December, 2011

“Why the hell won’t he answer his phone? I just don't want to be in this house right now!” I looked at Kenzie sitting on her bed, not moving. She was devastated, and so was I. All that I wanted was to see Levi, so he could hold me in his arms and keep my heart from falling out of my chest. My family was falling apart. And my boyfriend was nowhere to be found.

“Kenz. Kenzie, look at me.” Tears streamed down her face as she turned her head slowly to look into my eyes. “I gotta get out here. I can't stay in this house for one more second. I'm going to go over to sleep at Levi’s. Do you want to come with me? Or I could take you to a friend’s house. Whatever you want.”

She just shook her head and picked up a pillow. She turned over on her bed and closed her eyes. I guessed that she was hoping she could shut out the world around her. I grabbed my keys and flew down the stairs. I could hear my mother calling after me, but I couldn't deal with her right now. After watching Dad’s back as he said that woman's name, I just needed some time to myself.

I drove fast— too fast—and when my wheels spun out, I almost hit a tree near the water. I put my car in park and allowed the tears to completely overtake my vision. My family was no longer a family. My life was over. I considered for a moment allowing the tears to continue and just stay in my car, but I needed some time before I could see Levi. I turned my car towards Eli’s empty apartment. I could sit on the beach and pull myself together. At least I had a plan.

I knew no one would be there because of the mold, but I hoped it would give me a chance to clear my head. Some time on my own. Then I would go to Levi's house and let him love me and heal my fresh wounds. I hated the taste of the salty tears in my mouth and I rubbed my eyes with my hands to rid my face of them.

I pulled up to Eli's apartment, and although there were work trucks there I didn't hear any sounds. I walked around back to the beach and sat down on a rickety bench near the bonfire pit in the dimming light. I pulled my knees up to my chin and wrapped my large sweatshirt around them. It was cold, colder than I expected it to be. But it was only a week before Christmas. A week before Christmas, that's when my parents decided to implode our family. Great choice.

I sat there in the moonlight rocking back and forth, watching the slow lapping water on the beach and trying to calm myself. I didn't want to be this much of the mess in front of Levi. I heard the snap of a twig behind me and I jumped, startled.

“It's just me, it's Eli. I thought I heard someone crying.”

I put my head back down in my sweatshirt to wipe my tears with my sleeves. “It's just me.”

He strolled over and sat down next to the bench, “Lila what's the matter? What are you doing here?”

“I could ask you the same thing. You always seem to be where I don't want you to be today.”

I know that he had some witty come back sitting on the edge of his tongue but he could tell I was too upset for his humor.

“Lila, what happened? What's going on?”

“Everything is so messed up! My dad moved out today. He was with another woman! My whole family is falling apart!” I shook my head back and forth trying to release the image of my father's back towards my mother and me, sitting crying on the floor.

“Wow, I’m sorry.” Eli wrapped his arm around me and pulled me into his strong chest. I had thought that only Levi’s arms would save me, but Eli’s felt just as good. I chewed my lower lip as he softly touched my hair. When I went to wipe my tears I looked up at him and for a moment our eyes met. There was a magnetism that neither of us could deny. I looked away, back out over the water. As much as I wanted to be touched right now, Eli shouldn’t be the guy to do it. I was with Levi, his younger brother, I couldn’t do that to either of them. It wouldn’t be fair, would it?

I looked up at him a second time and was surprised to see his green eyes still gazing down at me. He leaned down and kissed me. I wanted to protest, but I fell into him, allowing him to take me. He kissed me hard and fast, pushing all the other emotions out of my brain. There was nothing else in there but Eli, just me and Eli on the beach. He nibbled on my lower lip and pulled me on top of him. He laid down on the bench and I straddled him. I needed a distraction, and Eli was exactly the type of distraction I needed. I whipped off my sweatshirt, revealing a lacy black bra. Eli fondled my breasts in his large hands. He reached around my back to undo the clasp. My teeth started chattering from both the excitement and the cold.

“I know a place where you won’t be so cold. Come with me.” He turned his body so that his feet were touching the sand and he lifted me up and carried me over to a pavilion that he had built last year. He laid me down on the floor and turned on one of the heaters. Instantly I was hot. He looked at me, admiring my breasts with the rise and fall of my chest. He laid on top of me and looked into my eyes before his mouth dove into my skin. He ran his fingers along my dark hair, tugging on it lightly while he spoke into my ear, “I wanted to fuck you since the minute I met you. And now that I have my chance I'm going do it until you're sore.”

I nodded against his thick frame. I could already feel the heat spreading from my pussy up throughout my body. I spread my legs further as he rubbed his hard dick against me through our pants. He moved down my body to my breasts, kissing around my nipples. But once he reached my right nipple he latched on, grazing his teeth back and forth over my flesh. It hurt, but I liked it. He continued down my body and removed my sweat pants and underwear. I was naked on the pavilion floor. The cold cement grounded me; without it I felt like I would just float away. He took his finger and dragged it down the length of my body, stopping just as he reached my pussy. He drew small circles around my clit, teasing me. Making me want more. Small light circles increasing in speed as his fingers found my hole. They pumped in an out slowly. Eli was still teasing me.

As I closed my eyes and moaned I felt another sensation. I opened them again to see his tongue reaching into the folds of my pussy, my juices dribbling down his chin. He kissed the inside of my thighs and then moved out back to my clit. He wrapped his lips around it and sucked lightly. He flicked his tongue against it, making me tremble. He pulled back for air and said, “I knew you would taste sweet.”

“You stay there,” he instructed. He stood up, knowing that I would have to watch him and not be able to touch without moving. And I wouldn't move, he was sure of that. He took off his shirt, revealing his large chest and a defined six pack. He was hard everywhere a man should be. He pulled down his pants, revealing the erection that was ready to be inside me.

“Turn over,” he commanded. I did as I was told and I pushed my ass up in the air so that he would have ample access. He put his knees around mine and I felt his dick push into the folds of my pussy. I arched my back for better access and he took a handful of my hair, pulling me up so that I was on my hands. He slapped my ass with his free hand but he didn’t thrust. I was aching for some momentum.

“Fuck me,” I said quietly.

He leaned down and whispered into my ear, “You're going to have to do better than that. Tell me how you want it.”

I took a deep breath trying to steady myself. “Fuck me Eli. Fuck me hard till I come.”

He squeezed my breast with his left hand before allowing it to travel down to my pussy. Using his hand he pushed me back against him and began to pump in and out of me while his fingers worked furiously. He continued to hold me up by my hair and I struggled to breathe. He pumped me hard, filling me completely with his cock. My ass bounced against him as he pushed in deeper each time. I felt warmth spreading up through my body as sweat began to bead on my forehead. It didn't take long for my body to explode and I felt the waves of orgasm coming up from the pit of my stomach. I cried out as I came.

“You want more?” He growled, tempting me.

My pussy knew the answer before my mouth could find the words. “Yes.”

“Then show me. On your back, and spread your legs wide.”

I did as I was told and pushed myself up on my elbows so I could watch. He slapped his cock against my wet pussy before dipping it inside. Slowly he pushed in and then pulled back out. I lifted my hips hoping he would stay inside the second time, but again he pushed all the way to my G spot and then pulled back out. I let out an exasperated sigh.

He gave me an arrogant smile. “You want it don’t you?”

I nodded.

He leaned down over me and grabbed my throat, “Tell me.”

“I want it. Put your dick inside me. Make me come again.”

“Say please, you know I’ve always liked your manners.”

“Please Eli.”

He kept his hand on my throat and slipped his cock back inside me but this time he pushed it in deeper, harder than before. Picking up his pace he moved his hand to my shoulder and yanked me down onto his cock. My whole body moved under his strength and I slammed down on him again and again.

As I neared the edge I laid back on the floor and he put his hands around my thighs, thrusting himself into me. I shuddered and moaned as I felt my orgasm build. He let his head fall back as his seed shot inside me. He pumped just twice more, sending me over the edge. When he fell down on top of me I felt the heat roll off his body. I could see steam rising from the both of us. We breathed heavily, the only sounds on the air were our exhaustion and the soft lap of waves on the shore. After a few moments Eli spoke, still whispering in my ear.

“You can never tell anyone about this. It has to be our secret.”

“Why?”

“Because he would kill us.”

And that's when the shock hit me in my chest. Levi. The only thing that I thought about for the past hour was Eli and fucking. But the realization hit me and knocked the wind out of my chest. I attempted to scramble out from under Eli as I fought for air. I pushed him off me and grabbed my clothes.

My family had fallen apart. I had just slept with my boyfriend's brother. My world was over.

It was time to run away.