Chapter 11
Kendra
He was doing everything I wanted him to, proving that it was just as good between us as I remembered. Why did he have to be so perfect and know me so well? None of it mattered when I felt his hot mouth on my core and I felt his tongue flick back and forth on my swollen slit. Dennis knew exactly what it was that I wanted and needed. He had me at his first text and now I couldn’t think of anything else but how great it felt to be back with him again. How good it felt to be back in Dennis’ arms. The man had my body wound up tight in seconds. He had always had this hold on me that I was unable to fight and right now I didn’t want to. Right now I wanted to embrace that feeling with all of my being.
I looked down between my legs, my hand grabbing a handful of his dark hair and pulling him tighter to me. I wanted more and the longer he licked and sucked, the more crazy I felt about everything. I was ready to come again, my legs tightening around him and I couldn’t control myself anymore. His name was called out over and over again as I flooded his mouth with the taste of me. I couldn’t help myself and I didn’t want to. I was already too far gone just agreeing to see him. I might as well lose it all since this seemed to be my fate and there didn’t seem to be a way to stop it from happening, no matter how hard I tried.
He came up grinning and kissed me before yanking my panties the rest of the way down my legs. There was a need in his eyes that made me shiver inside and wonder what he was going to do to me next. He looked as though he was going to eat me alive and I worried that I was never going to recover from it. Dennis had always had this hold over me that I didn’t really understand. It wasn’t something that I could fight
My eyes were closed until I heard his zipper go down. My eyes were riveted to the hardness I remembered and then widened when I saw how big he was. It had been a while and it was hard for me to imagine that part of him. I remembered it, but my hand came out to grab him and start stroking his hardness. He had always loved how wet I got for him and I had always loved how hard he got for me. It was standing up without even a touch from me and I knew that he wanted this as much as I wanted him. With Dennis it was never a guess because I always just knew.
“God, I have missed you Kendra. I missed your hands on me, but I can’t take anymore until I am inside of you again. I need you so badly. You got to stop.”
I was more than ready for him to be inside of me. Ever since he had popped up again, it was literally all that I could think about was our times alone. I had a feeling that he knew exactly what it was that he was doing to me and the sly smile on his face told me all that I needed to know.
“I forgot how much you like to play with it Kendra, but not now. I need to be inside of you. I need to feel that silken love tunnel that I haven’t felt in forever.”
My hand moved away with the urgency in his voice. It cracked with the desire and need inside of him and the sound of him hissing as he moved closer. It was enough to send me over the top as well. Pushing against my wetness, I made a sound of pleasure as he sunk in. I remembered him well and my body embraced every inch of him like it had done so many times before. For once, I felt like I was finally complete again, a feeling I had been unsure I would ever feel again.
My arms went around his neck and I kissed him as he slid in all of the way. I can’t describe how perfect it all was. His manhood fit my core so well. It was as if it was made just for me and there is nothing I would ever want more than Dennis inside of me. My eyes closed and I leaned my head on to his shoulders. “God, I have missed this Dennis.”
He had a smile on his face as he made me look at him, telling me that he wanted to watch me come because it had been so long since I had done so for him. Dennis had always been so obsessed with my orgasms, almost more than his own.
His emerald eyes were holding mine and I couldn’t look away. He started to move inside of me slowly at first and I found it hard to hold the contact of his expressive dark green pools. I didn’t want to because my eyes were trying to close. It felt so good that all I wanted to do was hold him tighter and close my eyes for the ride that I knew was coming soon. He has never been able to make love slowly and I was waiting for the onslaught that I knew was going to begin. I needed it as I felt the build up from his penetration, just shy of pure pleasure that awaited me.
“Are you ready Kendra?”
I met his gaze again and nodded my head that I was. I knew what it was he was asking about. He was asking me if I was ready to really start doing it. Right now was just a reintroduction. “Good, because I can’t hold back any longer. You are so damn tight. It feels like you haven’t been with another since me.”
I wasn’t going to argue with him about the validity of that statement, but I did pull him to me for a kiss before he started to pump inside of me harder and faster than before. This is what I remembered when I thought of Dennis and my fingers gripped his shoulders as hard as I could so that I didn’t lose it. It was the only thing grounding me and I clung to him as the first wave of pleasure ran through me. It was different than before, stronger somehow because he was inside of me. Nothing was ever going to feel this good again and the idea of that made me hold on a little tighter than before.
“Fuck Dennis.”
I felt the world around me spinning and all of the thoughts in my head leaving me. I had never felt a feeling so strong in my life. I came so hard that it hurt my insides and when he pulled away, some of the fluid shot onto his stomach. That brought the biggest smile to Dennis’ face and I didn’t know what else I could do but hide my own.
Dennis slammed back in, the wetness making him go deeper than before and I was unable to control myself any longer. My hands hooked around him, as did my legs and he picked me up from my place on the counter. Dennis had always been so strong and he was showing it as his arms bunched up with each thrust in. I was unable to stop the barrage of orgasms that came my way. It was like one that kept going, no breaks in between and my body started to go limp. I just couldn’t take anymore and it was only Dennis that could ever bring me to this state of being.
“Please Dennis, I can’t.”
It was as if the permission was all that he needed to find his own end. He let me fall onto his thick manhood one last time before I felt the hot surge of his fluid inside of me. It was only then that I thought about the fact that he didn’t have a condom on. It had been the last thing from my mind when I had gotten out of the shower and saw him there.
My body had been awakened further with the way the water had moved over my body like a caress. It was one of those times that I hadn’t been able to control myself. I was in his arms now, he was still holding me up against him and he was still inside of me. Now all I could think about was what now? I had invited him over for one last time for old-time sake, but now I didn’t want him to go. I didn’t want to remember it all, feel how real it was between us again and then have it all thrown away.
Dennis set me down on my feet and I almost fell because my knees were so wobbly and weak. There was nothing that I could do about it, nothing that I could do about the way he made me feel at the present moment. I was at a loss for words and when I moved away from him, I was still trying to catch my breath. I forgot how hard he was on my body and mind. Dennis was the kind of man and the kind of lovemaking that I had to recover from.
“Are you okay?”
It was such a simple question, but I was afraid that the seemingly innocuous question had an answer that was just as benign. I couldn’t seem to figure out what that was though. I knew that I wanted him for good and that was not a possibility. I was okay physically, save from being sore, but emotionally I felt like I had just opened another can of worms and I didn’t know how to get it back in. How did I do something like that with him and feel nothing going forward? How could I lose Dennis again?
I felt close to tears and I hid my face. All of the orgasms must have brought on a river of emotions that I was doing my best to beat back. I didn’t want him to see how he had affected me, how he had affected me before when he left me. All of the old emotions came back all at once and it was like I had a huge knot in my throat that was impossible to swallow down. How could it ever be any different?
Dennis’s hand touched my shoulder and he pulled me to him, spinning me around to look at him. I didn’t know what it was that I wanted to say to him. I wanted to say nothing. I wanted to leave, but this was my place so there was nowhere that I could go.
It was then that I realized that I wasn’t wearing any clothes. I searched for the towel that I had come out of the shower with. It was on the floor where I had discarded it in the heat of passion. It had always been that way with Dennis, forgetting everything for just a little while, only to have it come back in waves that made it all feel worse. He had rattled my mind and now I had to somehow make it all better.
“What’s wrong Kendra?”
His green eyes had such concern on them. “Was I too rough? I didn’t hurt you, did I? I didn’t mean to get so excited. It was just so tight and you felt so good. I forgot how good you felt wrapped around my shaft.”
It was always that way with him. He never understood the emotions of it all. My heart was breaking, even as my body still sang his praises for what he had done to me. It was like getting a piece of me back and now I was mourning the loss again, because that was all I could do. There was nothing that could be done to change anything.
“No Dennis. It was great like it always is with you. You were perfect.” I could hear the disappointment in his voice. Why did I hate that I was so wrong about everything and that it was just as good as I remembered it? Why did I hate the fact so much that he really was perfect?
“So then why are you sad Kendra? You look upset.”
I didn’t have a ready answer and I just shrugged a little bit because I really didn’t know what to say. He pulled me into his arms and hugged me, helping me remember the safety that I had felt in his arms and treasured before. Whether it was real or not, it was always how I felt about it all.
I melted into his arms and tried to pull myself together. He was still naked and it wasn’t long before he was hard again. I eyed his hardness, still wet from my pleasure and tried to look away. My body responded in kind and before I knew it, he was kissing me and I was doing the best I could to hold it together. When he picked me up and started to cart me off to my bedroom, I had no more protest in me. This is what I wanted, if only I could shut my brain up long enough to understand that it was only going to be for tonight. Might as well make the best of it. Let tomorrow sort itself out.
Dennis half-threw me into the bed. The towel that I had put back around me was falling off again as I bounced a couple of times on the bed before I settled on my back. He had such determination in his eyes that I had to close my own for a moment to stop the wave of anxiety that flowed through me. How had I gotten back to this place again? It was a place that I said I would never find myself in again, I was I love and lust with Dennis.
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I fell asleep for a little while in Dennis’ arms. I don’t remember going to sleep, but just this peaceful feeling that had gone over me with all of the orgasms he had provided. I was just laid out, something that Dennis had done to me many times in the past. I felt a kiss on my forehead and that was the very last thing that I remembered. Everything else after that was blissfully black and void.