Three weeks later I’m in the kitchen starting the preparations for Kayla’s and Coop’s engagement supper. I pushed the supper back a week since Grace had a hard time taking off the Saturday before, I didn’t want her coming here being drained after a long day at the diner.
As I’m peeling potatoes my phone starts ringing. The screen flashes an unknown number. I answer it politely even though I’m not expecting an answer. The last week I’ve been getting a hang up call at least once a day, sure enough the same thing happens again. Annoyed, I hang up and move back to my spot at the counter. At first I thought it was a wrong number or kids, but now I realize that’s probably unlikely. I know it’s something I should mention to Jaxson but things have been amazing for us the last 3 weeks and I really don’t want anything to strain it. I bend down to grab baking sheets from underneath my oven when something big and hard pushes against me from behind, startling a yelp from me. I reach out and grab on to the oven door to balance myself.
“You can’t stick this beautiful ass in the air Julia and expect me not to do something about it.” Jaxson’s rough erotic voice causes a delicious shiver to travel through my body.
Not being able to help myself I grind back against his erection. He groans digging his fingers into my hips. Smiling I grab his wrists forcing them to remove from my hips and turn around. “Behave. Kayla and Grace will be here soon.”
His hands span my hips again and lifts me on the counter, my arms wound his neck when he steps between my legs. “Then I guess we better make it quick.”
My giggle turns into a soft moan when he starts trailing his tongue along my neck, one hand cups my breast through my thin tank top. I move mine under his shirt and score my nails across his toned stomach. He growls and pulls the top of my tank down, freeing my breast, then sucks my nipple into his mouth grazing it with his teeth. I whimper and wrap my legs around his hips. Before things get too heavy the doorbell rings.
Jaxson tenses, “For fuck sakes.”
I respond by moaning in disappointment. He leans in giving me a long deep kiss on the mouth, which gets broken up again when someone starts pounding on the door frantically.
He growls, “We are fucking moving Julia and we aren’t telling anyone where we live.”
I laugh and trail behind him as he makes his way to the door. He swings it open aggressively. Grace steps back startled whereas Kayla has her hands on her hips and returns Jaxson’s glare, “Ya know Jaxson, you and this door locking business is starting to piss me off. There was a time where I could just walk in to my best friend’s house when I showed up. I didn’t have to knock.”
I try to hold back my laugh from her sassy comment. “Well Kayla, sorry to inconvenience you, but my door locking business is to keep your best friend’s ass safe. Don’t tell me Coop doesn’t make you lock your goddamn door?”
Kayla tilts her head, “Wow, you’re grouchy today. Is the Hulk going to be gracing us with his presence the whole time?” She walks past him now giving him a quick pat on the chest. “Coop’s waiting for you in the truck to head to the liquor store whenever you decide to get over your tantrum.”
Grace and I burst into muffled giggles while we hold our hands over our mouths. Jaxson mutters something to himself as he puts his shoes on then walks over giving me a quick hard kiss. “You need to find new friends.”
“Ha! You would still have to put up with me because I’m marrying your best friend. Sorry big guy but you’re stuck with me.”
Jaxson shakes his head in frustration but I don’t miss the twitch of his lips before he heads out the door. They secretly love each other. I look over to Kayla who has a huge smile on her face, “I love screwing with him.”
We all laugh and make our way into the kitchen. Grace lays out 3 freshly baked pies on my counter.
“Wow Grace these look great, thank you for bringing them.”
“No problem, they’re nothing fancy. I made an apple, a raspberry and a blueberry.”
“I’m sure they will be delicious as always.”
“Did Katelyn respond? Was she able to come tonight?” Kayla asks.
“Yes, she’s coming. Between her, Sawyer, Cade and Grams we will have a full house tonight.”
“Oh I’m so glad Grams could come. I haven’t seen her in a while.”
“You know Grams, she’s always in the mood to celebrate.”
We all giggle in agreement then start setting up in the dining room. We push together tables and set up extra chairs. My back screams at me every time I lift anything heavy. Since my fall from Wyatt my back hasn’t been the same, and it wasn’t great to begin with.
“You alright Jules?” Kayla asks concerned.
“Ya, my back is just a mess.”
“I thought yoga was helping?”
“It was, but since my fall it hasn’t been doing well. I’ve been meaning to come see you but I’ve just been caught up in stuff.”
Kayla grunts, “More like someone has been caught up in you. Come on, let’s go to the living room. I’ll do a quick fix to hold you over, Grace I could use your help with some pressure points.”
“Sure.”
We all head into the living room, Kayla makes up a little spot on the floor with the throw blankets and pillows.
“Okay, take off your tank. Grace I’m going to get you to hold certain points on her lower back while I work on her top. Between the both of us it won’t take long.”
“Thank you,” I say before removing my shirt and lying face down on the make-shift bed. Normally I would tell them not to worry, but I am in a lot of pain and I would never turn down a massage from Kayla. She’s the best massage therapist around. As soon as she puts her hands on me, I fall into a blissful state.
“So who’s Katelyn?” I ask Coop on our way back to the house.
“She’s the girl’s hairdresser,” then he looks over at me and grins, “And waxer.”
“Waxer!? What kind of waxing we talking about?” Sawyer asks excitedly from the back seat. He and Cade pulled in just before we left to the liquor store.
“None of your goddamn business.” I’m not letting that shit-head know anything about Julia’s waxing.
He chuckles, “Oh so it’s that kind of waxing. Nice!”
I turn around and glare at him, daring him to say anything more.
“She’s the one who spotted us outside the club that night and got us in,” Coops says explaining further.
“Oh ya, she was hot!” Sawyer adds.
“She’s a nice girl, but dates some real douche bags. Especially the most recent one. He works at that club, that’s how she got us all in. I met him at Big Mike’s one day when I was there sparring with a deputy. I never wanted to kick someone’s ass as much as I did his.”
Sawyer breaks in, “Speaking of Big Mike, he came up to Cade and I the other day, asked us if we wanted to buy his gym.”
I whip my head over to Sawyer in surprise, “What?”
“No bull shit. He actually said the 3 of us should buy it. I’m considering it.”
“You want to move here?” I couldn’t be more shocked right now if the guy told me he had a pussy.
“Ya why not, I’m kind of digging this little town. With a little money we could do some pretty cool shit with that place.”
I look over at Cade now, “What about you?”
He shrugs, “I’m not sure I want to settle in one place, but I agree with Sawyer. We could do a lot with the place.”
Cooper speaks up for the first time on the topic, “It doesn’t surprise me he asked you guys. He’s been wanting to sell it, but only to the right person,” he looks right at me now, “I think it’s something you should consider.”
The conversation ends at that when we pull up to the house. As we’re walking towards the house Sawyer looks down at what I’m carrying and smirks, “In the mood for pussy drinks tonight?”
I grunt, “It’s for Julia’s Grams you asshole. She loves margaritas.”
He snickers, “Sure sure, I’ll just bet….”
Sawyer’s ribbing dies abruptly when we open the door and hear a pleasured filled moan. It’s a moan I’d know anywhere.
What the fuck?
“Oh ya right there, that’s the spot,” Julia says as another moan escapes her.
Just as I am about to storm through the place Sawyer grabs my arm and puts his finger to his mouth.
“Damn Julia you’re tight. Grace move over so I can get better access.”
“Ho-ly shit!” Sawyer pushes us out of the way and heads towards the moaning.
I storm after him with Coop and Cade at my heels. Grabbing Sawyer I reef him back. I don’t know what the fuck is going on but I don’t want anyone to see Julia moaning about anything. All of us push at each other to get through the entrance of the living room. We freeze mid-struggle when we get a look at the sight before us. Julia is face down on blankets wearing no goddamn shirt. Kayla is on one side of her and Grace on the other with their hands on her bare back. I stare at the side swell of Julia’s perfect tit.
The girls all turn and stare at us as if we’re the fucking weird ones.
“Hi baby,” Julia says with a soft smile, acting as if it’s perfectly fucking normal to be laying on the floor half naked for everyone to see.
“What the fuck are you doing!?”
She narrows her eyes at my harsh tone, “I’m getting a massage, what does it look like I’m doing?”
Sawyer bursts out laughing, I turn around and shove him, “Get the hell out of here. You…” I point over to Julia, “Get your goddamn clothes back on.”
She bristles at my tone while awkward silence fills the room. Kayla reaches over and does up Julia’s bra before she gets up. She walks over and glares at me, “Come on Grace, let’s go finish setting up.” Grace and everyone else follows behind her leaving Julia and I alone in the living room.
“You can be a real asshole, you know that? What the hell is your problem?” she whispers angrily while she sits up and throws her tank top over her perfect satin covered tits.
“You want to know what my goddamn problem is? I don’t like coming home with a bunch of friends to my girlfriend moaning half fucking naked on the living room floor for everyone to fucking see.”
She crosses her arms pushing her perfect tits up for my viewing. “Oh please Jaxson, I was getting a massage. You act like what we were doing was inappropriate.”
“It sure the fuck sounded like that when we walked through the goddamn door.”
“So that gives you the right to yell and embarrass me in front of everyone?” She turns her head away, but not before I see hurt take over her angry expression.
Well shit! I am an asshole.
Taking a deep breath I walk over and pull her to me. She doesn’t hug me back but she doesn’t pull away either. “I’m sorry, you’re right. I’m an asshole. I shouldn’t have reacted like that. I was just caught off guard when I walked in and heard shit that is only for me to hear, when it’s us together.”
She starts giggling, then groans, “Oh lord, did it really sound like that?”
“Baby, if I wasn’t certain Kayla and Grace were in here with you, there would have been a major destruction left in my path.” She laughs again and puts her arms around me. I tilt her face up to mine and press a soft kiss to her lush lips, “Are we good?”
“Ya we’re good.” I press another kiss to her forehead before letting her go. We start heading of the room but she grabs my arm stopping me, “But just so you know Jaxson, the next time you talk to me like that, you will be finding yourself a new place to sleep and the moans I’ll be making won’t be coming from you. Got it?” At that she sashays her sweet ass out of the room and doesn’t look back.
Kayla, Grace and I are mixing the salads and getting things ready when the doorbell rings. Leaving my task I go open the door, letting Grams in.
“Hello my sweet girl,” she says kissing me on the cheek.
“Hi Grams, come on in. Everyone’s out back. We’re just waiting on Katelyn.”
Gram links her arm with mine as I walk her into the kitchen. Grace and Kayla immediately come over, giving Grams a big hug. She kisses and fusses over them as always. Then she grabs Kayla’s hand to admire her ring, “I’m so happy for you sweetheart. And I want you to know, I heard about what happened at the motel.”
Kayla groans and turns red from embarrassment, “I’m never going to live that down am I?”
Gram chuckles, “Now don’t you be getting all embarrassed. Desperate times call for desperate measure. It’s important to show your man you will fight for him.”
We all giggle as Gram pats Kayla’s shoulder.
I lead her out back where the guys are BBQing, taking her right over to Sawyer and Cade before seating her. “Gram, this is Sawyer and Cade,” I point to each of them as I call their name, “they’re friends of Jaxson’s from the Navy.”
“Well my goodness aren’t y’all both so handsome,” she kisses their cheeks. Cade tenses up at her affection but tries to hide it and smiles politely, whereas Sawyer soaks it up, loving the attention.
Gram spots Jaxson at the barbecue, “There’s my favorite boy, come here honey and give me some love,” she says walking over to him. He’s starting to get used to her affection, so it melts my heart when he welcomes her comfortably with open arms. Gram grabs his face making him lean down, “Miss Gladys wants me to give you a kiss for her, but I told her only on the cheek because you’re Julia’s now,” Gram snickers as she pecks each cheek.
Jaxson turns and glares at me when I burst out laughing.
Next she makes her way over to Coop. “Cooper you handsome devil, I’m so proud of you for making an honest woman out of Kayla,” she kisses his cheek and gives him a hug. “Now I have something I need to tell you honey. Something happened to me on the way here.”
I walk over to her concerned, “Are you okay Grams?”
She waves her hand, “Now don’t worry I’m alright, but a man was blaring his horn at me and driving like a maniac in his fancy-schmancy car. When we pulled up to a red light he rolled down his window and started yelling at me, told me I was driving too slow and to get off the fucking road.”
I gasp not liking to hearing someone spoke to my Grams like that.
I can tell Cooper doesn’t like it either, “Did you get a good look at the guy?”
“Actually I did one better, I wrote down his license plate number for you. I told him that I knew the sheriff personally and that he was gonna get into some major trouble. He laughed and started yelling more profanities at me. So then I pulled out the big guns, I told him my grandson was a Navy Seal and he was gonna kick his ass.”
I smile when I picture Gram yelling at someone, telling them Jaxson was going to kick their ass.
“There was a girl in the passenger seat, I couldn’t see her well, but she was yelling at him to stop. Whoever the poor girl is I feel bad for her, being with someone like that can’t be all that fun.”
Cooper takes the paper from Gram, “No, I bet not. You did a good job writing down the license plate number Miss Margaret. I’ll look into this first thing tomorrow.”
Gram pats his shoulder, “I know you will honey.”
I look over at Jaxson to see him looking majorly pissed off. Helping Grams in her seat I offer her a drink, “Can I get you a margarita Grams?”
“That would be lovely, thank you dear.”
When I walk inside I fill Kayla and Grace in on what Grams just told us while I mix her drink.
“That’s terrible, how could anyone talk to her like that?” Grace asks sadly.
Where Grace is sad, Kayla is pissed, “What a prick! I can’t wait till Cooper finds his sorry ass.”
I nod my head in agreement. Just when I’m about to head back out with Gram’s drink the doorbell rings again. I follow Kayla and Grace as they go answer it. They open the door to Katelyn and some guy who I’m assuming is her new boyfriend.
“Hi Katelyn come on in,” her eyes are glassy, as if she’s been crying. She steps in, hugging Grace and Kayla right away before she comes to me.
“Hi Jules. Um, so turns out that Vince didn’t have to work tonight. I hope it’s ok that I brought him along?”
Her smile is bright, too bright, and I get the feeling she didn’t necessarily want to bring him. Not wanting to make things awkward I paste a bright smile on my own face. “Of course, no problem. Hi Vince, it’s nice to meet you. I’m Julia and this here is Grace and Kayla.”
At first he doesn’t smile back, he sweeps his eyes down my body, blatantly checking me out. When his gaze finally makes it to my face he gives me a sleazy smirk, “Hi.”
Kayla, Grace and I all make eye contact, then Katelyn’s clearing her throat, “Uh can I use your bathroom Julia?”
“Sure, follow me. I’ll show you where it is. Kayla and Grace could you guys get Vince a drink and take him out back?”
“Sure, right this way Vince,” Kayla says leading him into the kitchen as I walk Katelyn to the bathroom.
“Oh my god, Julia I am so sorry,” Katelyn’s tearful words stop me in my tracks. I turn around to see tears streaming down her face.
“Katelyn are you ok?”
She shakes her head, “No he is such a jerk. We had this huge fight on the way here. I’m seeing a side of him I didn’t know he had. I tried to get rid of him but he wouldn’t listen. I’m so sorry I brought him here. I figured it was easier just to bring him then I’d deal with him later.”
Before I can respond we hear a commotion out in the back yard, Katelyn and I start running.
Grams is yelling as we make it out back, “That’s him Cooper! That’s the guy who was yelling and cussing at me. I told you I knew the sheriff. You’re in big trouble now mister.”
“Oh no!” Katelyn cries.
“You have got to be fucking kidding me,” Vince says annoyed.
I see Jaxson all the way across the yard with Sawyer when he starts making his way over.
Cooper gets up from his chair, “So you’re the one who was harassing Miss Margaret?”
Vince smirks arrogantly, “The bitch shouldn’t be behind the fucking wheel. She can’t drive worth a shit.”
Cooper starts walking over to him but since I’m right beside him I get up in his face first. “Hey! Don’t you talk about my Grams like that!”
He glares at me and leans in to my face but before he gets a chance to say anything I get reefed back and Vince vanishes before my eyes.
Big hands steady me when I go careening back, I look over my shoulder to see Cade. “Thanks,” I say shakily. He nods and then I hear something shatter. I look back to see it’s the beer bottle that Vince had. It smashed to the ground when Jaxson knocked it out of his hand and slammed him up against the house.
“I don’t know who the hell you are, but if you don’t get the fuck off this property in 10 seconds, by the time I’m done with you, you won’t be able to remember your own fucking name.”
You can tell Vince is considering his options. He’s a big guy and since he’s a bouncer I’m sure he can handle himself well. But he’s no match for Jaxson. I think he realizes this as well when he looks around at all the guys.
“No problem man, just let me get my girl and we’re out of here.”
Jaxson releases him but stays close. I look over to see Katelyn crying.
“Let’s go!” Vince barks out starting over to her.
I run up and grab her arm before he can reach her. “No! She’s staying here with us.” Katelyn looks at me in surprise, but holds my hand firmly, showing me she wants to stay.
“I don’t think so bitch, so you better…oomph”
Jaxson brings his knee up in Vince’s gut, making him double over.
“Time’s up asshole.”
“I’m not leaving without my girl,” Vince wheezes out painfully.
Cooper looks over to Katelyn, “Do you want to leave with him Katelyn?”
She looks nervously at Vince. I squeeze her hand for encouragement. She stands up straighter and squares her shoulders, “No I don’t. Leave Vince and don’t contact me again.”
“You heard her. Time to go,” Cooper walks up to Vince’s other side and helps Jaxson drag him out.
Katelyn walks over to Grams, “I’m so sorry Miss Margaret. I tried to tell him to stop. I feel even more terrible now knowing it was you.”
Gram hugs her, “It’s alright dear, you have nothing to be sorry about. He is responsible for his own actions.”
Katelyn looks over to me now, “I’m sorry Julia, I didn’t mean to ruin anyone’s night.”
I smile, “You didn’t. I’m glad you stayed.”
“Me too,” Kayla says walking over and giving her a hug.
“And me,” Grace says following Kayla’s hug.
“And me,” Sawyer walks up hugging them all.
Everyone laughs. It’s the one thing I love most about Sawyer he can break tension and make everyone smile while doing it. I look over to see Jaxson and Cooper at the back door. Jaxson’s looking at me with an expression I can’t decipher. But when I give him a small smile, he returns one of his own.
God I really love him.
Later that evening, after everyone left, Sawyer and Cade decided to stay and have another beer with Jaxson. Sawyer asked if I wanted to join them but I politely declined. I was exhausted from the day’s events. Actually I had found myself the last few days feeling exceptionally tired.
I hope I’m not coming down with something.
Jaxson’s sitting at the kitchen table when I walk over and wrap my arms around his neck. “I’m off to bed, I’m exhausted.”
His hand strokes the inside of my bare leg sending goosebumps to break out over my skin. “I’ll be up after this,” he says holding up his beer.
I lean down and kiss him, “That’s fine, take your time.” I walk over to Sawyer and Cade, giving them both a hug, “Good night boys. Take that left-over pie.”
Sawyer kisses my cheek when I give him a hug, “Night Jules thanks for having us.”
Jaxson kicks the bottom of his chair, “Lips to yourself asshole.”
I giggle and shake my head on the way out.
As I’m getting on my shorts and tank for bed I realize I left my cell down in the kitchen. Wanting to text Katelyn before bed I make my way downstairs. Half-way down I catch glimpses of the guys conversation.
“I can’t hold the Admiral off anymore Jaxson. We need to make a decision and we need to make one now, are we going to help with this rescue mission or not?” I freeze at the bottom of the stairs, Sawyer’s words filling me with dread.
“Christ! I don’t know, I mean natural instinct is telling me yes we need to go help, but after what happened… to willingly walk back in to what we just came out of? I just, I don’t know… Cade, what do you want to do?”
“Like I said, I’ll do whatever you guys want.”
Not being able to listen to one more word I storm into the kitchen shaking with hurt and anger, “How can any of you even consider this!?” They all swing their heads in surprise at my entrance.
“Fuck!” Jaxson says shaking his head.
I stomp closer to him, “What are you thinking!? Haven’t you been through enough? Haven’t you all been through enough!?” angry tears prick my eyes.
Jaxson reaches out to me, “Calm down baby, come here. We haven’t decided…”
I step back before he can grab me, “No! How could you keep this from me? What else are you hiding?”
“Damn it Julia, nothing. You’re over-reacting.”
“The hell I am! You promised! You promised me you wouldn’t leave again! You lied to me!”
Before I completely lose it in front of them all, I run back upstairs to my room. Slamming my door, I crawl in bed and curl in a ball. The thought of Jaxson leaving again- and possibly getting hurt or worse- breaks something in me, something that I may never get back… my heart.
“Well fuck me!” I stand up slamming my chair into the wall.
“I told you to tell her man.”
I glare over at Sawyer, “I didn’t want to say anything till we made a fucking decision.”
“Ya and because of that she just got fucking blind-sided. Listen Jaxson, you need to think hard about this. Is this something that’s worth hurting her over? I feel the same way as you do, I want to help. But let’s face it, if we don’t go, someone else will. It isn’t like the mission will fail if we say no. If we were still part of the Navy then this wouldn’t even be a question, we would haul our asses out there and do what we needed to do. But we aren’t a part of the Navy anymore; for a damn good reason too if you ask me.”
I run my hand through my hair in frustration feeling pissed at myself. I should have fucking told her. Things have been so good lately I didn’t want to ruin it.
As they get up to leave Sawyer puts his hand on my shoulder, “Think about it. You know we’ll go along with whatever you want to do. Just remember what I said- someone else will do it if we say no.” Cade nods his head in agreement, slaps me on my back and follows Sawyer out.
Locking up behind them I head upstairs wondering what the fuck I’m going to find once I walk into the room. Bracing myself at the door I open it and see nothing but darkness. Once my eyes adjust I see Julia curled up on her side of the bed with her back to me. If it weren’t for the quiet sniffles I would think she was asleep. I turn on the lamp, bringing the room to a soft glow.
“Jules?” I call her name softly as I walk over to her. When she doesn’t answer I get down on my knees in front of her, her face is buried into the pillow trying to hide her tears but I can see the streaks on her one cheek. She’s clutching a tissue in one hand and her shoulders shake from her silent cries.
My chest tightens painfully at seeing her hurt like this, “Please don’t cry Jules. Everything’s going to be okay, I promise.”
She shakes her head, “No it’s not. It’s not going to be okay Jaxson. You lied to me. You promised you wouldn’t leave me again.”
“I’m sorry, I should have told you. But you need to know Jules, if we decide to do this, if I leave, it won’t be forever. I’ll come back to you.”
She snaps her head up and reaches out grabbing my shirt with a strength that shocks the shit out of me, “Don’t make promises you can’t keep! You can’t promise you will come back to me! Something could happen to you. Look at what happened last time,” the sudden flash of her anger disappears and turns back into agony. She drops back down and shakes her head, “Jaxson, I have never asked anything from you. I have supported you in everything you chose to do, even if I didn’t like it. But I’m begging you now, please don’t do this, please don’t leave again. I won’t survive if something happens to you.”
Her agonized plea destroys me but also brings clarity. Leaning over, I cover the top half of her body with my own. My face becoming wet with her tears when I bury it in her neck. Kissing up her throat I bring my lips to her ear, “Okay, I won’t go.”
She goes completely still under me, “What?”
“I said I won’t go. I’ll do anything Jules to have you not hurt like this.” And that’s the goddamn truth, nothing or no one matters to me more than her.
Suddenly her mouth crashes to mine and she kisses me with a desperation that I’ve never felt from her. My blood runs hot and my body kicks into over-drive. Tangling my hands in her hair I take control of the kiss, tasting her salty tears with every hot, wet stroke of my tongue. Her hands pull at my shirt frantically as she tries to remove it from my body. Sitting up I reach one arm behind my shoulders and rip it off with one swift pull. When I come back to her, she’s sitting up on the edge of the bed, with her legs dangling on either side of me. Her beautiful exotic eyes bore into mine, storming with passion and… something else. Something I’m too scared to acknowledge. Laying her soft warm hand on my stomach she runs it slowly up my body, stopping right over my pounding heart. Licking those sexy fucking lips of hers she whispers, “I love you.”
Even though her words don’t surprise me, they still hit me like a fucking blow to the chest, sucking the goddamn air right out of my lungs. She covers my mouth with her hand before I can react, “Don’t say anything. I don’t want you to say anything back.” She removes her hand from my mouth and leans her forehead against mine. “I just… I needed you to know that I still loved you. I never stopped Jaxson and I never will.”
My heart swells so fucking much that it hurts. So many emotions rage inside of me right now: happiness, fear and most of all self-loathing. I have never hated myself more in my life than I do in this moment. She deserves to hear the words back but I’m too much of a fucking pussy to say them; because the last woman I said ‘I love you’ to, left and never came back.
I let out a heavy breath and shake my head, “I don’t fucking deserve you.”
She grabs the bottom of her tank and pulls it over her head, baring me to the most beautiful site of my life. “Yes you do. You deserve all of me, including my heart.”
I become consumed with the need to touch her and since I can’t say the words I feel, I decide to show her. Running my hands up the sides of her smooth toned stomach I bring them around and cup her full firm breasts, my thumbs brushing over their tight tips.
“Jaxson,” she leans back on straight arms, arching and whimpering my name, the sight and sound of her going straight to my cock.
“You’re so damn beautiful Julia, every fucking perfect inch of you.”
Leaning over her I suck a taut nipple into my mouth, grazing it with my teeth. She gasps and brings one hand to my head, curling her fingers in my hair, while the other one still braces her weight. I cup her other soft mound, pinching and rolling the tight tip with my thumb and forefinger. Her hips raise off the bed, her hot covered center hitting my bare stomach. Intense need rushes through my veins and suddenly this isn’t enough. Needing to give her more I wrap one arm around her lower back and the other on her ass, picking her up I turn us around and fall back on the bed bringing her on top of me. A low growl erupts from my throat when she grinds against my hard cock. Grabbing her hips I inch her further up my stomach until she’s sitting on my chest. She looks down at me nervously and I can tell she isn’t sure what I’m about to do. Good! It means that fucking ex of hers never did this to her. I raise my head up and plant a soft kiss to her flat bare stomach, then grabbing the side of her tiny shorts, I rip and shred them from her body. She gasps, grabbing on to my shoulders to steady herself. Her bare pussy is only inches from my face now and I fucking ache to taste her.
Palming her ass I inch her closer, “Come here baby, grab onto the headboard.”
She looks down at me with uncertainty, “What are you going to do?”
I smirk up at her, “You’re going to ride my face while I fuck your sweet pussy with my mouth. “
Her face flames but her eyes shine bright with curiosity and need. She grabs on to the headboard but takes too long to bring herself over my mouth. I inch down until her soft warm thighs are on either side of my head, my mouth coming in direct line with what I crave most. Raising my head I burrow my mouth into her hot wet flesh and groan when her taste explodes on my tongue.
“Oh fuck!” Julia’s pleasured curse shocks the shit out of me and almost makes me come in my fucking pants.
She tangles one hand in my hair while the other one stays braced on the headboard. Her trepidation forgotten, she fucks my mouth with desperation. Her sweet scent penetrates my senses as I work her with my tongue. Fuck me, she tastes incredible! I lick and suck her swollen clit, the nub getting harder and firmer against my tongue. Her breath quickens and her movements become more frantic. Knowing she’s close I bring my hand up behind her and coat my fingers with her lube. Then I slam 2 fingers inside her, and that was it, she shattered. Blissful moans leave her mouth, drowning out any remaining silence that’s left in the room. I keep up my rhythm, drinking every last bit of pleasure that spills from her.
Her legs begin to shake as she fights to hold herself up. My hands span her hips but before I can lift her like I planned to, she grabs my wrists stopping me.
Smiling at me seductively she whispers, “Stay right where you are.”
So I do, because I’m in no fucking hurry to move from this spot. As she inches herself back down my body I trail my mouth and kiss every inch of golden skin that passes my face. When her perfect tits come in line with my mouth I lick and nip at one tight tip as it passes. She moans, digging her fingers into my shoulders, my cock jerks from the sting of her nails. Soon she’s kissing her way down my chest, trailing her tongue along the contours of my body. I thread my fingers in her hair as hot need coils low in my stomach. My cock aches for release and I know if I don’t get inside of her soon I’m going to fucking humiliate myself by coming in my pants.
“Baby, as much as I love your mouth on my body if you don’t speed this up, we’re going to be in serious trouble.”
She giggles but thankfully moves with more urgency. Sitting on my thighs she works the button on my jeans and starts lowering them. As soon as my cock springs free, she wraps one warm hand around it and strokes me firmly from base to tip.
“Fuck me!” my hips jerk off the bed as I pump myself into her hand. My dick charged and painfully hard I can’t wait a second longer to get inside her. “Julia baby, I need inside of you, right fucking now.” My hands span her hips bringing her warmth over my dick. Keeping her hand wrapped around me she positions my cock at her entrance and slowly starts to sink down on me. I groan, digging my fingers into her hips.
“Fuck! You’re so hot, so tight.”
Even though it’s only my dick that’s surrounded by her heat, my whole body goes warm, including my heart. Hands braced on my stomach, I watch her as she sinks inch by glorious inch onto my cock.
And Jesus Christ was she a fucking sight.
A light sheen of sweat covers her body, bringing her bronzed skin to a glowing effect. Her long hair tumbles around her bare shoulders, framing her perfect tits. Eyes closed, face tilted up, her expression is soft and sweet.
A goddamn angel that’s what she is.
She moans once she’s fully seated on me, “God, I love how you fill me up.”
Jesus, was she trying to kill me?
Her movements start out slow and unsure; my teeth grind so hard with restraint that my jaw begins to ache. Reaching up I cup both of her tits, her tight nipples scraping along my palms as I caress them.
Moaning, she arches into my hands and her speed picks up as she finds her rhythm.
“Fuck yes, that’s it baby, ride me.”
I jerk my hips up into her, making her gasp, “Oh!”
I smile at her reaction, “You like that?” I jerk my hips up again harder this time.
She whimpers, “I love it. I love everything I do with you. I, I love you.”
My heart swells with a mix of pleasure and pain at her words. I still can’t believe that I was lucky enough to meet this girl. To have her become my best friend and then to become… mine.
She deserves better, she deserves more.
Shooting up, I wrap an arm around her slender back and one at the back of her head, bringing her mouth to mine. Wanting to silence the fucking stupid, but truthful, voice in my head. Ya I know, I’m a selfish bastard. I kiss her slow and deep showing her how much she means to me.
This is my favorite place to be in the world, being surrounded by Julia. Her taste, her scent, to be inside of her. I constantly ache for her, body and soul.
We both gasp for breath when I rip my mouth from hers. Keeping my hand on the back of her head I keep her lips close to mine and stare into her seductive eyes, “You own me Julia, every fucking part of me.”
She cups my face affectionately and gives me one of her beautiful smiles. A smile that always tightens my chest and proves to me that the world can be a good place.
“I know,” she responds before placing a tender kiss against my forehead, just like the one I’m always giving to her. Then she’s placing one at the corner of my eye, my cheek, and continues peppering kisses all over my face. My throat feeling tight, I bury my face in her chest. Our bodies stop moving, my cock still seated deep inside of her tight heat, as we hold each other.
As if knowing my vulnerability and thoughts she leans her head down, bringing her mouth close to my ear, “This is right Jaxson, this has always been right. Something that feels this good could never be wrong.”
I close my eyes and swallow past the lump in my throat. Fuck! This is starting to be too much for me. Wanting to move on, but not wanting to hurt her by ignoring her words I nod my head and start kissing the swell of her breast. Reaching up I cup both of them and take turns bringing my mouth to each one, sucking and tasting their tight tips. Soon she’s moaning and grinding down on me again, my cock still rock hard.
Laying back down I keep one hand on her breasts and move the other to her hip, helping guide her. I jerk my hips up once, slamming my cock inside of her.
“Oh god!” she leans further over me, bracing her hands on my shoulders for balance. She whimpers and moans, “More, I want more.”
My fucking pleasure.
Giving her what she wants I slam up into her again, her inner muscles fluttering around my cock, “Fuck yes,” I groan.
She has the corner of her lower lip between her teeth, reaching up I tug at it with my thumb. Her tongue darts out, licking my thumb, before she sucks it into her mouth like she would my cock. I growl and fucking lose it. Slamming up inside of her I fuck her hard, like I’ve been dying to. She screams and digs her nails into my shoulder while she fights to hold on to me. My hands span her hips, holding her in place, while I continue my pace, thrusting hard and fast.
She moves her hands lower on to my stomach and braces herself so she can fully sit up. Looking down between our bodies I watch my cock slam into her. Her inner muscles start to flutter around me, loving every hard frantic thrust.
“Give it to me baby. You’re close, I can feel it. I can feel your sweet pussy starting to tighten around my cock.”
She whimpers from my words and her inner muscles clamp down around me. Looking up I watch her shatter, her head falls back and sweet ecstasy spills across her entire face. It’s the most beautiful and erotic sight I’ve ever seen. Fire and pleasure spreading through my body, I follow along with her. Losing a little more of myself as I do.
Afterwards Julia walks out of the bathroom from washing up, looking rumpled and sexy as fuck in my shirt. She stops at the edge of the bed and smiles at me. Sitting up I reach over and haul her on top of me, she laughs and accidentally kicks something off her nightstand.
“Oh crap!” While straddling me she leans over and picks up a framed picture of her and her mom on a ferris wheel at some fair. Laying down on top of me, with her head on my chest, she stares at it.
“Wasn’t she beautiful Jax?” she asks, holding the picture up so we both can look at it.
“Ya,” I hold her a little tighter, “just like you.”
Resting her chin on her fist she smiles up at me, “She would have really loved you.”
I grunt, “Ya I’ll just bet she would have loved the guy that fantasized about all the ways to screw her daughter from the moment he laid eyes on her.”
Giggling she presses a kiss to my chest, then stares at me somberly, “She would have loved my best friend. The guy who helped take my pain away and made me smile again when I thought I never would. The one who watched out for me, protected me…” she goes quiet for a second, then reaching up she cups the side of my face, “I’ve always believed she sent you to me. That night at the graveyard…” I stiffen, rage beginning to simmer in my blood as she brings up that night, “…was the first night I prayed since my mother had died. I was so scared thinking of what they were going to do to me, not knowing if they were going to kill me after. I was sad for Grams, thinking she was going to lose the last family she had left. I started to pray to my mom for help. I prayed so hard for something, anything, to stop what was happening. And then, you showed up and you saved my life, in more ways than one.”
Little does she know it was her who saved me that night, not the other way around.
Leaning up she presses a soft kiss to my mouth. Before she can move away I flip us over so she’s underneath me and kiss her hard, deep and slow. When I pull back we’re both breathing heavily. Sliding my hand up her smooth thigh I grab her hip and rest my forehead against hers, “I’ll always protect you Julia.” And that was the fucking truth. I might not be able to give her everything she deserves, but I am more than capable of giving her that.
She smiles, “I know.” Cupping the back of my neck she brings my mouth to hers again for a quick kiss. Tracing my lips with her finger she looks at me sadly, “Are you going to resent me later for asking you not to go?”
I shake my head, “No baby, it’s not something I have to do, and I wasn’t sure I was going to do it. That’s why I never told you. Seeing you hurt like that,” I shrug, “it just made the decision that I was struggling with easier to make. To be honest I’m surprised as fuck that the Admiral asked us, we’re not his favorite people.”
“How did it happen Jax? I mean, you don’t have to go into details or anything, but I’m curious how you guys were held captive for so long. Didn’t the Navy know where you were?”
Blowing out a heavy breath, I roll off her and bring her with me so she’s draped across my chest. Staring up at the ceiling I think about how much to share with her, “The rescue mission we did, it wasn’t sanctioned. Actually we were ordered not to go. We had just finished a mission that we were sent to do in Iraq. We were there for 2 weeks, learning the territory that we needed to cover and coming up with our plan of action. In that time Cade would leave in the evenings. Wherever he was going had him tied up in knots when he came back. Some nights he came back, I don’t know… maybe relaxed and happy? Then other times he was moody and restless. Sawyer and I didn’t have a clue what the fuck was going on with him…”
“He met someone,” Julia states, interrupting me.
I look down at her in surprise, “How did you know?”
She smiles up at me, “Because he’s a lot like you.”
Huh, well fuck if that isn’t a little true. “Anyways, moving on Miss-Know-It-All,” she giggles at my teasing, “the day before we were supposed to come home Cade was moodier than usual. Something went down the night before in his room. That’s when Sawyer and I realized he was seeing someone, which was a big deal because the guy never sees the same girl twice.” After I say that it strikes me again how similar he and I really are. I clear my throat, “Anyways Sawyer and I decided to take him out for a beer at a local bar we had gone to a couple of times, to try to talk to him. In the middle of our beers a kid came running in. Screaming, crying and yelling at Cade, half in English, the other half in Arabic. Pretty much all we could figure out was, ‘He took her, he took her.’ Cade understood more than we did and seemed to know the kid from somewhere. When the kid finished Cade went fucking crazy. I have never seen him like that. Don’t get me wrong, the guy is lethal, but in a calm way. Anyways, to make a long story short, turns out the girl he was seeing was an American. She was there on a mission trip with her church. Cade got into it, the week before, with some local asshole who was harassing her. As it turns out that asshole was part of some pretty serious shit. He took the girl to punish him. Cade took off half-cocked and ready to shed any blood he had to, but I held him back. Told him we would go to the Admiral and get back up, more resources, he agreed. But when we went to the Admiral, he said no, told us that it wasn’t our problem and we were to have our asses ready to ship out in 10 hours. We fought with him, tried to get him to reconsider but he wouldn’t. Sawyer and I knew Cade wasn’t going to leave her there and we sure as fuck weren’t going to bail on him. The three of us always stuck together through everything.” I shrug again, “So we loaded up with what weapons we could and the kid said he would take us to her. But it was a fucking set up, the kid led us right into an ambush.”
Julia gasps, “Why would he do that?”
“He didn’t have a choice, he was forced to do it. He was the son of one of our captors. Things are different there, boys are raised to start killing from a young age and they follow however their fathers see fit.” I go quiet for a moment, my stomach sinking with dread thinking about what ended up happening to that poor fucking kid.
“So in the end the Navy finally found you guys?”
I laugh sarcastically, “No, we fucking got out on our own. With help from someone on the inside. The only reason why we were honorably discharged was because we made the fucking Navy look good. They didn’t want it outed that we were ordered not to help another American, so disclosures were signed and the three of us walked away with a big settlement.”
“Did you guys get the girl out?”
My chest tightens as bile fills my throat, thinking about more than one American girl, “Ya, but… not before she was hurt.”
“Oh no,” Julia hugs me a little tighter, “Why isn’t Cade with her now?”
I shrug, “I don’t know and he doesn’t like to talk about it.”
Things are quiet for a few minutes before Julia speaks again, “Jax?”
“Ya.”
“The men… the men who hurt you, are they dead?”
“Most of them.”
“Good,” she says firmly, hugging me tighter.
I smile and before long we’re both drifting off.