It was amazing how quickly Nate’s bravado deflated the moment he stepped foot in his house with Gabe behind him. The first time they were together, it hadn’t been planned. It was spontaneous, rough, and he didn’t really have time to worry about anything—other than a lack of condoms. Tonight was another story. It had been planned, and he’d been building the moment up all day. So much so that he was indescribably and ridiculously nervous.
Gabe came up behind him and wrapped his arms around Nate’s waist. “Will you please relax? You’re acting like I’m about to take your virginity.”
Nate tensed at the words, knowing they said more than Gabe meant them to. Gabe slid around in front of Nate and looked him in the eyes. As he had so many times before, it only took one look for Gabe to read his mind. “I have to admit, there’s something about being under you, your strong body pressing me into those soft sheets of yours, feeling you inside me, and having that connection to you that I can’t get enough of. Maybe one day you’ll allow me to show you how truly unbelievable it feels, but for now, I need you inside me. Will you take me to bed, Nate?”
Once again, Gabe proved to Nate that he was not the man he originally thought he was. There didn’t seem to be an end to his understanding and patience when it came to Nate and his hang-ups. Bottoming was something he’d never done. Not even Eric had ever breached that area. It wasn’t that Nate wasn’t curious or didn’t wonder what it would feel like. It had just never been his dynamic with Eric. Eric was a bottom through and through. It worked for them at the time. Though, Nate could remember a few times when he tried to switch things up. Now, he realized Eric’s refusal probably wasn’t based on his comfort level. It was based on him being a selfish partner in every way. So here Nate was, in his mid-thirties, feeling inexperienced and inadequate.
Gabe’s will-you-take-me-to-bed question should’ve had him either laughing or running out the door. Nate looked into Gabe’s big eyes, and his heart fluttered in his chest. Fucking fluttered, for God’s sake. So, it was like he was hearing someone else’s voice when he uttered the word, “Yes.”
He sighed then kissed Gabe with all the gratitude and all the respect he had for him rolled up in pure lust and something dangerously close to love.
Nate took his jacket off then pushed Gabe’s off and let it drop to the floor. He placed his hands on Gabe’s neck, just under his hair, and gently kissed him again. There was something about this moment. Being here with Gabe made Nate want to take his time. He wanted to savor him, taste him slowly, and memorize every inch of his body. Nate moved forward, carefully guiding Gabe toward his bedroom.
Gabe had already started to pull Nate’s shirt out of the waistband of his pants then unbuttoned it and pushed it off his shoulders. Nate had to release his hold on Gabe in order to get the shirt completely off. Gabe’s shirt was next, and he’d already unbuttoned it halfway when Nate took over the rest. He’d finally gotten the shirt off and reached around, grabbing Gabe right under his ass. Then he lifted him until Gabe wrapped his legs around Nate’s waist and held on.
Nate carried Gabe to the bed, but instead of laying him down, he turned and sat on the edge with Gabe straddling his lap. For an intense moment, they just stared at each other. Gabe softly traced his fingers over Nate’s eyebrows, slowly brushed his fingertips down and over his cheek bones, and then swept a thumb over Nate’s bottom lip.
When was the last time he’d ever felt so vulnerable?
Gabe stared at Nate’s handsome face, trembling as he touched his luscious mouth. He still couldn’t quite believe this amazing man was here with him. His eyes focused on Nate’s lips, snaking his tongue out and licking the seam before completely penetrating Nate’s willing mouth. He tasted like heaven, the warm sweetness of his flavor sinking into Gabe’s tongue like cotton candy.
Gabe rolled his hips, pressing his groin against Nate’s, needing to feel more. Most importantly though, he needed to taste more. Sliding his body to the floor between Nate’s legs, he unbuttoned his pants and slid the zipper down. Gabe pulled on the material of both Nate’s pants and boxers, freeing the prize inside and making his own cock flex. “You’re so hard for me, Nate.” Gabe ran his hand up the length of Nate’s shaft and back down, watching Nate’s cock twitching in reaction. Nate was leaning back on his hands on the mattress, watching Gabe through sultry, blue eyes as Gabe touched him. Gabe wrapped his hand around Nate’s cock and slowly stroked him before pulling the hard column forward and lightly touching his tongue to the tip. Nate shivered as he watched him, biting his bottom lip. His hips were moving, pumping his cock up into Gabe’s hand.
Gabe teased him again with his tongue over his leaking slit then slid it around the swollen head. He was moving painstakingly slow, knowing he was driving Nate crazy and loving every damn minute of it. When Nate breathed out a whispered plea, Gabe put the man out of his misery and took him into his mouth. Nate sighed, leaning even further back onto his forearms and letting his head fall back with a look of ecstasy.
The salty taste of his skin mixed with the weight of his cock on Gabe’s tongue was a powerful potion, threatening to send Gabe into another dimension. There was nothing that compared to having Nate in his mouth. He shifted his position on his knees so as to get a better angle to take Nate deep. Nate was squirming underneath him, and Gabe held his hips down, never letting up on his punishing assault of Nate’s leaking cock.
When Nate grabbed the base of his cock and squeezed, Gabe knew he was close and pulled off, switching his attention to Nate’s sac. He took both balls into his mouth, then released one and sucked on the other while he worked Nate’s shoes, pants, and socks off. He gripped the back of Nate’s thigh, pushing his leg up to get better access. Taking a chance, now clearly aware of Nate’s inexperience with backdoor entry, he released Nate’s sac and let his tongue drift down. When his tongue got closer to that tight hole, he felt Nate tense slightly, but Gabe still swept his tongue over his puckered skin before moving back up. Gabe would work him up to at least rimming. He’d have the man begging for it in the near future. Right now, there was plenty they could do instead.
Gabe dragged his tongue up from Nate’s balls to the tip of his cock and engulfed him again. He only had a chance to slide Nate’s cock in and out of his mouth a couple of times before Nate yanked him up and quickly switched their positions. Now, Gabe was on his back with his legs hanging off the side of the bed. Nate was on top of him, kissing him like his life depended on it. And didn’t that just blow Gabe’s fucking mind.
Suddenly, Nate slowed down his frantic movements, kissing Gabe with a passion he wasn’t used to. Nate began taking his time, making Gabe feel like he was cherishing each kiss, every brush of their tongues. He practically sobbed with need when Nate removed his mouth until he pried his eyes open and saw Nate intensely gazing at him.
Nate stood up, nearly making Gabe panic, and started to carefully remove the rest of Gabe’s clothes. He took his time, and Gabe realized it was his turn to be driven crazy. He’d never been undressed so slowly in his entire life. Hell, there had been times that clothes weren’t even removed, only pushed down enough for access. Nate removed the last sock then kissed Gabe’s inner ankle. He moved Gabe’s body completely onto the bed, laying on top of him again.
There was no rush. They had all night to thoroughly and completely learn each other’s bodies. Gabe sighed into Nate’s mouth when he began to rub their bare cocks together. Usually by this time, Gabe had some snarky comment, not shy about joking and dirty talk during sex. There was nothing he could say that could even come close to what he was feeling right now. In fact, if he even tried to speak, he was afraid the lump in his throat would release and the absolute power of it all would drown him.
Nate broke away from kissing Gabe’s mouth only to trail kisses down his jaw and then his neck. Gabe was enraptured, feeling Nate slide that talented tongue down to his left nipple. He didn’t bite, but instead gently sucked and rolled his tongue around the hardened bead.
Nate pulled back, looking at the area he’d just so thoroughly loved with his mouth. “I love to watch how your body reacts under my tongue.”
For the first time, Gabe had no words, just gasped as Nate dove down and paid the right side just as much attention. Gabe’s mind was a jumbled mess of ecstasy and overwhelming emotion. His lover released the now swollen nipple and traveled further down with his tongue. Nate was so close to Gabe’s cock that he could feel his hot breath against the tip. Nate didn’t go right in for his cock, but instead began licking and kissing the sensitive area around it. Nate dragged his tongue down the crease between Gabe’s dick and inner thigh making him curse in pleasure.
Spreading Gabe’s legs, Nate kissed and licked the tender spot right under Gabe’s balls but still didn’t touch his cock. Gabe couldn’t even think straight. He was panting, needing Nate’s mouth on him, needing him to suck him. That torturous tongue slid up the other side, licking that delicate divide between his sac and opposite inner thigh.
Gabe was trying to hold out, trying to last through the sinfully delicious torment, but couldn’t take it anymore. It wasn’t like him to beg, but by God, if that’s what he needed to do, so be it. “Please, Nate. Please, I can’t…” Fuck, he couldn’t even beg properly, his mouth was so dry, his body trembling.
Nate rose up and very lightly licked up the center of Gabe’s sac to his engorged head. It was a blazing trail on his skin. “Is that what you want?”
“Yes,” Gabe whispered, incapable of more than that.
Nate did it two more times, that long scorching lick, before taking Gabe completely in his mouth. Gabe arched his back, pure bliss washing over him at finally feeling Nate’s mouth wrapped around him. As he’d done with everything else, Nate was taking his time, slowly working Gabe’s cock in and out of his mouth while stroking the base with one hand. It was as if there really was a connection, and Nate knew instinctively that Gabe was ready to explode. He pulled back just as Gabe felt himself close to the edge.
“God, I need to be inside you. I can’t wait anymore.” Nate’s voice trembled with as much force as the emotions Gabe was feeling.
Finally finding his voice, Gabe whispered, “Then don’t.” He attempted to sit up and turn onto his stomach, but Nate stopped him.
“No, stay on your back. I need to see those gorgeous brown eyes while I’m inside you.” Nate brushed gentle fingers across Gabe’s chest, through the small patch of hair there.
Gabe’s breath caught on those words. It wasn’t until that exact moment that he realized how much he needed it. Years of one-night stands and married men who never wanted to see his face while they fucked him had him forgetting what it was like to be with someone like Nate. Honestly, he’d never truly been with someone like Nate. The power of it all threatened to release tears he couldn’t handle crying. So he simply nodded his head and waited, surprised to see he was pulling lube and condoms out of his nightstand.
The man had even prepared.
Quite quickly, Nate had his fingers working Gabe, preparing him, loosening his opening. They were both impatient now, having spent so much time on foreplay that the need to be joined was immeasurable. “Oh, God. Now, Nate. No more waiting,” Gabe groaned.
“No more waiting,” Nate reiterated as he reached for a condom and got himself ready. He positioned himself between Gabe’s legs, pushing his knees back until his ankles were on Nate’s shoulders. Nate leaned over Gabe, holding himself up with one hand braced on the bed while the other guided his cock to Gabe’s waiting body.
When he popped his crown past Gabe’s tight ring, Gabe sighed in relief. Needing to feel him completely inside, Gabe grabbed on to the back of Nate’s thighs and pulled him closer until he felt Nate’s balls against his ass. Nate started to move as Gabe reached up and placed both hands on Nate’s face. He pulled him down, kissing him, his breath faltering every time Nate brushed over that bundle of nerves inside of him. They were both panting, sweat slick between them, hearts pounding.
Nate changed their position, releasing Gabe’s legs and pressing his body down. He was holding Gabe so tight there was no room between their bodies. Gabe wrapped his arms and legs around Nate, never wanting to let go. Nate thrust his tongue through Gabe’s parted lips, dominating his mouth. He’d wanted Nate to make love to him, and that’s exactly what he felt like Nate was doing. Gabe’s world was coming apart, light breaking through the cracks, surging energy through his entire being. He didn’t want that other world anymore. He wanted this one that Nate was creating right now. He wanted this man and his earth-shattering energy, his overwhelming strength, his pure heart.
Gabe felt his orgasm building with every brush over that spot Nate was now paying special attention to. Nate never looked away from Gabe’s eyes, holding his stare as he continued to pump his hips. The intensity—the sheer magnitude—of the look in Nate’s blue eyes threatened to ruin Gabe. No other man could compare to this one. No one had even come close.
Nate wrapped his hand around Gabe’s cock, stroking him. Gabe didn’t want it to end, but he was powerless to stop the orgasm that ripped through him. “Oh, God,” Gabe cried out as his body exploded, shuddering as he came, warm fluid shooting between them.
“Holy shit, Gabe,” Nate moaned, and when Gabe felt Nate release inside of him, Gabe’s body pulsed one more time, emptying his throbbing cock.
Nate’s body went limp, and with all the strength Gabe had left, he held on to Nate as tight as he possibly could. There was a comfort in knowing Nate hadn’t pulled out of him yet, that they were still connected. Gabe ran his hands through Nate’s sweaty, blond hair. He lifted Nate’s face, brushing damp strands off his forehead, and looked him in the eye before kissing him deeply.
Gabe wouldn’t say it, not until Nate was ready to hear it, but there was no doubt in his mind at all. He was so in love with this man. There had never been a man like him in Gabe’s life before. Not even Charlie held that spot. He knew there would never be another man like him. Nate was it for him. Gabe was a stubborn, spoiled man. He always got what he wanted, and there was absolutely nothing in this world he wanted more than Nathan Black. But for the first time in his life, he was terrified—absolutely terrified—to want someone that much. Because no matter how stubborn Gabe was, there was always a chance Nate wouldn’t want him forever.
And that would absolutely destroy him.