Juniper, my calico, meowed in agreement from her perch on the end of my bed. “What do you think, Juni? No place like home?”

Great. I was beginning to sound like Dorothy, lost in Oz. Now, if only I had some ruby slippers.

I bet the pawn shop on Thirty-Second would snap those puppies up in a hurry.

Juniper lowered her head to the bed, her large green eyes following me as I picked my way through the small pile of clothing I’d gathered at the end of the bed. Which one did I want to wear? I had fifteen minutes to get ready before I needed to be out the door. At six o’clock I was meeting Lonnie Andrews, the only friend I’d made since arriving in the city, for happy hour at a trendy little, hole in the wall bar we used to escape to after work. We’d worked together up until last week and she’d insisted on meeting up before I flew home, to have one last drink.

I just hoped I could find some half-drunk patron to buy mine for me. With that in mind, I reached for the short, tight, eggplant purple cocktail dress. “Guess that means you’re the winner,” I said to the dress. It was the kind of dress that always got me a lot of extra eyeballs and more than a few offers to buy my drinks. “Great, Ruby.” I scowled at my reflection in the long mirror beside the closet. “Whoring yourself out for Lemon Drops and Long Islands now, huh?”

I sighed and undressed. Whatever.

I needed to get good and silly tonight and at fourteen bucks a pop, I wasn’t gonna get there on the strength of my own bank account. It wasn’t like I was going to let any of the suckers who bought me drinks actually touch me. That was the last thing I wanted.

Another way that life in the city had let me down. There were no available men anywhere! At least, not the kind that I was interested in. The ones I’d had the misfortune of meeting were all self-absorbed, egotistical, douchebags who thought that the label on their suit gave them the right to be complete asshats and still have women falling at their feet.

Or, more accurately, into their beds.

Nope. Not this girl.

Sorry, boys. I was waiting for a real man. Not some little frat boy playing dress up.

* * * *

As expected, the dress worked like a charm, and while I had to beat off a few lewd comments, my drinks were free and my bank account remained in the black despite the four Lemon Drops I’d plowed down. I was going to hate myself in the morning from the sugar and alcohol-hangover, but for the minute—I was flying high. Lonnie was just as tipsy by the time we lurched from the bar, back into the freezing cold air.

I gasped as the wind whipped at my bare legs, my teeth instantly starting to chatter. “Damn, it gets dark so fast this time of year! It feels like it’s freakin’ midnight out here,” I complained, starting down the street. “It’s barely nine o’clock.”

Lonnie laughed. “You’ll get used to it. Besides, it’s more fun to see all the Christmas lights when it gets dark earlier.”

I nodded, not quite sure I agreed with the sentiment. I wasn’t used to New York City yet and night time still unnerved me. I really needed to stop watching so many episodes of Law & Order: SVU.

“You want a taxi?” Lonnie asked, glancing both ways up the street. It was a quieter part of the city—if there was such a thing—but a few yellow cabs sped down the street in both directions.

I paused at the edge of the sidewalk. I’d saved a bundle on the absurdly overpriced Lemon Drops, but I was still running low and had no idea when I’d be back to work. I knew I should save myself the cab fare and walk…but the chill in the air made each passing cab look incredibly inviting. After a long moment, I shook my head, deciding to hoof it back to my apartment. It was only nine blocks away.

Only. Ha!

I plastered on a smile over my original grimace and waved off Lonnie’s offer to flag one down for me. “Nah. I’ll walk. Maybe the lights will make me feel less Grinch-y.”

Lonnie laughed as she tossed her curtain of black hair over her slim shoulders and gave me a quick hug. “All right, doll. I’ll see you when you get home from your trip! Say hi to the fam for me.”

I nodded, promising that I would, even though she’d never met any of them. “Have a good Christmas, too!”

Lonnie smiled and waved as she wandered down the other street, her path slightly zig-zagging as she went tottering away in her five-inch stiletto heels. My own shoes weren’t quite as high and I managed to start my walk home without rolling an ankle.

As I walked, I took Lonnie’s advice and smiled at the scattered twinkle lights people and businesses had strung up along the exteriors of the homes and shops I passed. Soon I’d be in California, warm, sunny and surrounded by my family. I’d figure out my next move and not feel so lonely. It was all going to be okay.

My apartment building loomed up ahead and relief rushed through me. I was going to grab Juniper and bury us both under a stack of blankets for the rest of the night since I’d finish packing in the morning.

Relief quickly turned to cold dread as an arm wrapped around my waist and yanked me from my path. A gloved hand slipped over my mouth, the thick fabric muffling my gasp.

A hot breath skimmed my frozen cheek. “Scream and you’re fucking dead.”