I hit the button to drop the top of my rented convertible as I drove down the wide streets of West Hollywood. The breeze hit me like a gust of heaven, the air warm and mild rather than the oppressive heat I’d left behind in New York.

Not to say that New York wasn’t my city. But a change of pace was nice.

I was in LA to talk with Andrew about the reality show, and as I pulled onto Santa Monica Boulevard, I considered how crazy it was that I’d let myself even get talked into this. Reality TV wasn’t my thing to watch, let alone star in. But Andrew was right—the potential for killer publicity was there, and I’d be an idiot to even think about not doing it. A few months on the air and my baby line would be flying off the shelves. I could even donate the money I’d make from the show to some charity for little kids—not like I needed the cash.

My car’s GPS alerted me that I was about to arrive at my destination. A wave of disappointment ran through me as I thought about how nice it would be to keep driving and enjoy the amazing California day.

But I didn’t have time for that—there was work to be done.

I pulled in front of the twenty-story tower where Andrew worked, a valet coming out to greet me. Moments later, I was in the spacious lobby of the production company offices. Bits of TV and movie memorabilia were here and there, illuminated by the beams of sunlight that streamed into the space.

“There’s the man!”

I turned in time to see Andrew strolling toward me, dressed in a sharp, light-colored suit, a big smile plastered on his handsome face. At his side was a pretty young brunette, professionally yet fashionably dressed.

“Good to see you, buddy,” I said to Andrew, giving him a quick hug. I never could get used to the LA way of greeting people, no matter how many times I’d come here.

“J, this is my assistant, Natalie,” he said, gesturing toward the girl, who looked barely out of college.

“A pleasure to meet you, Mr. Donovan,” she said, extending a red-nail-tipped hand toward me. “I’ve been looking forward to meeting you.”

I took her hand and shook it gently, noticing that the expression playing on her big brown eyes made it clear she was interested in more than just “meeting” me. It was a look I’d seen more than a few times before, but as pretty as Natalie was, she didn’t stir anything inside of me.

Not like Heather had.

I gave myself a quick, internal scolding for thinking of Heather again before turning my attention back to Andrew and Natalie.

“So,” said Andrew, putting one hand on my shoulder and gesturing toward the elevators with the other as we began walking. “Like I told you on the phone, I ran the idea for our little show up to the top—and they loved it. They’re beyond thrilled that I’ve managed to get someone like you on board.”

“‘A face made for TV,’” said Natalie. “At least, that’s what Mr. Cohen said.” She flashed me a smile, and I got the impression that she felt the same way.

“And that’s who we’re meeting with now?” I asked.

“Yep,” said Andrew. “Believe me, if it was just me, I’d have no problem flying back to New York. But Mr. Cohen’s very, ah, fussy about leaving the city. Doesn’t like to do it unless absolutely necessary.”

“No worries,” I said. “I’m used to dealing with fussy types.”

“I’ll bet you are,” said Andrew. “But Mr. Cohen’s ‘LA fussy.’ You’ll see what I mean.”

He gestured for me to step into the open elevator doors and the three of us entered. We rose up, up, up, all the way to the top floor of the building. The doors opened to a bustling office with expensively dressed men and women zipping purposefully here and there. It reminded me of my own offices, actually.

Andrew and Natalie blew past the reception desk and led me down a long hallway to a massive set of light brown double doors. Andrew gave a knock.

“Yeah?” came a gruff voice from inside.

“It’s Andrew, Mr. Cohen.”

“Come in!”

Andrew threw open the doors to reveal a massive, modern office. The back wall was entirely glass and looked out over Hollywood and the rest of the city beyond. The walls were decorated with awards and various photos of a heavyset man pictured with different celebrities and politicians.

And the man in the photos was the very same one behind the massive desk in the center-back of the room.

“Is that Justin-freaking-Donovan?” called the man as he rose from his seat. He was a short, heavyset guy, no older than fifty, with hawk-like brown eyes, a fleshy face, and a big “U” of a smile. His hair was a balding horseshoe of black, and I could tell that his clothes were as high-end as they came.

He hurried over to me with surprising speed for someone his size, sticking out a hand toward me. “Sam Cohen,” he said. “Pleased as hell to meet you. Come on—take a seat. Don’t be shy.”

He swept his arm toward a set of chairs and couches, and the three of us took a seat, Mr. Cohen stepping over to a large, stainless steel fridge.

“I gotta tell you, Justin—you mind if I call you Justin? When Andrew told me his ideas for the reality show I was on board right from the get-go.” He came over to us with several bottles of sparkling water in his thick-fingered hands. One-by-one he passed them out. “But I was thinking there was no way in hell we’d be able to land someone like you for a freaking reality show.”

“That’s when I told him about your unique situation,” said Andrew, taking his bottle and cracking it open.

“And I knew it was meant to be,” said Sam, plopping into a leather chair across from me and leaning forward. “That’s how the greatest collaborations happen—when two different needs intersect. Perfect—perfect!”

Natalie said nothing, instead taking notes on her tablet, occasionally glancing up to make eyes at me.

“Well,” I said. “Glad to hear it sounds like it’s going to work. If you could have a hit show, and I could get a boost to my baby line, that’d be amazing.”

Natalie piped up. “And don’t forget about the product tie-ins,” she said with a sly smile.

“That’s right!” said Sam. “Geez, don’t I just have the smartest kids working here?”

Natalie blushed, happy for the compliment from the big man.

“Product tie-ins?” I asked.

Sam shook his head. “Look at this guy,” he said. “You might be good at your game, but you’ve still got a lot to learn about entertainment.”

Andrew stepped in. “Every bit of baby gear in the show, from cribs to clothes to whatever else, is going to be your stuff. So, in addition to being a great show, it’ll basically be an hour-long commercial.”

“And not just your baby stuff,” said Sam. “All your company’s clothing lines can be stuck in there somewhere. Everything anyone wears in the show can have the Donovan tag on it.”

“I’m liking this,” I said. “Liking it a lot.”

“Excellent,” said Sam. “But I had a little tweak I wanted to suggest.”

“Sure,” I said, curious.

“How would you feel about bringing a family member of yours on board?”

I tensed up. “My father’s been dead for ten years,” I said. “And that would leave my mom.”

“There!” said Sam. “Perfect! Let’s bring her on and have a little mother-in-law dynamic. Can be great for drama, really give the viewers something to talk about.”

“No.”

The word fell out of my mouth and landed like a ball of lead. Andrew, Sam, and Natalie all looked at one another, instantly aware of how serious I was.

“No?” Sam and Andrew repeated in unison.

“No,” I said. “My mother and I…aren’t on the best of terms. So, right now I’m saying no, and that’s the end of that.”

“Okay, no problem,” Sam said after a long pause. “No moms. Well, maybe the girl’s mom—we’ll see.”

“But that still leaves the issue of the baby’s mother,” said Andrew.

“Right,” said Sam. “She has to be perfect. Gorgeous, but with that neighborly quality that your average woman can relate to. No supermodels, no fake-looking ladies.”

“Natalie,” said Andrew. “Pull up the girls on the tablet and put them on the TV.”

She nodded and made a few swipes on the screen in front of her. The streamlined TV mounted on the front wall of the office came to life, filled with the headshot of an attractive blonde with sparkling blue eyes. Her face was as flawless as they came, with high cheekbones, a button nose, and full lips.

“This is Allie S—”

“No!” said Sam, shaking his head. “She’s too freaking pretty. We want the women watching to identify with her, not hate her guts.”

Andrew nudged Natalie, and she swiped her screen again. The next girl was a brunette. Pretty, but in a girl-next-door kind of way.

“This is Rebecca Samuels,” said Andrew. “Twenty-two, a recent mother, and has experience acting. Did some community theater work back in Manchester.”

Sam’s forehead crinkled up. “Manchester?” he asked. “Like, in England?”

“Right,” said Natalie. “She’s British.”

“No way!” said Sam. “We want all-American. She starts talking with an accent and we’ll lose half our audience.”

A thought occurred to me. I took my phone out of my pocket and flipped through my photos, coming to a stop on one of the pictures Heather and I had taken of each other during our night out. Heather was just as gorgeous as ever, her smile beaming and her face nearly perfect.

“What about this girl?” I asked. I handed the phone to Sam, his eyes going wide as he looked it over.

“Wow!” he said. “Wow! Who is this?”

“A friend of mine,” I said. “She wouldn’t be available for the show, but she came to mind when you described what we were looking for.”

“Yes!” said Sam. “This is exactly it. I mean, maybe a little too pretty, but like a girl-next-door that you spent your youth pining over.”

He handed the phone to Andrew, who handed it to Natalie.

“Damn,” said Andrew. “You sure know how to pick ’em.”

I took my phone back and glanced at the picture one last time, a strange longing tugging at my heart before I clicked the phone off and slipped it back into my pocket.

“I don’t get it,” said Sam. “Why can’t we use that girl? She’s exactly what we’re looking for.”

“It’s…complicated,” I said. “But she’s a no-go. I only showed her to see if I was on the right track for the type we want.”

“You bet your ass that’s the right track,” said Sam. “I’d hire that girl now if she walked through the door.” He shrugged. “But if you say we can’t, then we can’t.”

“Anyway,” said Andrew. “We’re going to be handling the rest of the behind-the-scenes stuff here. You going to be in town for a few days?”

“Just tonight,” I said. “Flying back to New York in the morning. I’d love to stay, but too much to do back home.”

“Of course,” said Sam. “Just glad that you were able to see us for the day. We’ll keep you posted, especially with the casting of your co-star. Ah, co-stars.”

Sam got up, and the rest of us followed suit. A few handshakes later and I was being led out the door by Andrew and Natalie.

“Let’s do dinner tonight,” said Andrew. “There’s a killer Thai place in Echo Park—you’ll love it.”

More handshakes, another heated glance from Natalie, and I was out the door.

I started down the road, heading into the first bar that I found. I need a drink after that meeting, and soon after stepping into the place I had one in front of me. As I sipped my cocktail at the bar, I thought back to the meeting.

God, I would’ve loved to have Heather for the role. Who knows if she was actually the type to want to be a reality star, but at the very least I’d get to talk to her again. Ever since our night together, I’d been unable to get her out of my mind, but I was certain she likely wanted nothing to do with me.

And why would she? I bolted as soon as I realized that she was a mom. What woman with a child would be anything but disgusted with that kind of behavior?

I took my phone out of my pocket and pulled open the picture that I’d shown during the meeting.

I’d made my choice, and now I had to live with the consequences.