“Have you ever loved someone? I mean really, truly loved?” I ask.

A languid blanket of euphoria folds around my body, and I sit back in my chair. Leo and Dane and Josie are all looking at me with room-sized expectation on their faces. I stare at the table so they won’t influence my answer.

This drinking game should really be called the truth game. The truth shall set you free. Where have I heard that? The author who penned it must be the smartest person in the universe.

Because with only a few truths during this game, I am liberated.

Truth. I’ve done things in spite of my parents’ rigid rules when I lived in their house.

Truth. Some of those things were fun and some were downright stupid.

Truth. I’m not sure I was ever really in love with Wesley. I was in love with love. Can you love someone and then hate him so much you can’t stand the sight of him? Was I justified because he was a lying, cheating coward?

That seems like a fickle attitude. I married someone before God and witnesses at the chapel in Las Vegas. How can I ever trust that I will recognize love if I married a guy I only thought I loved?

I know I wouldn’t go searching into hell for Wesley like the guy in the movie did.

What was my question? I look to Leo for help.

“My turn,” Leo says.

Oh yeah. We are still playing the game.

I study the glass in front of me. Several rounds earlier, Josie brought me a different mixed drink. It’s soda with liquor and doesn’t taste as good as the daiquiris, but I drink the concoction anyway.

Leo, Leo, Leo. I lift my gaze to meet his. A sigh escapes my lips, and I stare at him and his very nice lips. It doesn’t matter that he can see me staring. Because the truth is, it makes me happy to look at him, especially his mouth. I love his mouth.

Leo takes a drink from his shot glass even though I don’t think he’s asked a question. This makes me laugh. Well, he’s certainly not playing by the rules of the game. Question, first. Drink, second.

He closes his eyes for a second and when he opens them, he looks straight at me. “Have you ever had sex outside?”

Dane tips up the shot glass without hesitating or watching to see if anyone else will drink. Josie shakes her head and smirks.

I think hard. “Does inside a car count?” I ask.

Leo leans both elbows on the table, seeming to think about my question. “No. It has to be you and your lover in the great outdoors. Maybe you’re on a blanket in the meadow with only the stars as a moonlight ceiling. Or he’s pushed you up against a tree—”

Josie groans. “No details,” she slurs loudly. “Ugh. Sister, here. Remember I’m here.” She points at herself so we won’t doubt her location.

Dane raises a hand like he’s getting a teacher’s attention in class. “I have. In an alley. That’s not a meadow, but it counts.”

Leo grins and turns his head toward Dane. “You are so predictable.”

“It was hot.” Dane raises an eyebrow. “Believe me.”

“No drink for me,” I answer. And then I take a drink from my glass anyway.

Leo takes his shot, but his gaze never leaves mine. His image must be in the dictionary beside the word ‘sexy’ and I vow to tell him this someday, when I feel bolder.

The way he stares at me makes my body tingle and my nipples tighten, in direct contrast to the way my brain slows. I want to tell him how he makes me feel. No. That would be disastrous for some reason.

I search my mind for the reason I shouldn’t grab him and push him into the bedroom. Perhaps, this drink is three drinks too many.

“I need to go home,” I say.

“I’ll walk you.” Leo gets to his feet.

“No, I know the address.” I giggle at my own joke.

Leo grabs my elbow. “I’ll make sure.”

“OK. But we are not having sex in a meadow.” I smirk.

Leo doesn’t respond. He could’ve argued at the very least. Even pretending he wanted to have sex with me would’ve made me exponentially happy.

He guides me from the table and out the door. I glance over my shoulder and wave at Dane and Josie. “Thanks for the game. This was fun. So. Much. Fun.”

Leo’s hand glides across my back to my opposite hip. “Steady.”

“I am steady.” I wobble to the door and he opens it. “Maybe not.”

“Yeah,” he says, his lips so close to my hair. A pleasant chill travels down my spine and I shiver.

“I live there,” I say, pointing across the hall.

He laughs instead of answering.

I dig in my short’s pocket. “No key. I had a key earlier. It’s gone. Someone’s stolen it.”

The heat of Leo standing so close to me makes it difficult for me to concentrate on the key search. I throw up my hands in defeat.

“Let me.” He moves flush to my back and his chest pushes against me as he leans in. His fingers edge to the top of my right pocket and push down inside.

My head falls back into the crook of his neck. “You can search all my clothes for a key. You just do whatever it takes. Leave no stone unturned.”

His hand inside my pocket pulls my body closer against him behind me. He kisses the side of my head. “I’m tempted.”

Leo pushes his hand deeper into my pocket and the thin fabric is really no barrier to the luscious feel of his fingers against my skin. He traces his fingers across the edge of my panties.

I moan. “Maybe you’ll have to do this forever. I probably don’t even have a key.”

He pulls his hand out. “You do. Got it.” Suddenly, there are beautiful masculine fingers and a stupid gold key in front of my face.

“Shoot.” I grab for the key, but he dismisses my efforts.

He opens the door, and we both walk inside. His arm is still around me and he turns me toward him. “You going to be OK? I think I should put you to bed.”

Every cell in my body hums a happy tune. The pleasant buzz of alcohol plays a sexy song, and I allow it to loosen my inhibitions. “I’ll let you under one condition.”

He inhales. “Anything the lady wants.”

“I’d like a kiss.”

Leo studies me, his blue eyes darkening. “You’re drunk.” Then he bends his heads and touches his lips to my cheek in a chaste kiss.

When he pulls back, I frown. “You don’t want to kiss me.”

“I did kiss you,” he says, brow furrowed.

“I meant a real kiss. Like you want me. A passionate, I-might-fall-in-love-with-you kiss.” I shouldn’t have said it, but it’s exactly what I mean.

“Babe,” he says and laughs. “You have no idea.”

“Kiss me again.”

He puts his hands on the back of my neck and pulls me to him. When his head lowers this time, I close my eyes instantly.

Leo’s lips part the seam of mine and I gasp as his tongue teases its way inside. The kiss accelerates like a bike coasting from the top of a hill. The thrill of the ride amps my heart rate and makes me want to hold on tighter.

His fingers tunnel into my hair and I grab the front of his T-shirt.

Leo’s mouth turns up at one corner in a smile I can feel and his lips move away from mine to trace kisses down my cheek and neck.

He gently kisses the base of my neck. “Is this what you had in mind?”

“Mmm…” I answer. My head swims a lazy circle, and I’m so drowsy that I can’t seem to open my eyes.

I drop my hands from the tight hold on his shirt to rake a trail down his chest, his stomach, and hips. Sliding my fingers to the back of his waist, I drag him closer to me. His mouth finds mine again.

He wins the Oscar, or Emmy, or gold freaking medal for kissing. Hands down.

The tips of my fingers slide into the back of his shirt and run along his waist where his jeans hang on his slim hips. He shudders.

“Babe,” he whispers against my lips.

His full erection presses against me, and I stop moving my hands. “You like this kiss,” I tease against his lips. “Me, too.”

Leo stops moving and puts a hateful inch of space between us. I groan a complaint.

“Bed,” he says, his lips against the top of my head.

“I want more kisses. I want you to know you are so beautiful.” I say to him with my eyes closed. “You are a beautiful enigma. The woods have secrets dark and deep…”

“You need to sleep this one off.”

“I’m not sleepy. More kissing.”

He leads me to my bedroom.

* * *

My brain slogs into gear. I open both eyes in unison and end up closing the right one to limit the sunlight burning a hole in my retinas. I have no idea of the time or the day, but I do know something.

There’s a body on the other side of my bed.

A wave of nausea rolls around my stomach. I turn my head to see the lump beside me and the dark hair. If someone were in my bed…I’d expect blond. I’d expect Leo. I’d expect…a larger body.

“Hey,” I say in a croak reminiscent of pond frogs on a summer night.

“What? I’m still asleep.” Josie rolls onto her back.

“Oh, it’s you.”

“Who’d you expect?” she says, her eyes slitting open and pinning me with a knowing look.

“I don’t know…oh, I’m going to be sick.” I take a shallow breath and push down the feeling.

Josie gently pushes me to the edge of the bed. “Go. If you puke on me, I’ll start puking.”

I drop my legs off the side of the bed and go to the floor. I’m on my hands and knees when Josie appears with a trash can.

“Here,” she says. “Take it, but I can’t stay. I cannot be around someone getting sick. It’s a vomit phobia. Sorry!” She puts the back of her hand to her mouth and makes a gagging sound.

“I’m not puking! Stop.”

“Just imagining. I’ll go get Leo. I’m so sorry. Just watching you…” She places the trash bin near my head and then her footsteps recede.

I lift my body and move toward the trash can. I’m not going to vomit. I can do this.

Then I put my head inside the canister and retch. So much for not vomiting. Tears stream down my cheeks, and I quit trying to fight it.

A faint rustling sound alarms me that either Josie is braving the vomit or she’s brought help. Please let it be the first.

“Here’s a washcloth,” Leo says in a low, soothing voice.

“Josie is a traitor.” I take the washcloth from him and wipe my sweaty face and then my mouth.

“She has a low threshold for medical emergencies. I, on the other hand, am an excellent nurse.”

“Gah,” I say in a self-disgusted groan. “Better than a low threshold for alcohol.”

He places a hand on my bare shoulder and squeezes. “I’m going to get you some water and aspirin.”

I sit up with my back to the bed, laying my forehead on my bent knees. When he returns, I lift my head. “Thanks.”

He hands me the glass and pills. “Try to drink all the water.”

I can’t do anything but obey. My head throbs in unison with my heartbeat. My mouth tastes like I’ve eaten something served in hell.

Leo takes the trash bin away and leaves the room, returning with a package of saltines. “Here. A couple of these on your stomach will help.”

“I need to die. Now.” I place a bite of cracker on my tongue and suck the salt before swallowing.

“Nah. You’re going to make it.” He sits beside me on the floor. “It’s my fault. I should’ve said no to the game. You can blame me.”

“You had more to drink than I did,” I say in an accusing tone.

He nods. “I never get sick. Josie doesn’t really either.”

“Oh.”

“Dane slept on my sofa, and he’s going to be as sick as you are.”

“I’m never drinking again.”

Leo grins as he stares at the wall. “You were pretty funny.”

“Did I do or say anything horrible?”

He looks up at the ceiling and then over at me. “You said you thought I was beautiful.” Leo’s mouth splits into a huge grin. “You can’t take it back. Liquor loosened your tongue last night, for sure.”

I cover my face with both hands. “Oh.”

“Yes. You did. But it was nice. And we kissed. Do you remember that?”

I’d shoved this memory to the back of my brain, and it rushes forward. That kiss. Angels must’ve laid down their harps and sighed.

Mortifying heat singes my cheeks. I’d asked for it. I think I may’ve begged for it. “Well, I am going to crawl back under the covers and hide for the rest of the day.”

“Good idea.” Leo stands and offers his hands to me. “Come on. Back to bed. I’ll drive Josie home and check on you later.”

“Leo?”

“Hmm?”

“Thanks.” I get into bed, still wearing my clothes from yesterday.

“Anytime. You were fun last night. Sorry you’re paying for it today.” He walks to my doorway and lingers, bracing both hands on each side of the threshold.

“Tell Josie bye.”

He smiles. “Will do. If you feel better later, I’ll take you out for something more than saltines. Don’t fix lunch.”

My heart skips rope, performing double-unders that keep my lungs from functioning. How long can a person live without oxygen? Must. Breathe. “I could eat here. You don’t have to take care of me.”

“Yeah, well, it’s for my own good. Dane will be on my sofa, and it’ll be great to leave him be for a while. So, rest up and I’ll be back later.”

Leo takes a few steps out of the room and then returns.

“You forget something?” I ask.

“Just wanted you to know I think you’re beautiful, too.”

I inhale. There are my lungs again. I didn’t know I’d been holding my breath, but I obviously could forget to take in air again if he doesn’t leave soon.

Before I can think of a witty reply, something casual and sitcom funny, he turns and leaves my apartment.

I asked Leo to kiss me. I do remember most of it—the pressure of his mouth on mine and the absolute feeling of rightness. It’s as if his kiss fit perfectly into the hole in my heart, filling it up like putty to stopgap the blood pouring out.

How can I remember that kiss so well and be so fuzzy on the other parts of the night?

I snuggle my head into my pillow, thinking of Leo’s kiss. The apartment is quiet except for the noises from the downstairs bakery. It’s a Saturday and customers will come in throughout the day. I can never hear their conversations, but the door opens and closes. The metal pans clink against the oven racks.

I don’t fall into sleep as I’d hoped, but I lie still and quell the nausea for a while. When it’s safe to move, I crawl out of bed and into the shower.

Hours later, I’m sitting on the edge of my bed painting my nails when there’s a soft knock at the door. I’m on my feet and running past the half wall that separates my bedroom from the living area. Then I stand with my hands flat on the door, check the peephole, and try to get my heart rate under control for the next ten seconds.

What am I doing? He didn’t ask me to go on a date. Or did he? No. Lunch is not a date.

Besides, he’s still Leo the neighbor-writer-postcard-hoarder. I pull the door open. “Hi.”

Leo, who was attractive when I first saw him, gets more irresistible every day.

“Hey,” he drawls and leans with his right hand high on my threshold. The movement puts him far too close to me.

I tense as I imagine throwing myself into his arms. He’d catch me with those very capable hands. And then I’d profess undying love after one kiss last night.

The thought triggers something at the edge of my memory, like an important box placed on a high shelf.

Last night, did I tell him about my postcard? No. I don’t think so.

He’s never admitted he writes Mr. Expose, as if it’s some huge secret.

I shuffle uncomfortably. “Thanks for everything from, you know, earlier. Is Josie OK?”

“Yeah. She’ll be fine. I told you. She doesn’t get sick.” He chuckles and walks past me into my apartment and sits on the arm of the sofa. It’s my newest addition to the apartment, delivered just yesterday. It’s comforting to see Leo making himself at home in my space.

I could get used to sharing everything with him.

“Ready for a bite to eat?” He unfolds his arms and stands.

Lunch and Leo, a combination too tempting to resist. “I could do that. But we have to go Dutch. I’ll pay for mine.”

Leo gets up and walks to the door. He gives me a slow grin, his wide mouth revealing even, white teeth. The gleam in his eyes shoots a thrill straight through my heart. “We can wrestle for the ticket.”