Berserk
Once on the road, Vladimir cranked up some Russian jams and laughed when I made up my own lyrics in time to the music. Early on, I knew he was involved in illegal activity, but the man I had gotten to know was a caring, loving person, someone I enjoyed spending time with. My dad, however, wished I would evaporate.
Vladimir and I had fun cooking and hanging out in the kitchen, dining out, and just being together. At home, we didn’t do family dinners—at least not ones that included me. Despite our problems, I loved my dad, but I couldn’t wait to get out from under his roof.
Instead of following the Camry, I took the long way around. Since it would take time to pick up Megan, I decided to surprise the boss. For once, I had control over him. I felt so wild and free and bad.
“Where are you taking me, angel?”
I peeked over at him. “It’s a surprise.” I turned into an ice cream shop and parked the Ferrari sideways in the back of the lot. When we got out, a little boy with light-up racecar shoes and blue ice cream caked on his cheeks bounced over to us. “I wike your Fewawi.”
“Thank you, cutie,” I said. “Actually, the car belongs to him.”
“What’s mine is yours, Miss Cook.”
The boy looked up to Vladimir with his mouth open like I had introduced him to Batman. The boss’s complexion glowed as he admired his star-struck admirer. “Cool shoes, young man.”
The boy stomped back to his mom’s minivan. “The Fewawi guy wikes my shoes.”
Vladimir put his arm around me, and we walked to the door. I led him to a table by the window and ordered a triple-scoop raspberry sorbet sundae topped with pineapple sauce, yogurt chips, and extra cherries. Two spoons. When the server brought it out, she set the huge bowl down between us. I clinked his spoon and toasted “to your health” in Russian.
Vladimir fished out a cherry, held it up, and dangled it in front of my mouth. I followed his lead and picked one up for him. “At the same time,” I said.
“To sweet surprises,” he said.
“To sweet surprises.” We clinked our cherries and fed them to each other. Just as I wrapped my lips around it, and the tips of his elegant fingers pressed against my mouth, a voice boomed behind me.
“Are you really going to eat that garbage before playoffs, Cook?”
I almost choked. “Hey, Coach.” I spit the cherry out into my napkin. “Don’t worry, I’ll burn it off.” I sat up straight in my seat.
He flashed me the look.
“I’m sure Miss Cook knows what she’s doing, friend.” Vladimir leaned forward, tapped his fingers together, and stared down Coach.
Coach put his hands on his hips. “I’m not sure she does, comrade.”
Oh, shit. “Coach, it’s cool.” I stood up and backed him toward the freezer section. “Mr. Ivanov is my dad’s boss. Please, don’t embarrass me.”
He glared over my shoulder. “I know who he is.” He turned his focus back to me. “And he paid off your debt at the club out of the goodness of his heart?”
I studied Coach’s pursed lips and accusing eyes. What is he insinuating? “He’s the most generous person I’ve ever—”
“You have a lovely family, Coach Williams. Jerome Williams,” the pakhan said.
Coach’s wife waved. She and the kids were building their sundaes at the topping station.
“Your family lives across the street on Deer Cross Lane, right?”
How did he know that?
Coach’s expression soured, then he softened his stance and walked back to his family. “See you at practice tomorrow, Cook.”
***
When we got back to my house, Dad and Karen hadn’t arrived yet. Vladimir got out of the passenger side, walked around the car, and opened the door for me.
“Thanks again for an awesome day.” I gave him a quick hug. “See you tomorrow.”
I turned to go inside, but he pulled me back to him. “Take me to your bedroom.”
“What?”
“I want to see where you spend your time when you’re away from me.”
“It’s nothing. Dad will be here any second. What if he comes home and finds—” Before I could make my case, the boss headed up the sidewalk to the front porch. I hurried, got out my keys, and twisted the lock. Once inside, I bolted upstairs. He followed.
When he entered my room, he marveled at my décor as if he wanted to remember every detail: My purple bedspread, a stack of fashion magazines, dusty stuffed animals, a Barbie Doll shrine, miniature boxes of cereal and packs of nuts I noshed on when I didn’t feel like going downstairs, a corkboard with pictures of my friends and me, a bookcase loaded with trophies, and a life-size poster of Rafael Nadal next to my bed.
A picture of Sophia and me on my desk caught his eye. I was five, sitting on my thirteen-year-old sister’s lap. Sophia was smiling with her arms around me, and I was snuggling my poodle twins in my arms. The picture had belonged to Sophia. When she died, I took it from her room, hid it in my bed, and slept with it under my pillow for months.
“That was Sophia’s favorite picture.”
“Mine, too.”
Vladimir’s gaze moved to a collage of my life growing up with Kiki. The big picture in the center of the frame was of us at a hibachi table holding up crossed chopsticks.
“Look at you, Carter. Such a tiny angel.” He ran his fingers over the glass.
“That was my twelfth birthday party. Dad traveled a lot, so Kiki’s mom and dad, Doc and Mary, took us out. They practically raised me after Sophia died. They call me their ‘other’ adopted daughter.”
He read the caption under our photo.
Chopstick Twins.
“It was our nickname back in grade school.” I held up two fingers. “Stick thin and always together.”
“So cruel.”
“Now you understand why I’ve never had a boyfriend? I looked like a stick-side-down mop until I started working with a trainer.”
“Is that why you look so sad?”
“Is this the face of an unhappy girl?” I pointed to some of the other pictures. “Kiki and I did gymnastics, soccer, ballet, and vacationed together. We’re like family.”
“Why do you fight with your papa?”
I felt like I was at Confession. A fresh round of tears welled up in my eyes. Vladimir put his arm around me, led me to the edge of my bed, and sat us down. “Tell me.”
“Kiki and I have been best friends since we moved here. Up until the accident, Sophia had taken care of me while Dad worked long hours. Since we didn’t have family close by, Mary offered to help out. During the week I lived with Kiki’s family—where I was happy—then Dad dragged me back here on the weekends. I hated him for it.”
“He’s your papa.”
“It got worse when he married Karen. He made me stay here with her full-time instead of going back with Kiki’s family. I felt like I didn’t belong in my family anymore, so I hid up here. That’s when I withdrew emotionally.”
“I’m sorry you had to go through that.”
“It was a long time ago. I’m totally over it. Dad, however, is not. He drives me nuts. I can’t wait until—” I stopped midsentence when Vladimir’s breathing had gotten heavier.
“I can’t stand the thought of you being mistreated.”
“Whoa, whoa, mistreated? I’m not mistreated. All kids fight with their parents. It’s our job to make their lives suck so they won’t miss us when we move out.” I joked to lighten the tension.
“You’re different. A fragile angel like you—”
“I’m not fragile, and don’t you think he’s right to be hard on me sometimes? Let’s be real. Dad thinks I’m at the tennis club whipping up smoothies so I can buy a car. If he knew about our arrangement and how I’ve been lying to him, he’d go berserk.” Worried I had insulted him, I shut my mouth and waited for him to respond.
“I will tell him when he comes home. I won’t let you face his wrath because of me.” Vladimir headed for the door.
“No way. Promise you won’t say anything.” I jumped in front of him and blocked my bedroom door, as if I could stop him. “He’ll be so ticked. Probably madder at you than me, and trust me, you don’t want to see him angry.”
Vladimir crossed his arms and studied my freaked out, arms stretched across the doorframe stance. “You think I am afraid of your papa?”
“Of course not, but why do you want to provoke him? Everything’s fine. If he finds out, he’ll never let me see you again. Please, I need you.”
Vladimir peeled my fingers off the doorframe, held my wrists, and brought my arms down. He kissed my cheeks, but not in the usual way. His warm lips lingered on my skin while he massaged the nape of my neck. The closeness of our bodies and the heat emanating from his skin caused a groan to escape from my lips. Vladimir rubbed warm circles on my back and whispered Russian words in my ear to soothe me.
“What does it mean?” I whispered.
“Something good.”
Blood rushed down there. I wanted to tackle him on my bed and run my fingers through his sexy hair and touch his chest and feel the warmth of his lean, muscular body. Lately, I’d felt The Urge. Right or wrong, Vladimir lit my sexual fire. It wasn’t his body or his incredible blue eyes, it was how he made me feel—like the important person in his universe.
“What kind of good?” I laid my hand on his chest and snuck my finger inside his shirt to touch his skin. I traced the outline of the devil with my fingernail. Vladimir inhaled sharply, excited by my touch. I unbuttoned the top button of his shirt—
He lowered my hand. “Your papa will be home soon.” He left the house a minute before Dad turned into the driveway. I replayed the day’s events from his smoldering eyes, to his strong embrace, to the taunting words, “Oh, Carter is that what I am, your boss?”
What did he want to be? My friend? Boyfriend? Lover?
I spent the rest of the evening melting under the covers, dreaming about how awesome it would feel to have Vladimir there with me. He was guarded on my turf, but if we’d been at his place there would have been nothing to hold us back. I was dying to feel the weight of his body on top of me and the warmth of his skin and his hands rubbing me all over…
I tucked my special phone under my pillow in case he called to say goodnight.
He didn’t.