What seemed to be a very simple transaction had immediately turned into a huge mess. A truck with two Hispanic males came screaming into the lot, and while it was still rolling into place, one jumped out and held a gun on the two men in the back of the truck. The driver jumped out as soon as the truck stopped, and jumped out with a gun. Now he was screaming into the back of the van as he waved the gun into it. Otis and Axton were in the back of the van, and I was standing toward the front of the truck; alone and scared half to death.

It was as if I didn’t even exist. No one was paying attention to me.

My purse was draped over my right shoulder. In my purse, as always, was my loaded Glock 9 millimeter pistol. The instructor of the concealed carry course drilled the importance into my head of using the weapon as a last resort in a life or death scenario only. This was clearly one of those situations. It didn’t make things any easier. The two Hispanic males were focused on the men in the back of the truck the men in the back of the van.

“El dinero. Dónde está el dinero?” the man screamed into the back of the van.

He wanted to know where the money was.

Maybe they’d take the money and leave. That was probably wishful thinking.

“Dónde está el dinero?” he screamed again.

Scared beyond comprehension, I quickly glanced at the van and then toward the truck. The robber at the truck stood quietly on the ground with the gun aimed at the two men who were standing in the bed of the truck on top of the crates of guns. The man standing at the van was shaking the gun and appeared to be extremely nervous.

“El Pelón te matará, pendejo,” the English speaking Hispanic whispered to the man on the ground with the gun.

The bald man is going to kill you.

“Cállate!” the man with the gun shouted.

Shut up!

I couldn’t see into the van, but it was pretty obvious neither Otis nor Axton were able to pull their guns.

“El dinero o la vida,” he screamed as he shook the gun toward the inside of the van.

He was saying, your money or your life.

He’s going to kill Axton.

The one advantage of the Glock pistol was the absence of a safety or any lever that would have to be messed with prior to pulling the trigger. The internal safety is part of the trigger mechanism, and simply required the gun be pointed and fired. No pulling levers or making distracting noises like on television or the movies.

“Ahora!” the man screamed into the back of the van.

Now!

The man at the van with Otis and Axton was apparently done trying to negotiate. He wanted the money now. Someone must have tipped him off about the deal going down. I wished I could see Axton or Otis, but I could not. The man at the back of the truck stood quietly with the gun pointed at the two Hispanic men in back. It was obvious they were after the money, and nothing else. The man at the van raised the huge gun to his shoulder as if he was going to shoot. Even if Axton wanted to, he couldn’t give him the money; Otis put it in the front of the van. Hell, Axton had no idea what he was saying anyway. If I didn’t do something immediately, this was going to end, and end badly.

If you are in fear for your life or for the life of a loved one, and you have no other alternative…

I knew if I did anything, I had to do it quickly. I was all of fifteen feet from the back of the van, and I was the same distance from the truck. The man at the back of the truck had his back facing me, and the man at the van had no idea I even existed.

The man at the back of the van lowered the shotgun a little and screamed. “Ahora!”

The English speaking Hispanic made eye contact with me. He was able to see me, but the man with the gun was not, as his back was to me. As I pulled my pistol from my purse, he nodded his head slightly. God I hope this works. I took aim at the man behind the van, and fired one shot. As the bullet struck him in the side, his body twisted, and he fired the shotgun into the parking lot. As his body absorbed the shock from his gun firing, he fell to the ground.

The English speaking Hispanic immediately grabbed the barrel of the gun the man was pointing at him and was attempting to twist it from his grasp. As I twisted and took aim at the man’s back, he screamed from the back of the truck as he fought for possession of the gun.

He nodded his head toward me as he pushed the barrel of the gun upward and away, “Shoot theese motherfucker!”

Scared and without much thought, I fired a shot into the back of the man standing at the truck. Immediately, he fell against the truck and then flopped onto the ground. I turned toward the van. The man I had shot was on the ground moaning.

The entire thing took a few seconds.

Axton jumped from the rear of the van and picked up the gun the man had dropped. He stepped on the man’s neck, raised the gun slightly, and pressed the barrel into the man’s chest. The man on the ground began to groan.

He’s still alive. They’re both still alive.

Thank God.

“Hijo de la chingada! Your chica saved our asses, homie,” the man at the truck said toward Axton.

I stood and shook, still holding the pistol in my hand. My ears felt as if they were on fire. Although I had fired my gun several times during training and at the firing range, I had never fired it without hearing protection. Nothing could have prepared me for the sound of the gun being fired without protection.

“Who are these two motherfuckers?” Axton demanded.

“Putos ladrones!” the driver said as he spit on the man lying on the ground.

“He said they’re thieves,” I whimpered.

“They’re not your people?” Axton hollered.

“Fuck no, homie. Someone must to told them we going to meeting. They come for the money,” he responded.

He looked down and spit on the man lying on the ground. “Fucking puta!”

“Jew can do whatever jew want to with heem. I’m going to execute theeese motherfucker,” the driver said as he tilted his head toward Axton.

“Avery. Get in the van. You don’t need to see this,” Axton demanded.

I noticed Otis was standing behind Axton with his pistol drawn. He was pointing at the man on the ground. I didn’t remember seeing him even jump out. I was clearly out of it, and probably in shock. I dropped my pistol into my purse and slowly walked toward the van. As I reached the door, and was out Axton’s view, I turned to face the Hispanic man.

“If you’re going to do it, do it,” I heard Axton shout. “Prove to me he isn’t one of yours.”

The Hispanic man pulled the trigger of the gun. The man on the ground went limp immediately. I heard another shot. Although I couldn’t see him, I assumed Axton killed the man on the ground. I stared at the Hispanic man. Without emotion, he raised the barrel and pointed it at the dead man’s head. Again, he pulled the trigger. As the gun fired, the man’s head disappeared.

Holy fuck!

“Grab that other crate of guns for him, Otis. And pick up Avery’s brass, there’s two on the ground somewhere. Find them,” I heard Axton yell.

“Got it, Slice,” Otis responded.

Axton walked beside the van and into my view. I stood and stared.

“I’m keeping this,” Axton said as he held the gun in the air.

“I’ll gave theeese one to jore partner,” the Hispanic man said as he raised the other gun to his chest.

Axton quietly walked up to me and leaned the gun against the van. He opened his arms and without much expression, began to speak.

“I had no idea anything like this would happen. I’m sorry you were involved, but I’m God damned glad you were here. Just like the man said, you saved our asses, Avery.”

I stood and stared, not knowing what to do or say.

“Come here,” he said as he held his arms outstretched and curled his fingers into his palms.

I quietly shuffled my way to him and laid my head against his shoulder. As his arms wrapped around me, I exhaled and bit my quivering lower lip. As he pulled me closer and held me tight, I began to feel safe. Although I had just shot two people, and witnessed their execution; something about being in Axton’s strong arms was beginning to make me feel as if nothing else mattered.

As he held me, I realized as far as Axton was concerned this was just another day in the life of being an outlaw. For me, this would without a doubt be a life altering experience. As attracted as I was to Axton, we were two totally different people in so many respects.

As Otis walked alongside the van toward us, I lifted my head from Axton’s shoulder. I watched as the Hispanic man drug the body of the man with no head toward the other truck. I blinked my eyes, turned toward Otis, and forced myself to smile. Otis extended his blood covered hand. I blinked again and stared.

“Devil looks after his own, Slice. I’m tellin’ ya, he damned sure does. One in a million chance, but I got the brass and both slugs,” he said as he turned his palm upward.

His hand was covered in blood and small pieces of fleshy material. In his palm were the two cartridge casings from my pistol, and the lead bullets. He had apparently dug them out of the dead bodies. He was right, finding them was probably a one in a million chance. Strangely, I wasn’t disgusted by it all; I was grateful. Without the bullets or brass casings, there would be no way the police could trace the killings to me. As Axton released me and held his hand out, I shook my head and nudged my way between him and Otis.

“Give them to me, they’re mine,” I demanded.

Otis shifted his gaze back and forth between Axton and me. “They’re covered in blood and those Mexican’s guts.”

“I don’t give a fuck, they’re mine. And I don’t trust either of you two with them,” I hissed as I opened my hand.

Axton nodded his head and smiled his shitty little smile.

Otis reached out and dropped the items into my hand. I looked down at my blood soaked palm and stared for a moment; as if I expected to wake up from some weird dream. After a few seconds, I realized this was as real as it gets, and I shoved everything into my pocket. As I wiped my hand on my jeans, it dawned on me; I may not ride a motorcycle or be in some club, but after what happened, the three of us weren’t that much different.

Without a doubt, in the eyes of the law I had become an outlaw.

And in my eyes…

I had become a Sinner.