Cameron lay in bed with a book in his hand. It was late, well after midnight, but he couldn’t sleep.

Between his newly discovered love for Nathan and what was going on with Nick, his mind refused to shut down. He stared at the page in front of him and realized he had no idea what he’d been reading. He’d read at least twenty pages but hadn’t absorbed a single thing.

With a sigh, he went back to where he’d started and slipped a bookmark between the pages. There was no point reading when he was like this. He was about to put the book away when there was a knock on his door.

“Yes?” He sat up and looked over at the door. No one had ever come to his room before. Was one of the kids sick? Did they need him?

“Nathan?” He put his book down on the bed as Nathan pushed the door open. “Is everything okay?”

“I saw the light on,” he said after a long pause.

“Do you want to come in?” Cameron asked as Nathan hovered at the door.

Nathan nodded and stepped into the room. He quickly locked the door and awkwardly stopped in the center of the room.

Cameron put his book on the bedside table and shifted over as he pulled the sheet down. Nathan never acted like this around him, and even as he climbed into bed and pulled Cameron against his body, he knew something was different.

“Are you okay?” he asked as he cuddled against Nathan’s strong body.

“I’m fine.”

“You smell good,” he softly as he breathed in Nathan’s fresh, clean scent. He loved the soap Nathan used, and he could tell by the way his hair was still damp that he’d taken a shower before coming up to see him.

“So do you,” Nathan said softly as he kissed the top of his hair. “How was the party?”

“It was good, although my nephew dropped a gigantic bomb on me right after I got there.”

“What happened? Is he okay?”

“He got himself into some trouble,” Cameron said with a sigh.

“How old is he?”

“He’s nineteen, the oldest.”

“So I’m guessing it’s adult trouble.”

“You could definitely say that. Last week a girl he hooked up with at a party tracked him down and told him she’s pregnant, and it’s his.”

“Wow. Could it be?”

“He had sex with her, and if she’s telling the truth about the dates, then it probably is. He was drinking, and he didn’t use protection. She says there was no one else, so it probably is his.”

“Wow.”

“Yeah.”

“It’s kind of strange to think of getting pregnant by accident. The hoops Jason and I had to jump through to get a surrogate, not to mention the cost. It was eye-opening.”

“Do the kids all have the same mother?” Cameron asked, hoping he wasn’t overstepping.

“They do. We were lucky to have the same woman carry all three of them for us.”

“I’m freaked out for him. This is so huge.”

“If your family is half as wonderful as you say they are, I’m sure he’ll be fine, no matter what happens.”

Cameron didn’t say anything as he snuggled closer to Nathan, drinking in everything about the man he was in love with.

“You’re comfortable. I really like this part.”

“What part is that?” Nathan asked as he pulled Cameron up on his body so he could hold him a little closer.

“This part.” He smiled. “The talking and the cuddling.”

“I like this part too,” Nathan said softly as he bent his head and gently kissed him.

“Don’t get me wrong, I love the sex,” Cameron said with a laugh when Nathan pulled away. “But sometimes it’s nice to feel...” he trailed off and turned away.

“Feel what?” Nathan asked gently.

“Loved. For lack of a better word,” Cameron added quickly. “When we’re together, it’s incredible and amazing, but sometimes it’s not until after that I feel...”

“I’m sorry.”

“I’m not complaining.” Cameron shook his head and looked up at Nathan. “Not at all. I love being with you, and I love when we’re together.”

“But sometimes you just want to feel cherished and loved,” Nathan finished for him. “I understand, Cameron. I really do.”

“I feel like such an asshole for complaining that my sex life is too good.”

Nathan laughed and shifted his body so they were facing each other. “Yes, our sex life is amazing, but I get what you’re saying. It doesn’t always have to be about sex. Sometimes it can be about making love.”

Cameron smiled, relieved Nathan had understood his ramblings.

Nathan gently reached out and cupped the back of Cameron’s neck with his hand, toying with Cameron’s hair as he did. After a moment, he slowly guided Cameron toward him, his lips soft and almost feathery as he kissed him.

Nathan rolled them so he was leaning over Cameron, still kissing him as though he was made of glass. His other hand snaked around Cameron’s waist, holding him close.

Cameron melted against him. Nathan was being so tender and gentle it made his heart race and his skin flush.

He moaned softly as Nathan moved them so he was lying down and Nathan was half over him, his lower body pinning down one of his legs.

Nathan kept his kisses slow and soft as he ran his hand over Cameron’s body, seductively teasing his skin before sliding his hand under Cameron’s shirt.

This was different and amazing. There was no urgency. Nathan was taking his time and showing him a more tender side of himself.

After a moment, Nathan pulled off his shirt, tossing it aside before he gently stripped off Cameron’s clothes.

“Nathan?” Cameron asked. There was a look on Nathan’s face he couldn’t place.

“I love you.”

Cameron stared up at him, his mouth dropping open as he processed what Nathan had just said.

“I love you, Cameron,” Nathan repeated. 

“You love me?”

“Yes.” He smiled as he stroked Cameron’s face with his hand. “I love you, Cameron.”

“I love you too,” he said, a smile breaking out on his face.

Cameron had been so shocked at his declaration he’d needed to ask Nathan to repeat it, just in case he’d imagined it.

He loved Nathan, but he’d never thought Nathan would feel the same way about him. He thought he was the only one breaking their sex-with-no-love rules.

Cameron reached up and gently put his hand on Nathan’s cheek, smiling as he guided Nathan’s lips down to meet his.

“Cameron?” Nathan asked, pulling away slightly.

“Yes?”

“Will you make love to me tonight?”

“Are you sure?” Cameron blurted out. Nathan wanted to bottom?

“I want to feel you inside me. Please.”

They’d never discussed if either one of them was vers, they’d just fallen into roles. Cameron, despite his size and nature, enjoyed topping, although he’d never topped anyone who was physically bigger than him before.

Cameron pushed Nathan back so he could lay over the bigger man. Nathan was still wearing his sweatpants, and Cameron quickly pulled them off so they could press their naked bodies together.

“Did you get tested?” Nathan asked, pulling Cameron so he was straddling his hips as he lay over him.

They’d discussed getting tested so they could stop using condoms a few weeks ago, but neither had brought it up since.

“Yes, I’m negative.”

“I am too. Will you go bare?”

Cameron couldn’t answer; instead, he gave Nathan a deep kiss that he tried to fill with all of the emotions and love that were swirling around inside him.

He took his time teasing Nathan, using his hands and mouth to kiss and touch as much of Nathan’s body as he could. When he finally licked his tongue up Nathan’s hard shaft, he was rewarded with a strangled gasp.

“I’m good. I don’t need much.” Nathan pushed up on his elbows so he could look down at Cameron. “I need you.”

Cameron kissed the tip of Nathan’s cock, smiling as Nathan’s pre-cum smeared on his lip.

“Do you want me to?”

“No, I’m fine. If you touch me, I might not last.” Cameron licked his lips and gave Nathan a quick kiss before reaching over to pull a bottle of lube out of his bedside table.

He tried to go slow as he rubbed his slicked fingers over Nathan’s hole, but it would seem Nathan was just as eager as he was, and the other man pressed against him as he begged for more.

Cameron had to hold on to his own desires as he teased and toyed with Nathan. It had been a while since he’d rimmed anyone, and he loved how Nathan responded to him. He was so vocal and expressive, way more so than when he topped. This side of Nathan was pliant and needy, and Cameron fucking loved it.

“Now, please fuck me now,” Nathan begged as Cameron moved two fingers in and out of him.

Cameron pulled his fingers free and added a little more lube to his erection. When he was sure he was nice and slippery, he moved closer and pressed the head of his cock against Nathan’s hole.

“Fuck, yes, love.” Nathan nodded in affirmation as Cameron pushed inside him with tiny strokes, getting him used to the invasion.

“God you feel good.” Cameron bit his lip and planted his hands on either side of Nathan’s body, holding himself up as he bottomed out inside him.

Nathan wrapped his legs around Cameron’s waist and shifted his hips so he could take all of Cameron’s cock. He was desperate, and so was Cameron.

Cameron would have liked to go slow and torture and tease Nathan until he was a quivering, blubbering mess, but his own need was too strong, and he ended up fucking Nathan hard and fast.

The sex was desperate and hot, but they never lost eye contact, and that made it so incredibly intimate Cameron’s heart swelled.

“I’m not going to last.” Cameron bit his lip and desperately tried to stave off his orgasm. “You feel too good, babe.”

Nathan reached down and grasped his cock, fisting it at an almost furious pace as he looked up at Cameron.

“I’m going to come,” Cameron warned when the pressure reached the point of no return and he couldn’t hold off any longer.

“Me too. Come for me.” Nathan’s body clamped down around Cameron a moment later as cum splashed between their bodies. His shout of pleasure and the look of pure euphoria on Nathan’s face were enough to push Cameron over the edge, and he came only seconds later.

Cameron collapsed on Nathan’s chest, his breathing fast and a little shallow. It had been a long time since he’d topped, and not a single one of his past encounters could hold a candle to what they’d just shared.

After a long moment, Cameron rolled off Nathan, his chest sticky, and his dick spent. Nathan wasn’t doing much better. He was splayed out on Cameron’s bed, grinning and looking thoroughly fucked out.

Cameron gathered the little control he had left and rolled off the bed. He wiped down with a damp cloth in the bathroom and then brought a second one out for Nathan to use. He tossed the cloth in the hamper when they were clean and climbed back into bed so he could snuggle with Nathan.

“I mean what I said. I love you, Cameron.”

“I love you too, Nathan.” He smiled. “I do. I just didn’t think you loved me.”

“I didn’t think you loved me.” Nathan tenderly brushed a lock of hair off Cameron’s forehead. “I’m glad I said something,” he added with a grin.

“Definitely glad about that.” Cameron laughed and hugged him tight.

“It’s getting late,” Nathan said reluctantly.

“It is. I have to get up and get the kids ready for school in a few hours.”

“After you get them up, why don’t you come to my room?”

“Really?” 

“Yeah.” He grinned and kissed the tip of Cameron’s nose. “We can sleep in, if I let you sleep that is,” he added with a wicked smile.

“I’m sure you’ll need to sleep at some point,” Cameron laugh. “You’re the one who has to do all the heavy lifting.”

“I’m in pretty good shape.”

“Yes, you are.” Cameron giggled. “And I’d love to. That sounds great.”

Nathan smiled, hugged him closer, and kissed the top of his head. “I’d ask you to come down now, but I know you’d say no.”

“I can’t.” He shook his head. “I know the odds of one of the kids getting up is low, but if they saw me coming out of your room, or if they came up and I wasn’t here, it would be confusing for them.”

“I know.” Nathan sighed heavily. “Then I’d better go before I recover enough to keep you up all night.”

“As tempting as that sounds, I’m going to have to be the responsible adult here,” Cameron said in mock seriousness as he watched Nathan climb out of bed and track down his clothes.

“Of course you are.” He grinned. “But you can’t blame a guy for trying,” he added as he leaned down to kiss him.

“No, I can’t,” Cameron said with a smile as he pulled the blankets up over himself. “Especially when he looks as good as you.”

He was rewarded with a hearty laugh as Nathan left his room.

As soon as the door closed, Cameron flopped back on his bed and stared up at the ceiling.

It had certainly been an eventful day.