The only thing worse than spending Christmas Eve alone was spending it holed up in Damian's spare bedroom. A pipe had ruptured in the apartment above mine the day before. That was the problem with historic buildings. They were full of charm and old piping.
Not that shacking up at Damian's could qualify as a hardship. His penthouse boasted three-hundred-and-sixty-degree views of Seattle, a chef's kitchen, and a state-of-the-art gym. But his stellar views also highlighted how alone I was. Watching families and friends scurry around, bundled up against the harsh winter weather, with packages and smiles to spare, was a constant reminder of my solitary state.
Janice and Damian had left town, as had Allister. While my mom would have welcomed a visit, Thanksgiving had been a disaster. After consuming enough alcohol to sedate a large mammal, my mom had passed out at the dinner table before my brothers and I had even had a chance to try her pecan pie.
Erica was with her parents in Vermont, a fact I knew only because Damian had mentioned it. Erica had ignored every one of the texts I had sent over the last month. I should have been relieved, but I wasn't. In spite of her tentative agreement to try a friendship, distance had apparently made her rethink that decision.
I couldn't blame her. The sex had been incredible. The best I'd ever had, which said a lot, since I'd fucked women willing to do just about anything. Friendship was like settling for a burger when steak and lobster were on the menu.
Thinking that I would be able to tuck our weekend into the same box as all the other sexual conquests from my past had been a colossal mistake on my part. I had relived each and every time at least a hundred times. Finding another woman to dull the memories had been an exercise in futility. My hand and dick had never been so well acquainted, at least not since puberty.
Barring her virginity, I still couldn't pinpoint what had made it so good.
Because you love her.
The thought crept in without warning and I pushed it aside. That couldn't be the reason. It had to be Erica's near physical perfection. Her luscious tits, tiny waist, long legs, and hair so vibrant a sunset would be jealous.
But it was the small scar on her left knee from her biking accident at Lake Champlain, the mottled birthmark on the back of her neck she hid with her hair and the way her top lip curled disproportionately to the right when she was happy that I recalled with startling frequency.
I was lying to myself and knew it. All of those things were superfluous to the way she made me feel. She got me. When I was with Erica, I could bench the football superstar that always had to be "on" and just be myself.
The artificial light from the television bounced off the walls of the darkened bedroom. I hadn't even bothered to turn on the lights after the sun had set. When I heard something rustling in the other room, I turned down the television and crept off the bed.
Peeking around the corner, I tensed with surprise when I spied a person in jeans and a dark hoodie rifling through the mail on the table in Damian's entryway. The door to his penthouse was ajar, and light streamed in from the hallway. Had I forgotten to lock the door? And how the hell had the person got past the doorman on the ground floor?
I looked over my shoulder and scanned the bedroom for my cell phone, but realized with a crushing weight that I had left it on the kitchen counter next to the to-go containers. The only landline was in Damian's office, several rooms away.
Swallowing down my fear, I perused the thief, who was unaware of my presence. He was lean and at least six inches shorter than me. With the element of surprise, and assuming he didn't have a weapon, I might be able to contain him.
I crept barefoot across the concrete floors until I was within a few feet. Whatever the thief wanted, he was sorely disappointed, because I heard a grumbled curse fly from his mouth, just as he realized there was someone behind him. When he spun around, my football training kicked in and I took three strides forward, tackling him to the floor with a bone-jarring thud.
I leveraged my weight over the squirming mass and pinned his arms to the floor. The hoodie fell off and shoulder-length, black hair spilled out at the same time as an angry, feminine curse.
"What the hell, Dante?"
"Erica? What are you doing here?" I sat up with chest pounding. Without thinking, I reached forward and rubbed a strand of her shredded, dark locks. "And what the fuck did you do to your hair?"
"Get off of me," she said with an indignant huff as she swatted my hand away from her hair. She tried to dislodge me with a sharp, upward thrust of her hips that made me groan.
She stiffened when she realized the effect she was having on me. I couldn't help it. Having her supple body wriggling underneath mine was too much after weeks of no sex. I saw the flash of desire in her eyes and leaned down until my mouth was within inches of hers.
"What if I don't want to get off? What if I like having you under me?" I swiveled my growing erection against her. She dragged in a stuttered breath.
"I thought you already had your fill," she sneered.
"I lied," I said, nuzzling her neck.
"Please don't toy with me. Not right now." The anguish in her voice and lurking in the depths of her eyes was like a bucket of cold water.
"What's going on?"
"Get off of me, Dante."
"Not until you tell me what's wrong."
"Fuck you. Get off," Erica screamed, pounding my chest and abdomen with her tiny fists. She bucked under me, squirming and hissing like a crazed animal.
"Erica, calm down." I forced her hands above her head, pinning her with my weight. A tear slipped down her cheek and before I could stop myself, I used my tongue to follow its trail from her jawline up her cheek to the edge of her eye. I felt a shudder run through her body and she stilled under me.
But then the anguish in her eyes shifted to something more determined. "Don't tell me to calm down. And I told you to get off of me." Before I knew what was happening, she hooked one foot behind my ankle and flipped me onto my back. She straddled me with a triumphant grin, breathing heavy from her little coup de grâce.
"Holy shit, where did you learn how to do that?" I asked, equally impressed and turned on. I knew I could gain the advantage again, but I liked having her perched on top of me.
"I've been taking Krav Maga classes for the last year."
"Good for you," I murmured. Even in a big city like New York, why did she feel it necessary to take self-defense classes? She had lost weight in the last few weeks. Coupled with the change in her signature hairstyle, I knew something was seriously wrong.
Her smile faltered when she noticed my dick growing hard against her ass. Just as I was about to reach for her, she scrambled off my lap and hurried to the couch. I laid there for a few seconds using the hard floor to ground me, while I dragged in several calming breaths.
I stood up and locked the front door, before going to the living room. The muted light from the table lamp couldn't hide the dark bags under her eyes or the uneven tips of her black hair.
I sat down on the coffee table across from her. "What's going on, Erica? I thought you were spending the holiday with your parents."
"That was a lie I told Damian so he wouldn't worry about me. I was hoping to spend the next few days here. By myself."
I smiled in spite of her surly tone. "Sorry to disappoint you. A pipe burst in the unit above mine. Looks like you're stuck with me."
"I'll just book a hotel room," she said, pushing up to stand.
"Sit down. You're not going anywhere."
"You can't tell me what to do." She slumped back down in spite of her words.
"You're right. I can't. But I won't have you staying in a hotel when Damian has beds to spare. I can stay on the futon in his office. Or if you really don't want me here, I'll go stay at Allister's."
"No. It's okay. All I plan to do is sleep." Based on the weary slump of her shoulders, I didn't doubt her.
"Did something happen in New York? Why did you cut your hair?"
Toying with the tips of her hair, she shrugged. "It was time for a change. I'm sorry you don't like it."
"I didn't say I didn't like it. It's just different."
"It's ugly. I know."
"Babe, you could shave your head and you'd still be beautiful."
A smile tugged at the corner of her lips. "Now you're just lying." She looked out the windows and stared at the twinkling lights of Seattle, before glancing back my direction. "Can we do this tomorrow? I've been traveling all day. I'm exhausted."
Even though I wanted to shake loose each and every one of her secrets, I nodded. Coaxing the truth out of her was likely to be more successful than forcing it out of her. I would let her tiptoe around the inevitable for a bit longer, but eventually, she was going to tell me what the hell had her running scared.