18
Adley
I had been in the same position and in the same clothes for a week. I thought so, at least.
It was an exaggeration for sure, but it was mostly true. I would wake up, get breakfast, make the bitter coffee in my hotel room, and go back to bed and watch television. I was just down in the dumps, feeling sorry for myself and I hated it. I hated that self-pity feeling, and feeling like I couldn’t do anything to help myself. Hating every decision I made and wishing everything was different.
I wished I had grown up differently. Had real parents who supported me. Wished I had gone to college and worked my dream job in a bakery somewhere. Or even had my own bakery, and repeat customers that I knew by name.
It was just a dream, I knew that. I knew it could never really happen.
Until a few days later when something shifted. I didn’t even know what it was. I had been thinking a lot about Levi and Tate. About how they both loved their jobs, loved the work they did, and cared about me too. They both checked on me every day, but I just couldn’t bring myself to respond for some reason. I thought I was just ashamed of having ignored them so many times, that I couldn’t reach out to them.
I also knew it was just because I didn’t know how to tell them how I felt. I accepted my new found sexual attraction to two men, and tried to justify it in my head. But I just couldn’t let myself think it was okay to have feelings for two men, and expect them to be okay with it. They were best friends too, so that just made it feel worse to me.
We never had serious conversations about feelings and all that. It hadn’t been that long, anyway. I just knew what I was feeling was real. A raw, deep pull towards Levi and Tate that I knew I couldn’t shake. They were both amazing men. Smart in their own ways, funny, and sweet. It was obvious how much they did care, I just didn’t know if they wanted me to feel for both of them.
Because I did, of course.
It was halfway through the day when I got out of bed, but stayed in my large tee shirt and boy shirts to surf the net for some jobs. I figured it was time to actually start making a change in my life. I knew I couldn’t go back to school and start from the beginning, so I wanted to find something where I could learn on the job.
I wouldn’t mind being a lowly assistant in a bakery or something. Anything that could get me around baking, I would be happy with. I noticed I didn’t have any new messages on my phone either. Not since the morning when they had both said good morning to me, and asked me how I was doing. My fingers lingered over the keyboard, wondering if I should try and reply to them. But every time I typed something out, I ended up deleting it because it didn’t sound right. I felt like an indecisive teenager.
I tore thoughts of them from my mind and tried to focus on my applications. My resume was still up-to-date. I just had to tweak my cover letter a bit, and then it was just a bunch of copy and pasting, and attaching my resume and cover letter in the right place. I wrote a specific cover letter to Amelia’s even though they weren’t hiring. By the time I was done my fingers were a little crampy, and my eyes were tired. It felt like a good time for a nap.
I plugged my phone in to charge—as if anyone was trying to get in touch with me—and turned the television on back to Law & Order. The lull of legal terms and intense cops made my eyes droop, and just as I was falling into that sweet warmth of sleep, there was a knock at my door. I didn’t remember ordering room service. I immediately thought my card had declined or something crazy like that.
I yawned and got up to open the door. But I didn’t expect what met me on the other side. Levi and Tate were there. Levi wore a dark green shirt that stretched across his muscles and made his green eyes pop. He was also holding a big brown bag of what I assumed was food. Tate had on a faded red shirt, and they both were their sexy jeans that fit them perfectly.
And I was wearing an old Nine Inch Nails tee shirt and pink cotton boy shorts. Great. I hadn’t brushed my hair in days, either. Long story short, I looked a mess. They looked perfect.
“Um. Hi.” I bit my lip nervously as my heartbeat picked up.
“Hey, can we come in?” Tate asked apprehensively. He regarded me carefully, his eyes fleeting across my body.
They both were looking at me like that. My body heated with anticipation.
“Uh, yeah.” They came in and I shut the door. “How did you find me?” I locked the door.
Levi set the bag on the little side table.
“Wasn’t too hard. Just a lot of charming the lady at the front desk,” Levi grinned. I blushed as I imagined him trying to get someone to do what he asked. He didn’t even have to try with me, so I wondered how that woman must have felt.
“Oh.”
Tate and Levi stood opposite me as they both gave me the same look. Wonder, confusion; any would do.
“Um…you didn’t have to come all the way out here. I’m sure you’re very tired from working all day.” I cleared my throat nervously. I shifted my weight on my feet and wrapped my arms around my stomach, as if I was holding myself together. Keeping myself from doing something crazy like throwing myself at them.
“We’re worried about you, Adley,” Tate said.
“I’m sorry I haven’t replied to your messages. But I’m fine, I promise.” I lied easily. At least I thought I had before they both tightened their gazes on me.
“We’re not mad about that or anything. And we don’t care. We just want you to be able to feel like you can talk to us,” Levi said.
I furrowed my brow in confusion. I guess I wasn’t sure what he was really trying to say, and I didn’t know how to ask.
“Look, I’m sure you haven’t eaten all day. Why don’t we just sit and have dinner first?” Tate stepped forward and touched my shoulder gently. But it still sent tingles all over my body.
I swallowed a forming lump and nodded. “Okay.” I tried a smile, but my face was too tight.
They both smiled warmly and sat me down at the table. Tate unpacked the bag; there was a lot of stuff but I realized it was only because it was pho. It required a lot of containers. And there were egg rolls. I nibbled on one as Tate made my bowl and Levi offered suggestions.
“Have you ever had pho?” Levi asked.
“No, never.” I giggled softly.
“Really? It’s pretty good. I hope you’ve at least had spring rolls,” he laughed.
I nodded. “Yes,” I said with a smile.
I already felt so much lighter. Like it was easier to breathe. The tension in my shoulders faded the longer I sat with them. And the food was really good, the beef broth and tender meatballs perfect. The closest thing I ever had to it before was ramen, but it didn’t measure up at all.
I wanted to ask them about the house and everything, but I couldn’t bring myself to do it. I wanted to stay in that moment where it was just us, and we weren’t held together by anything else. That I would still be sitting here with them if it weren’t for my grandmother dying, and her house being left to me.
“Adley, what’s bothering you? We can tell something is going on.”
We had finished eating and Tate was the first to try and coax me to talk. Levi cleaned up all the empty containers and sought the same information from me. I took a deep breath and tried to find the right words. I didn’t want to start crying so I knew I had to tread carefully. I tended to cry when I was frustrated or mad. When I was sad, I didn’t do much crying. It was odd, but it was just how I was.
“There is a lot going on. I don’t know where it starts or ends,” I said, my voice low and defeated.
“That’s okay. Just start from what you know. We want to help you,” Levi said.
With a shaky breath I stood up and walked over to the bed. I needed air from the both of them. They were just as suffocating as they were comforting. I didn’t know how to take it, or how to explain myself.
“I know. I just…I don’t want to talk. I want…” I trailed off, shaking my head.
Levi walked closer to me, closing the space between us in fast, easy strides. Then he was in front of me, inches away, and not being able to breathe was exactly what I needed.
“What do you want?” He searched my eyes.
Tate came over as well and I was as good as surrounded.
“I don’t know. I mean…I want you both,” I said aloud for the first time. “And I know how crazy that sounds. But it’s the truth. I understand if that isn’t what you guys wanted but…” I let out a gush of air and searched their expressions. It was a mix of shock and something else, but I didn’t know what.
“That’s what we came to tell you, Adley,” Tate said. “The house is almost finished. And we still want to be with you after. There or anywhere else, though I doubt you’d live somewhere else. We want to be wherever you are,” Tate finished. And I knew the other part of the expression I couldn’t place was happiness, or understanding.
“Oh. I don’t know what to say…” I gasped.
I looked up at them both. Levi was smiling his sexy grin and Tate had his soft, comforting smile on. Both their expressions warmed me up inside and made me all tingly. It was all the feelings I had for them that was making it so intense. I only imagined those words, I couldn’t believe they were actually true. Levi nodded to say he felt the same way.
They both wanted me. Two men wanted me and it was insane at the same time it felt so good.
“Say you agree. That you feel the same way too. Only if you do, of course,” Levi chuckled.
“I do feel the same way. It’s just…a lot to process.”
I looked back at Levi and the mood shifted.
“We can skip that part.”
I opened my mouth to ask what part but Levi silenced me with his mouth. As always his kiss was hot, hungry, exactly what I needed. It stirred my body up from the inside and I saw stars as I clenched my eyes shut and leaned into the kiss. My hands cupped his face, his soft stubble feeling so good under my fingers. As he spun me around, my fingers combed through his hair and I felt Tate’s chest behind me.
The warmth of their bodies enveloped me and I practically melted. I already felt my sex throbbing, gushing between my legs. I felt Tate run his hands up my inner thighs and I reached back, clenching his hard, muscular thigh as he reached my damp folds. I felt him rub me through my panties, and I moaned into Levi’s mouth.
His tongue swirled around mine and he practically growled as he palmed my breasts. Together they groped me, rubbing every inch of my body. Levi pulled away and I took a deep, heavy breath before Tate turned my head and coaxed his lips across mine. They were soft and sweet and exactly what I needed.
In front of me, Levi pulled up my shirt and pinched my nipples. Then his other hand disappeared between my legs and yanked my panties away. He knelt in front of me and his hands left my body. I felt cold and empty. And then I felt his mouth on me and it was like coming alive again. I could barely stand up as he sucked my clit.
Tate pulled his lips from mine and tugged my shirt over my head. Then he reached in front of me and palmed my breasts as his lips found my neck. My heavy groans filled the air, my deep moans mixed with their deep breathing and Levi sucking my wet folds. I fisted my left hand in his hair as the other went to Tate, holding his head to my neck as his fingers worked across me.
“Do you know how fucking gorgeous you are, Adley? So fucking perfect.”
I only moaned in response as Levi went faster and Tate pinched my nipples a little harder. I was on the verge of coming and they held me there as long as they pleased. Levi groaned between my legs and the vibrations made me come undone.
I cried out in a way the neighbors would surely hear. I shook and trembled as they held me tight and I barely had a second to recover before I was thrown onto the bed. Once I landed I realized I had literally been thrown onto the bed.
They undressed and I feasted my eyes on their hard cocks, erect and ready for me. I could hardly breathe. I sat on the edge of the bed and reached for them. My hands trailed up their left and right thighs. I looked up into their eyes and saw the pleasure flash across them as I took their cocks in my hands.
It was amazing how they felt. Hot flesh, hard yet soft. Levi was an inch longer and thick, Tate was all girth but his length was just as impressive. Levi had darker skin that grew darker the more I pumped him, and Tate had veins that ran the length of him and disappeared at his arrow shaped head.
They both growled as I squeezed tighter and pumped them up and down until moisture started to appear at their tips. I licked my lips in anticipation to taste them both. I was momentarily distracted by them each cupping my breasts and teasing my nipples.
I moaned and took Levi in my mouth first. I took him fast and deep at once and his abs clenched as he swore. He tasted like hot salt and I swallowed the moisture already there. Then I turned to Tate and sucked his tip gently before taking him fully. His taste wasn’t as salty but it was sharp and I reveled in it. He moaned and clenched my nipple tighter.
“Fuck. Adley,” Tate groaned as I took him deeper and he started to fuck my mouth.
I curled my lips around my teeth and sucked harder.
I still had Levi in my other hand but he moved away and crouched down in front of me. He ripped my legs apart and pressed two fingers inside of me. I groaned as he went deeper and curled them inside of me.
He went on like that until I was close again, and I brought Tate closer to the edge too. Then it switched and I took Levi between my lips. He didn’t waste any time before picking up the pace and thrusting deep into my mouth.
Tate toyed with my swollen clit with his thumb as he used two fingers to stretch me apart. I trembled like I was permanently on the edge of climax. I think I was, anyway. Every part of me was alive. Breathing. Torn between these two men but held together by them at the same time.
Levi grew louder in his groans as he gripped my hair. His thighs were clenched and shaking so I knew he was close, keeping himself from coming. They both waited until I came again, moaning against Levi’s cock as I trembled.
“Your mouth is fucking perfect,” Levi said breathlessly.
I smiled softly as I wiped the corners and breathed heavily.
“Lay back on the bed,” Tate said gently.
I nodded and shifted back onto the sheets. The white soft comforter wrapped me up like a cloud. They fished condoms out of their pocket and rolled them on as I waited. Tate climbed on the bed behind me, and pulled my face towards his for a kiss.
His lips were so soft and sweet I melted from their touch. I felt Levi climb in next to me and I was between them once again. Levi trailed kisses down my body, my neck, my clavicle. He worshipped my breasts until they were wet from his mouth and continued down. I moaned and arched towards him when he kissed my clit. Then he came back upwards. His fingers traced my body and his lips went back to my breasts. He really did love those things.
I breathed against Tate’s lips as he pulled away. Our lips touched and we breathed each other’s air as his cock slid inside of me inch by glorious inch.
“Tate…Tate.” I moaned aloud as he filled me.
I felt so complete. So satisfied. I turned to Levi and his bright green eyes bored into mine as I came apart with pleasure. Everything was so perfect. Between them, it just felt so good. My left hand clenched Tate’s muscular side as Levi held the other. He kissed the pads of my fingers, and then sucked slightly on the first digits. I shuddered at the feeling of his hot mouth.
I moaned and groaned until I felt myself losing my voice. I just couldn’t contain myself. Tate pulled away and then Levi thrust into me so fast I screamed. My breath seized in my chest as he fucked me hard and fast. I became vaguely aware of the screeching noises I was making. They were dirty and raw and I just couldn’t help myself.
Just when I thought I couldn’t take any more of it, Levi stopped and was replaced by Tate’s deep, slow strokes. I felt myself clench and adjust. It went on like that. For so long I laid between them, taken by two men.
I came twice more and they brought themselves to climax inside me, one after the other. There was something about them taking their pleasure from me that just turned me on. But I was exhausted and couldn’t do any more. Levi came first and took me in his hard, hungry kiss as Tate finished off and then took my lips for himself.
I fell asleep with the taste of them on my lips and their arms wrapped around me.