Chapter Fifteen
Chad
Since our feelings for each other are out in the open now, things have gotten a lot better…and worse with AJ and Sawyer. We laugh more often and kiss a little when the kids are occupied or asleep, but having to take things slow is torture. AJ and I both fully agree that we want to wait until after the case has been decided before we take things any further, but it’s hard as fuck to keep my hands off him. I just want to feel his dick in my hand, learn the weight and grooves of it, taste it…
But that wouldn’t be fair to Sawyer at this stage. He admitted to not being very experienced, and I’m pretty sure he wasn’t exaggerating. Marge picked up Harper to take her shopping and for a girls’ day, so Sawyer and I are eating pizza at the kitchen table while AJ finishes up Austin’s bath. He’s gotten so comfortable handling the infant that when I watch him do these domestic chores, it just makes my heart swell with love. Not the “let’s get married” kind of love, but the kind of love that you feel for family. And regardless of what happens with us on a personal level, he’ll always be family. AJ wants to co-parent Harper and Austin, and I couldn’t be happier about that.
I was shocked when he first told us he was staying in Denver permanently, but it quickly made sense to me. He’s a good man who loved his sister, and he has every intention of doing right by her children. Even though he’s not going to fight for custody, he’ll always have full access to the children and will be a wonderful dad slash uncle to them.
Sawyer seems to be lost in thought, so I nudge his knee with mine. “What are you thinking about?”
His cheeks flush red, and I have a pretty good idea. Now that I can openly tease him, I never let an opportunity to do so pass me by. “Oh, really?” I raise an eyebrow and take a drink of my water. “So what specifically are you thinking about?”
AJ glances at us as he passes by with Austin wrapped in a towel. “Talk loud. I don’t want to miss this.”
Sawyer hangs his head, but I can see the wide grin spreading across his face. “Please don’t make me say it.”
I laugh at his bashfulness and slide his chair closer with my foot around the leg. “Oh, no. Now you have to say it…with details.”
It takes him almost a full minute to begin speaking, but just when I’m about to let him off the hook, he looks into my eyes and takes a deep breath. “Well, you guys already know I haven’t really been with anyone before.”
I hold up my hand. “Do you mean literally no one? Not even a girl in middle school or anything like that?”
His eyes grow wide, and he shakes his head. “No, definitely not. I wasn’t interested in anyone back in those days. I guess I was kind of a late bloomer. I didn’t even have an interest in touching myself until I was eighteen or nineteen.”
AJ runs into the room and grabs a chair, sliding it around the table so he’s nestled between the two of us. “What’d I miss?” His blue eyes sparkle with mischief, and he pokes Sawyer’s side. “Did you get to the good stuff yet?”
“No.” Sawyer chuckles at AJ’s enthusiasm then looks down to his empty arms. “Where’s Austin?”
I hold back a grin at his protective nature. Since our little talk about getting to know each other on a more personal level, Sawyer has taken a stronger interest in the children. It’s obvious he was keeping a professional distance before. But I love that he’s always keeping a watchful eye over them both, often able to anticipate meltdowns before they occur. That’s something AJ and I are still learning.
“He was falling asleep during his bath. As soon as he was dressed, he passed out. We’ve got some time for the details of your sordid fantasies. And don’t leave anything out.” AJ waggles his eyebrows, and I tug him close enough to kiss his lips. His sense of humor is exactly like mine. I’m just better about holding back some things.
“Okay, I was just telling Chad that I haven’t been with anyone before. Ever.”
AJ keeps a stoic face, waiting for him to continue.
“So, I’m a little nervous about, well, what I’m supposed to do.” Sawyer’s face is red, all the way down to his neck, but he pushes forward. “I mean, I know you guys will teach me, and…I guess I was just imagining what it would be like to watch and learn.”
He offers a shy smile, and I have to readjust my cock so it’s not pressing uncomfortably against the zipper of my jeans.
AJ clears his throat and does a little adjustment of his own. “I see.” Then he turns to me, his eyes dark and hungry. “I think we can handle some key demonstrations.”
I nod in agreement, holding AJ’s gaze long enough that Sawyer breaks in. “Like that. Just watching you guys makes me hard. I don’t think I’ll be able to last long if there’s any real touching involved.”
AJ slides his hand up Sawyer’s thigh, not getting all the way to his dick, but close enough to make Sawyer shiver. “Oh, there will be plenty of real touching involved. Probably a little sucking too.”
Sawyer’s eyes darken as he nods. “Yeah, I like that.”
AJ pulls back and cocks his head toward Sawyer. “You like sucking?”
Sawyer closes his eyes and presses his hand against his hard length. “Um, hmm. Who doesn’t?”
“Wait a sec.” I scoot my chair even closer to our little triangle so my knees are pressed against both Sawyer’s and AJ’s. “Who have you sucked? You just said you’ve never been with anyone?”
Sawyer’s eyes fly open, and he looks guilty as fuck. That’s when the pieces start to fall into place. I know he wouldn’t lie to us, but maybe he didn’t tell us the entire truth of his experiences.
“Oh, um, I haven’t been with anyone…” He clasps his hands together and fidgets nervously. “But I’ve done some experimenting by myself.”
AJ’s jaw drops as he leans back in his chair, almost knocking it over. “You can suck your own dick!”
“Shh!” Sawyer looks around as if someone is hiding in the corner and listening to us. “Just sometimes. It’s not something I’m proud of or anything, but I wanted to know it was it was like. And there wasn’t exactly a line of people waiting to do it to me.”
AJ’s staring at Sawyer in awe at this revelation. “Not very often? Dude, how do you even leave the house? I don’t think I’d ever get dressed if I could do that.” AJ turns to me with a serious expression. “And I’ve tried, believe me. I just couldn’t quite reach.”
Sawyer’s watching me, waiting for my reaction to something he’s obviously ashamed of. I place both of my hands over his and bring them to my mouth, placing a kiss on his clasped fingers. “I think that’s fucking hot. That’s something you can give us a demonstration of…and we definitely won’t last long.”
Sawyer’s relief is obvious. “Really? You don’t think it’s gross?”
AJ laughs and wraps his arms around Sawyer, pulling him onto his lap. “Gross? Are you kidding? I’m getting blue balls just picturing it…and knowing I’ll be going back to my hotel alone.”
I run my finger across Sawyer’s jaw to get his attention. “Is there anything else you want to talk about? Or ask about?”
He shrugs in a way that I know means he has something else on his mind. “I guess not.”
My gentle tone drops a few octaves as I stare him right in the eye. “Sawyer?”
“Well, if we ever…you know…”
“No, baby.” AJ rubs his nose across Sawyer’s cheek, inhaling his clean scent. “We don’t know. You have to say the words. We promise not to judge or tease you. I can’t promise I won’t wet the bottom of your pants, but that’ll be my embarrassment, not yours.”
Sawyer takes a deep breath and nods. “If we ever have anal sex, who will do what? Do you guys have preferences because I don’t know what I like better yet?”
AJ wasn’t exaggerating about his risk of shooting in his pants. Just knowing that Sawyer is so innocent but so willing to give himself to us for his first time makes my heart want to burst out of my chest…and my balls to explode with desire. I’ve never had these kinds of open conversations with a lover before.
Whether I was with a stranger in a bar or with a regular fuck-buddy, it was always just about getting off. No deep conversations or vulnerable admissions. There were never any feelings involved beyond lust and desire. But in the weeks AJ and Sawyer have spent with me, I’ve learned to care for them on so many different levels, with lust and sex being the pinnacle we’re waiting to reach.
I don’t trust my voice to remain steady with the emotions flowing through me, so I nod to AJ to take this one. And I’m curious to know how he feels about the matter.
“Well…” He clears his throat and slides his hand up and down Sawyer’s thigh. “Sometimes there’s a quick discussion about who wants to top or bottom. And other times, it just sorta happens that one person will take the lead without asking what the other person wants.”
“And what about with three people?” Sawyer is listening intently, and I know if he had a notebook in his hand, he’d be taking copious notes.
AJ gives Sawyer a sexy smile then glances at me. “Well, I’ve only been in a three-way a few times, and they were usually with established couples who were bringing me in for a little extra entertainment. So, they already had their roles established, and I usually ended up doing both.”
Sawyer nods and looks up at the wall, thoughtful as he considers what AJ has just said. Then he turns to AJ and asks, “Do you have a preference?”
AJ nods and holds his gaze before aiming his baby blues at me. “I like to bottom.”
My heart skips a beat, and a low growl escapes from my chest without my knowledge. But AJ’s intent stare confirms he heard it and agrees with the desperation it implies.
“What about you, Chad? Do you have a preference?”
It takes me a moment to pull out of AJ’s gaze, but when I do, I get sucked right into Sawyer’s sweet expression. “I’m versatile, but I prefer to top. You know, big, tough fireman and all.”
I wink to let him know I’m kidding, but Sawyer’s breath is coming out in short pants and his face is turning paler by the second.
“Baby, what’s wrong? Are you okay?” I lean closer and AJ presses his hand to Sawyer’s forehead.
“You’re clammy, Sawyer. What’s going on?”
Sawyer scoots off AJ’s lap and slides onto his chair. “I’m fine, I was just thinking.”
“About what? What scared you?” I want to pull him into my arms and carry him to my bed to rest, but I know we can’t do that. Not yet.
“Well, if AJ likes to bottom, and you like to top, where does that leave me?” Sawyer folds his arms over his stomach and leans forward like that’s where the pain is radiating from.
“Baby, you’ll be right there with us. We’ll help you decide what you like best, and then you can use us for your pleasure in the same way we’ll use you for ours.” AJ is stroking Sawyer’s hair and speaking quietly against his cheek. “In every relationship, there’s a period of getting to know what your partner or partners like and don’t like. We’ll all be doing that together. You won’t ever have to do anything you don’t like, and you can do anything you want to us. We want you to be happy and one hundred percent in this relationship, if that’s what you want.”
“It is.” Sawyer nods vigorously, moving his arms away from his belly. “I promise, I want that.”
“Then that’s what we’ll do. Don’t be afraid of how it’ll go. We’ll find a way to make it all work. We’ve all got plenty of parts to work with, so no one will ever be left out.” I give Sawyer a quick kiss on his lips, and he visibly relaxes.
With a new determination on his face, he leans forward and kisses AJ, forcing his tongue into AJ’s mouth and moving roughly against his lips.
Fuck, it’s hot!
Sawyer pulls back for air and looks deeply into AJ’s eyes. “So I can do that any time I want?”
The corners of AJ’s lips lift up in a sexy smirk. “You can do that any fucking time. Day or night, the answer is always yes.”
Sawyer smiles proudly and turns to me. Scooting off the edge of his chair, he slides right onto my thighs and wraps his arms around my neck.
I don’t close my eyes as his drift shut, and he presses his lips against mine. My mouth immediately opens, accepting his exploring tongue and sucking it like a lollipop. He tastes so good. My cock agrees and is practically busting through my jeans. Instinctively, I arch up and rub my cock against Sawyer’s ass, trying to relieve the pressure building inside me.
He responds by sticking out his ass so his dick is lined up against mine and presses against me too. Holding his hips in place, I control the rhythm of our movements. I try to keep things slow and teasing, but I can’t hold back anymore.
Between his confession about self-sucking and learning that AJ prefers to bottom, I can’t hold back. I increase my pace against Sawyer’s cock, and when he gasps in my mouth and his whole body goes rigid, I know he’s coming. I keep rutting against him as I fly over the edge, shooting in my jeans like a teenager. The warm stickiness feels good in my shorts and draws out my orgasm even longer.
Taking a deep breath when Sawyer pulls off me, I glance at AJ, feeling guilty for taking more from Sawyer than I should have at this stage.
My sex-drowsy eyes open wide as I see AJ’s dick for the first time, out and proud as he strokes the last few drops of come from it. The rest of his load is spattered beautifully across his shirt. I don’t even try to stop myself as I reach for it, spooning a large drop onto my finger.
Holding it up to Sawyer’s mouth, I lift an eyebrow. “Want to taste him? I bet he’s delicious.”
Sawyer opens his mouth, licking around my finger completely as he tastes come that isn’t his own for the first time. When he finally opens his eyes, he looks completely blissed out. “It is. You should try some.”
“I agree.” I turn to AJ and open my mouth. He knows exactly what I want as he scoops up his creamy seed with two fingers and shoves them into my waiting mouth.
I suck his fingers hard, licking every inch while moaning at the spicy flavor I’ve been desperate to taste for weeks. “Mmm. You’re right. I’ve never tasted anything better.”