Chapter Thirty-four

 

 

 

Oh my God, did I just say that? I thought.

“Gladly,” he answered, pulling off my panties.

My heart was pounding in my chest as he spread my legs and slowly pulled me to his lips. The moment his warm, wet tongue touched my sex, I gasped. I’d never had anyone do the things he was doing to me down there or felt so much pleasure.

“Oh my God,” I moaned as he slid his fingers into my opening while licking me like I was an ice cream cone. Then his tongue moved faster as he synchronized his movement with his fingers, manipulating my womanhood until I was screaming out an orgasm. “Jordan, yes! God, I fucking love you!” I gasped, my body shuddering in ecstasy.

He moved away from me just as I realized what I’d said. I opened my eyes and noticed that he was putting his shirt back on.

“I didn’t mean that,” I said, laughing nervously. “I just loved how you made me feel.”

“And how was that?” he said, not looking at me.

“Do you really have to ask?”

He shrugged.

“What’s wrong with you?”

“Nothing.”

“Then why do you look so pissed off?”

“Because this should have never happened,” he answered sharply. “I’m being paid to protect you and I just got done…” He ran a hand through his hair. “Jesus, what in the fuck is wrong with me?”

“Well, I didn’t think it was wrong,” I said with tears in my eyes. “And I don’t appreciate the fact that you just took something that I thought was… fantastic, and called it a mistake.”

“But it was a mistake,” he argued “Look, I’m glad that you enjoyed it, I really am, but it shouldn’t have happened.”

“Why? Because I accidently said that I loved you?” I answered, grabbing my panties. “Or is it just that I disgust you sexually?”

“What? No!” he snapped, his eyes wide. “Is that what you really think?!

“I don’t know what to think anymore,” I said, getting dressed.

He was about to say something, when a light from outside caught both of our attention.

“Oh my God, what was that?” I whispered.

“Someone’s over at the other cabin with a flashlight,” he said, rushing to the window. He grabbed his night goggles and put them on.

I joined him. “Can you see anything?”

He was silent for a few seconds and then smirked. “Yeah. I see something. Three men just stepped onto my damn porch. They’re definitely wearing cuts.”

My breath caught in my throat. “What are we going to do?”

“You’re doing nothing,” he said. “I’m going over there and putting an end to this.”

“You’re going to kill them?”

He didn’t reply.

“Jordan?”

“Jessica, you’re better off not knowing.”

I wrapped my arms around myself, frightened of what was going to happen. I knew he was supposed to be good at what he did, but I was suddenly afraid of losing him to those assholes. “Maybe we should wait it out and then just let them leave.”

He shook his head. “No way. First of all, they’re on my property and that really pisses me off. Secondly, these guys are going to hunt us down until we’re dead, Jess. It’s either them or us.”

I knew he was right, which scared me even more.

He went over to the duffel bag and pulled out two hand guns, then holstered them to his body. Then he grabbed the M16.

“You stay here and keep the door locked. If anyone but me comes through it, shoot to kill.”

“Right,” I mumbled.

“I’m serious.”

I nodded. “Yeah. I know.”

He stared at me for a second and then his eyes softened. “I’m sorry.”

“For what?”

“For everything. For being an asshole. For being me. Truth is… I don’t know what to do with a girl like you,” he said, smiling grimly.

“You seemed to know what you were doing a few minutes ago.”

He walked over and pulled me into his arms. “For the record,” he said into my hair, “you could never disgust me. Ever. I almost came myself, a couple of times, from being so excited. I want you. I want you badly. It just can’t go that far, though.”

“Even if I want you, too?”

He didn’t reply as he released me. “I’ll be back. Hang tight and keep this door locked.”

“Jordan,” I said, still frightened of losing him. I took a deep breath and told him how I felt. I needed to. “I meant what I said. You might think it’s wrong but… I think I’ve really fallen in love with you.”

His eyes narrowed. “You hardly know me.”

“I know.” I laughed nervously. “Look, I just wanted you to know in case… this turns out really, really bad,” I said, nodding toward the window.

Sighing, he turned around and walked out the door.