Creed
I could not breathe.
Rage boiled over my mind, tinting the whole world around me red. I vaguely recognized that two men were holding onto my arms, physically restraining me from tearing out of the wrecked clubhouse and into the darkness outside.
“Who took them?” I asked, my voice deadly, calm, and quiet.
“The manager of your building called; he said he didn’t know.” Bax’s voice was also calm like he was talking to a raging bull. I couldn’t seem to think clearly, and I knew I had to kill something. Someone would die for this. I wanted to feel the life slip out of them as I wrapped my hands around their throats. I wanted them to pay for what they did to my son and Ivy.
They would pay. I would see to it.
Pearl’s voice floated through the haze of violence around my mind. “Creed, you getting this upset isn’t going to solve anything. We need to find out who took them first and what they wanted them for.”
My eyes focused on her face. There were more age lines on that beautiful face than there had been the day before. Before all of this violence had come down on the Devil’s Edge, spattering like blood spray into my own life.
This had to be Kelly’s fault. Ivy was right. I made the wrong decision and now Josh is paying the price for it. If they hurt him--
A soft brush of fingers across my arm brought my attention back to the present. Pearl is still there, her brow furrowed with worry. She was holding onto my arm suddenly. “We’ll find them, Creed. We just need to think. Who would do this?”
Bax took a deep breath, slowly releasing my arm. There must have been something in my face that made him let go. “It could be any of the other gangs; they might just be trying to get your attention.”
“Why my attention? Kelly is in charge and Patrick is his second. I’m nobody.”
Bax and Pearl glanced at one another, something deep and thoughtful in their eyes. “There are a lot of people here, and out there, who think you will take over the Edge as soon as Kelly is out of the way,” Pearl answered, her voice as neutral as possible.
Swallowing hard, I turned to her. “No, Pearl. You can’t be serious.”
Pearl’s gaze dropped to her feet. “Of course. It doesn’t matter if Patrick still holds his position as second. There’s a lot of whispers about how he’s too old to run the Edge. But there is no such talk about you taking Kelly’s throne after he’s out.”
I blinked, glancing around. Bax and the other man who had been holding me back, Carl, both nodded in agreement. Me, the leader of the Edge? Why would anyone think that was something I wanted? More than anything in the world, I wanted to be out of this life. If it hadn’t been for Josh, I’d be out already.
I shrugged off those thoughts, turning my mind back to more immediate concerns. Ivy and Josh had been taken, but who would have taken them. It was most likely the same group who decided to attack our base. That queasy feeling that appeared every time I thought too much about what Kelly was getting us into returned, tying my stomach in knots.
“We need to go to the motel now. I need to know what happened. I need to find them.” I turned back to Bax, who looked like he was ready to dive towards me again, holding me back from doing anything rash. But I was well beyond my initial rage, and the world seemed empty, cold, and clear. I was calculating my revenge, my mind filled with ice.
“Okay, Creed. If you think that’s best, let’s do it,” Pearl said, but her eyes were on Bax. They were doing that silent communicating thing again. I didn’t care what they were thinking so hard at each other about. I just wanted to find Josh and Ivy.
The four of us jumped into Pearl’s ancient van. I was always surprised when it started up; it was older than most of the men in the Devil’s Edge and nearly rusted through in several places. But somehow, the engine always turned over, even in the bitter cold of dead winter or the broiling sun of high summer. Nothing ever seemed to bother this giant bucket of bolts. Pearl was as attached to it as I’d ever seen anyone get attached to a vehicle.
It took less than fifteen minutes to get to the motel, but it felt like an eternity. My mind kept wandering to the very worst possible scenario. The world seemed to fade in and out around me, my mind tangled up in the ice and fire of the potential pain that waited for me at home. My lungs felt small and useless, my fingers twisted around each other, my head felt like it was full of air.
The motel was quiet; most of the citizens were probably bunkered down in their rooms, hoping to avoid any of the fallout from gang activity on their block. It was pretty standard procedure for those who did not want to be involved; it is what I would have done in their same situation. Who wants to be caught up in other’s business? But it still made my blood boil to know that any of those cowards could have helped somehow.
Kelly and Christine were already there when I arrived, and I could feel my blood boiling harder. Who the fuck told these two about the kidnapping? Furious, I was forced to join the two of them. The Boss seemed to have something on his mind, and I could not be able to go against whatever decision he made.
Grumbling, I waited beside Kelly for him to acknowledge me.
“You know the Cartel would happy to help return any of your people, Creed,” Christine started. She looked more subdued than usual, but I ignored her. The last people I needed to help were the ones who got me into this in the first place. “We- we feel that protecting the Devil’s Edge is now something of a personal cause that must come first.”
I rolled my eyes, not taking my eyes off of Kelly’s face. He was examining the front of the motel, his mouth curved down in an unusual frown. “You live in this shithole, Creed?” he asked, cutting into whatever nonsense Christine was about to start spouting again.
“Yes, it was all I could find on short notice after our house burned down,” I answered, trying to keep whatever emotions were trying to surface at bay. Explaining all of those painful, fear-filled hours in such a terse, emotionless sentence made me feel a little like I was lying, but I kept my thoughts to myself.
The fire and why it happened is not up for discussion at the moment. But that too was Kelly’s fault. The men coming after Josh, and now Ivy, this was all Kelly’s fault. The marks against him were steadily growing.
I swallowed those thoughts hard, but they stuck in my throat like thumbtacks. I couldn’t seem to breathe properly around them, or around the rage that inevitably boiled up around them.
“Well, getting your son back is, of course, a number one priority. Your son is just as much part of this as we are and less able to defend himself.” Kelly scratched his chin, glancing up at the darkening sky. It was nearly dark, and they would have to get a move on if they were going to figure out who had him in time.
“What about Ivy?” I asked before I could stop myself. Both Christine and Kelly turned to me as if jerked by strings, their eyes narrowed and their pose defensive.
“What about Ivy?” Kelly asked, his voice a careful neutral. “She’s not part of the Edge. She is of no concern of mine. Or yours.” There was a warning in his voice, one I wanted to punch out of him. But instead, I said nothing. “We don’t have time to mend the lives of our collateral damage. It’s not any fault of yours or mine that she got caught up in this.”
Pearl cleared her throat. “We should check your room and see if they left some sort of ransom note or something. Which one is yours?”
Taking a deep breath, I turned back to Pearl. “Follow me; I’ll show you.”
Pearl and Bax were both silent as they followed me up the familiar stairs. I could feel my feet dragging at the thought of what we would find inside of my place. I wanted it all to be a joke. I hoped I’d throw open the door to my motel room and find Josh jumping on the bed, a smile on his grubby little face. Ivy would be hiding in the kitchen, making a meal out of the nothing we’d had money for.
But there was nothing inside. A few odds and ends had been knocked over and the window was broken and spattered with blood. But the worst part was the suffocating emptiness of it. There was no Josh to scream at him, no Ivy to give a hesitant smile. How had these things become so damned important?
“Look at this,” Bax said as I scanned the room. He picked up a dirty-looking piece of paper off of the carpet, glancing over it. “You’ll wanna look at this, Creed.”
I snatched the paper from his hands, so impatient I ripped the corner. On it was a sloppily written note in pen written on the back of a receipt.
This is C. I think we can both agree what’s going on isn’t right.
It’s time to talk.
Your son is collateral. Come alone without telling anyone and you will both leave here alive.
You know where to find me. This is to talk.
I crumpled the paper up in rage, tearing it to tiny pieces and scattering them around the room. Carlos is behind this. Carlos Adams, the leader of the Carrion Club. I wanted to shred him to bits, too. Anger surged in my chest and I slammed my hands into the wall. The dent I made only seemed to drive my anger higher rather than relieve any of it. “He wants me to meet him, alone, without telling Kelly.”
“We can all guess why,” Pearl said, her voice soft and low. She crossed her rail thin arms over her chest, her blue eyes boring into my soul. “Will you go?”
“Fucker hasn’t given me much of choice, now has he?”
Sighing, Pearl laid a gentle hand over my shoulder. “Keep in mind that Ivy is an orphan. She has no friends and no family. If you don’t save her, then no one will.”
That stopped me short. “She’s an orphan?” Pearl just nodded in response, no emotion on her pretty face.
I knew getting tangled up with her was a mistake. How could I be so stupid? But the thought of losing her, especially if it was Kelly’s fault…
No, I had to do something to save her. The question was what. If I came as they asked, would Carlos let her go too?
I really hoped he would. Because I couldn’t be held responsible for how I reacted if something should happen to her.