Merle

When I woke up the next morning, I was fine until I remembered why I was supposed to be so embarrassed and I felt the same wave wash over me again. It was hard to find a silver lining to my toy slipping out when I was going back to the room or the fact that my boss had it and turned it on. It was all just a nightmare and it was impossible to actually pick which one was worse.

If this was a regular job, I may have just stopped going in. I was that completely embarrassed about it all, but there was no hiding from this. I was in his house and I had to leave the room and get ready to start another day under the water with only Charlie in my ear for entertainment. I had a feeling that it was going to come up eventually.

Going out into the hallway, I didn’t see him at first and I was thankful for that. I started to relax and let my guard down, but then he was right behind me and he made me jump.

“I was just wondering if you needed to get in before I did.”

He had a towel on again and I was trying really hard to be good this time. There was a twinkle in his eyes that wasn’t there before and it was going to be hard to deal with Charlie if he started to turn on the charm. I could feel myself being drawn to him and I knew that it was because of how he was acting. What was going on in his mind for him to look at me like that? Something had changed and I wasn’t sure what it was.

“No, I um, I can wait.”

“Are you sure? You seemed to be in quite a rush the other day. I don’t want to keep you.”

I felt my face getting red and I knew that he was referencing the toy. I was never going to live it down. I should have joked with him, but there was no way. Too soon. I didn’t want him to know that I did that and now he did. It was hard to look him in the eye, so I just decided not to. I took a shower, sans the toy and went downstairs to find him waiting at the table with two cups of coffee.

“I heard the shower turn off. Two creams?”

I nodded my head and thanked him. Wrapping my hands around the warm mug, I could forget for a time that I had embarrassed myself to death. It was apparently very easy for me to do, no matter how hard I tried not to.

“Look, about yesterday…”

He stopped me with a hand held up. “Sorry I said that in poor taste. You have to understand that it is hard to not say something. It is now all I can think about.”

My cheeks were flaming up again, but it was a different reason for it. What the heck was I supposed to say to that? I mean, it was hard to really answer when he was talking like that and the energy in the kitchen was more than I could handle. I was ready to get on the boat and down in the water so I could have some time to think. Charlie was putting things in my head that were hard to ignore. Did he know how badly I wanted to do and say something to him? It really was impossible to think straight and I had to wonder if he knew how he was affecting me.

“Well if you could forget it, I would be very thankful. It was not something that I wanted you to know about.”

“It’s perfectly natural.”

The conversation didn’t feel natural and I really wanted to sink into the carpet. He moved towards me and said something about how pretty I was and before I knew what was happening, he was leaning down to give me a kiss. His lips were soft but insistent and it wasn’t long before I felt like jelly.

After another few moments and a whimpering sound I was afraid was me, I pushed back on his chest and said something about getting out there before it was too late and we lost our spot.

“We can’t lose our spot Merle, it’s mine.”

I got up anyways and tried to put some distance between us. My lips were still tingling where he had kissed me and the dark need in his eyes was toxic to me. It called to me and my baser wants that I was trying so hard to turn off. I wanted him so bad and I knew that if I didn’t get outside and cool off, I was going to do something that I would regret.

He was smiling when he came out. I was waiting on the porch, even though it was quite chilly. It was because he knew that I was ready to come unglued, I was sure of it.

“Are you ready?”

I shook my head that I was and made my way towards the truck. There was something in the air between us, that kiss was going to keep me wondering, but for now I was able to concentrate on the day ahead. It was what I needed and the more I tried to push it out of my mind, the easier it was.

When I got underwater I was able to clear my head. We talked some, but the subject was certainly sexier than it had been before. He didn’t want me to forget our kiss and Charlie was making it so it was impossible.