CHAPTER THREE
JAXSON
THE DRIVE TO MY HOUSE is silent other than the radio playing softly in the truck. And for once, I’m grateful for it. I know we need to talk, but right now, all I can think of is tossing her on my bed and fucking her until she understands that I’m all she needs. “Craving You” by Thomas Rhett comes on and causes me to smirk because I’m craving her like a junkie jonesing for his next fix.
I try to control the raging desire to reach out and hold her hand and never let it go. For two years, I’ve wanted to find her and demand answers. Now that she’s here, sitting beside me, I feel like I’m finally complete. There are so many questions I need to ask her, but for the life of me, I can’t think of a single one, other than needing to know what perfume she’s wearing because it’s driving me crazy.
“What perfume are you wearing?”
“Egyptian Musk. Why do you ask?”
The sound of a phone buzzing stops me from telling her.
Movement catches my eye, and I see she’s typing on her phone. Peering over her shoulder, anger surges through me at the thought of her messaging another man. I catch the words, be back home later tonight, and the spark of jealously hits me like a punch.
“Are you texting another man while hiring me for a date, Lil?” At the sound of my voice, her head jerks up.
“No, I wouldn’t do that, K…Jax. I was messaging Essex that I would be later than I intended. And everyone calls me Lilly, not Lil.” I tilt my head at her; curious. I want to know who Essex is.
“Essex?”
“I met Essex about a little over a year ago. She was brought into the emergency room after her ex-husband, beat her almost to death. He ended up killing himself, which if you ask me was a blessing to the world. We clicked and formed a friendship while she has worked on getting over what happened to her. She now helps me out when I need her from time to time and recently got a job at the hospital with me.” Her voice trails off, and I get the feeling she’s hiding something.
However, the thought of her in the emergency room makes my chest tighten.
“Why were you in the emergency room?”
“I’m a nurse.”
“I remember you saying you were an in-home caretaker the last time we were together,” I state as I pull into my parking spot.
“I was until my Pee Paw died. I ended up getting a job in the emergency room, and a few months ago, I was promoted to head nurse.” She’s looking at her hands, and I can sense the unease she feels talking about herself. I reach over and pull her to me, needing to touch and hold her close.
“I know we have some talking to do, but Lilly…I need to be inside you more than anything right now. Promise me you won’t run before we talk?”
At her nod, I crush my lips against hers, and her flavor bursts along my tongue. I moan at the unique flavor that is Lilly, a flavor I haven’t had since that one night. I need to get her inside because if I don’t, then my neighbors are going to get a show they never anticipated. And really, I don’t want them seeing something that is only for my eyes.
LILLY
Before I can process what’s happening, I’m flying through the air and hit something soft. Blinking, I look around and realize that somehow, we made it into his bedroom. The thought that he has done this often makes me freeze, and I start to rise off the bed.
“Jax, let’s talk—” I’m cut off before I can say another word.
“Lilly, I told you in the truck…I need to be inside of you.” He stalks toward me as he pulls his shirt off, and the wetness grows even thicker between my thighs.
“I can’t be in the same bed that others—” Again, he interrupts before I can finish my sentence.
“I don’t bring women back to my home, Lilly. You’re the first.” Before I can react, he has my sun dress stripped over my head and thrown on the floor. I instantly cover my stomach because there are a few stretch marks from Kasey, and I don’t want him seeing them.
Fear slowly trickles through my veins, and I think about the last time I was in this situation. There is no way I’m ready to go down this road again. Especially since he still doesn’t have a clue about Kasey. I really need to stop this now so we can talk and I can tell him the secret I’ve been holding onto for two years.
“Jax, wait—” His words stop me mid-sentence and have my body flooding with pleasure.
“Fuck me, you’ve gotten even more breathtaking than the last time.” He lays me back onto his bed and brings his lips to mine, causing my head to fill like a fog is rolling in. Hands grab my wrists, and they are pulled to lay above my head. Ripping of material somehow penetrates the cloudiness that my brain seems to be in. The realization that he tore my panties from me has my body heating even more. His hand slides between my thighs and finds the exact spot that’s throbbing for him.
“Soaked. Fuck, I need you now.” It takes me a few moments to realize he’s off me and stripping out of his pants. I watch him reach down and pull out a gold wrapper, and then swiftly put the condom on.
“I’m sorry, angel, foreplay isn’t going to happen this round. But I promise to make it up to you.” Then, he’s at my entrance. I need to tell him to go slow. It’s been awhile, and Jax isn’t a small man.
“Jax—” is all I can get out before he slams inside of me, making me scream in pain. He quickly leans his upper body off mine and stares at me as the tears begin to slide down my face. I squeeze my eyes shut and struggle to breathe through the pain.
“Lilly, when was the last time you had sex?”
“You were the last one,” I mumble through the pain.
“Fuck, Lilly. I’m sorry I hurt you. Shit…let me go, baby,” he whispers, and I realize I have my arms around his neck, clinging onto him tightly. He reaches up with one hand and wipes away the streaks of wetness from my cheeks while gazing at me with a look of sorrow.
“No, just give me a minute, please.” At my plea, he nods and holds as still as he can. After a few moments, I wiggle around, and pleasure flows through me. Him filling the aching part of me that has been without for two years has me moaning in pure ecstasy.
Shit, I forgot how amazing sex was.
“Are you okay? I really need to move, but fuck, I don’t want to hurt you again.” The tension in his voice expresses just how much he is holding back allowing me to adjust to having him inside me.
“Yes, please, Jax.”
JAXSON
Fuck me…hearing her say I’m the only man who has ever been inside this tight piece of heaven almost has me coming. What she doesn’t understand just yet is that I will be the only man, for the rest of her life, who will know what her pussy feels like.
“Jax, if you don’t move right now, I’m going to slap the fuck out of you,” she growls out, and I look down into her bright blue eyes. Her demand has a chuckle escaping and urges me to reach between us and find her clit.
“You want me to move, angel? You want me to make you come on my cock and show you who owns your body?” I smirk when she clenches around me. I slowly swirl my thumb, and she writhes in response.
“Shit, that feels so fucking good. Please, Jax…I need you to make me come. I haven’t had an orgasm from a man since that night. Please stop teasing me.” That does it, her confirmation that I’m the only one to make her feel this way…yeah, the caveman inside me is beating his chest.
Pulling out until only the tip is still barely inside, I then push in deep and hard, bottoming out, causing her to clench around me even more. She’s so damn tight, it’s hard to move. I rock harder and faster because I know the moment she comes, she’ll get tighter, and it’ll be what makes me fall over the edge with her.
“Fuck, Lilly, you feel so fucking good around me. Come, baby, I need to feel you tighten around me. I need to feel your sweet juice pour out of you.” I remember that talking dirty does it for her. With my thumb, I press firm circles faster around her clit. After a few more deep pumps with my cock, she tightens and screams out my name as she crashes over the edge.
Putting my hands beside her head for leverage, I begin to thrust faster and stronger than I ever have. The tightening of my balls signals that I’m about to find that release alongside her. I know this is going to be just like the last time—life-changing. She’s the one who I’m meant to be with.
I push in again, chasing my release, groaning when her nails dig into my back and she pants in my ear…but it’s what she says that has me shoving my cock in her once more before stars burst behind my eyelids from coming harder than I ever have in my life.
After a few minutes of simply holding her close, coming down from the most amazing high I’ve ever felt, I take a moment to understand that what she said really did seal her fate, as well as made me realize that my soul no longer belongs to me.
After rolling us so she’s now on top of me, I slowly rub her back. Sleep begins to claim us both while her words ring in my ears…It has always only been you.