Holy crap! I chose the perfect teacher because that was amazing. My body is still vibrating with aftershocks as he holds me in his arms. I’m clinging to him with his hand lightly strumming the side of my breast. His cock is hard beneath my hip, and I shift against it as he groans.

“Don’t move.” His voice is gruff with restraint as he pushes his cock harder against me. “God, I want to be buried so deep inside you that you forget where you end, and I begin.” He rocks his hips against me while stroking his cock on my hip through our clothes.

His jaw is clenched as though the movements are killing him. “Any other rules you want to tell me about?” He says through gritted teeth.

“That’s all I can think of; we will put pain on the maybe list.” I shyly concede.

“Good. Now, I need you to take your sweet ass back to your chair, or I’m going to lose all my self-control and take you in the back room.”

His words have my tummy clenching with desire. I want him; this is the aching need I write about in my books. The raw lust I’ve read in so many books while doing my research is exciting and more powerful than I’d anticipated. I could quickly lose my head and heart to Sebastian.

“You’re thinking awfully hard.” He adjusts himself back into his seat and grabs his bottle of water off the table.

“It’s nothing.” The look he gives me is pointed. He knows I’m lying and breaking one of my own rules. “You’re dangerous.”

“In some ways, yes. But you don’t have to worry about it. I’ll never hurt you Jaci.”

“Not intentionally, no.” I pause and take a deep breath before releasing it slowly through puffed out cheeks. “You scare me, Sebastian.”

“We’ve already had a similar conversation, Darlin’.”

“I know. That’s why I said it wasn’t important.”

“You’re wrong. Your feelings are important to me. If you’re afraid, it affects everything we do together. You aren’t in this alone Jaci. I think you forgot that. Plus, you aren’t the only one risking something in this relationship.”

“What are you risking?”

“A good night’s sleep tonight, because I didn’t anticipate this monster,” he points towards his lap, “Calming down anytime soon. You and I are going to take this at a slower pace, so I’m guessing I have a few more nights where my balls will be blue.”

I smile and start busying myself putting away the leftover food and cleaning up the trash. “I’ve got to get home. Thank you for dinner tonight.”

“You’re welcome.” He takes the trash from my hands and dumps it in the pale by the desk. “Give me your phone.” I hand it to him, and he puts his number into it. His phone starts ringing before he hands mine back. “I’ll call you tomorrow.” He walks me outside to my car and holds the door open as I get in. I drive away with excitement and the first tendrils of hope I’ve felt in a long time.

The whole ride home I’m smiling. I know I shouldn’t let my guard down around him, but he’s too much of a temptation, and I’m so damn lonely. Kaiya is there, but she lives her own life from which she says sucks. She hasn’t gotten any closure from her first love. God, she loved Brayden. I remember wanting what they had back then. It’s probably why I finally broke down and said yes to Josh. Seeing them together made me want more than books.

Guilt hit me hard. I’d ruined my sister’s, my twin’s, and my best friend’s life with my poor choice. Kaiya and Brayden may not have ended up together in the long run, but their relationship ended prematurely because I got hurt.

I pull into the driveway I share with Kaiya. She isn’t home yet making the house quiet. We picked this neighborhood for its low crime rate. The townhouse is small with three bedrooms. I occupy two of them with my bedroom and home office, but Kaiya didn’t care because I’m home more often than her.

We split the bills and live our lives. Mom and dad come up to visit whenever they want to. Dad retired and bought them RV to go sightseeing across the country. They are free, and I wish that for Kaiya. If I’m lucky, I will be free too.