CHAPTER TWELVE
DREW
I pulled Millie into my side, noticing how she winced in discomfort at the movement. Dammit. I had been too rough with her, and I knew better, I fucking knew better. The worst part was that I didn’t even go as hard as I wanted to. I held back, restrained the animalistic instincts that were clawing at my insides begging to be unleashed.
“Are you all right?” I kissed the top of her forehead lightly. She was still sweaty and somewhat breathless from the romp we just had, and I cursed myself not realizing what I’d done until it was too late to take it back.
Fuck. I was showing too much emotion. She couldn't get used to this, those random kisses whenever, and the comfort I was giving her.
We were fucking plain and simple.
“Yes, I am wonderful!” She cocked her head and looked at me with smiling eyes.
“Let’s get home and get cleaned up.” I shifted away from her and put the truck into drive. I was conflicted with emotions, emotions I had never experienced before.
“Maybe we could make some popcorn and watch a movie? I could use a snack,” she questioned, pulling me from my own thoughts.
“I don’t know how you could be hungry when you just ate a huge burger and most of the fries.” I arched a brow at her playfully.
“Hey, now. I did not eat most of the fries. You did as soon as you realized just how amazing they are dipped in a malt.” A big grin pulled at the corners of her lips, and I rolled my eyes. I enjoyed this, the banter, the smirks.
The rest of the way home we enjoyed the sounds of the summer night, the light breeze, the crickets, and the truck tires rolling over the gravel. I glanced over at Millie briefly, taking in all of her beauty while her long brown sex hair blew in the wind, getting even more tangled. Goddamn. She was a fuckin’ beauty, and the reality of it hit me: she would never actually be mine. I looked back to the road and away from her.
“Look, you can see all the fireflies!” she interrupted the silence, and I looked back over in her direction and out the window. And I’ll be damned. There had to be millions of fireflies lighting the field along the road. I nodded, acknowledging that I’d seen them and turned my attention back to the road.
I pulled the truck down her driveway and parked in front of the house, then I got out and opened her door for her, helping her down because I knew she’d be sore. I was a dick, but I wasn’t that big of a dick. She had just given a piece of herself to me and the very least I could do was tend to her pain.
I lifted her from the seat and settled her onto her feet. I released my hold on her, even though my hands itched to cradle her against my chest, to inhale her scent mixed with mine. Instead, I fought the instinct to claim her and I walked ahead of her, taking the steps up the porch two at a time.
Opening up the screen door and then unlocking the big front door just behind it, I pushed it open and walked inside. I watched Millie out of the corner of my eye as she slowly made her way up the stairs of the porch and into the house.
“Jeez, what are you in such a hurry for?” She looked at me inquisitively.
“Nothin’. Just wanna get cleaned up.” My words were clipped. Why couldn’t I just be happy with her for one night? “You wanna shower first or should I?” I questioned, patiently waiting for her response.
“How about we both shower and save some water?” She sucked her plump bottom lip between her teeth and my cock twitched. Fuck. This woman had a sex drive.
“I already told you we can’t be fuckin’ again tonight, Millie. It’s not good for ya. You’ll get hurt.” I placed my palms on her shoulders to assure her that it wasn’t because I didn’t want her, because I’d love to take her again, but that it wasn’t a smart choice on either of our parts.
“Did I say anything about fuckin’ again? No, I didn’t. I said we can shower together and save water. Just keep your hands off me and we won’t have to worry about anything.” She winked at me and smiled devilishly.
She needed an attitude adjustment…
“Oh, don’t worry. I won’t have a problem keepin’ my hands to myself. I’m worried about you bein’ able to keep yours to yourself. I think I’ve awakened a beast in you, little pistol.” I began to pull the sleeves of her dress off, letting the dress fall off her slim body and pool onto the floor at her feet.
I cleared my throat, staring down at Millie who stood in nothing but her bra and panties in the well-lit kitchen. It was strange seeing her, really seeing her for the first time, and she was stunning. Absolutely fucking stunning.
Millie looked at her dress that was lying in a heap on the floor at her feet and then back up to me.
“You’re worried about me?” She reached her hands behind her back and unclasped her bra, the straps falling down off her shoulders as she dropped her arms, letting her silky bra hit the floor right along next to her dress.
She was killing me.
Slowly, she leaned down, grabbing her dress and bra from the floor. My eyes went straight to the slope of her back and the crest of her ass.
Fuck me. My insides melted at the image of her ass bouncing against my cock.
Shit. Fuck. I was flustered.
The sound of a throat clearing brought me back to reality, and before I could muster up a word, Millie took off struttin’ her sexy ass toward the bathroom…and I followed like a goddamn puppy, my cock fully erect and ready to play.
Once in the bathroom, Millie turned on the shower, all while making sure to peel her panties off super slowly before stepping into the hot spray. Leaving me to stand there just inside the door, battling with the thoughts in my head. I knew what would happen if I got into that shower with her, and I knew even more that it was going to take everything in me to keep my hands off her.
But I suppose this would be a good test to see if I could control myself around her, especially when she was completely bare.
Fuck it. I shucked my clothes to the floor and pushed them to the side of the bathroom wall with my foot.
Millie was giving me come here eyes and I tried my damnedest to ignore the magnetic pull she had on me. I stepped into the shower, turning toward the water. I let the hot water spray against my face while I ran my hands over my eyes and cheeks and then through my hair. I could still feel the burn of her eyes on my skin, and as I turned back around, sure enough, there she stood staring up at me like a lioness about to attack its prey.
She stalked closer to me, placing her hands on my bare chest, her nails sinking into my pecs as she ran them up and over my shoulders, and then back down my biceps. Her small hands sank deeper into my skin as she squeezed my muscles, a lusty moan resonating from deep within her.
“Millie, I said no, and no, means no.” I was stern with her, even though I would have loved nothing more than to pin her back up against the shower wall and fuck her into oblivion again.
“I’m not tryin’ to get you to fuck me.” She stood up on her tiptoes and pressed her lips against mine.
“Then what the hell are you tryin’ to do?” I sucked her bottom lip between my teeth, fighting the need that begged to be unleashed.
“Well, I’ve never done it before, so I’m probably not any good at it, but I wanted to at least try it.” She smiled shyly. Her words slammed into my gut.
“What’s that?” I had a feeling I knew exactly what it was that she wanted, but I wanted to hear her say it. An adventurous glint formed in her eyes.
“I want to give you a blow job,” she murmured, dropping down to her knees before me, her fingertips danced from my chest and down to my belly button where she was squatted down on her knees.
My cock was aligned evenly with her mouth.
Jesus, this was actually happening.
Her small hand attempted to wrap around my length as her tongue darted out, licking the head. I clenched my fists at my side, willing myself to be easy on her. It was her first time, after all, and she wasn’t like any of the other girls I had been with before.
“Am I…” She stared up at me with the desire to please in her eyes. I swallowed down the need that coursed through me as I gritted my teeth and nodded my head.
She smiled, her eyes glittering with excitement as she swirled her tongue around it a few times. I knew this was going to take some guidance from my end, but I didn’t want to touch her in fear of giving into the needs I desperately had. Brushing her hair back out of her face, I lifted her chin, squeezing her cheeks gently.
“Open up, I'll help you.” My eyes danced back and forth between my cock and her lips, and then back down to her again. There was nothing like having your real-life fantasy come to light and having Millie on her knees, and at the mercy of my cock, set that fantasy skyrocketing into a fucking reality.
Millie obeyed, opening her mouth real wide, and I placed the tip of my cock just past her peach colored lips. “Now suck on it like you would your favorite popsicle or sucker, giving it a lot of tongue and a lot of suction.” She nodded, taking a little bit more of my length into her warm mouth, her tongue flicking against the slit of my cock.
I tipped my head back, holding back the need to slam into her mouth. I wanted to fuck her mouth. I wanted to feel my cock deep in her throat and hear the smack of my balls against her chin, but that would have to wait for a later time.
“Mmmm…” She moaned around my length, her voice vibrating through my balls. I held her head in my hand, gently guiding her up and down my cock while her tight mouth sucked me hard. I stared at her, becoming hypnotized by her eyes alone. She was looking up at me as if I was her entire world, and I couldn’t let her down, at least not now.
“Fuck, Millie, you sure you ain’t done this before?” I groaned into the water. Millie upped her pace at my compliment, her tongue swirling against the head again and again.
Heat filled my belly and started to build like a fire that was being stoked, and with every slip of her tongue over the slit of my cock, I came closer and closer to the edge.
“I’m going to cum.” My fingers threaded through her golden brown locks, and I pulled out of her warm mouth just in time.
Ropes of warm semen shot from my cock and onto the tiled floor of the shower. I stroked the bad boy, relishing in the pleasure that had crashed into me. It felt as if I had been floating, my entire body soaring through the air. My eyes opened and I stared down at Millie. She was watching me, and I hated seeing disappointment flickering in those beautiful green orbs.
“I wanted you to cum in my mouth.” She pouted, pushing from the floor. I offered her my hand, but she batted it away, telling me all I needed to know about where this conversation was going to go.
I scratched at the back of my head. “I couldn’t do that to you. It was your first time doing it, and you’re too fucking good and innocent and sweet, and Jesus, Millie, you shouldn’t be on your knees sucking my cock.” Guilt crashed into me, taking all the pleasure I was feeling away. This woman had a way of crawling under my skin, and even if I couldn’t have her, I still couldn’t treat her like I had all my past hook ups.
“I just wanted to thank you for everything.” I couldn’t listen to her praises for one more second. With little effort, I backed her against the wall, my lips crashing into hers. I was so over her praising me. She didn’t know about my past. All she knew was what she saw in high school and what I let her see right now.
“There ain’t no damn reason to thank me, darlin’. You gave me something that no one else ever has before so, if anything, it should be me thankin’ ya.” I cradled her cheek in my hand. Her skin was so soft in comparison to my rough, calloused hand, and that was yet another stark reminder of how much she wasn’t meant to be mine.
She licked her lips, her pink tongue darting out over her bottom lip, the same tongue that had been swirling around my cock just moments ago.
“Whatever you say,” she mumbled, turning her cheek away from my hand. I knew I was crossing a line being so kind and gentle to her, but I couldn’t let her think that this didn’t mean something to me. Not when it meant everything.
Every-fucking-thing.
“Don’t say whatever, sweetness. It ain’t like me to be sweet and kind, but with you, I can’t be anything but that, so whether ya believe me or not? That’s your choice, but the fact that you gave me something no one else has… That alone puts you in your own category.” I shouldn't have drawn the line in the sand, not when I knew I would end up crossing it for her.
“You don’t have to be somethin’ ya ain’t, Drew. I don’t want what we did to change ya. We’re still just sleepin’ together, so don’t you worry your little heart.” She lifted her hand, placing it gently against my own cheek, a sincere smile pulling at the corners of her lips. I grinned down at her, thankful that it was her this time that had changed the mood between us. Especially since I was so close to breaking down and telling her exactly how I felt.
“Let’s get you washed up so we can go watch a movie.” I pressed another kiss to her plump lips. As long as Millie was strong when I was weak, there would never be a problem. But if there was ever a time when we were both weak together, everything would crumble and one of us—most likely, Millie—would get hurt.