CHAPTER 9: Shane
I stood in the doorway for a moment as the house belched a cloud of thick, hot dust in my face. It rolled over me on its way out the door like invisible inmates escaping from a prison, like demons fleeing Pandora’s box. I waved it away and stepped inside with Uncle Seth close at my heels.
The house was pretty much just as I remembered it. The front door opened to a small living room that had just enough room for a ratty sofa and my old man’s recliner, which I’d made the mistake of sitting in one time when I was seven or eight years old. As I recall, he grabbed me by the hair of the head and dragged me to the front door and flung me out into the front yard and slammed the door. I never went near that recliner again.
He’d come in most nights, eat his supper, slap the shit out of me, and drink himself into a stupor laying in that chair. He kept an old aluminum TV tray next to the chair for his TV remote and beer cans, which my mother kept supplied until he passed out. She probably thought that if he drank himself to sleep, at least we’d have peace until the next morning when he woke up.
“Place has been closed up for a while,” Seth said, moving to stand next to me. He took off his hat and tugged a blue kerchief from his side pocket and mopped his face with it. “Hot as hell in here. Want me to turn the air conditioning on?”
“Sure,” I said without getting out of his way. It was as if my feet had become glued to the floor and refused to go any further. Seth walked down the short hallway off the living room and fiddled with the thermostat until the air kicked on. It rattled through the vents under the house, sounding like a herd of rats tunneling their way in.
I finally convinced my feet to move. “He’s not here,” the little voice in my head told my body, urging my feet to move and my heartbeat to slow down. “There’s nothing to be afraid of now. The old bastard is dead.”
I walked through the living room and into the kitchen. There was a table in front of the window where we used to eat. There were stacks of papers and envelopes on the table, but the room was otherwise tidy, even though every surface sported a thick layer of dust.
“Me and Wilma cleaned the place when we put your mama in the nursing home a few months ago,” he said, referring to his wife, my Aunt Wilma, who I hadn’t seen in years. I felt bad for not having asked how she was, but I didn’t say anything. Seth went to the door that opened into the back yard and twisted the lock. He had to tug it open because it was warped in the frame. It had always been that way.
He said, “After your daddy died and her health went south, Irene wasn’t much of a housekeeper. We threw out all the food. Most of her clothes and all your daddy’s things are still here. I can help you move them out if you want. Or maybe have a yard sale. Wilma’s an expert on yard sales. Might make you a few hundred bucks.”
“Do you want anything that’s here?” I asked.
Deep lines ran across his forehead. His eyes narrowed to slits when he frowned at me. “What do you mean?”
“Do you want anything that’s here?” I repeated, holding out my hands like a game show model. “Clothes? Furniture? Appliances? The car? The truck? The house?”
Seth shook his head like he thought he wasn’t hearing correctly. “Don’t you want them? Ain’t you gonna need them?”
I shook my head and gave the room a look of disgust. “If it was up to me, Uncle Seth, I’d pour gasoline all over everything and set it on fire. Since the Gulf Breeze fire department and the neighbors would probably object, I just want everything gone so I could put the house on the market and get the fuck out of town.”
“You’re not staying?”
I snorted at him. “Why the fuck would I do that?”
“Because this is your home, Shane,” he said. “This is where your family is. Your roots.”
I gave him a sad smile and shook my head slowly. “You’re the only family I have left, Uncle Seth, and honestly, that’s not enough to keep me here. I plan on cleaning this place out and selling it to the first buyer that wants it. Then I’m gone.”
“You’re gone?”
“Gone.”
Uncle Seth rubbed his chin, which was covered in stubble, and blew out a long breath. It sounded like sandpaper on concrete in a wind storm. “Well, I reckon me and Wilma can haul it all away and do something with it. You sure you don’t want your mama’s car or your daddy’s truck?”
“I’m sure.”
“Why don’t we let Wilma have a yard sale?” I said, patting him on the shoulder. “Just open the doors and let people come inside. Whatever’s left you can haul away or I’ll rent a dumpster. Bottom line, I’d like it all gone by this time next week.”
“Okay, if you’re sure.”
“I’m sure.”
Seth leaned against the counter and folded his arms over his belly. I could feel his eyes on me. I refused to look back at him.
He asked, “What about funeral arrangements?”
“Shit, I hadn’t even thought about that.”
“Your mama’s body is at the Gulf Breeze Funeral Home. The man there agreed to keep her safe till you could got home to tell him what you wanted to do far as a service goes. It’s my understanding that she had a burial policy to pay for everything; coffin, flowers, service.”
I didn’t have to think about it. I shook my head and said firmly, “No service. I’ll call him and tell him to cremate her.”
“Shit, son, are you sure that’s what your mama would want?” He stuck out his hands and frowned at me again. “I mean, she has a plot next to your daddy in the cemetery. I’m sure she’d want a service so people could come by and pay their respects. I mean, I know you didn’t have the best childhood, but, Shane, she was your mother.”
“She’s dead, Uncle Seth,” I said. “She doesn’t give a rat’s ass about a service and people paying their respects. And I highly doubt she’d want to spend all eternity in a grave next to the man who beat the shit out of her every day of her life.”
“Yeah, but…”
I held up my hands. “You can have a service if you like. Hell, invite everybody in town that knew Clint and Irene Mavic and throw one hell of a party. Shit, I’ll even pay for it, but I will not be there.”
Uncle Seth stared at me for a moment more, then the frown slowly faded from his forehead. He rubbed tears from his eyes and let his voice go quiet. “No, she was your mother. It’s up to you what to do.”
“Then she’ll be cremated and that’ll be the end of that.”
“What about her ashes?” he asked.
“You want them?”
He frowned at the floor. “No, I reckon not.”
“Then that’s it then. I’ll have the funeral home dispose of them.”
I started to go through the hallway door to look at the bedrooms when Seth asked, “But what about her dog?”
I froze in my tracks and turned back toward him. “Dog? What dog?”
“Biscuit,” he said. “Little white Maltese. Your mama’s dog.”
“My mother had a dog?”
“Yes.”
“At the nursing home?”
“Yes.”
“They let them have dogs at the nursing home?”
Seth smiled. “Yeah. They let the old folks have dogs and cats. Supposedly, it’s good therapy for them.”
“I don’t want her dog,” I said.
“Well I can’t take it,” Seth said, hands up, his head moving from side to side. “Wilma’s allergic.”
“Well I can’t take a dog to Iraq, Uncle Seth.”
“Well, maybe you can find it a good home.”
“Shit,” I sighed, rubbing my eyes. I’d been up for two days and my exhaustion was catching up with me. “Where is this dog?”
“When your mama died I boarded her at Doc Bates’ place.”
“Doc Bates?”
“The vet. Bought out old Doc Anderson a year or so ago.”
“Okay, I’ll call them and deal with it.”
“She’s a sweet dog,” Seth said. “Make you a good pet.”
I ignored him and started down the hallway. There were three bedroom doors and a bathroom at the end. The door to mama’s room on the right was closed. So was the door to Kenny’s room on the left. My room was the last one on the left. I pushed open the door and looked inside. Nothing had changed. The same bed and bedspread. The same posters on the wall. The same little desk in front of the window where I tried to do my homework in between getting the shit beat out of me.
“I’m tired, Uncle Seth,” I said. “I’m gonna crash for a few hours. I’ll call you later.”
“Okay, son,” he said, patting me on the back. “I’m glad you’re home.” He waited for me to say, “Me, too…” but I didn’t. I just went into the room and closed the door.