CHAPTER 16

Run.

Alex wondered what was going on. He felt the wind whipping through his fur, smelled the evergreen trees tingle his nose and heard the branches crunch beneath his feet. He was free.

He’d never felt freedom like this. It was as though a weight he’d carried for so long had been released. His joy quickly ended when he tried to stop but his body wouldn’t react.

Hunt.

What’s going on? His fear quickly escalated as he watched the world unfold around him, unable to make a movement. He was trapped in his body, trapped, not free.

Kill.

He heard them as whispers at first. The urges he’d always known that lived in the back of his mind. But, now they were guiding his actions.

Who are you, he wondered, why are you using my body?

Run, Hunt, Kill.

No, Alex urged, give me back control.

Mine.

This is my body, and I’m taking it back. Alex thought, defiantly.

He reached deep within himself; concentrating on moving his hand. Nothing. He tried concentrating on any part of the body that would obey him and came up empty.

He was a passenger being carried by his body.

What do you want, he asked again out of desperation.

Want to feed. Want to mate.

Alex knew the feeling well. Whenever he was close to Cynthia, his instincts tried to force their way out and take control but he’d always held them back.

Why are you doing this? he asked.

Need to be free.

Was this the part of himself that he was always trying to keep at bay? The part of himself that he’d feared for so long. Was this what made him so blood thirsty in his fights? Somehow he knew it was. That part of him had taken over completely.

You can’t just run around and kill people. What if a hunter catches you? he asked.

Kill hunter.

What about Cynthia? How can you mate if you don’t have a mate? he continued to ask.

Find new one.

Stop! he said, Just stop you stupid bastard of a dog.

Nothing he said mattered. Alex was mortified. All he could do was wonder where his wolf was taking him, what its intentions were, knowing first hand that it was dangerous.

So this is what it feels like, he thought. This is how it feels to lose control. Alex gave up, he was defeated. If he had no control what could he do? He could imagine himself drifting, lost forever on auto pilot.

The beast slowed to a walking pace. It panted heavy breaths in the cold evening air. Above him the moon poked through a small clearing in the trees.

Freedom.

Alex could feel what the wolf had meant. Freedom indeed. The satisfaction was a sensation that flowed between them. For once, Alex and his wolf agreed.

It feels nice, doesn’t it? he asked.

Yes.

I was going to run away from home so that I could make my own path; one without my commanding father or the frustration of dealing with a pack.

The beast laid itself on the ground. He could hear the birds of the evening prowling for the hunt, and the rodents that skittered along the dirt nearby. The breeze whistled at his ears and tugged at his fur as he sat in silence.

He rarely felt this free and almost never felt this alive. The calling of his instincts had always been a burden and one that he didn’t indulge. Deep down he could remember that he was always scared of the creature he saw in his dreams and feared that one day it might take over.

Afraid, he would try distracting himself, always doing things that scared him, to prove to himself he wasn’t a coward. Most of the time proving his courage got him in trouble with his father, the rest of the time he’d been too injured to care.

But, now with the beast firmly in control of him, he wondered if he had been right to suppress it. It felt like he’d spent his entire life cutting away a part of himself.

You’re part of me, he said.

Yes.

But, he thought, I’m also a part of you.

Yes.

One man, one wolf, bound together forever.

The wolf said nothing. He felt a surge of adrenaline shoot through his body. Every nerve in his arm tingled; instinctively he raised his arm to inspect it. He was surprised when it obeyed his commands. He lifted his other arm just to be sure, and was glad he could control himself again.

Freedom.

Both Alex and his wolf salivated at the thought of freedom. His muscles burned from sprinting so far into the woods, but all he could do was laugh at how great a feeling this was. He could feel his fears slowly fading away as if they didn’t matter to him anymore. He finally understood his wolfs intentions. Freedom. He’d been so scared of his wolf for so many years that he hadn’t realized his human and wolf side both wanted the same thing. He finally experienced what true freedom was, and all he could do was laugh. Or he would have if he had a mouth to vocalize it. His wolf was silent. Or perhaps it wasn’t that it was silent any longer, but it had finally found its rightful place.

Alex was so distracted that he hadn’t heard Cynthia close in on him. She stood a few feet away; he could smell the fear in her and needed to prove he was okay.

He let the wolf rest but lost his footing as he did and fell to the ground. His body no longer felt as heavy as it had in the past. His bones didn’t creak and crack back into place but instead they stretched. His muscles no longer burned as they shifted into his human shape.

He pulled himself to his feet, his body was lighter. It felt to him as though he hadn’t quite returned as the man he was. Scanning his body, he noticed there wasn’t any visible changes, but internally he felt like a whole new person. Without the internal struggle for dominance, he felt perfectly balanced. He was half wolf, half human. And, while his senses weren’t as high as before, he could still smell Cynthia’s delicate scent.

“It’s okay,” he said to Cynthia, still waiting in the forest, “I think I get it now.”

She stepped out of the forest herself and began her own shift. Her beautiful body glistened in the moonlight with a thin coat of sweat. She held her shoulders in defiance of the cold.

“I came to save you, but I guess you didn’t need me,” she said.

“I think I needed to rescue myself,” he replied. “But, I’m glad you came.”

She stepped in close, wrapping him in the warmth of her embrace. His heartbeat was slow and steady, full of confidence. Her hand slid down his chest.

“You’re… you again,” she said, with a smile that couldn’t hide her joy.

Alex laughed. He leaned over, and with one hand on her check, he kissed her. She stood on her toes, deepening the kiss. Her body quivered as he held her tighter. A surprised expression widened across her face as her arms felt along his hips only to climb up his body and rest on his shoulders.

“Yet, you seem so much more… manly,” she added, playfully.

He reached his hands down and lifted her by her butt. Cynthia gasped from the suddenness of leaving the ground. He felt his confidence exuding from his body.

She felt perfect in his arms. Alex could hear her heart quickening. It was no longer his wolf that spurred him to action, but all of him. He wanted her as he had never wanted her before.

His passion rose as he kissed her along her neck. She tossed her head back from the exhilarating feeling. They’d had sex at home but when in the outdoors he’d always held himself back even when she secretly wished he wouldn’t. He wanted to show her how different he was.

His body acted on its own. He suckled at her soft skin as she moaned loudly at the forest. They were so far from camp there was no way they’d be heard, but even so, neither of them cared. She urged him onward by clamping her legs around his abs.

His right hand caressed along her back as his left hand held her firmly in place. Her hips gyrated against him and he could feel her body screaming to be taken. The scent of her arousal continued to tease his still heightened senses.

His cock began to throb as her moisture ran down his hips to meet it, arousing him further. She reached her hand down to feel his shaft and was met with excitement.

She lined up the tip of his penis with her wetness and stroked herself with it. His own pre cum formed at the tip and merged with her. Every flick of his penis that rubbed against her clit sent tiny shockwaves of pleasure throughout her body.

He could bear the teasing no longer. He slid her small body lower and lower. The tip slid inside her and Alex could feel her shudder with excitement. He paused for a second to let her enjoy his cock, just as he enjoyed her delicate body.

Her soft warm opening invited him to probe further and he did as requested. Her body slid further down his strong shaft. She closed her eyes as the sensation took over. Never before had he made her feel this way. Alex continued to kiss along her neck and made his way down her body.

Her perky nipples were excited and his tongue found its way to greet them. She breathed heavily as he continued to enter her, inching his way further inside. Her hands dug into his back and were met by hard muscle.

Her pelvis met his and she held herself still, her own breath betraying her for a moment. As she tried to catch it, she bit down hard on his collar bone.

She wrapped around his cock so tightly that he had to fight to not explode right away. He’d never felt her like this before, everything felt new and exciting. The juices flowed from her opening and ran down his leg.

Her legs held tightly around his waist as she worked her hips in small circles; each motion a shudder, and each shudder a wave of pleasure. He took her by the hips as her arms folded around his neck.

With his powerful hands he worked her up and down along his throbbing cock. She moaned her satisfaction to the night sky.

The grinding sped up with each thrust, her body happy to oblige. She marveled at his endurance as they continued. A familiar tingle played in the center of her being.

Cynthia reached out for it, wanting to pull it closer. She didn’t have to try hard. It grew and grew until it took over her entire body. She bit her lip and buried her face in Alex’s chest.

The orgasm took over as she exhaled hard. A single moan escaped her lips, her body wracking with spasms. She’d never felt such a powerful orgasm in her life. All the energy she had drained away and she could no longer hold herself up.

Alex caught her and held her close. He continued working her body against his cock that still needed to be satisfied. But, it lingered just below the surface and it was easy to stop trying to hold back.

His penis throbbed as he felt himself release. Sensations he’s never felt before overtook him. Sex with Cynthia had been great, but nothing like this before. Alex felt more satisfaction with Cynthia than he’d felt since their first date. She’d given her all to him and nothing was held back.

He withdrew himself from her and she yelped as it left. She opened her eyes and smiled at the man that leaned over her exhausted body. Alex joined her on the ground, breathing heavily. He was most definitely satisfied.

She didn’t say a word, just leaned over and nuzzled against his cheek. She took his hand and lied over his chest. His body was something to behold.

He rested his hand on hers.

The simple light of the moon was relaxing and the stars, hypnotizing. She stared at them as her head finally gave in to the exhaustion completely.

Alex followed her shortly after. But, not before giving a silent thanks to the friend he’d found within himself. All the times he’d been so scared, so frustrated and so confused were finally over. Never had he felt so sure of himself.