Chapter 26
Dinner at Lizzie's probably isn't the most elegant first date that's ever happened but as far as I'm concerned, it’s perfect. Kent and I sat at a small table in the back of the restaurant that had been set up with a couple of candles. We did our best to ignore that Lizzie was probably texting updates to Rosie the whole time we were there. We had a really nice time and the two of us talked about almost everything, with very few breaks in the conversation.
Unfortunately, my guess that Fairview doesn't have many places to go on a Saturday night, was dead on. The weather is a lot milder than yesterday, but wandering around still feels a little pointless when there is no destination in mind.
"Maybe we should have just gone back to the movies." Kent says apologetically. "At least we would have something to do."
At first, I was disappointed we weren't going to be doing the movie theatre thing again, because it meant I’d have to be functioning like a dateable person for an entire night, I'm glad we did had dinner instead.
"Don't worry about it. This has been fun." I look over at Kent to see if he agrees and find him already nodding.
"Yeah, this is definitely better than yesterday. And I’m really glad everything worked out with your sister."
I follow Ken's lead as we take a left turn into an empty park. The playground equipment and path around the grass are all covered with the latest layer of snow, there's no one else in sight. We end up on a bench near an old oak tree, and I huddle into my coat for warmth. I'm not even trying to hint at anything, but a minute later Kent hesitantly puts his arm around me and pulls me closer. "Is this okay?"
I nod, too nervous to speak. I don't think the two of us have ever been this close together, and even in this cold open air, I can almost sense the heat coming off of him and smell the faintest hint of cologne.
When I get up the nerve to look over at Kent, our faces are only inches from one another. He’s already looking at me.
"Are you okay?" Kent asks already starting to pull his arm away.
"I'm fine. Don't go." Kent smiles and settles back around me. I’m close enough to hear a small sigh escape his lips. "Honestly, I'm nervous." I don't say why out loud, but I'm hopeful he's reading the situation the same as I am. As far as moments for first kisses go, this one is kind of perfect. Now, I need the courage to make to happen. My nerves are all based on my own possible ineptitude. I've never done this before, I don't want to screw it up.
First, I need to look at him long enough to give me a chance for this to happen at all. He won't kiss me if I keep looking away.
I force my eyes to stay locked on his, trying to convey my meaning in how I'm looking at him.
"I'm nervous too. Somehow, I've managed to get a date with this gorgeous girl, now she's letting me hold her close to me. I'm going to mess this up at any second."
"That’s my life pretty much all the time. Just one stray thought away from ruining everything."
"You’ve been perfect. That first day I saw you, I knew you were someone I wanted to talk to. You’ve blown me away every day I’ve seen you since then. You have nothing to worry about."
I don't say anything because all thoughts have left my head. It seems like he's even closer to me now, like he's inching his way forward without appearing to move at all.
I’m not sure how I get up the courage, but I make myself move my head forward just the tiniest bit, angling it as I go.
This is happening.
Everything else falls away when his lips touch mine. At first, it was just the softest graze against my bottom lip but soon we're completely connected, my whole body is tingling.
Before I can let myself worry about anything, like where I'm supposed to put my hands or how much I'm supposed to move my mouth, Kent pulls away.
For second we stay there, inches from one another, eyes locked. Then he whispers, "Well, I think it's safe to say neither one of us screwed that up."
I giggle, it's enough to erase any of the tension without ruining the magic of this moment.
"No. I think we can do better." I bite my lip and move toward Kent yet again, eager to see what else we are capable of.