Green Mountain Collection 1 by Marie Force (35)

The meeting lasted for what felt like forever. Nolan had to force himself to pay attention when all he could think about was getting the hell out of there so he could go to Hannah.

Hannah. . . He’d thought about her nonstop all day, ever since she’d told him he was taken. Taken. What a great way to describe how he felt about her. He was taken with her, taken by her and completely and totally in love with her. It was such a relief to finally admit that to himself.

“Nolan.” Skeeter nudged him in the ribs. “Pay attention.”

Embarrassed to be caught zoning out, Nolan cleared his mind of everything but the conversation going on right in front of him.

“I reserved some practice time next weekend in New Hampshire,” the crew chief, Dave Lassiter, was saying.

“I can’t do it next weekend,” Nolan said. “I’ve got a funeral to go to.” He didn’t mention the funeral was for a dog, since he doubted the other guys would appreciate how important it was that he be there for Hannah.

“Who died?” Skeeter asked, his brows knit skeptically.

“No one you know.”

Dave’s hands were on his hips, his mouth set with displeasure. “Nolan, I gotta ask . . . Is your head in the game this year? You’ve missed more meetings than you’ve made, and now you’re ‘unavailable’ for hard-to-come-by practice time?”

“I’ve had some personal stuff going on,” Nolan said, annoyed by the insinuation that he wasn’t interested in the team anymore. “I’m committed. I’m just not available next weekend. Can we do it the week after?”

“I’ll see what I can arrange.”

Nolan had joined the team years ago as their chief mechanic and had been tapped to drive in an exhibition race last year after their driver’s pregnant wife insisted he give up his thrill-seeking activities to ensure their unborn child had a father in its life. The team had asked Nolan to take the wheel that night, and he’d pulled off a stunning upset that had cemented his standing as the team’s driver.

He couldn’t deny he loved the rush, the adrenaline, the teamwork and the thrill of winning. Until recently, Nolan had been fully committed to the team and its goals. Now he was torn between the sport that had long been a passion of his and passion of a different sort.

He left the meeting the second it ended, went home to shower off the filth of a long workday, shaved and changed his clothes, and was back in his truck twenty minutes later wearing a black V-neck sweater and jeans. Filled with anticipation, he drove faster than he should have in his haste to get to her.

Arriving at her house a short time later, he parked on the street and headed up the sidewalk. He rang the bell and waited, hoping tonight she would open the door rather than leaving him to wonder what had happened since the last time he saw her.

And then there she was, looking gorgeous and sexy, stealing the air from his lungs with the way she looked at him, as if she had been waiting impatiently for him to get there.

“Hey,” he said, his hands propped on the doorframe, which kept him from immediately reaching for her and hauling her into his arms. “You look beautiful.”

She took a long perusing look at him that instantly fired him up. “You don’t look too bad yourself.”

“Get your coat.”

“Where are we going?”

“Out.”

“How come?”

“Because I’ve never officially taken you anywhere, and I don’t want you to think that all I want from you is what we’ve been doing on your sofa every night.”

“Oh it isn’t?” she asked with a coy grin.

“Not hardly.”

“I kind of like the sofa stuff.”

“I like it, too, and we’ll get to that. Later. Now about that coat?”

“Fine. If you insist.”

“I do.”

She turned and walked to the hall closet.

Only because he was watching her every move so closely did he catch the slight wiggle she included for his benefit that had him gripping the doorframe that much tighter.

She returned to the door wearing a coat and carrying her purse.

He stepped aside to let her go by, and bit back a groan when she brushed against him. Closing the inside door, he tested it to make sure it was locked before he followed her to his truck and held the passenger door for her. When she was settled, he went around the front of the truck and got in the driver’s side. His heart was beating fast and his hands felt clammy—the same way they’d been on the first date of his life when he’d been a stupid, naïve teenager.

This was so much more important, thus the nerves.

“Where are we going?” Hannah asked as they pulled away from the curb.

“I promised you Mexican food in Stowe days ago.” Though the last thing he needed was additional heat, he adjusted the temperature to make sure she didn’t get chilled. “You’re not cold, are you?”

“Nope. I’m good.” She glanced over at him, and he could feel her watching him. “Why do you seem nervous?”

“Do I?”

“Uh-huh.”

“I’m not nervous, but I couldn’t wait to see you tonight. I barely heard a word that was said at my meeting, and when it was over, I flew out of there to go home and clean up.”

Her hand landed on his arm, traveling down until she reached his hand. Their palms came together, fingers linked, and that was all it took to calm and settle him.

“Much better,” he said.

Holding hands, they rode in companionable silence until they arrived in the village of Stowe. At the restaurant, he ushered her inside, where they were seated at a secluded corner table.

Hannah ordered a glass of white wine, and he asked for a beer.

“This is nice,” she said of the relaxed atmosphere as they enjoyed a basket of chips and salsa.

“I would’ve taken you somewhere nicer, but I know how much you love Mexican.”

“You don’t have to try to impress me, Nolan. I don’t need any of that.”

“What if I want to spoil you?”

“Well, that’s up to you. As long as you know I don’t need it.”

“Duly noted.” Since he couldn’t stand to be so close to her but unable to touch her, he slid his chair closer to hers and put his arm around her.

She leaned into him, her hair brushing against his face. “You smell good,” she whispered.

“So do you.”

He ordered a burrito, and she got the enchiladas she said she’d been thinking of for days.

“How was the rest of your day?” he asked while they waited for their food.

“Enlightening.”

“How so?”

“I saw the Guthries.”

“Oh yeah? How are they?”

“Sad about Homer, of course, but doing okay.”

“That’s good to hear. I need to get over there to see them.”

“I heard you were there a month or so ago.”

Every cell in Nolan’s body froze as she said those words.

“They told me that you talked to them. About me.”

“And?”

“And what?”

“Are you mad I did that?”

“No.”

He could finally breathe again when she said that single word.

“At first, I was surprised more than anything because nothing had really happened yet when you talked to them.”

“Yes, it had. I’d danced with you—in public. I’d kissed you. I wanted to kiss you again. I wanted to be with you, and I couldn’t do that if it wasn’t okay with them. I just couldn’t. I hope you understand.”

“I do understand. I went there today for the same reason. I didn’t want them to hear about us from someone else.”

“What did they say?”

“That they love us both and support whatever decisions I make. They also said they couldn’t think of any man more worthy of me than you.”

Pleased and touched, Nolan said, “They did? Really?”

“Uh-huh.”

“That’s nice of them.”

“It’s true. And it was very sweet of you to think of them and how they might feel about Caleb’s close friend dating his wife.”

“I wouldn’t be able to stand it if I did something that hurt them.”

Placing her hand on his face, she turned him toward her and kissed him. “Thank you for thinking of them. It means a lot to me that you did that.”

“I was sort of hoping you’d never find out,” he said with a sheepish grin. “I was afraid it would make you mad if you heard about it, but I couldn’t not do it, you know?”

“I do, and it was the right thing to do, even if it did surprise me a little.”

“I should’ve told you myself.”

“It’s okay that you didn’t.”

He took a drink of his beer and thought about the other thing he needed to tell her. “There’s something else you should know before this goes any further. Something I wouldn’t want you to hear through the grapevine.”

“What’s that?” Her tone was relaxed, but he felt the tension creep into her shoulders.

“About six years ago I was asked to be the chief mechanic on a stock car racing team.”

“That sounds like fun.”

“It is. I love it.”

“Are you like one of those pit crew guys on TV who can change a tire in ten seconds?”

“I used to be, but now I play a bigger role on the team.” He took another sip of beer because his mouth was suddenly dry.

“What kind of role?”

“As of a year ago, I’m the driver.”

“Wait, so you . . . You’re the driver.”

“I’m the driver.”

“Isn’t that dangerous?”

“It can be if you don’t know what you’re doing. But I know what I’m doing. I’ve been driving and messing with cars since I was twelve.”

“Still . . . You can’t always trust that everyone on the track with you is as good at it as you are.”

In typical Hannah fashion, she’d zeroed right in on the absolute truth of the matter. “I suppose so, but you don’t need to worry, Hannah. I take every precaution, and I’ve never even come close to a wreck in more than thirty races and hundreds of hours of practice.”

“Are you good at it?”

“I’ve won five times, which has earned us a few sponsors and a bit of recognition on the circuit.”

Before she could reply, their meals arrived, and the waiter asked if he could get them anything else.

“I think we’re good,” Nolan said with a glance at Hannah, who nodded.

It killed him not to ask her what was going through her mind, and he had to force his dinner past the lump of fear in his throat. What if she asked him to give it up? Could he? Would he? He honestly didn’t know how he could give it up without letting down a lot of other people who’d worked really hard to get where they were. Those people were his friends, and letting them down wasn’t high on his list of priorities.

But she was at the very top of his list, and if she asked him to, he’d probably stop racing. He hoped she didn’t ask.

“Could I maybe come see you race sometime?”

“I’d love to have you there. Any time you want.”

“I’m not going to lie to you. It makes me very nervous to think about you endangering yourself for fun.”

“I swear I’m as careful as I can possibly be. I have no desire to maim or kill myself. I’ve got far too much to live for. Especially lately.”

The postscript drew a faint smile from her. “Why do you do it?”

He thought about that for a second. “It’s hard to explain the thrill of flying around the track, jockeying for position, outmaneuvering the opposition, working with a team to achieve results. It’s an incredible high.”

“You really love it.”

“I really do.”

She focused on her meal, so he did the same, trying to quell his anxiety. He’d told the truth about his “hobby,” and she hadn’t freaked out or demanded he stop racing or stop seeing her. That had been his greatest fear, that she’d make it an either-or thing. He should’ve known she was built of better stuff than that, but still. He was relieved she hadn’t issued any ultimatums. Yet anyway . . . After she saw him race, that might be a different story.

“In two weeks, the team will be going to New Hampshire for a weekend to practice before our season begins later this spring. If you’d like to come along, I’d love to take you with me.”

“That sounds like fun.”

He wiped his mouth with the cloth napkin in his lap, reached for her hand and held it between both of his. “Will you do something for me?”

“Sure.”

“Will you be honest with me about how you really feel about the racing? Good? Bad? Ugly? Whatever it is, will you tell me the truth?”

She nodded.

“Thank you,” he said, leaning in to kiss her.

“I can’t eat another bite. It was so good.”

He signaled for the check. “I’m glad you enjoyed it.”

They were on the way out of the restaurant when an older woman stood and waved to them. “Hannah! I thought that was you!”

Oh jeez, Nolan thought, Mr. and Mrs. Guthrie’s next-door neighbors. Thank God the Guthries knew he and Hannah were seeing each other.

“Hi, Mr. and Mrs. Davis. How are you?”

Mrs. Davis cast a shrewd eye on Nolan before she returned her attention to Hannah. “Doing quite well, and you?”

“I’m fine. You know Nolan Roberts, right?”

“Sure, we do,” Mr. Davis said. “Good to see you Nolan.”

“You, too.”

“Well,” Hannah said. “We were just leaving. Enjoy your dinner.”

Mrs. Davis smiled sweetly and waggled her fingers. “Nice to see you two.”

Nolan kept his hand on Hannah’s lower back as they left the restaurant and stepped into the chilly air.

“Thank goodness Bob and Amelia already know or they’d be finding out right about now,” Hannah said.

“I was thinking the same exact thing.”

“Myrna Davis is the biggest gossip in Butler. I bet she thinks she’s stumbled upon one hell of a scoop.”

“You think she’s already on the phone with Amelia?” Nolan asked.

“I know she is! She wouldn’t be able to resist.”

“I’m sure Amelia is bursting her bubble by telling her she already knows. Poor Myrna,” Nolan said, making Hannah laugh.

“Poor Myrna needs to mind her own business.”

“What fun would that be?” He held the passenger door to the truck for her. “Incidentally, I got a talking to from Mrs. Andersen about how special you are and how I need to treat you well or face the wrath of the entire town.”

Hannah’s mouth fell open as she turned to face him. “Are you serious? She actually said that?”

“Words to that effect.”

“People are certifiably insane in that town.”

“No argument from me, but it’s nice they’re protective of you.”

“Like it’s not enough that my whole family feels like they have a right to know everything I do, now the rest of the town wants in on the action?”

“They feel invested in you, Hannah. They watched Caleb grow up, and they lost him, too. I suppose it’s only natural they’d be protective of his wife.”

“Technically, I’m not his wife anymore.”

“Yes, you are. You’ll always be his wife. Someday you might be someone else’s wife, but you’ll always be his, too.”

Hannah rested her hands on his shoulders. “It means so much to me when you say things like that. But it means just as much to me that you don’t think of me first and foremost as his widow.”

He moved in closer to her, stepping between her legs to put his arms around her. “That’s not how I think of you at all, even though it’s definitely part of the overall picture. It’s not the focus though.”

“What is the focus?” she asked, sounding a bit breathless.

“So many things.” Pushing her hair back, he exposed the elegant length of her neck. He trailed kisses from her ear to her throat. “Your sweetness, your incredible kindness to everyone, the patient way you put up with your siblings even when they’re making you crazy.” As he spoke, he continued the gentle, sensual assault on her neck. “The love and care you’ve shown to Caleb’s family, the incredible way you’ve honored his memory, the amazing generosity you’ve shown to his friends by opening your home to us any time we get the urge to be together. And then there’s your artistic talents, your dazzling smile, your expressive eyes that never miss a thing—”

“Nolan,” she said on a shudder.

He wasn’t sure if it was the words, the kisses or the cold that was making her tremble. “I wasn’t finished.” Her unsteady laughter made him smile. “In fact, I was just getting started.” He drew back to look into her eyes. “The word widow is not the first thing I think of when you come to mind. It hasn’t been for a very long time.”

With her hand curled around his nape, she drew him into a kiss that went from zero to holy shit in about three seconds. Her tongue curled around his as she tugged on his hair almost to the point of pain, but it was the best kind of pain.

Nolan lost all track of time as he fell deeper into her and the sweet, sexy sounds she made as he kissed her. He gripped her hips and pulled her in closer to him, pressing against her in an increasingly urgent rhythm.

And then he remembered where they were and that people they knew were inside the restaurant. Reluctantly, he drew back from her, gazing into eyes that had gone sleepy with desire. “How about we take this somewhere more comfortable and less public?”

“Yes, please.”

“You’re a sexy siren one minute and politely demure the next,” he said as he reached around her to fasten her seatbelt. “It’s quite a potent combination.”

“I like to keep you guessing.”

“That’s not all you’re doing to me.” He kissed her again, chastely this time, before closing her door and moving painfully around the truck. He was like a walking, talking hard-on these days, and the constant state of arousal was making him a bit edgy.

As soon as he’d backed out of the lot, he reached for Hannah’s hand and held it all the way home.

After a long period of silence, she said, “Nolan?”

“Yeah?”

Hesitantly, she said, “When we, you know, go to bed together . . . It can’t be at my house.”

Nolan nearly swallowed his tongue at the casual way in which she said such life-changing words. “Okay.” She didn’t need to spell out the reasons why she didn’t want to make love to him for the first time in the home she’d shared with Caleb. But the fact that she was thinking about that and making plans for what seemed inevitable now did absolutely nothing to help the throbbing ache in his lap.

“Was it okay to say that?” she asked in a small voice that tugged at his heart.

He squeezed her hand. “I told you there’s nothing you could say to me that wouldn’t be okay. If something is on your mind, I want to know. No matter what it is. All right?”

“Yes. Thank you.”

“God, Hannah, don’t thank me. I should be thanking you. I feel like I’m dreaming or something because I get to be with you this way.”

“You make me feel very special.”

“You are very special.”

They arrived at her house a short time later, and he went to help her out of the truck.

He kept an arm around her on the way up the walk to her porch. She unlocked the front door and reached for his arm, pulling him inside with her.

Nolan smiled at her obvious desire to spend more time with him and willingly followed her, shedding his coat as he went.

“Would you mind lighting the fire?” she asked. “I’ll be right back.”

“No problem.”

He went into the sitting room as she went upstairs, piquing his curiosity about where she might be going and why. The firewood had already been laid in the hearth, so he struck a match and lit the kindling, blowing on the flame until it took. He was still kneeling in front of the fireplace when she rejoined him, wrapping her arms around him from behind.

Her soft curves pressed against his back and the heat of the fire against his face made for a potent combination.

He covered her hands with his, holding them flat against his chest where his heart beat fast and hard for her.

She shifted slightly to the right and kissed the sensitive spot just below his ear.

Nolan turned and drew her into his arms, looking down at her looking up at him as the fire crackled and sizzled. “I don’t know if it’s you or the fire, but I’m overheating. Can I take this sweater off?”

Nodding, she reached for the hem and helped him to raise it over his chest.

He pulled it from behind and tossed it aside.

Hannah’s gaze skirted over his chest, taking a long perusing look that made him hard as stone.

And then she touched him, and he wanted to beg for mercy.