Chapter Nine

Mia

 

I mixed the dough for the blueberry muffins I was making a little longer than needed, my thoughts slipping to Jake.

    “Damnit!” I growled to no one but myself. I had been at the bakery for the last seven hours, and as the hours dwindled down so did my boiling anger towards him, though in its place anxiety bloomed.

    “What’s a matter Kitten?” I could’ve thrown a measuring cup at his face, hell I should’ve. I swiveled around on my tennis shoes hating how much control he had over my body. All he was doing was looking at me and yet I could feel my cheeks heating and need pooling between my thighs.

    Keep it together girl.

    “Nothing is a matter. Life is grand. Perfect.” Sarcasm dripped from my lips. Jake must’ve found something amusing in what I said because a huge grin pulled at his perfectly shaped lips.

    “Is it now? Because last I spoke to you, you were ready to throw down…” He raised and eyebrow as if to question if I still wanted too.

    “Still am…I’m not exactly happy with you…” I nibbled at the inside of my cheek. My body begged me to go to him, to let him touch me, and awaken the need I had for him deep inside my chest.

    “Well, I’m happy with you. Hell, I haven’t been this happen in God knows how long.” He licked his lips, and it was strange how badly I wanted his tongue to be touching me right at that moment.

    “Well…” I couldn’t find the words I wanted to say so I stumbled for a second, giving him the chance to catch me off guard.

    “Well, what?” He asked, his breath against my cheek as he spoke. How had he managed to get so close to me in such a short amount of time?

    Remember why you’re mad at him.

    “We aren’t happening. You’re more than welcome to be a part of Lola’s life but I can’t go through the heart ache again.” I felt so vulnerable pouring my heart out to a man that not only owned my heart but my soul as well.

    “I told you we were going to talk, that this conversation was happening and I’m not changing my mind. I’m not changing my mind about us, or our daughter…” Tears welled in my eyes. He claimed Lola as his he called my daughter, our daughter.

    “I told you, that you could be apart of her life, what more do you want?” I was hurting, my heart rubbed raw from the pain that it had endured. One would think the love of their life coming back after such a long time would evoke any other emotion aside from anger and betrayal but when I looked at Jake all I could see was the tears on my pillow and a woman with a swollen belly doing it all on her own.

    “You! I want you!” He yelled his voice matching my anger. The truth was I wanted Jake. Hell I loved him, and I had never stopped, but I didn’t want it all to be for nothing again. I didn’t trust him and where there was no trust, there was no relationship.

    “Well, you can’t have me.” I huffed, feeling his body get closer to mine. With my back pressed against the marble counter, I had nowhere to run.

    I was in a trance, captivated by a man that had the power to ruin me again, and again. His head dipped and before I could turn away his lips pressed against mine. His lips were soft against mine, and he kissed me as if I was a fragile piece of glass on the verge of breaking.

    “I fucked up. I hurt you. I ended us and for that, I’m indebted to you for the rest of my life, but I want this Mia. I need this. I can’t have my daughter live a life like I did. You know why I went into the Military. You know why I left this God forsaken town and it wasn’t because of you…” He spoke, cupping my face in his hands. Tears formed in his eyes making them darken.

    I wanted this. I wanted it so badly, so why didn’t I just give in and say yes?

    “You hurt me. You broke me, Jake….” I placed my hands on his shoulders squeezing his tight muscles. 

    “I know I did but I can piece you back together again. I can fix this between us.” He pleaded. There was desperation in his words that made me want to be the one to heal his bleeding heart.

    I shook my head, feeling the tears slip from my eyes, and down my cheeks.

    “Let me prove it to you, Mia. Give me one chance. One single chance and I promise you it’ll be the best choice you ever made. I swear it, on Lola’s life.” I couldn’t breathe it was all too much for me. Jake wanting Lola, me, all of this. I never suspected in my wildest dreams that he would come back and want Lola. I loved Jake, and he loved me but he never told me he wanted kids.

    “Get out of that pretty little head of yours and stop thinking about the bad. I want this. I want you….” I could tell he meant every word he said, and even though my mind was telling me not to give in my heart was aching, and reaching out to him.

    I wanted this.

    “I’m scared. Terrified actually. “ I confessed not caring how much I was putting out on the line. If I was going to be saying yes, I was already half way to my grave. If he broke my heart again there would be serious repercussions.

    “Me too. I’ve never had a kid, but I spent the entire day with Lola and it was like it was meant to be….” I blinked realizing what it was he had just said.

    “You… you spent the entire day with Lola?” To say I was flabbergasted was a bit of an understatement.

    Jake’s cheeks seemed to redden a bit and for the first time in a long time, I saw a slight uneasiness fill his features.

    “Yes. I don’t want you to be mad because it was my idea. I asked your Mom if I could take her to the park for a bit. I never told her she was mine or anything like that. I just wanted to spend some time with her, get to know her, that’s all.” He was fumbling with his words, worry creasing his forehead.

    “I’m… I’m not mad, just shocked.” And I was. Jake wasn’t the type to step out of his comfort zone and Lola was definitely out of his comfort zone.

    “Really?” Jake stared at me with amazement.

    “I’m… I’m actually glad that you decided to do that. What did you guys do?” It felt good to be talking like normal people instead of fighting and the second he said something I wanted to know it all. What did they do? Where did they go? Did they have fun? The center of my world was Lola, and I was more than positive that he knew that.

    “I took her to Shultz Park and then we had Ice Cream. We talked about you, and then she told me she was happy I took her to the park today. Then I took her back to your Mom’s so that I could come here and talk to you.” Jake smiled tucking a strand of hair behind my ear examining my face for a reaction I was sure.

    I couldn’t help but be overwhelmed with emotion. I had dreamt of the day that Jake would be here to do these things with Lola and here it was happening right before my eyes.

    “Don’t cry, baby…” Jake voice was soft, as he wiped away a stray tear from my cheek.

    “What if you get involved and it turns out to be too much for you? Then what?” I questioned, looking up at him with terrified eyes.

    “It will never be too much for me Mia. You and Lola will always come first until the very last day of my life I will strive to be the man you both deserve.” I bit the inside of my cheek wanting to believe him but also knowing even the inevitable could happen.

    “You say that now, but you never…” Jake’s lips covered mine instantly, and a warmth like I never felt before radiated through my core and all the way down to the tips of my toes.

    “Just let me have this moment with you. Nothing else matters but us, and our family, nothing…” He whispered against my lips, making my body feel all kinds of crazy things. In one swift movement, he had my ass on the edge of the counter, well he pressed a knee between my legs spreading me eagle.

    “We can’t do this here…” I fumbled trying to get the words out as his lips slipped over my cheek and down the side of my throat and onto my bare collarbone, almost making me forget that the store was open and that a customer could walk in at any point and time.

    “I guess you’ll have to be real quiet then won’t you?” He pulled away wiggling his eyebrows as he gripped the top of my yoga pants and pulled them down my legs, turning them inside out leaving me in nothing but a thong against the cold marble.

    “Jake…” I pleaded though I wasn’t sure if it was for him to stop or for him to keep going.

    “Just one taste....” He held up one finger, licking his lips, and dropping to his knees on the floor. I leaned back on my elbows knowing that the battle had been lost and that I was in for a pleasurable ride through orgasm city.

    Hot breath fanned against my entrance as he blew softly against my clit, pulling the flimsy fabric of my thong away from my body.

    “I’ve missed the taste of your pussy Mia…” His moan of pleasure turned me on further.

    “Have you now?” My chest heaved, as butterflies exploded inside my belly. We could be caught any second, not to mention we were breaking every health code violation known to mankind.

    “Don’t blame me Mia, or I’ll be forced to sit between these creamy thighs of yours feasting until you’re fucking raw…” An uncontrollable shiver made its way through me. He was so primal and full of need.

    “Show me how much…” The words were barely out of my mouth and he was on me, his mouth honing in on my clit, sucking like he had never sucked before. My legs shook as he pulled my ass nearly off the counter and settled my pussy right onto his face.

    “Fuck!” I cried out, my nails scraping against the marble. Jake didn’t let up either, he continued to suck and lick my clit proving to me just how much he missed the taste of my pussy on his tongue.

    “You believe me now, baby?” He mumbled his tongue pushing into my tight entrance. I could feel the rolling of his tongue as he slipped it in and out, repeatedly making stars show before my eyes.

    “Yes!” Breath caught in my throat as I spoke the pleasure of his tongue against my pussy nearly pushing me over the edge.

    “Fuck my fingers, Mia,” Jake ordered, slipping two thick digits inside my tight pussy. I could feel him stretching me ever so slowly. My orgasm slammed into me, forcing all the air from my lungs.

    Stars formed before my eyes as my lids fluttered closed, my body floating for a few seconds before coming back down to Earth.

    And still then Jake stayed between my legs, licking and sucking up every single ounce of my release refusing to leave even a single drop behind.

    “Your pussy is mine. Your body mine. Your fucking hearts mine. And all of me…” He stood from between my legs, while reaching out and wrapping a hand behind my head and into my hair forcing my face to his. “Is yours…” He whispered kissing me so passionately and deeply it seared a hole straight through me.

    I nodded my head against his lips, kissing him back with the same soul-searing need, and love that he had for me. I was doing this. We were doing this.

    And for the first time, in a long time, I felt like maybe I had found my happily ever after.