Chapter 15
Jaxson
It took three fucking days for Lark to call me with a location. Beau was avoiding me at all costs and it was for the best. This shit could destroy our business.
The house was big and almost perfect for the people who want the two point five kids and the white picket fence. He swore she was here, and something in my twisted.
How did Jason hide this from me? And why the fuck would he buy this place? Walking up to the door I knock. A part of me wanted to kick it in and then what?
Would I drag her out of here? Make her come to my place? And what about Alisa in all of this. Did I make them live in the same house while we raised this child?
Could I sit by and watch Sarah slowly deteriorate. Slowly leave even if only in her mind? I would be killing her slowly I would be the death of her. The thought of a world without her damn near ripped me apart.
I wanted to off my future wife. I was an animal the thought of marrying her had me wanting to slit her pretty little throat. Not anywhere in the contract does it say once were married, she couldn’t just disappear.
The door opened saving me from my thoughts. Sarah’s laugher had her face lighting up. It hurt to see how beautiful she was this glow from the pregnancy only adding more to the pain.
“Jaxson.”
Her whispered words had everything in me stilling. She thought she could run from me? Take our child and disappear?
“Sarah.”
I wanted to say more I wanted to demand answers. I wasn’t used to having to fight for what I wanted. Jason appeared behind her and I snapped.
Gently pushing past her I grabbed him by the throat. My gun was in my left hand. The heavy weight a stark reminder of what this was used for.
“How fucking dare, you! What the fuck gave you the right to take her?”
“The moment you decided to fuck her and marry Alisa.”
My fingers tightened slightly, and I could see my brother’s lips turn a whiter shade. He was trying to cover up the discomfort he was in the slight fear he was feeling.
“What the fuck Jason. You’re my brother…”
“Don’t you think I fucking know that? I’m doing this to save her and you. Do you honestly think you can watch her wither the light inside her die as she watches you with her?”
The pain in his voice had nothing to do with the pressure I had on his throat. It went deeper than that. If I wasn’t so focused on Sarah I would force him to tell me everything.
“You think I want this?”
His eyes spoke volumes a small part of him did.
“Jaxson please let him go.”
Her voice was full of sorrow and it broke a little piece of my heart. All the warmth I felt at seeing her again slowly turned cold.
Releasing my brother, I turn to Sarah.
“Why did you run?”
What I wanted to ask was why she left me.
“You know why I left.”
I did, but I needed to hear it anyway. I was begging for this self-punishment.
“Tell me.”
“You’re marrying another woman Jaxson. How could you ask me to stay and watch you love her? Watch you have a family…”
“Sarah...”
“Would you want to watch me do the same? Watch me wed another? Have children with him?”
I felt something sink deep inside me it felt like I swallowed a stone. Like something in me withered and died. The thought of another man touching her…
“So, Jason my own brother was going to be that man?”
“What the fuck is wrong with you Jaxson? Do you not see the big picture? Your brother is trying to save us both. Are you so blinded by your own shit to not see his?”
All the shit she said she still didn’t answer my question.
“Jaxson.”
Turning I look at my brother a man I trusted.
“How the fuck could you do this to me?”
“Do this to you? Saving her? I have to watch every day as you kill a little more of me. I was never staying here.”
If my head wasn’t so far up my own ass I would have asked what the fuck he was talking about. But I did have my head crammed up my ass.
The ringing of my phone only added to the fucked-up atmosphere surrounding us. The air seemed to become thicker and harder to inhale.
I knew who was calling and so did Sarah. I watched as her eyes filled with tears she didn’t want to let spill over. She didn’t want to show weakness and that was one of the qualities that made her perfect to be a don’s wife.
“Aren’t you going to answer? We both know who it is.”
Her back was turned to me now as she spoke, and it felt like she was shutting me out. Slowly I was losing her. Pulling the phone from my pocket I look at the screen.
She was right, it was Alisa. Not answering it would be a mistake and I knew that.
“Alisa?”
I watch as Sarah’s back stiffens at her name.
“Where are you? You were supposed to be here thirty minutes ago!”
“Where?”
“Cake tasting Jaxson!”
Fuck, I didn’t want to taste cakes I wanted to hold Sarah and stop the pain I could see pulsing off of her. Removing the phone from my ear I hang up.
I was killing one of the only things I loved in this world.