13
Merritt
A newfound sense of peace took over me, and I pulled Camilla closer to me. We were lying in her bed, our limbs entangled together.
Even now, I wanted to get back inside of her. I shook head at myself internally. What had she done to me?
My mind kept returning to the moment I saw her in that gorgeous dress. It was ironic. I wanted to fuck her in it and rip it off her at the same time. In the end, we came to her bedroom and continued playing with each other with no clothes preventing us full access. My lips had covered each inch of her skin, my hands memorizing the feel of her curves.
Before Camilla, I didn’t have a type of women I liked. Curvy, slim, tall, short, blonde, brunette… They were all the same to me. As long as she was pretty, that was all I needed to get it going. But now that I had met Camilla, I knew exactly what I liked. Her blue eyes and brown hair along with her sexy curves were the winning combination. She was perfect to me.
My fingers moved on their own, tracing her soft frame on their way to her breast. I covered her soft, round flesh, and she let out a low moan. Jesus, I loved when she did that. She was so responsive, always welcoming my touch.
I wanted her in my arms forever, no matter how cliché that sounded. With her, I didn’t care about being sappy. With her, all of that romantic shit I had never understood felt normal. It felt right.
“Can you do something for me?” I asked her.
“What?”
“Tell me how you feel about me. About us.”
She chuckled softly. “Why?”
“Because I need to know what we’re doing here, what I’m going to tell Carter.”
“Well, I like you.” My chest constricted at the words.
“Since when did you start liking me?” I asked her, tipping her chin up so that I could look at her beautiful face. Her eyes were brighter now, but just a couple of minutes ago they were stormy and dark, showcasing her lust.
Her nipple was hard underneath my fingers, and my mouth watered at the thought of licking it.
“I’m not sure,” she replied, creating some random patterns on my chest with her finger. “Probably when I was eleven and had braces and you saw right through me. But this time around? I have to admit that I was attracted to you from the first moment I saw you.”
I moved to look at her, taken aback by her admission. “You were?”
“Yeah.”
“You didn’t look that way.”
“Well, I was attracted physically to you, but I thought you were a jerk.”
“Ouch. This honesty is killing me.”
She giggled. “I wouldn’t want to boost your ego.” She winked. “So I didn’t want to get involved with you then. Only later, I realized there is something about you that makes me want to be with you. For good.”
“Is that why you have changed your mind? You realized you can’t stay away from me?”
“Maybe. Actually, I felt miserable. I was supposed to be in control of my life and live it the way I’ve always wanted it… But instead of being happy with the choice I made, I felt empty. Suddenly, my choice didn’t feel like mine anymore. I made it for my job, for Carter. But I needed to make it for me.”
“I said to myself that I wouldn’t look for you anymore, but it was so hard. That morning was a major let down because I’d finally figured out how I felt about you. It wasn’t and isn’t just about sex.” My fingers traced her neck. “I care about you.”
“So what is our relationship, Merritt? I want us to figure it out together because I’m at a loss here. Are we lovers? Partners? Friends with benefits?”
“We’re definitely not friends with benefits.”
“Then what are we?”
“I want to take you out. Be a couple. Do you want that?”
“Yes. I want to date you.” She frowned, sighing.
“But…”
“But?”
“There is a but, right?”
“Right. The thing is, I want us to be together, but I also know I don’t want our relationship to hurt either of our careers. I’m afraid that if we got together it would only complicate things more and one of us or both would suffer at work. And we have to own up to all of this with Carter.”
I ran my finger across her lip, cheeks, and eyebrows, following the slow movement with my eyes. There was a faint flush on her cheeks that was left from our love making, which made her more desirable.
“I know. I was thinking about the same thing. I wouldn’t want you to regret being with me. There is a big possibility that us being together would ruin your career. I wouldn’t want you to lose your job or have your name dragged across the newspapers. And don’t worry about Carter, I can handle him.”
I sighed and continued. “The truth is that the relationships like ours are pretty damn hard considering the nature of our jobs. I’m a congressman and any wrong move can make my career spiral down. I have to be careful about what I say or do, especially with all that The Playboy of Washington bullshit.”
She giggled and snuggled closer to me. “Well, your lifestyle certainly doesn’t help your reputation.”
“My former lifestyle.”
“Is it? Former, I mean.”
“One hundred percent former.” I gazed into her eyes, wanting her to see the honesty of my words in mine. “Now that I have you I don’t need anyone else, Camilla. I don’t want anyone else.”
“I trust you, I really do, but it’s a bit hard for me to believe it. I mean, you aren’t famous as a playboy for no reason.”
“I know, but I’m changing. I’m not the same man as I was before you. And even then, I wanted to find someone who would mean more to me than just a one-night stand. Then I saw you and you made me go crazy.” I tapped her nose. “But you already know that.”
“Yeah, I do.” Her smile ebbed into a frown. “So, what can we do? We obviously can’t go out in public and say we’re dating. At least, not for now.”
“Then we’ll keep it a secret,” I proposed, and she sat up, facing me.
My gaze flickered to her exposed breasts, and for a few moments my mind trailed off the topic at hand.
“What do you think?” I asked her in an unusually raspy voice.
“I think that’s a solid idea. That way we don’t have to worry about anything else.”
“Then that means that we can’t appear together in public. We won’t have any dates outside of our apartments and at work we’ll have to keep it completely professional. I know that’s maybe too much to ask—”
“No, it’s not,” she interrupted me, smiling reassuringly at me. “I’ve never been the one to hide something, especially not something as important as a relationship, but if that’s what it takes to be with you without the consequences, I’ll do it. Let’s keep it a secret.”
She leaned toward me and moved her finger over my shoulder and down my chest. “Although, I have to admit that it will be difficult to keep my hands to myself at work. You’re irresistible.”
I pulled her into my embrace. Her hair was silky underneath my fingertips, her citrusy scent increasing my desire.
Yes. It was going to be very hard because we were falling for each other and staying away felt like a torture. Hiding, sneaking around, secret phone calls… This whole situation would probably take it out of us if it continued for a long time.
“I know. Believe me, I feel the same. Just knowing that you’re close to me but I can’t do anything to get closer to you is driving me up the wall. I want nothing more than to shout to the whole world that you’re mine, but for now we can’t. Outside, we’ll have to stay away from each other.”
I kissed the back of her head and caressed her hip. “For now, secret meetings at our places would have to suffice.”
“Until when?” she voiced a question that was on repeat in the back of my mind.
“We will see how it shakes out. I can’t set a time right now.”
Her sigh was a clear representation of her feelings. She was conflicted about this as much as I was.
“But you can be sure that I won’t give up on you. I won’t let you go that easily. I’ll fight for us no matter what it takes.”
“I’ll fight for us too, Merritt. I want this to work. I’m just sad that life is so unfair. Why do we have to be in a position where we have to hide our feelings?”
I felt the same. For the first time ever, I wished I wasn’t a Senator. I wished I was just a simple man who could love her with everything he has. It sucked that I couldn’t take her out or tell anyone she was mine. Except Carter, I had to own up to it with him. Eventually.
I kissed her forehead and looked her in the eyes, stroking her hair. “You’re right. It’s not fair, but there’s nothing we can do about it. As I said, this is all for now. We’ll see what our future has in store for us.”
She cupped my face and grazed my lips with hers. “When I’m with you I’m not afraid of anything.”
Her lips returned to mine and her tongue darted out to separate my lips. I opened my mouth eagerly, giving her access, and our bodies connected in a tight embrace. I pulled her onto my lap, making her straddle me, which she used to grind herself against me.
“I guess that means that tonight’s dinner is off?”
That reminded me… “Yes. Wait a sec.” I reached for my phone on the nightstand and dialed the restaurant’s number. All the while, Camilla ground against me with a smirk on her face. “You’re so naughty,” I said right before the person on the other side answered the call.
“Good evening.”
“Good evening. I’m calling to cancel the dinner reservation under Merritt Dawson at nine.”
The woman said something, but I could hardly focus on her words when all I could think about was how good it felt to have Camilla rub her sweet pussy against me. She didn’t stop, moving faster, and I was unable to stop myself from grabbing my dick and sliding into her—right in the middle of the call.
“Yes. That would be all. Thank you,” I said in a strangled voice and ended the call, throwing my phone to the side. “I’ll fuck you so hard because of this.” I growled and grabbed her hips, ramming into her.
Her scream made my cock even harder, and I drove into her wildly, ready for yet another intense round.
“Maybe we can’t go outside together, but if we’re going to spend time like this inside, I don’t mind it at all,” she said huskily.
“I don’t mind being inside. Being inside you, to be precise.” I winked and moved us to that she was on her back and her legs were placed over my shoulders. “Over and over again.”