I don't know what came over me, but it was hard for me to even look him in the eye right now. We were sitting on the swing, my legs slightly moving a little bit to rock it back and forth and I kept looking over at Craig. I was still trying to get it through my head that he was actually here and that I had actually went thousands of miles to see him. It didn't seem like something that I would ever do and I was scared about what's going to happen next.

Craig was right to say that I wasn't a virgin. I was almost twenty-eight years old and of course I had been with other men. I hadn't had that many boyfriends, to be fair, but I wasn't completely out of touch with what happened. I know what he wanted, it was the same thing that I wanted, but at the same time I was afraid of what was going to happen once he touched me and we were all alone. When I couldn’t stop what happened next.

Once he put his hands on me and pulled me to him, whispering the things that he said to me on the phone, I was never going to be able to come back from that. I had already fallen so hard for him, and I knew that this night was going to be the nail in the coffin and for some reason that scared the crap out of me.

He put his arm around me and pulled me closer. It was like he knew that I needed some reassurances and I was more than happy to put my head on his shoulder. It was something that I had thought about for a long time, and I was finally able to do it.

“I can see that you're not shaking as much Jeanine. I'm going to take that as a good sign.”

“You know that I want to be here. I wouldn't have come all this way if I didn't want to see you, but you just get me so nervous. Used to get me this way on the phone and being right here next to you has just put my senses into overdrive. I have a feeling that you're not too upset about that. You like to get me this way I suspect.”

Craig snickered a little bit and I knew that I was right on target. It had become rather clear once our relationship had gone to the next level on the phone, when we started talking about things like sex instead of hopes and dreams, that he loved to get me all riled up. When it started getting dirty, I knew that he took a little bit of enjoyment from driving me crazy. I could hear it in his voice and in the tone of the words that he said, but now I could see it on his face. He really enjoyed it, probably too much.

“Well. I did want to get you thinking about how we were going to spend the night together. It is the only thing that makes sense to me and I know that it is what is supposed to happen. But if you want to sit out here for a little bit longer, hell if you want to sit out here all night, I'm still going to be here when you're ready. It’s meant to be with us Jeanine and I can wait. You are certainly worth the wait.”

For some reason that was all I wanted to hear. I was suddenly no longer upset about anything because I didn’t feel pressure. It was all going to work out just fine. I was so worried about everything that I had forgotten that I was sitting next to my friend. He wasn’t just some guy. I felt like I knew a lot about him and I was sure that there was a good reason for the way things were going.

I was being silly. I kept telling myself that, but it didn’t stop the way I shook when I was next to him. It had subsided enough that I was able to hold it in better and he didn’t notice. I was still worried about what was going to happen next, but I was here to take a chance. I hadn’t come all of this way to be afraid. I was going to take a giant leap forward because I was sure that it was going to be worth it in the end. I was just so sure of it. I really was.

Instead of letting all of it get to me and stay in my head, I leaned forward to kiss him. Here I was worried about everything and there was no need for that. All I was supposed to do was figure this out and I knew that I wasn’t going to be able to do it when my mind was turning so quickly. I knew that there was something inside of me that was dying to get his hands on me. It had been a long time since we’d first talked about me coming. Now I was here, he was in front of me and I didn’t want to wait any longer.

Craig didn’t say anything, but he didn’t need to. I could tell for hours that he was desiring me. I knew from the conversations we’d had and the way we had played with each other that we were both turned on, but he had been sporting a woody for quite a while now and there was nothing else I could do but stare at it.

When he moved closer and kissed me again, my eyes were pulled away from looking, but that didn’t stop anything. I could still see the hard knot in my mind, no matter if my eyes were closed or not. I was suddenly far less concerned about anything else but that.

I should have known that I was going to drive myself mad. I had built it up and now I was melting against him and I no longer wanted to be out on the porch, in town. What I wanted to do with him was going to be better if we were inside somewhere. I wanted it to be just me and him. Tonight, felt special, really special. I wouldn’t tell Craig, but I did feel different.

“Let’s go inside Craig. I don’t think we should give your neighbors a show.”

He chuckled before he agreed, “If that is what you think is best.”

“It is. After being in a church thirty minutes ago, it just seems like the thing to do.”

“Whatever we do now will be sanctioned by the Almighty.”

That was a strange thing to say, but that was just how he was. He was always saying little things like that and I couldn’t help but think that it was a communication thing. Many places had different saying and such, but again, I wondered what that meant. I was going to ask him, but Craig was pulling on my arm to get me up and I could tell that he was sick of waiting.

It didn’t take long for us to get inside the house and again, I was looking around me. It was not at all what I had thought and since Craig was such a simple guy, I didn’t expect the opulence that I found in his home. The man was a walking contradiction. I wasn’t sure what to think about it all, but I knew that there was something new to learn every time we talked. Now it was all so much more, and I was finding it hard to cope.

“ Jeanine. I will give you a tour of the place later.”

“You have a very beautiful home Craig.”

“That's good to hear and all, but you have a very nice ass. I want to finally see it. You have been teasing me on the phone for all this time, and I'm ready to see it all. All I have is little tidbits in my mind of what you look like and I want to see the masterpiece underneath those clothes in full.

If nothing else, Craig certainly did have a way with words. He had a way of making me feel so beautiful and like I was the most beautiful woman in the world. It was certainly not a feeling that I wanted to stop, because I never felt that way before. I had always felt average to everyone else. There was always a woman that was blonder, skinnier, and that had bigger boobs than me. I'd always been the second choice when it came to going out to a club because my friend was always prettier.

With Craig though, I felt like he only had eyes for me and when he extended his hand and asked me if I was coming with him, I took it and we climbed the stairs together. This is worth what we have both been waiting for so long, and it was finally time for it to happen. I couldn't believe it, but at the same time I had prepared myself for this moment for so long that it was almost unreal.