Noa picked me up in her new BMW, a coming home gift from her parents. She looked as fit as always with her beautiful chocolate brown hair and her matching caramel complexion. She had it down tonight, looking so much more relaxed than the last time I saw her. Though the last time I saw her, she was in camouflage and her hair was in a tight bun. She was walking away from me and getting on a plane. My heart broke a little that day.

She jumped out of the car and wrapped her arms around me in the fiercest hug I had felt in years. “Mama, you look so good!” she said, smiling.

“I look good? Damn, girl— the Army has done some good things to that ass of yours.”

She turned around and grabbed a handful. “I know right? All those squats they have us doing, let me tell you girl, the Army knows a thing or two about a woman's body.”

We both laughed and I found that it felt good to laugh like that. The pressure of earlier today was falling off my shoulders.

She hopped in the car and I ran around to the passenger side quickly getting in. As she drove we talked about our lives.

“So how's your mom? How is she holding up with this whole wedding thing?”

I shook my head, “I don't know. Sometimes I think she's fine with it, other times I feel like she has no idea what's going on.”

“Is Kelly still with you guys? The maid?”

“Yeah she is. My mom hardly cooks anymore. Remember how she used to make those the most amazing chocolate chip cookies? I haven't had those since the Thanksgiving before they broke up.”

She shook her head sadly, “Your mom used to be a great cook. But cleaning never really was her thing. She was lucky to have Kelly while you guys were growing up.”

I nodded agreeing, “I know. But now I feel like she has Kelly for everything— her cook, her maid, and her only confidant. She hasn't really made any friends in Florida.”

She shrugged her shoulders, her brown curls falling against them, “Sometimes it just doesn't happen for other people like it happens for you or me.”

I frowned at her, “What's that supposed to mean?”

She paused, and I waited for her reaction but in her silence I realized something. “You met someone!”

Her smile lit up the vehicle. It might've just been me but I think she was actually glowing.

“Her name is Clara, she is super smoking hot, and she's actually visiting.”

I was overjoyed for her; Noa had a rough breakup a couple years ago. It was part of the reason she decided to enlist. It was so good to see her happy again.

“Am I going to get to meet this mystery woman?”

She smiled again, barely being able to contain her excitement. “Yeah. She might stop by the bar tonight, but over the weekend I’m having a party at my parent’s lake house and she'll definitely be there.”

I smiled smugly— Noa with a new girlfriend. It just sounded great.

“What about you, Mama? A new man in your life?”

I shook my head, “Definitely not. Still trying to finish my degree. I'll focus on guys when they come around, after my career.”

We pulled up to a modern looking building that sat just before the beach. There were at least a hundred cars in the parking lot. People’s bodies cast shadows from lights that hung down from the back of the building anchored into the sand. “Well then, I guess I should warn you that both the Jackson boys still live in the area.”

I stopped with my hand on the door handle. “Noa, why are you telling me this now?”

She looked at me wide-eyed. “Because I see Levi Jackson standing right over there. She pointed with her right hand to a man standing with his back towards me. He had on a light blue shirt and khaki shorts. He was thicker, bigger than he used to be. But the way he had his hands in his pockets, there was no denying it was Levi. I felt my breath catch in my chest as he turned and looked over his shoulder at the new arrivals. He knew Noa’s car. But what he didn't know was that I was still hiding inside it.

“I don't think I can do this.”

Noa got back to the car and sat down next to me. “Girl you got this. It's been years, nobody cares about the breakup anymore.”

But there were things I hadn't told her about the breakup, secrets that no one knew.

“I don't know Noa, I don't think I'm over it yet.”

She looked at me assessing my emotions before saying, “Then it's time to get over it. Move the fuck on. You've got this.”

I nodded at her taking a deep breath focusing on it going in through my nose and out through my mouth trying to put oxygen to my brain. It was a Yoga calming strategy I had learned during semester finals. It helped relieve stress. I felt like everything was in slow motion as Levi parted from the group and began to walk over to the car. Noa gave me one last look before getting out. She walked over to Levi and he gave her a kiss on the cheek, but I could tell that he was asking about who was in the car. I opened the door just a crack to hear their conversation, but when I heard his deep sultry voice my heart flew to my throat.

“Did you bring that date of yours?” He craned his neck to get a glimpse of the stranger.

She laughed lightly, “No Clara should be here at some point tonight though. I brought someone you know actually.”

His eyes narrowed at her and he looked over her shoulder past her to see me standing next to the car.

“Lila.” It was just one word, but it caused my heart to temporarily stop beating.

“Hi Levi.” I raised my right hand next to me hoping he would see that I was trying to make an effort. But I couldn't get my feet to move closer to him, I couldn't command my body to anything else but hold my hand up next to me.

He walked up to me and Noa stood back probably feeling like she was intruding on a private conversation. “You’re back.”

I licked my lips. “Yeah, my dad's getting married at the end of the month. I'm here to become friends with my new stepmom. Yay me.”

He nodded. “Right. I saw that in the local newspaper.”

We both stood there for a moment and I finally put my hand down by my side. We didn't know what to say, or how to act.

“It's good to see you.” He sounded robotic, almost like a prerecorded machine.

“It's good to see you too. How's your family?” It seemed like the right thing to say but as soon as it came out of my mouth, the only thing I could think of was Levi's older brother Eli. For some ridiculous reason I was desperate to know how Eli was.

“They're good. My parents adopted a little girl two years ago., so I have a little sister now.”

“That's really awesome. Good for them. And Eli? How is he?”

He set his lips into a thin line. “He's fine. Probably around here somewhere.”

“Eli still lives in Fayette?” Eli always seemed like he had plans. Dreams of bigger and better things than just little Fayette. I had always thought Levi resented him for that.

He nodded, refusing to comment more on his older brother.

“And football? You still play?”

“Yeah, I’m on pro team in New York now. I leave for training in about four weeks. Just got drafted.”

“Wow congratulations. Glad to hear your knee finally decided to work again.” Yeah that was awkward. So Noa had a girlfriend, Levi was playing pro ball, and I was doing what? Nothing.

We stood there in the dimming light and more awkward silence until Noa came up to steal me away. Thank God for Noa.

“So this girl needs a drink and I need one too, and Levi if you're not buying we need to get ourselves to the bar.”

A fleeting smile crossed his face. “Then you better get your asses to the bar.”

Noa pulled off a fake shocked look and grabbed my hand to pull me away. Once we were out of earshot she said, “I'm sorry girl, I didn't think it was going to go that bad.”

I glared at her. “Yeah you did. Plus you failed to mention that Eli still lives in Fayette.”

“Yeah, he does. I said they were both still in the area. When their parents adopted that little girl he moved back, kind of to help out I guess? You know Eli, always trying to be a hero. I thought that you knew they were both here.”

“How the hell would I know that they're both here? Do I talk to anyone from Fayette? I hardly speak to my father. He's my only connection to this place anymore, besides you. And if you remember correctly you’ve been across the pond for the last twelve months.”

I was annoyed, she could tell, but I knew the last comment was a low blow.

“Sorry, that wasn’t fair. I just don’t deal well with unexpected anymore.”

She sighed. “Lila, I don't get why it matters that Eli is still in town. I mean you were with Levi, right?”

She paused assessing my dark features, waiting for me to tell her my secret. But I wouldn't, because it wasn't mine to tell.

“Wait for just one second. Did you sleep with Eli? I mean I know people said that. It was a rumor but I never believed it.”

I looked away, but she grabbed my shoulders as I tried to make my way to the bar. When she spun me around we were only inches from each other.

“Girl, you tell me right now if you and Eli Jackson had a little tryst! And if so, why the hell have you not told me all these years?”

I shook my head. “No it wasn't like that. I just don’t want to be around Levi’s family at all. I broke him when I left. How I ended things with Levi, I know that's my fault and I was wrong. But I can't fix that now, I just can't.”

She looked at me knowingly; I could tell she didn't believe my lie, but I couldn't tell her the whole truth. Not now.

“I'm really sorry, girl. Hopefully that's the only Jackson brother you crash into tonight.”

If only she had been right.