I am helping all the women clean up after the big meal we ate. It was sweet of Con to make my plate for me. That is something I could get used to. This relationship thing is all new to me, but it feels natural. Con told me that he would be late since all the brothers are in their meeting, I think called church. This biker language is hard to get a handle on and every time that Con holds me in his arms feels like me coming home. I know Con said to take this one day at a time, but I can’t help to feel hope for our future. He asked me to be his ol’ lady, that must mean something.

I can’t believe that I am going to be an aunt to a niece. I just want her to get here so I can give her kisses and love on her. I wasn’t sure of Charity saying she wanted to name the baby Jillian. I know Jilly was Brody’s cousin and I know they had a connection that wasn’t very family like, but then when Charity explained that Brody was adopted and that he would have never crossed that line, it calmed my nerves. Charity had explained this before but with everything going on it was hard to keep everything straight. I should have known that Brody is an honorable man. I know he loves my sister and their baby. I am happy Charity has that kind of security in her life. I’m glad they have each other.

I have avoided most of Charity’s questions about me being gone. I don’t want her to worry. She needs to concentrate on her pregnancy and keeping that baby healthy. I just hope to have that kind of relationship with Con, like Charity and Brody have. In the future I can see myself carrying his child and I want it, I need it, and I know I have fallen in love with the man that may never return my feelings, but I can't help it, I can't just turn the feelings off. I just want him to want me. I need him to love me. I sound desperate even to my own ears and this is not me, I need to find a way to put a barrier between Con and myself, so I can get some perspective and figure out how this is going to go down. I know I am giving him all the power right now, but I can’t stop myself. I think I fell in love with Con the first time I saw him. Nothing has been the same with me since that day. Did he infuriate me, yes, but I loved it?

I see everyone is going to the private rooms, the brothers are going to be talking into the wee hours of the morning and there's no use to staying up. I approach Charity and she jumps when I touch your hand. “Do you want to come to Con’s and my room to get some rest until Brody is ready to go? I’m sure he’ll figure out where you have gone.”

“Yeah that sounds great. I need some rest, I've been on my feet most of the day since I have been here. The doctor ordered rest and I don’t want Brody going caveman on me.” Charity answers and I can see she is tired by her eyes. “Then you can tell me how Con convinced you to agree to be his ol’ lady. I told him I was only on board with it if you agreed.”

“I agreed. I want this with Con.” I only half lie. I would never have agreed without a couple of days to think it out without Con telling me it would help put protection on Charity. She has protected me my whole life and it is time that I repay her, and this is a way for me to do that. I decide on a change of topic is the way to go.

“We have a lot to talk about like are you ready for your big day and then we need to discuss the awesome baby shower I am going to give you.” I know both will distract her or I hope anyway. We are in front of our door and I open it and Charity walks into the room and goes straight to the bed and flicks her shoes off and climbs in the middle of the bed.

“Come here little sister and we will talk, but don’t think for a minute that I don’t know that you are avoiding any talk of you and Con. I know it takes a little bit for you to adjust to change, so I will give you a couple of days to come to terms with it before we talk, but we will be having that conversation.” My sister knows me so well. “I have your dress for the wedding and you are going to rock that baby. I can’t believe that by this time in two days I will be married to Brody.” My sister is gushing with happiness. “You are still my maid of honor and don’t even bother to argue. I know you don’t like crowds, so we are keeping it small, but I am not doing this without you.”

“I will be honored. I can’t wait to see your dress.” My sister has a strange taste in clothing, so I can’t wait to see what dress she went with.

“Oh, it is going to surprise everyone.” I bet it does. I take my shoes off and climb in the bed with my sister and I hear the words coming out of Charity’s mouth, but my mind is on Con and then I hear nothing, but my dreams are full of one sexy biker.