Chapter 15 – Larson
I pull Brynn onto the porch and kiss her as soon as the door closes behind us.
I can't help it. I know it's fucking foolish. But lust— and infatuation— make people do foolish things.
I’m starting to think I could actually be in fucking love. For the first time in a long time. Which is sooner than I ever thought it would happen, because I never thought it would happen again.
And I never thought it would happen like this. Instant attraction. Instant love. Or at least instant deep like. On Hallo-fuckin-ween.
It doesn't make a lot of sense. But neither do a lot of things in life. So, I don't fight it. I just go with it. And it feels so fucking good.
I’m in like with Brynn Elliot. It’s probably too soon to say love, but I’m definitely in deep fucking "like" with her.
"Listen," I tell Brynn. "I know you have to go. You don't have a lot of time. But I want you to come back."
"But I…"
"I know," I tell her, putting a finger over her full, sweet lips. "You don't even know me. So that's why I need to tell you. I had to leave because the cops would probably arrest me if they came to Riley's house."
"Why?"
She's looking at me with those fucking gorgeous eyes of hers, wanting an explanation. I know I have to tell her, even though I never thought I'd want to talk about it with anyone.
But I’m not ready to tell her everything. Just enough so that she understands that I had to go but that I want to see her again.
"There was something that happened," I tell her.
She's still staring at me with those fucking killer gorgeous eyes.
"In my past. It’s over now, but it still haunts me. And I’ve been determined to make it right ever since it happened. I might not be the most beloved in man in the world by law enforcement.”
She can't comprehend it, and I don't blame her. I just pull her close to me.
"Just listen,” I tell her. “I’m telling you more than I’ve been able to tell anyone. Because I want you to come back. But I’m not at the point where I can talk about everything that happened."
"Okay," she says. "Sure."
"I have to be on my best behavior or I could be taken in for a very long time,” I tell her. “I don't think that what I did warrants arrest, due to the reason I had to do it, but the law doesn’t always care about one’s motivations for doing things.”
"I see." She nods again. "So, you couldn't have…"
"…been seen beating up some asshole clowns," I confirm. "Officially, I have to stay away from anything like that. But behind the scenes, I make things happen. The Desert Dogs and I, we protect this town. I promised I would protect you. And Caleb. And I will."
She looks up at me and I kiss her again, soft and gentle this time.
"I also felt I needed to tell you because I have a lot of enemies and I don't know if they're connected to any of this," I admit.
I hope she's not mad at me, but it feels good to get it off my chest.
“What do you mean, connected to this?” she asks.
“To the craziness that’s been going. The clowns. The attempted burglary. The fact that they wanted to beat me up. I don’t know, it’s all so strange…”
"Don't be silly, Larson," Brynn says. "They're chaos-creating clowns. There is no rhyme or reason to what they do. If there was, then it could be related to me just as much as to you."
"How could it be related to you?" I ask.
"I don't know," she shrugs. "But Caleb's father is pretty crazy. And I got a weird vibe from Clay Tucker."
"Yeah, that guy was a definite creep," I agree. "And he seemed to have a thing for you."
"You picked up on that, huh?" she asks, with a wink.
"I have to admit I was a little jealous. But I knew that the head cheerleader had to end up going home with the star quarterback. That’s just the way things are meant to be."
She laughs, and I'm so glad things are normal between us.
"Don't blame yourself," she says. "Don't feel guilty. Because I could too. Or anyone could, really. I mean, it was at Riley and Jensen's house. Maybe it had something to do with them."
We look at each other.
"Jensen's mom does have some sketchy men in her past,” I venture, “that he's not made close friends with, to say the least."
"But it's over," she says. "It's nothing. I was just using Jensen and Riley as an example of how anyone and everyone might wonder if they did something to cause this. Any normal person would. But that's why the clowns do it. They want to stir drama and create confusion. They want us to wonder, ‘Is it me? Is it him? Is it her?’ and probably to turn against each other. We'll just be giving in to them if we start thinking that way."
"The last thing I want to do is give into those punks," I agree.
"So, let's not. Let's just focus on good things," she says.
Now that I put some of my issues out there and she’s been so receptive of them, I feel as if a burden has started to be lifted from me. A dark spell in my heart is beginning to be broken.
"Alright. Done. Starting now I'm focusing on seeing you again. So, when are you coming back to see me?" I ask.
"That depends," Brynn says, as Caleb opens the door and comes running out.
"Mommy!" he shouts, pointing at my bike. "Mo-to-cycle!"
"When can you come to New York?" Brynn asks me. "Because I think it's your turn next."
Damn it. That girl knows how to drive a hard bargain. Leave it to a lawyer to know how to negotiate.
I’m not a city dwelling type of guy. I’d be so out of place in New York. But if there’s one thing that would get me there, it’s Brynn. Just like she managed to get me into a fucking Halloween costume. Seems there’s nothing that girl can’t get me to do. Apparently, I’m pretty fucking smitten.