I’m lost inside a dream. It’s dark—a dark gray mist where things and faces move, appearing and disappearing. Sometimes my eyes are open, sometimes they’re closed. Sometimes I think I talk, but maybe I’m just thinking. Sometimes I hear words, but they don’t make a lick of sense. The sounds come from a distance, distorted and twisted.

Emma is gone. Dakota is leaving, and I need to find her. That’s all I know. All that matters.

I look for her, but I can’t locate her. I call for her, but I can’t see her. So I step back into the dark, let it close over me.

Except this time I’m not allowed to sink again. Small hands press on my cold face, shocking me with their warmth.

“I’m not dying,” a voice says, warm like the hands, a familiar voice.

Her voice.

You are, I think, or say, not sure which. I know you are. I got the message. You’re dying. You’re leaving me, too, and I don’t know how to keep you with me. I don’t believe in miracles.

Her touch feels so good, so fucking good that my breath catches in my throat. Her scent rises around me, familiar, delicious, fascinating. I want to touch her, but all I manage to do is curl my fingers on the covers, snagging them on the thin cloth.

Then softness presses on my mouth, warmth spreads through my lips. She tastes of caramel and salt—blood and tears. Sugar and bitter almonds. She tastes of all the hope I’ve ever held inside me, and I want to believe it.

My hands curl and uncurl. They shift on the covers.

She breaks the kiss and draws back. “Zane.”

I blink. The gray parts, thins. I can see her face, her wide blue eyes. The mist lifts, and reality rushes back. “Dakota.”

She nods and smiles. She has tears in her eyes. “Hey.”

Seeing her hurts. It hurts like a bitch, because I know she’s dying, but it also hurts in a good way, because I missed her. I can’t stop leaning toward her, needing her, wanting to be with her forever.

“What are you doing here?” I rasp, my throat like sandpaper. I glance around, at the drawn curtains and the machines. “You hate hospitals.”

She laughs, the sound turning into a sob. “You’re here. Of course I came.”

I let out a long breath. “I know you’re sick,” I say and my chest feels so tight I think my ribs might break. “I don’t care. I wanna be with you. If you want me to.” I close my eyes. This is like chewing nails.

“Zane. What are you talking about?”

Why is she denying it, making it harder for me? “I got the message,” I force the words out. “I know.”

“What message are you talking about?” Her voice breaks. “I’m not sick, Zane. I’m not dying. What do I have to say to get it through to you?”

My eyes snap open. “Voicemail. On my cell phone. This man… he said the results were in, that you…” My throat is so damn dry it aches with each word. “That you have cancer. I just…”

I just lost it for a while. Went kind of mad. But I can do this. For you.

“Oh my God.” Her eyes go round, and her hand tightens around my arm, her fingertips digging into my flesh. I welcome the tiny pinprick of pain. “Zane, that was my dad.”

Here it comes, the confession. Her dad called me to let me know because she wouldn’t tell me herself.

“I gave him your number because my phone has been acting up,” she goes on. “Oh God, now I understand.”

“Okay.” I’m so tired. I don’t understand anything anymore. “Why didn’t you tell me you were sick?”

“Zane.” She’s shaking me. “It’s not me who’s dying. It’s my aunt. Aunt Carolina.”

Her words go through me like bullets, and I jerk. What?

“My mom’s sister. She has cancer. She’s in hospital. She’s the one who’s sick, not me. It’s not me, Zane.”

“Not you?”

“Not me. Not me at all.” She puts her arms around my neck and gathers me close. I let her, limp and blinking, dazed. “I’m fine. I promise.”

“You’re fine.” I have to repeat the words until they sink in. Could it be true? “You’re not sick.”

“I’m not leaving you. Not going anywhere,” she whispers against my neck, her weight sweet against my chest. She curls up next to me. “I love you, Zane Madden.”

She does?

Warmth spills in my chest, flowing into my limbs. My heart beats in my throat, in my wrists, everywhere, faster and faster.

It takes me a while, but I finally manage to reach up and put my arms around her, holding her close. I feel like I’m about to shatter and yet stronger than ever before. I feel grounded and yet light as if I’m floating.

I feel hope for the first time.

* * *

I’ll be okay. The doctors say there doesn’t seem to be any damage to my brain or organs, something they were afraid might happen. Yeah, so my body’s still messed up, heavy and cold, and my pulse is still a bit too fast—but I’m much better.

That was a close call, the doctors say, prodding and talking, until I say I understand and that it won’t happen again.

And I mean it. No more drinking for me.

I’ve pulled through. And Dakota is not dying. That’s all that matters. She says she’s not leaving my side until I’m out of the woods.

Well, today I’m being discharged from the hospital, so I guess that means I’m officially out of the woods and going home.

As I’m rolled out in a wheelchair, still dizzy for having been flat on my back for almost two weeks, I hear a cacophony of cheering and shouts. A crowd of people are waiting outside, and as my vision clears, I recognize them. Ash, Rafe, Erin, Tessa, Dylan, Tyler, Audrey. The Damage Boyz.

My eyes sting, but I grin for them and wave like a goddamn king. They break into more cheers and dancing, until the nurses recover from their shock and tell them firmly they need to shut up and get out.

Fuckers. I chuckle to myself as I’m led out into the parking lot. It’s so… normal, hearing them cursing and talking as they follow. So good. They’re my family.

Family. I think of Emma, and my grin vanishes as the pain of her death strikes me again. I suppose, with time, thinking of her will get easier. It won’t feel like a knife twisting in my gut.

I’m thankful for Dakota’s small, low car as I’m lifted out of the wheelchair by a strong male nurse and Tyler, who steps in before I faceplant on the parking lot concrete. Can’t imagine climbing up into my truck right now.

Who knew just a few days spent in a coma can fuck you up like that? Even though I’m reassured my body and brain are catching up just fine, my head swims and my muscles tremble just from the effort of getting into the car. I’m tucked and buckled in like a damn kid, and when my eyes clear again, I see Erin and Tyler cram themselves in the backseat of the car.

I lift a brow at them through the rearview mirror. “Your car broke down?”

Erin swats my shoulder. “We’re going home with you. The others are coming, too.”

“Didn’t know we were all moving in together,” I drawl. “Sounds like fun.”

“Shut up, silly.” Erin laughs. “We just want to see you settled in. You need someone to look after you.”

I want to tell them I’m not an invalid, when Dakota slides behind the wheel and buckles herself in.

“He already has a roommate,” she says, and winks at me. “I passed the test, didn’t I?”

“Test?” Erin frowns. “Honestly, Zane, you test your roommates now?”

I drink in Dakota’s bright eyes, her smile. “No need to,” I say. “She’s not my roommate. She’s my girl.”

Tyler whistles from the back seat. Erin whoops.

Dakota laughs softly, her cheeks flushing. Her breasts rise and fall with each breath, stretching the soft material of her white blouse. She’s here, perfectly fine, perfectly beautiful and so sexy.

Fuck, the things I wanna do to her… As soon as I sort out this small issue of being able to stand upright on my own.

Soon.

“All set,” I say, grinning widely. “Let’s go home.”

* * *

Jesus F. Christ. Why did no one tell me a hurricane passed through my apartment? Leaning on Tyler’s shoulder, I peer into the living room, taking in the stack of broken frames and ruined drawings on the coffee table, the broken chairs stashed in a corner, the bucket with the remains of my table lamp, ashtrays and other things I don’t even recognize anymore.

“What happened here?” I glance sideways at the open apartment door. “This… ain’t my door. Is it?” Am I going crazy? There were scratches down the front, fuck knows since when, and traces of a sticker Rafe decided to decorated it with when he was drunk one night. This door is… spotless.

I try to turn to study it better and lose my balance.

“Easy,” Tyler huffs, steadying me. “The door is new. We had to break the old one down.”

“What the hell did you do that for?”

“To get you. You passed out after locking yourself in here. Don’t you remember?”

I open my mouth, and stop. I don’t remember. Don’t remember what happened. I mean… “You found me?”

“Ash called. We all came and broke the door down.”

I swallow hard and follow Dakota with my gaze as she walks to the sofa and picks up things. Shards of glass. A bottle of whiskey, empty. A sweater.

“Why is everything broken? I…” Tyler moves toward the couch, and I have no choice but to stumble along. “What happened?”

“You happened,” Tyler says.

“The hell you say. I did this?”

“Damn right.”

I prod my memories and come up blank. I can’t remember much after the funeral. I remember driving… I remember calling Dakota and not getting through… I remember the message that broke me.

“Easy now,” Tyler mutters, dropping me on the sofa and sinking down next to me with a sigh. He rolls his shoulders and winces. “You’re one heavy motherfucker.”

“You’re just out of shape,” I counter and lean back, doing my damn best to hide how dizzy I am. Shit. Dizziness sucks ass.

Tyler chuckles but has no chance to reply as the rest of the crew burst into the apartment, talking and laughing. They make themselves at home, which is good. I’m not in the shape to play host. I’m so damn tired I’m already drifting off.

Someone slides next to me, wrapping slender arms around me. Dakota, my sleepy brain informs me, her scent hitting my subconscious before I even hear her voice.

“Rest,” she whispers and kisses my cheek, a whisper of a touch. “I’m here.”

Peace settles over me. She really is here, here to stay, and the knowledge is like a warm blanket spreading over me, pulling me into restful sleep.

* * *

Erin made my favorite dish, seafood spaghetti. Well, what used to be my favorite dish. Dakota’s curry is to die for. But I can’t tell Erin that, especially when I can’t even finish even one plate, and she cooked it just for me. I’m just not hungry.

The guys have been amazing, hanging out here, fixing the apartment, making sure there’s food and that I have my painkillers and whatever the hell else the doctors prescribed.

Can’t shake the feeling they’ve decided to watch over me, making sure I won’t pull any more crazy stunts.

They shouldn’t have worried. I have Dakota and she lights up all the dark spaces inside of me. I’ll be fine. Nothing’s the matter with me other than the fact I’m tired and mourning Emma.

I stare at the new door and the window. I need to pay the guys back. Need to thank them for helping me, standing by me, putting up with me. Hell, for literally saving my life.

As for the window… I frown, trying to recall how the hell I managed to break it. I must have been so fucking wasted. Jesus.

I drop on the armchair and try to catch some rest, but Ash plants himself on the sofa, and I have to endure a long lecture on how I always tell others to open up and talk to each other, while I keep everything inside.

He’s right. And yet…

“I thought I could do it,” I tell him. “Everyone has problems. I can’t go around whining all the time.”

“Whining?” He throws a sofa cushion at me, looking disgusted. It misses me and falls to the floor. “What’s wrong with you, man? Telling your friends your problems, asking for help, isn’t fucking whining. Asshole.”

I let that slide because he’s obviously upset and because I’m too damn exhausted to get up and punch him in the face. “People depend on me,” I say.

Ash groans. “Cut yourself a little slack. Dammit, Zane, you’re just eighteen, like me.”

“Ah, fucker,” I say, “I’m a lot older than that. Inside.”

I wait for his flippant come-back, but Ash just looks… sad. Dammit.

“You know,” he mutters, “I’ve known you for all these years, and you never really told me much about your childhood.”

I shudder at the thought of telling him about it. “Good.”

“I just…” He shrugs, his brows drawn together. “I hope it wasn’t so bad.”

Fuck, I want to shrug too and tell him it wasn’t. Lie—for a good cause. I didn’t live in this city as a child, and I didn’t know Ash. There’s nothing he could’ve done anyway.

I settle for silence.

Ash breaks it when he says, “I hope you’ll trust me enough to tell me one day.”

Dammit. “Ash. I’d trust you with my life. You know that. I just don’t like talking about the past.”

He shakes his head, chews on the inside of his cheek. There’s something more there, something bothering him.

“You know you talked in your sleep? Coma, whatever. The doctors said you can still dream when you’re in a coma, go figure. You said some things…”

I talked? Hell. This is news to me. “What sort of things?”

Ash punches a cushion, then bends forward, letting his hands hang between his knees. His gaze shifts around the room. He doesn’t look at me.

“You were pleading with someone to let you go,” he finally says. “To stop. You were in pain. Said your back hurt. You pleaded, Zane. Begged. You sounded scared out of your fucking mind.” He sighs and rubs his eyes. “And you wouldn’t wake up.”

I stare at him unblinking. Shit. Holy fucking shit.

“I know you have burn scars on your back. I’ve seen them under the ink. I know you won’t let girls touch you when you hook up.” His hands curl into fists, and he nails me with his pale eyes. “So will you trust me enough to tell me what happened to you?”

Hell to the no. “Fuck off.”

He grunts and gets to his feet. “Fine, asshole. Forget I ever cared.”

I watch him stride across the living room, heading for the door. Fuck this. He can’t bully me into telling him about my worst nightmares, my memories from hell.

But he’s my friend. My brother. If anyone deserves to know, it’s him.

I can’t. Fear wars with shame, a deep-rooted horror that twists my guts. Not ready. Telling Dakota was… different. No idea why.

But he needs something from me. A kind of reassurance.

“Ash!” I call just as he opens the door to go. I struggle to my feet, cursing my body for taking so long to recover. “Wait.”

He stills. “What?”

“Those are some damn scary memories,” I say through gritted teeth. I stand there, face bowed, hands fisted by my sides. This is like chewing nails. “I hate them. Don’t ask me to talk about them. Please, fucker.”

“You should tell someone what happened.” He still doesn’t turn, but his back has relaxed a fraction. “It might help, man.”

“I’ve…” The truth wants out. “I’ve told Dakota what I remember.”

I fully expect him to stomp out and go, maybe not talk to me for a year. I talked to Dakota that I only just met recently instead of to him, my old friend.

But he doesn’t. Slowly, he turns around. “It’s easier, isn’t it? Talking to the girls?”

I sink back into the armchair, totally wiped out. “Yeah,” I croak. “Sometimes.”

“Okay.” He nods. “Do you… Do you mind if I ask her?”

I open my mouth to curse, but find myself nodding. “It’s okay.”

It is, I realize. Talking about the memories is like opening new wounds on the old ones. But if I don’t have to talk about them, I’m okay with Ash knowing.

He tips his head. “Thanks, man.”

As if I’ve given him a present instead of my shitty memories.

Then again, in a sense I’m laying myself wide open, bare all the way, for him to see, like I did with Dakota. He’ll know my darkest fears, see right through to my soul. I’m giving up control by tearing down my secrets, my walls.

Trust. It’s all I have, and I trust them both.

“Maybe someday you can talk about it,” Ash says, and I shrug, not sure I’ll be able to. “Anyhow…” He frowns and glances over his shoulder. “There’s someone here.”

I try to see past him, and he steps aside.

“Hey, man,” Matt says. He glances from Asher to me and shoves his hands into his pockets. “Can I come in?”

* * *

“…said you were out of hospital. I know I arrived way too late, but I had to see how you are.” Matt stops and stares at me, as if expecting something.

A reaction.

Shit, he’s really here. For a moment I thought I was dreaming—then I remembered Emma, and her funeral and sort of missed the rest of what he was saying.

I scrub a hand over my face. “Did you say Ash called you?”

“I don’t even know who he is,” Ash grumbles from my right.

When did Ash sit back down on the sofa? Wasn’t he on his way out?

“Rafaele Vestri called me,” Matt says.

I blink at him stupidly until my brain restarts. Rafe. Rafe called him?

“I’m Matt, by the way.” Matt extends his hand to Ash. “Emma’s husband.”

Ash shakes Matt’s hand, his gaze clearing. “We’ve met before, haven’t we?”

“Yeah. We sometimes came to visit here, before Emma fell sick.”

Ash nods, looking partly glad and partly horrified. I wonder why he stayed, but then I notice he’s sitting between Matt and me, as if to protect me. Or protect Matt from me? No idea.

It really makes me wonder what expression I wore when Matt came in.

“Rafe said you were in a coma. That you were in the hospital.” Matt frowns. “I didn’t know. If I’d known, I’d have come earlier.”

No idea what the hell to say to that. “Why are you here now?”

He flinches. “Because… we’re family, Zane.”

“You left.” Anger warms up the cold spaces inside me, so I welcome it. I’ve hung on to anger all my life to survive. Anger hasn’t let me down as much as people have. “You took the kids and left.”

“Try to understand.” He tugs on his short hair. “I had to take them away, far from home. They miss their mom. I was only trying to help them get through this.”

I nod, because I can’t speak without yelling at him to get the fuck out.

After a while, he seems to get the message anyway and stands to go. I still want to yell at him.

And I don’t want him to go. Not really.

I lurch to my feet before he takes a step. Something is tightening in my chest. Chances are I’m gonna fucking break down for the first time since I can remember myself.

Matt shifts his weight from foot to foot nervously. He may be in his mid-twenties, but in the span of a few months, his hair has gone gray. How didn’t I notice before?

“I’m sorry,” he says. “Emma loved you like her own son, and I put the needs of her other kids, our kids, above you. I shouldn’t…” He shakes his head. “I should have told you to come with us.”

“My friends are all here,” I whisper. “My job. I can’t.”

He nods. “Then we’ll visit you. As often as we can. And you should come over, too. Whenever you have the time.” He sighs. “I may be too young to be your dad, but I sure as hell think of you as my younger brother. Emma’s death… it rattled me badly, but that hasn’t changed. I hope you know it.”

“Yeah.” My eyes sting. “Listen—”

I don’t expect him to grab me in a bear hug. He thumps his fist on my back. “Family, Zane. I made a mistake, but you can count on us, for everything you need. I hope you know that.”

I see Ash get up and move toward the door. He’s blurry, and my breath hitches as the pressure in my chest finally reaches a breaking point.

Shit. I pull back and wipe a hand over my wet cheeks. Matt lets me go, his eyes suspiciously bright. He gives me a piece of paper with his new address and landline phone number. Pats my shoulder and then follows Ash out, leaving me alone to try and get myself under control.

Matt and Emma were like the parents I never had. Having at least one of them back in my life is a damn miracle, and for someone like me who doesn’t believe in miracles, that’s pretty damn awesome.

* * *

What a fucked up mess.

I stare at my ruined Mohawk in the mirror. I’m not vain, but I’ve had a Mohawk since I was fourteen. Sure, the teachers tried to get me to cut it all the time. I got expelled more times than I can count, and my foster families hated it.

Which is why I kept it. It’s part of who I am. Part of my war against my past. Yeah, that’s it. It’s a war symbol.

Which I apparently sheared off with the scissors while taking a break from trashing my apartment. Yeah, I got wasted off my ass. Really wasted, not just drunk. Shitfaced. Hammered. Plastered.

Passed out on the floor and damn near checked out.

Jesus. I never gave my drinking habits much thought all these years. Getting drunk at parties is normal for me. Then again, this getting drunk alone at home is recent, and I hope I can get out of it. I have to.

I will.

Meanwhile, I run my fingers over what’s left of my Mohawk, the short blue strands flopping on my forehead. The shaved sides of my head are now covered in dark stubble. It feels so weird. I grab my gel from the bathroom shelf and struggle to style the middle strip so that it stands up. It’s a sort of fauxhawk.

Fucking ridiculous.

My hands shake. I brace myself on the sink as the room tilts a little. I have circles under my eyes so black I look as if someone punched me. I’m thinner, and the bones of my face stick out.

Hell. I’m not vain, I tell myself again. It’s just that… Dakota is here, in the other room, and I look like shit. A guy is entitled to feeling a bit sorry for himself when he wants to look good for his girl but instead looks like roadkill, doesn’t he?

Emma would smack my arm and tell me to get over myself.

Emma. The memory of her death hits me so hard I double over. There are moments I forget she’s dead. How can I forget something like that even for a second?

“Zane?” Dakota pads into the bathroom behind me. “Are you okay?”

Her arms slip around my waist, and I let out a breath I didn’t realize I was holding. “Okay.”

“Come on.” She straightens and tugs on my arm. “Food is ready.”

“Not hungry.”

“You will be when you smell this.”

I grin in spite of myself. In spite of Emma’s memory. “Another recipe from your great-great-aunt or something?”

“Yeah. Aunt Carolina’s recipe.”

I frown. We’re going to visit her aunt tomorrow at the hospital. I know Dakota is sad, that she loves her aunt a lot. “You said she’s an adventurous woman.”

“That what got you worried?” She winks at me.

I shrug. “Maybe a little.”

That’s a lie. Whatever Dakota cooks is delicious. All those aunts are pure geniuses. Not that I’m picky with food. If I was, I’d have starved since an early age at the foster homes and group homes. Sometimes the only food for weeks on end was stale bread and moldy cheese or old pizza. When I was on the streets, it was greasy burgers, and fries and other things I don’t even wanna think about.

But that doesn’t mean I can’t appreciate something good.

Take my childhood, for instance. It was fucked-up. Everyone I trusted screwed me over, but that doesn’t mean I can’t tell how amazing Dakota is.

How good she is for me.

So I let her draw me to the table and push me into a chair, then watch as she serves the food into two chipped bowls and nukes them in the microwave. When she turns to place a spoon and a fork in front of me, I put my hand over hers on the table.

“Thank you,” I say.

“What for?” She smiles, and I want to kiss her so bad. My body has been kinda dead to the world since I returned from the hospital, but now it perks up, taking new interest in the proceedings.

“Thank you for bringing me back.” I draw a long breath, because saying these things ain’t easy. “For sticking with me when I freaked out or drank too much, or…” I wince. “Or when I asked you to do things you weren’t comfortable with.”

“Like?”

I open my mouth, close it. Seriously? I need to spell it out? “Like doing you against the wall and not letting you hold me.”

She licks her lips, leans in closer. “I said I trust you. And once I got over my own fears, I have to tell you…” She brushes her mouth over my ear, making me shudder. “That was hot.”

“Come here.” I drag her onto my lap and bite down a groan as her sweet ass settles over my hard-on. “That was hot, huh?” Shit, she’s killing me with her admission. Makes me feel what I wanted wasn’t so bad, after all. Wasn’t so weird. “Also thank you for helping me break through the stupid shit in my head.”

“Stupid shit?” She arches a fine dark brow and straddles me, wrapping her arms around my neck.

“Yeah.” I fight the jerk-knee reaction I get when her hands settle over my burn scars. “The shit that wouldn’t let me kiss you, hold you like this, and see your face as we get down and dirty.”

“Dirty,” she whispers and presses her breasts to my chest, completely derailing my thoughts. “I like that, too.”

Fuck, I want her. Her scent, her softness, her voice, her mouth, her warmth… Want her so bad. It’s not just my dick, hard and aching. My whole body moves toward her, needing her touch.

Bending forward, I crush our mouths together, thrust my tongue between her lips and almost come on the spot from her taste. She tangles her tongue with mine, distracting me from the instinctive panic flash that jerks my body when her hands knead my nape.

Don’t sink into the past. This is Dakota, holding me, kissing me. Rolling her hips, grinding herself on my hard-on.

Oh hell, yeah. My body isn’t up for much yet, but this… this feels awesome. I need…

She breaks the kiss and lifts her skirt. Christ, she’s naked underneath. My mouth goes dry.

“Guest rules,” she whispers and winks. “Want to do this my way today?”

I should tell her she’s not a guest anymore, that this is her home. That I’m still not one hundred percent, and I don’t know how far I can go.

My mouth opens and closes, but no words come. My balls throb just from looking at her parted folds as she straddles my lap. Smooth. Glistening with moisture.

“Touch me,” she whispers, and fuck yeah, I can do that. I slide my hand down her side, over her smooth thigh and push a finger inside her. She moans as she clenches around me, and I’m panting with need. A wet spot is spreading on my crotch, and my cock twitches when she moans again.

“Need to feel you inside me,” she breathes and puts a hand on my wrist, tugging until I pull my finger out of her. The scent of her arousal hits me, and I struggle to keep from coming.

“Condom,” I whisper. No idea where I have them. My brain isn’t getting enough blood to function, because it’s all flowing to my throbbing dick.

“I’m on the pill,” she says. “Just come inside me, Zane. Please.”

No condom. Skin-to-skin.

My brain finally catches up, and I reach down to unzip my pants. She beats me to it, undoing the fly and pushing them down my hips, together with my briefs. I almost weep with relief as my cock springs out, flushed, wet and so goddamn ready.

“Trust me?” she asks, reaching down to touch me, and precum leaks from the slit on the head of my cock, running down the sides. I gasp for breath as I nod.

Her way. What does that mean?

“I’ll need to hold on to you,” she says. “To put my arms around your neck.”

I swallow. When we kissed I was okay, but what if I freak out this time?

Then again… Time to break down all barriers, give her everything. Try to fix myself for her, and for me. “Just hold on tight.”

She gives me a brilliant smile that makes her eyes shine and wraps her hand around my dick. My hips lift as she guides me inside her, into her slick heat. I curse and groan, pushing upward, gripping her hips and pulling her down on me.

Oh God. My brain shuts down completely, a blank illuminated by flashes of pure pleasure. Skin-to-skin feels fucking amazing. Never done it without a condom before. Never knew it’d feel like this. Holy shit.

Then her arms inch up my chest and slowly, carefully slide around my neck. Despite my trust in her, despite everything, I space out for a second—or for what feels like a second—lost in a suffocating cloud of pain and fear. It closes in around me, pulling me under.

The feel of her mouth on mine snaps me back to the here and now. Must be something magical in kissing, because suddenly everything comes into sharp focus—her taste, the pressure of her lips, her hard nipples rubbing on my chest, her tight heat around my dick.

I deepen the kiss, licking her mouth, letting her know I’m here. All here. She moans against my lips and grabs the back of my neck as she starts to move. She’s fucking moving, sliding up and down my dick, tightening and releasing, a maddening, mind-blowing rhythm.

Fire is licking my balls. I can feel my orgasm start at the root of my cock, the pressure building and building, faster and faster. She rolls her hips, does little circles, undulates her body, and my groan comes out strangled.

She’s in full control. I’m hers. There’s nothing to do but let her ride me to mind-bending orgasm. I watch her face as she lets out these sexy little moans, as her eyes close and her lips part, as she starts to shake with her own release…

And I can’t hold back any more. My eyes shut as I come with a yell, my back arching off the chair. She ripples around me, calls my name as I shake and pant. The pleasure is off the motherfucking scale as we move together, holding on to each other, trembling with the aftershocks.

I don’t know what this is. All I know is nothing has ever felt so right in my life.