CHAPTER THIRTEEN
Cassandra paced the floor of her hotel room in bare feet. The rooms had been renovated and hardwood floors replaced what had once been plush carpet. She appreciated the chic modern look, but the last thing she needed or wanted was for her next-door neighbor to hear her and know she was back in her room. She still didn’t know who Harrison had bribed to place him in the suite next to hers, but if she ever found out, she’d make sure that person was fired.
She marched to the window and back, her silk loungewear sweeping the floors. At this rate she could save the hotel money on vacuuming and dusting. A glance at the clock on the shelf told her that it was time for Buckley’s show.
Since her son’s sudden departure, she’d taken to listening to Buckley the Bastard, hoping he’d hear about Roper’s whereabouts before she did. He had spies everywhere. But since Roper and Amy had been gone, all Buckley had done was call John a coward for leaving town. The man was all about name-calling. Yet he was persistent, and somehow, someway, he’d find out where her son had gone.
And she’d be listening when he revealed all. She flipped on the cable station that broadcast his radio show simultaneously.
The man droned on about hockey and she sighed.
A knock sounded at her door. She assumed it was Harrison and she sat quietly, hoping he’d go away. He knocked again.
“I died and went to Heaven,” she called out to the person on the other side of the door. Her stomach flipped like a schoolgirl’s. Like the schoolgirl she’d once been the last time they were together, when she’d been head over heels in love with him.
She’d been in love since, but she’d never had the depth of feeling she’d had—still had—for Harrison. But those feelings scared her because he was as strong a personality as she was. And she’d been on her own for so long, she feared his ability to twist her to his whim would cause her to lose herself. And even if his whim suited hers, she didn’t want him to know he was in control. In essence, her feelings for him and the influence he wielded over her, scared her.
“You’d be in Heaven if you’d just let me in,” he yelled back, his voice deep through the closed door. “We have business to discuss. I have some head shots of actors and actresses I want to screen-test for the show.”
Business or not, she didn’t want to be alone with him. “I’m sleeping,” she called back.
“You signed the contract, Cassie. You’re in this project. Working with me. So open the door.” He banged harder.
She cringed and hoped the guests in the neighboring rooms didn’t call and report them.
Yes, she’d signed the contract. She’d been tricked. She just wasn’t sure who’d done it. One minute she’d been having lunch with Yank Morgan and Harrison, who’d insisted on coming along. She’d been certain she could charm John’s whereabouts out of Yank. The next minute the subject changed from her son to the TV series and Cassandra’s resistance to the project. Yank had declared he had the perfect replacement for Cassandra. An unknown. A woman who’d never acted a day in her life. He’d suggested Lola, his wife, a lovely although plain woman, who couldn’t hold a candle to Cassandra, not in her heyday, and not now.
She’d looked to Harrison, expecting him to laugh. Instead he’d nodded thoughtfully and he’d agreed. Cassandra had lost it then. Even though she’d played into Harrison’s hands, she’d stood up in the middle of the restaurant, in front of the maître d’ and everyone, and announced there was nobody better to play the role than she.
Harrison had whipped out a contract and she’d signed. She’d signed without her agent, without her attorney, on principle and acting in anger. Next thing she knew, Harrison had called his assistant and the news had hit the press.
They’d conned her and she’d allowed herself to be conned.
Suddenly she heard Buckley’s voice loud and clear again. It had turned quiet and she realized Harrison had stopped banging on the door.
“Whew.” She hadn’t thought he’d give in and walk away so easily.
And though it was what she’d wanted, she found herself disappointed in him, anyway. She lowered herself to the couch and five minutes later, the key card sounded in her door and housekeeping let him inside.
“Your room,” the maid with a heavy accent said, smiling shyly up at him before she walked away.
The door slammed shut behind her, leaving Harrison inside Cassandra’s room.
She jumped up from the couch. “Well, of all the nerve!” she said, striving for her most indignant tone.
He walked forward, toward where she stood by the couch. His masculine, sensual cologne wrapped around her, touching her inside and out.
“Cassie, Cassie. When are you going to stop fighting the inevitable?” he asked.
He was as handsome now as he’d been back then, while she’d had to endure Botox and Restylane and even a face-lift. She resented it. “I believe I stopped fighting the moment you tricked me into signing that contract.” She fluttered her eyelashes and spoke too sweetly.
He laughed. “If you think you were tricked, sue me.” He grinned but didn’t say one gloating word.
Damn him. At least then she could have snapped right back.
He placed folders on the table by the couch. At least he hadn’t lied about wanting to do business.
“Besides, I’m not talking about you giving in on the role. I’m talking about giving in on us. We’re inevitable.”
Her heart fluttered inside her chest. Perhaps he’d only used business as an excuse to make his way into her room. She feared her heart would be next. “No, we’re not.”
He shook his head in that determined way he had, his jaw clenched. “I’ve waited long enough for you and I’m not about to walk away now.” He reached a strong, tanned hand toward her face.
She turned away before she could give in. She was afraid. Afraid of doing as he suggested and ending up as the wife of the most powerful director in Hollywood. He’d turned from movies to television and hadn’t looked back. He wanted her to do the same. Then where would she be?
At his beck and call.
At his mercy.
She’d have no protective barriers left because he understood her better than any man ever had, and he got her to do things she knew weren’t right for her. Or maybe they were exactly what she needed, but she feared losing control of her life—which she’d lived on her own terms for so long. She just didn’t know anymore.
“Why don’t we look at the head shots?” he suggested, backing off personal subjects.
Grateful, Cassandra turned back around and they settled beside each other on the couch. He opened the folder and revealed the next crop of young, beautiful perfection. They sought fame and fortune in Hollywood. She’d been like them once, wide-eyed and innocent, ready to make it big.
She was too old to consider them her competition. Rationally she understood that, but she couldn’t help but be a touch envious that the hardships of life hadn’t touched their youthful faces yet.
“I was thinking…” Harrison paused to flip through the photographs.
“I’ve had so many e-mails and phone calls asking me when I was going to touch on my favorite least-favorite subject, John Roper.” Buckley’s voice carried through the television, John’s name capturing Cassandra’s attention.
“One minute,” she said to Harrison, and grabbed the remote control to raise the volume.
Buckley adjusted the microphone in front of his face. “It’s been frustrating for me to have no gossip to report on Roper since he unceremoniously disappeared. Or should I say ran away?” the disgruntled man asked.
“His harassment helped drive John underground,” Cassandra said bitterly. At least that was what Yank and Micki told her. That John needed time for himself or else there would be no next season for him. He needed, they’d said, a break from the media, the fans and, yes, even his family. That remark had hurt.
Maybe because she could understand why he’d need to get away. Which didn’t mean she wasn’t going to scold him the next time she got her hands on him for a hug. He’d abandoned her to Harrison’s clutches.
“Well, I finally have a big reveal,” Buckley said proudly. “Right after this message from our sponsors.”
“Are you okay?” Harrison asked, wrapping an arm around her shoulder. He understood how she felt about John abandoning her.
She wished he didn’t. She wished he wouldn’t be so kind or make leaning on him so easy.
Cassandra nodded and bit the inside of her cheek.
After a short break, during which neither Harrison nor Cassandra spoke, Buckley returned. “Many have been looking for our friend, John Roper, the Renegades’ highest-paid coward, and People Magazine finally got the inside scoop.”
Cassandra leaned in closer, her anticipation rising. Just where was her son?
“Inside this week’s issue is an iPhone photo taken from the Web site of pop diva Hannah Gregory in the restaurant of the exclusive lodge in Greenlawn, New York, owned by Brandon Vaughn.”
A grainy but clear enough to be recognizable shot of John and the singer with her lips against his cheek showed on the television screen. Buckley continued. “John Roper isn’t away rehabilitating his shoulder and getting ready for the season. He’s making time with a hot star on the Renegades’ dime. Wonder what happened to Amy Stone. Our boy Roper really gets around.” Buckley cleared his throat. “The phone lines have just lit up like a Christmas tree,” he said, laughing. “Hey, don’t shoot the messenger. I just report the truth, folks. I’ll take calls next. The Buck Stops Here!”
Cassandra hit the off button on the remote. “Damn the man for being so rude to John,” she said as she rose to her feet. “But thank God he was persistent and found him.”
“Where are you going?” Harrison asked, jumping up to step around her and block her way.
Cassandra rolled her eyes. Men could be so dense. “I am going to see my son!” She darted around him. Now that she knew where John was, she was going to find him.
Ever since Ben and Sabrina’s father had left—and good riddance—John had stepped up as man of the house. She’d come to rely on him. He was her rock. And now, when she was bound to Harrison and close to being seduced by him again, she needed her son’s level head to steady her. It was what she was used to in times of crisis. And this was her own personal crisis.
Still, she wasn’t surprised when Harrison hooked his arm through hers and said, “I’m going with you. I’ll call my driver and he’ll meet us downstairs in twenty minutes.” He pulled out his phone. “Does that give you enough time to pack?”
She dug her heels into the floor. “Why? Why are you coming with me?” She needed to hear his reasons.
He shook his head. “I’m sorry you need to ask. Because I love you, silly woman. And you need to see your son. Where else would I be?”
Her throat filled. Fear warred with an emotion she didn’t want to name. An emotion, she feared, that was close to love.
“Now, I asked if you have enough time to pack.” He didn’t push her to reciprocate his words, she realized.
“Yes, yes, I do,” she said, grateful for him. She knew that with her behavior, she didn’t deserve him. She needed to get her head on straight or she’d drive him crazy.
She grinned.
“Good,” he said. “I’ll go throw a few things together, too. Don’t even think about leaving without me.”
“I won’t,” she promised, meaning it.
He strode to the door.
“Harrison?” she asked, stopping him.
“Yes?” he asked, his voice gruff.
“Thank you.” From the bottom of her heart, Cassandra thought.
* * *
Roper felt as if a soap opera was playing around him and he might as well watch the episode until his own reality intruded. Which he figured shouldn’t be too long.
Hannah’s mother had taken a room at the lodge, even though Hannah refused to deal with Big Mama until she accepted her daughter’s relationship with Mike. The drummer, meanwhile, refused to speak to Hannah because she’d gone behind his back and informed her mother of their relationship before he was ready to go public.
He feared for his career, and if Roper’s hunch was right, he also feared for the relationship. Roper felt sorry for all parties involved except for Big Mama, who, true to her name, was larger than life and intrusive to a fault, like some other mothers he knew too well.
Amy had already informed him that Big Mama’s photograph had appeared on People Magazine’s Web site the day after it had been taken. Big Mama no doubt chose the magazine on purpose, knowing she wouldn’t have to wait a week to get her daughter’s face splashed in the tabloids. As if Hannah’s fans would forget about her in one short month. As if Roper’s hate club would forget him, either. No such luck. The day after People Magazine’s exclusive photo was aired, Roper’s nemesis Buckley picked up on the news. Between People and Buckley, he figured Cassandra would arrive anytime and destroy his newfound serenity.
Once again, he was the center of attention. In Hannah’s circles the gossip revolved around Hannah Gregory’s top-secret new lover, baseball star John Roper. In Roper’s circles, the dirt speculated that Roper’s priorities were so far out of whack, he cared more about getting laid by a hot young musician than about recuperating.
Put together, Roper had been made to look like a lazy, inconsiderate, cheating pig who didn’t give a rat’s ass about his new girlfriend, Amy Stone, or his lucrative career. Nothing, of course, could be further from the truth.
He nursed a beer in the lobby bar, thinking about what on earth he could do to help diffuse the current situation, but nothing came to mind. Amy, meanwhile, was busy on the phone arranging an exclusive with Sports Illustrated to counter the bad press. Roper didn’t give a damn who the media paired him with romantically as long as Amy didn’t believe the hype.
She didn’t.
But from the moment the picture had shown up in People, only to be copied on the Internet and the rest of the free world, Amy had withdrawn. She might not believe he was having an affair with Hannah, but Amy had stopped sleeping with him, anyway. And he knew why.
The world had intruded on their private time, making them fodder for public dissection. And she wasn’t having any of it. It didn’t matter how strong their bond was or how well they understood each other. She was going to let outside forces drive a wedge between them.
Unless he stopped her somehow.
He raised his glass to his lips at the same time his gaze settled on the front entrance, taking in the two people making their way inside.
His mother and Harrison Smith.
Both dressed in a manner guaranteed to attract attention. Lots of it.
Sure enough, the normally low-key staff grouped around the couple, bowing and scraping as if the king and queen of England themselves had arrived. Roper didn’t know if the staff knew who the famous couple was. Harrison and Cassandra probably just looked important enough to warrant extra attention.
Roper finished his drink in one long sip, placed the glass on the bar and rose to greet his mother.
* * *
Amy arrived in the lobby at the same time Cassandra Lee and Harrison Smith made their entrance. Her success at securing an appointment with Sports Illustrated to interview Roper suddenly didn’t feel like such a coup. Instead all she could do was fear that he’d forget the lessons learned at the lodge about putting himself first and revert to the dutiful son who catered to his mother’s every whim.
“Maybe I don’t give him enough credit,” she muttered.
“Give who enough credit?” Roper joined her at the bar entrance.
She hadn’t meant to speak aloud. “No one,” she murmured. “Have they seen you yet?” she asked, tilting her head toward his mother and the director.
He shook his head. “But it’s only a matter of time.”
“John!”
His mother noticed him. “That was quick,” he muttered.
Amy drew in a deep breath and together they headed toward Cassandra, who was waving madly.
Harrison stepped away, having a conversation with the luggage valet.
“Darling!” Cassandra called.
Amy winced at the long-haired fur she wore, which was really noticeable in a day and age it wasn’t considered politically correct.
“It’s so good to see you!” Cassandra came at him with open arms, enveloping him in chinchilla.
“Isn’t this a surprise,” Roper said drolly, once he’d extricated himself and stepped back.
He tried to sound upset with her, but Amy couldn’t help but notice the warmth and affection in his tone despite his mother’s unwanted intrusion.
“You and I have so much to catch up on. I won’t even scold you for dropping off the face of the earth without so much as a word to your own mother.” Cassandra’s pout was actress perfect.
“I think you just did,” Roper said with a grin.
Ignoring the subtle rebuke, Cassandra turned to her companion. “Harrison,” she called. He stepped back toward her. “Be a dear and see to our rooms. Plural, remember? That means two. Preferably on different floors or opposite ends of the hall if I have no other choice.” Without waiting for an answer, she hooked her arm through her son’s. “I want to hear all about your time here,” she said to Roper.
Not a word to Amy, not even a greeting. Amy wasn’t surprised since she was the one who had helped orchestrate the separation between the actress and her beloved son.
“Hello, Cassandra, it’s nice to see you again,” Amy said, unwilling to meet rudeness with rudeness.
Cassandra lifted her chin a notch. “Hello,” she said stiffly.
Amy sensed the hurt behind the cool facade, but she couldn’t apologize. Not without losing her edge in this situation.
“Come, darling, show me where you’ve been hiding out.” Cassandra pivoted and tugged on Roper’s arm, urging him to walk away with her.
Amy glanced at her watch before meeting Roper’s gaze. “You have an appointment with the physical therapist in ten minutes,” she reminded him.
Cassandra let out a frustrated, exaggerated sigh. “You’ve probably been seeing your therapist daily while I haven’t had five minutes with you in the past two weeks. I didn’t even know where to find you. Surely you can skip just one appointment so we can catch up. You can’t imagine what Harrison and that horrible Yank Morgan put me through.”
Amy bit the inside of her cheek to keep from telling the prima donna that she didn’t deserve what Yank and Harrison had done. They’d pushed her into taking a role that would put her back in the public eye, make her a ton of money and give her back her sense of self.
No, Amy thought, watching her manipulate her son, she didn’t deserve such good fortune. It was time for her to grow up. But Amy didn’t expect Cassandra Lee to understand just yet. She did, however, expect Roper to make his mother see the light. Surely he’d experienced enough freedom of thought, mind and body while here to know he needed it to survive. Surely he could see his mother needed to be pushed away from him in order to make her own way in life once more.
He had to set parameters with his family and this was the ultimate test.
“John?” his mother asked.
Yes, John, what will it be? Amy wondered, but she remained silent. She folded her arms across her chest and waited for him to decide—physical therapy and his career or his mother and her whims.
Roper had never felt so torn in his entire life. There hadn’t been a day when he’d ignored his mother’s needs. She’d been the rock in his life after she split with his father and again when Ben and Sabrina’s dad took off for good.
To his surprise now, he resented her intrusion into the progress he’d been making in his rehabilitation, his thought processes and with Amy. But as she pleaded with him now, desperation and fear in her eyes and her voice, he didn’t know how to shut her out.
He’d have to explain it to her, of course, and maybe start slowly with real rules she had to follow. But he couldn’t turn her away cold turkey.
Both women waited. He wanted to please them both. Because he loved them both.
He loved them both.
Which meant he loved Amy.
Holy shit.
His palms began to sweat and his body overheated at the sudden, but not so unexpected realization.
He needed time to process the revelation as much as he needed time to ease his mother into the way things would be between them from now on.
“I’m going to skip this one appointment and talk to my mother,” he said to Amy. He met Amy’s gaze, silently imploring her to understand the choice he’d made.
A flash of pure disappointment crossed her face. “I have some things to do in my room.” She turned and walked away.
His stomach plummeted, but he’d just have to explain later tonight when they were alone.
When she always seemed to understand what he wanted and needed.
And he needed her.
* * *
“I am so done,” Amy said as she pulled her suitcase out of the closet and tossed it onto the mattress.
Hannah flipped the top closed. “No, you are not. You can’t walk away from Roper.”
Pausing by the bed, Amy opened the suitcase again. “Watch me.” She headed to the drawers and began pulling her clothes out, packing her items in the large bag. “I called the Hot Zone and Micki agreed. If Roper can’t stick to his schedule within five minutes of his mother’s return, then he can damn well fix his career himself.”
Drawers emptied, Amy turned to the closet and laid her pants, jeans and sweaters neatly inside the suitcase, then wedged her shoes in the sides.
Hannah seated herself on the bed and curled her legs beneath her, watching Amy’s manic packing. “I’m not talking about his career or your role as his publicist. I’m talking about you, Amy, the woman, walking away from John Roper, the man.”
“Have you made any progress getting Mike to forgive you for calling your mother?” Amy asked, moving toward the bathroom for her toiletries.
“No, but he’s a man and he’s stubborn. But you don’t see me leaving him because I don’t like the decisions he’s made,” Hannah said, loud enough for Amy to hear as she pulled her shampoo and conditioner out of the shower.
“Here’s the thing,” Amy said, rejoining Hannah and continuing to pack. “I got involved with Roper while we were here at the lodge so that I could stop fighting the attraction while we were living in such close proximity. It made sense.” She placed the sealed bags filled with her things into her suitcase and zipped it closed.
“Go on,” Hannah said, her skepticism obvious.
Amy ignored her tone. “But now that things have blown up with the press, it’s time to go home. I can’t help a man who doesn’t want to be helped. So I’m leaving.”
“Craving satisfied, man out of your system?” Hannah asked wryly.
Amy drew a deep breath. “Exactly.”
“Liar.”
Maybe, Amy thought, but she wasn’t about to admit it aloud. She was disappointed in Roper. Disappointed in how he handled his first crisis. And she was disappointed in herself for falling hard for a man who was the opposite of everything she wanted and needed in her life.
“I’m not going to argue with you,” Amy said. “I am, however, going to insist you keep in touch. I’m new in town and I don’t have many friends, remember? So when you’re visiting New York, I expect to see you. And when you’re home in L.A., I want you to call, okay?” Amy changed the subject. She wanted to leave one conversation on a good note.
Hannah rose from the bed and gave Amy a hug. “Okay. As long as you know I’m not finished harassing you about Roper.”
Amy rolled her eyes. “Fine,” she said, knowing she couldn’t deter Hannah. If the woman could stare down Big Mama, Hannah had persistence and staying power.
Amy glanced at her watch. She had a car service picking her up and she needed to get going before she could think too long or too hard about all the reasons she didn’t want to leave Roper. But she had no choice. The only way he could decide what he wanted in his life, what kind of relationship he wanted to have with his family and how he could put his career first, was for Amy to step aside. Leaving him alone to compare life before and after Amy Stone.
* * *
He popped a beer in celebration. Roper had been found. It had been a long, dry spell. Boring. He’d had no one to blame for his troubles. Now that was over. The fun could begin again.