Day of the wedding

This day has been magical for Charity. She is so darn beautiful in her summery camo sundress. That’s right, camo and she is walking down the aisle barefoot. We all are and we all have matching pink camo sundresses. Something only my sister would come up with. She wanted to wear jeans, but Brody wanted her in a dress. He is going to be shocked, especially since I have already seen him in his suit. He looks very uncomfortable and I can’t wait to capture his face in a photo when he sees her dress. My sister has attitude and she can’t wait for Brody to see her.

That there is what I want. Someone that gets me and likes my sense of humor. I just want somebody to love me for me. I slept in Con’s arms again and it was the best feeling in the world. I felt safe and cared for, cherished even. The man cares for me but he is fighting hard against it. I don’t want him guilted into making love to me the first time. I don't ever want to have to do that and I know one day I will have to walk away from Con before he hurts me too bad. I don't know if Con will ever be able to love anyone completely. Not the way he loves his club and not the way he loves his brothers. I could accept that, and I could share it with him, but he won't let me in, so the best I can do is take it one day at a time like he said. I need to give him that, and I will trust him until he proves to me that he can’t be trusted. I will trust him with not only my safety, but Charity’s safety, her child’s safety, and Brody safety. This is our new family and I don't want anything to happen when these damn killers are caught. When they are put behind bars, then we can breathe, and I can deal with Con. Right now, it is a day to day thing. I'm just going to accept what he says is best because I don't know what to do. If I walk, I could put Charity in danger. This is weighing heavy on my conscious. I am going to stay right here and do what Con asks of me.

I see that Sean and Cooper have made it with their 6 handsome sons with them. I want to go have a word with them, hoping they've heard something about my DNA test, or they have heard something about my ma. I make my way across the room and Cooper sees me coming and he stands up and he pulls me into a hug. He leans down and he whispers in my ear, “You're my daughter.” I never thought I would hear those words and be filled with joy, but this man has already shown me more compassion than the man that I thought was my pa. I am overwhelmed, and I grab hold of him and hug him tight. It's not long before he steps back. “Your sister, Charity, she is Sean's daughter and we want both of you to be part of our family. We won’t take no for an answer. I know you're both too old to have your dad telling you what to do, what not to do, but we want to share your lives and we want to be a part of them. We’ll never let Alice hurt you again.” I didn’t even know Charity had taken the test. I look at Cooper and I see the that the truth is shining in his eyes and I know that this man will always be here for me and that gives me hope. A hope that I never knew I needed until right this minute.

“This is the best news that I could get. I have been lost and I didn't know how lost until you just told me those words. I want you to meet Charity and I want us to form a bond like any daughter and dad, but I need to get back there and help Charity. This is going be one heck of a wedding because Brody is in for one heck of a surprise.” Cooper smiles at me.

“I can see that if your dress is any sign of what is to come, it’s not what I would expect at a wedding, sweetness.” Cooper tells me.

“I will catch you after the wedding. I need to get back to Charity.” He kisses the top of my head and I walk away. I see the longing in Sean’s eye. My sister will meet her dad today. This is turning out to be a wonderful day. I make my way back to the room where Charity is waiting, and I want to share this news with her, but first I want her to have her day with Brody. I make it to the door and I open it and there sits Charity in a chair reading on her phone. She does not seem the least bit nervous, she’s not apprehensive and she's nothing like Brody is. He’s pacing the floors. Are you just not nervous?” she looks at me and she smiles.

“What do I have to be nervous about? I am marrying the man that I want. I'm going to have his child and today I'm going to share his last name. I just want to get this show on the road.” I look at her and I know she's telling the truth.

“Are you sure you want me giving you away today? I mean I'm sure somebody else would stand in. It doesn't have to be me.” Charity looks at me as if I have grown a second head.

“Of course, it does. I belong to you and you belong to me and only we can give each other away. We are sisters to the end and I want you there on my big day and I want you to give me to Brody.” That brings tears to my eyes. I can't believe how happy she is. I pat my cheeks dry and try to clear the tears away. I walk out the door and run up the hall. I wave to Brody, so he will know to start the music. I run back to the room when the music starts playing I can’t help laughing out loud as “Queen of Denial” plays. I go into the room and grab hold of Charity’s arm. I kick off my shoes and we go up the hallway, so I can give her to her husband, to the man she will always love. It doesn't take us long to make it up the aisle, Brody has a smile on his face but everyone else looks confused. When I see that smile on Brody’s face I know that Charity has found her soulmate and I will never need to worry about Charity’s heart again. There's a man standing in front of Brody that I don’t know. This isn’t the man that Charity said was marrying them. I notice Con is walking up behind me and he’s dropped down to one knee. I don't get it, what's he doing? Then it clicks in my head, Con is giving me the peace of mind to know my sister is safe on her wedding day.

“We haven’t been together very long, and I know you have doubts about my feelings for you, but I promise you, if you will agree to be my wife today, if we have a double wedding with Brody and Charity this very minute, I will cherish you until the end of my days.” I'm in shock I don't know what to think. How can Con ask me to marry him when we don't even know each other very well. He’s talking about moving too fast and he wants to respect me but he’s asking me to marry him, now. That's when I get it, he’s trying to protect me too. I don't know what will happen after today, and I don't know if I will regret this tomorrow, but today I've discovered that I love Con and he will never make me not love him again. He puts my needs above his own and he tries to watch out for my feelings. He’s trying to respect me, and I should have realized a long time ago this is Con’s way to love. I look closely, and I see he may be fighting it, but I see it there, and I am ready to take a chance.

“Con I'll be your wife, I will walk through this world at your back. I will respect you and I will respect your club, I will love you and I will love the Demented Revengers MC and if there ever comes a day that we must part ways, always know that I will carry you in my soul forever. You have touched my life and you've made me love you and I don't want to ever lose that.” I don't even remember taking my vows after that. I kept looking at Charity and she looks so happy with Brody. He looks so happy with her. Con smiles at me and my heart is full as we turn and are introduced as Mr. and Mrs. Billy “Con” Lee. I am in a haze, but life is just beginning, and I want this man to know that I love and cherish him the way he said he would cherish me. The reception is long as we talk to friends and the day is wearing on. Charity met Sean and she cried. I think they were tears of joy and relief. We met and talked with more friends, but I keep glancing at Charity to make sure she's taking it easy, but I see that the tiredness is moving in. Instead of going to Charity and her arguing with me about not leaving before the guests leave, I catch the eye of my husband and motion for him to meet me in the hall. We both make it about the same time but instead of stopping Con pulls me up the hall and to our room. He opens the door and pulls me inside. He puts a scorching kiss on me. I pull back before I get pulled into a haze of lust.

“What is that all about?” I ask Con and he smiles down at me.

“Can’t I kiss my wife?” Con is teasing me, but I like this playful side of him.

“Anytime, handsome.” I play back.

“Did you mean the words that you said to me when I proposed? Do you love me, and can you accept the club?” I know Con is watching to see if I lie and this one is easy.

“I meant every word I said. I swore before everyone.” That brings a smile to Con’s face.

“I want this marriage to work, and I want you to be my ol’ lady. Those words you said to me, you accept me, and the club, as we are, with all our flaws that goes to the bone. Every biker in that room wanted to be where I stood tonight, and I realized that I need to quit fighting the attraction I have for you, but more than that, I need to quit ignoring how I feel about you. We can do this if we are honest with each other and we keep communications open. We need to have a long talk tonight and then I want to hold you close to me the rest of the night. I am not saying we are waiting to have sex until you are eighteen, because we are married now, but I want you to be sure before you give me your virginity, because you can never get that back.” Con stops and before I can give him the answers he wants then I need to know one thing,

“Night before last when you came to bed you smelled like cheap perfume, did you cheat on me?” Con starts laughing.

“Is that why you were so pissed? Babe, I was helping Lil move boxes of decorations, so she could help with the wedding decorations. She had a bottle of that perfume that you women pour in the heated things to make the rooms smell better. The whole damn bottle poured down my t-shirt. Did you not smell it in the laundry basket?” I want to laugh but I can’t, I feel relieved.

“I’ve been too busy with the wedding to wash any clothes. I’m sorry I didn’t have enough trust in you.” I feel a soft rush move through me.

“When you walked into that shower, showing me all your beauty and telling me that you wanted me, I had to get you out of there before I threw caution out the window and took you right there. I sent you back in here, locked the door and jacked myself off to the memory of your luscious body and still I couldn’t come to bed and guarantee I could control myself. That is how little control I have when I am around you. I am hanging on by a thread here.” I feel my face blushing. Con wants me. He wants this to work between us.

“Sarge said he was hunting tonight and I want to make sure what he was talking about. I need to get back out there before he leaves.” I smack the side of my head.

“You distracted me with all your sweet talk. I was wondering if we could wind this down. Charity is not going to leave until everyone is gone and she’s looking tired. I don’t want her back in the hospital.” Con is shaking his head.

“I will start sending the stragglers to their rooms or send them home. I think Cooper and Sean are staying at a motel in town. I need to go to talk to Sarge.” I stand on my toes and kiss Con. He wraps my legs around him and backs me up against a wall. Yes, more please. He lets my legs fall to the floor too soon. I see his half-lidded eyes and I know he is as turned on as I am. “You find Charity and I will meet you back here later.” I get myself together and he takes my hand and he leads me back to where the others are. I go one way and Con goes the other. It looks like people have started leaving. I look for Charity. I see Brody talking to Rebel and Gracie. I see Katie with Lil, Cap, and Shine. I guess I need to find her. She might be in the kitchen. I should have paid more attention, but I didn’t. I was happy for once in my life, and I felt safe, but I wasn’t.