I brought Jared to my apartment. Everything about that was wrong. But he’d kissed me and I’d kissed him back. After that, everything changed. I had wanted him for so long. My biggest fantasy was coming true and I couldn’t just give it up.

Jared followed me in and I shut the door behind him. I couldn’t even look him in the eyes. I was embarrassed and shy. Kissing was a line we’d crossed. Even though we hadn’t seen each other in ten years, it felt like we could never go back to being just friends now.

“So this is where you live?” Jared broke the awkward silence between us.

I watched him walk to the window of my living room and look outside. My apartment was decent, nothing fancy. I didn’t care about where I lived, just like I didn’t care about what I wore. However, I was worried now about what Jared thought.

Why did I care so much?

It was obvious he didn’t care about me. He hadn’t thought of me in ten years.

He turned to me when I didn’t say anything.

“I wasn’t expecting this, Elsie,” his eyes had darkened again. I watched him speak. Those irresistibly sexy lips. I was kissing them just a few minutes ago.

“Neither was I…but here we are,” I said.

I could feel those teenage waves of desire coursing through my veins again. I’d touched myself so many times thinking about him. Now I might see him naked. I might see his…

Jared walked up to me abruptly, pulling me into his arms again. He kissed my cheek this time. His hot breath fell on my nose, moving some stray strands of hair.

“I don’t know what we’re doing, but I don’t want to stop,” he murmured.

I kissed his chin. There was a tightening in the pit of my stomach. I didn’t want to stop either. He caught my lips in his mouth and we were kissing again. His tongue was inside me and I could taste him. Taste the whisky, feel his hot breath…everything was driving me crazy.

He pushed me with his body, till I fell backwards on the couch. Jared stood over me, watching me as he threw away his jacket and loosened his tie.

“Is this what you want, Elsie?” he asked, and I nodded. My eyes grew wide. I wanted to see him naked.

“Then take off that dress and let me see you,” he demanded.

I pulled down the zip on the side of my dress. He was watching me like he had never seen a woman naked before. His shirt came off and I stared at his bare chest, his chiseled six-pack abs.

Jared had always sported a body like that. It’s what drove all the girls in our little down crazy. That and the fact that he was wearing leather jackets and riding a Harley by sixteen. He was the quintessential local bad boy. He was delicious to look at.

My eyes fell on the tattoo of the lion on his chest. I remembered when he got it.

My dress slid down my body now.

He’d seen me in a swimsuit before. When we’d go swimming in the lake in the summer. But never like this…never in the throes of passion.

His hands were on his belt. He was pulling his pants down and I threw my dress away.

Jared wasn’t wearing underwear. His cock swung massively between his legs and I gulped. I couldn’t tear my eyes away from it. He was huge, throbbing and growing with every passing moment.

Jared lunged towards me, clutching the side of my face and leaning me back.

“There’s no going back now, Elsie,” he growled. I reached for his shoulders, grazing my fingers over his tattoo and down the front of his torso. He reached for my breasts with his other hand. He cupped them, teasing my nipples through my bra.

I gasped and moaned, desperate for him to touch me everywhere. This couldn’t be real. It couldn’t actually be happening.

He unhooked my bra and my breasts swung into view. Jared stepped away from me, staring down at them, at the rosy nipples that were aching for him.

“Touch me, Jared,” I murmured, and he fell on me, pushing me back into the couch. His mouth clamped quickly around my left nipple and I gasped. He was sucking on it rapidly, while his other hand cupped the breast. His stubble felt rough against my skin. I wrapped my legs around his shoulders, arching my hips up towards him.

I knew he could feel the sticky warmth of my pussy. He had to know just how much I wanted him.

Jared pulled his mouth away. His eyes were hungry, dark gray and dangerous.

“There are so many things I want to do to you, Elsie,” he growled and straightened up. I stared up at him, my mouth hanging open. There was so much I wanted to do to him too.

Before he could tell me what to do next, I reached for him, for his cock. Tonight, I was going to feel powerful. I was going to make sure that he knew he couldn’t put me under his spell anymore.

Jared clenched his jaws, weaving his fingers through my hair as I positioned myself on the couch.

I crouched on my folded knees in front of him. He knew what I was going to do and he didn’t stop me.

I’d been waiting for this moment ever since I was fifteen. I wound both hands around his cock. It was rock hard and erect, pointing at me now. Jared grunted, breathing in sharply. I leaned in towards him and opened my mouth. Slowly, I extended my tongue and licked the tip of his swollen, throbbing cock.

Very soon, I was going to taste him. I would do what I had always wanted to do. Make sure that Jared Morin never forgot about me again.

Jared held me by the top of my head, while I slid his cock in and out of my mouth. It made me feel good. I had the control here. My pussy was wet and my clit was swollen and throbbing between my thighs. With one hand, I touched myself while I held his cock with the other.

Jared grunted and moaned with every thrust.

I’d wanted this for so long and now it was finally happening. A part of Jared was inside me. I would never forget this night. Would I ever get over it?

I was building myself up to an orgasm. His cock was big in my throat and I licked and sucked the length of him. I knew he was on the edge too, and gently, I squeezed his swollen balls.

“Fuck, Elsie!” he growled, clutching my hair tightly. His body shook. I knew he was readying himself for a release.

I rubbed my clit harder; I wanted us to come together.

Jared grunted loudly, cursing under his breath and I slid his cock out of my mouth. He erupted on my face and my orgasm erupted too. I moaned and shook, my fingers stroking and rubbing violently between my thighs. Jared had his cock in his hand while he emptied himself on my face.

I had my eyes closed but I could feel his sticky juices trailing down my nose, my chin, down my neck.

My orgasm took over my body aggressively. The couch shook from the force of it. I was crying out loud, calling his name in complete abandon. I had never come like this before.

By the time my orgasm began to subside, Jared had already recovered himself. I was covered in his seed.

I gasped. The reality of the situation was hitting me now. I fell back on the couch with shock and Jared stepped away from me too.

“Fuck. Fuck!” he growled angrily, looking around the room. He found a box of tissues and brought them over to me. “Here, use these,” he said, and I took it from him.

We were both silent as we cleaned ourselves. I used up pretty much the whole box, trying to get every last trace of Jared off me. Already, I could feel the pangs of regret creeping up.

Jared picked up his pants off the floor and slid them on. He wasn’t going to bother with his shirt yet. I put on my dress, leaving the zip open. I just didn’t want him seeing me naked anymore.

“Elsie, I know this shouldn’t have happened.” He ran a hand through his thick, sandy blond hair. His biceps moved, the muscles on his shoulders tightened. Was there any man sexier than him?

And I just had his cock in my mouth. How was I ever going to move on from that?

“If you’re thinking of apologizing, you don’t have to. You didn’t make me do anything,” I told him and stood up from the couch. I could sense his eyes on me as I walked into the kitchen and poured myself a glass of water. I wasn’t about to offer him one.

“Do you want me to leave?” he asked when I returned to the living room.

“Yes. We can’t be friends now, remember?” I said and crossed my arms over my breasts.

Jared was shaking his head.

“This shouldn’t have happened. Fuck!” he growled.

“Don’t worry. Things were ruined between us long before you kissed me. Tonight was going to be the last night we’d see each other anyway,” I told him.

I wanted him to go. I couldn’t bare to look at him anymore.

Sleeping with him was the worst thing I could have done. Now, I felt like I was going to lose my mind. He was going to leave Chicago and I’d be here picking up the pieces again.

“Elsie, I really thought I could make amends,” Jared said and I flashed a look at him. I scoffed.

“Make amends by doing what? Buying me a drink after ten years of ignoring me? I’m not a part of your life anymore, Jared. That is how it should stay,” I snapped.

Jared sighed loudly. I could see him trying to control his temper. This time he did.

I watched him put on his shirt and tie and then his jacket. He was preparing to leave and I knew my heart was going to break all over again.

Could I beg him to stay this time? Do I tell him how I’ve always felt for him?

That would ruin everything. He didn’t want anything more from me. This was it.

When he was fully dressed again, Jared turned to me.

“I heard about the work you’re doing, Elsie. It’s really great. I hope your family is proud of you,” he spoke somberly, but his eyes had softened. I kept my head up. I didn’t expect him to know anything about my life.

Suddenly, I felt naked again. Like he could see right through me.

“Thanks. Yeah, everyone’s very happy,” I replied.

Now was not the time to get into details about what Mona thought about my life.

“How is Mona?” Jared asked, and I shrugged my shoulders.

“Happily married with a beautiful four-year old,” I replied and Jared smiled weakly.

“And your mom?” he asked and I crossed my brows.

“She passed away a few years ago,” I told him and looked away. Jared never had a relationship with my parents. I was surprised he was even asking about them. I didn’t want to ask him about his parents. I knew what the story was there. His father died of liver failure and his mother ran away long before that.

Jared hadn’t returned to Madison Green in ten years. He had no relationship with that place anymore.

“I guess I should go. Take care of yourself, Elsie,” Jared said before he left.

I said nothing to him. I just watched him leave. Once he was gone, I felt like I could breathe again. But there was nothing stopping the tears now. This night had changed everything.