Chapter 2

Becky

2:08 PM WEDNESDAY

 

I swear, I need a fucking road map to navigate my way through my own walk-in closet. When I first bought my chic little apartment here in the Valley, it looked so big and empty that I never thought I would fill it. But as soon as I moved in, it became more stuffed and cavernous than a Mary Poppins bag.

Briefly, I contemplate Mary Poppins’ wardrobe: an endless supply of ruffled blouses and granny panties. On the bright side, it would go on forever—but instead of being contained in a totally immovable closet, it could be stuffed into her tiny fucking duffle bag.

I envy that Poppins woman something fierce right now, considering my own suitcases are already overflowing, and every piece of clothing I come across isn’t anything like what I’m looking for.

Sure, this blouse is respectable. This pencil skirt even shows off my legs and some of my curves. But deep down, I’ve never felt very comfortable being respectable, even though dammit, I’ve been trying.

These clothes are lovely...they’re just not fucking me.

I sigh.

A blazer so conservative it could run for office as Sarah Palin’s running mate. A cream-colored pantsuit so boring, I may as well rock up to the airport in my fucking pajamas. Actually…now there’s a thought.

My red silk negligee would attract more than a little attention—but of course, attention is exactly what I’m supposed to be avoiding these days. Dan the Man would sure as hell not approve.

Dan the Man doesn’t even like me wearing my red silk negligee at home for a little frisky fun.

I glance at my engagement ring. A million dollars-worth of love stares back at me.

Dan the Man loves me. Dan is good for me. Dan helps me make the right decisions.

I sigh again.

Dan is boring, but he’s sweet. Or at least, he tries to be. And he’s the man I’m about to marry—so it’s about time I shut up, bite the bullet, and get the fuck used to it.

My eyes wander to the very back of the wardrobe. There, hidden behind the prim and proper stuff, live my forbidden sexy numbers from another lifetime.

Slut clothes is what Dan calls them. Is there anything wrong with dressing a little slutty? I obviously didn’t use to think so.

Prostitution is the world’s oldest profession, and by that standard, my former wardrobe is practically vintage. If a woman wants to dress slutty, there’s probably a good reason for it.

Slutty dresses catch horny men.

But I’ve already caught my man, and I know exactly what he’d prefer me in: the pantsuit.

Still, slowly, like a moth enchanted by the heavenly light of a bug zapper, I push my way back to my sexy treasures.

As if Dan senses this moment of temptation all the way from San Francisco, my phone blasts out Elvis Presley’s “Viva Las Vegas”.

My fingers fall away from the shimmery mini-dress I was about to pick up. I feel myself go redder than the dress’ sequins.

Caught red-faced and red-handed.

Fuck, this man has impeccable timing.

“Hey, Becky-beans,” his voice greets me through the phone. I turn around like a kid who’s gotten caught with her fist in the cookie jar to make sure he’s not actually standing behind me.

“Aw, Dan. I hate when you call me that,” I cringe. Then, trying to sound casual, I add, “What’s up, hon?”

“Does something have to be up? Maybe I just want to hear the voice of the woman intend to marry at the end of the week.”

I emerge from the wardrobe and flop down onto my bed.

“Well…when you put it like that, I guess not, no.”

Which is why I fucking love Dan the Man, even though I still have no idea why his friends call him that.

He’s thoughtful. Sweet. He looks after me.

The fact that he’s super fucking rich doesn’t even matter. Money can’t compare to a man who somehow manages to handle my dumb ass.

Okay…so he doesn’t love my friends. And he’s admittedly a little controlling about the way I dress. And, yeah, he’d prefer that we quietly lay to rest my past life as Ballin’ Becky, party girl extraordinaire.

But relationships are about give and take, right? Nothing wrong with a little fucking compromise on my part. It doesn’t hurt to wear different clothes to please my husband-to-be, particularly when his credit card is bankrolling it.

“So…how’s your day?” I ask. Partly because I’m trying to play the good wifey. Partly so I can stop thinking about the many things I’ve changed about myself for Dan.

I’ve made my decision. I’m about to get married. Why am I focusing on such negative fucking vibes when I’m supposed to be getting my inner bridezilla on?

“It’s been tough, Becky-beans, but I won’t bore you with the details. Hey…is your doorbell ringing?”

I scrunch my face up in confusion, perking up my ears.

Actually, I do think I hear a noise at the door.

“Huh. That’s weird.”

“Go answer it.”

I get off the bed and head for the front door, wondering when my fiancé became a psychic or whatever.

“Anyway,” Dan says through the phone, “I do have some bad news.”

HA! I knew it. Fucking called it. I knew he called because something was up.

“Aww,” I say sympathetically, even though internally, I’m doing my Becky-was-right dance.

“This buy-out I’ve been arranging with Oedipus Incorporated is finally happening…as we speak, actually. They’re headed over now, and since negotiations could take all week…I’m so sorry, Becky-beans, but I’ve got to stay.”

“What do you mean, you’ve got to stay?’

By now I’ve reached the front door and open it. A pizza-faced delivery boy in ball-strangling black skinny jeans is standing there, a parcel in one hand and flowers in the other.

I point to the phone, and he seems to understand. We juggle the delivery items between us until he holds out one of those electronic devices for signing.

Once I’ve scribbled something that almost looks like my signature on the screen, he waves and books it.

With the phone squeezed between my shoulder and my face, I look down at the flowers.

My nose starts to tickle, and my eyes itch.

Oh, shit.

I let out a mascara-ruining sneeze.

“Everything okay, Becky-beans?”

“Yeah, yeah! Fine!” I sniff and put the flowers on the table in the hallway. My nose now itches, as well—and my eyes water. With difficulty, I read the card.

 

“To my Becky-beans.

In anticipation of our upcoming nuptials.

Enjoy your bachelorette soiree without me!

Dan the Man

Xo”

 

I smile. It may not be his fucking handwriting, and his sweet nothings sound kind of like a robot wrote them, but it’s the thought that counts, is it not?

He thought of me. That’s more than I can say for all the shitty faceless drunken hook-ups I burned through before I met him.

“So, your little gift pack just arrived.”

“Great. Timed it perfectly! Tell me you love it.”

I open the parcel and discover chocolates. They’re in a black box with gold writing on it.

Mint.

Oh.

I shudder, pushing the chocolates away. I can’t fucking stand mint chocolate. Why anyone would want to ruin a perfectly good piece of chocolate by making it taste like toothpaste is beyond me.

A quick check of the remainder of the parcel confirms it contains two other treasures: Dan’s black credit card and a business card with some guy’s name and phone number.

“Dan,” I say, holding the credit card up like it’s something holy. “Your black card—you shouldn’t have.”

I mean that. Really. Current Becky is a responsible fucking adult who can be trusted with money, but Past Becky? Past Becky had credit debt up to her perfectly waxed eyebrows and would have traded her own mother for a new pair of designer heels.

I don’t even know if I can trust myself with this thing. Dan’s bequeathing a card of unlimited credit to a reformed shopaholic.

Shit. He does love me.

“Anything you want, Becky-beans. It’s your bachelorette party—you should treat yourself without worrying about how much it costs. It’s all on me.”

I leave the goodies where I’ve opened them and head back into the bedroom. I need to get away from those fucking flowers before I have an asthma attack.

I sneeze the whole way there.

“…but I’ll be joining you on Saturday morning at the latest,” I hear Dan say and I wonder how much I’ve missed of what he just told me. “Just in time for the wedding.”

“Uh…okay.”

So he’s missing our joint bachelor/bachelorette party.

And he’s sending me out into Las Vegas, City of Sin, alone with my party-girl bridesmaids and his black card.

Right. So, this sounds bad. But I can handle it. I am…totally confident that I can handle this.

Ballin’ Becky is dead, and New Responsible Becky in her cream-colored pantsuit is totally ready to take Vegas by storm.

“Well…it’s a bummer, Dan. And I’ll miss you, like, obviously. But don’t worry—I’ll behave myself.” I reply. Because I’m going to. Because I have to.

“About that, Becky-beans,” Dan says. He sounds serious. “I know how your friends are—so there are just three ground rules that I need you to follow.”

“Okay,” I say, pushing my way back into my wardrobe. Because, like, three isn’t that many. Three is way less than four, and barely any more than two. How bad can it possibly be? “Hit me. I can handle them.”

“One: no drinking,” Dan says.

…ouch.

I think about my bridesmaid Sammi, who has been off the hooch for the last six months while she studies oceanic migration patterns out in the middle of the Pacific, and my heart breaks.

She was really looking forward to getting hammered.

But I love Dan the Man, and he only wants the best for me, so I say, “Okay. Done. Next?”

“No gambling.”

I suppress a groan.

I think about Percy, who literally just told me yesterday that her pro poker player sugar daddy had spent the last month teaching her to count cards in Monaco. No gambling! In Vegas!

The things I do for Dan’s love.

“Right. And rule number three?”

“No hooking up.”

I breathe out a sigh of relief. That, at least, will be easy. Cheating on Dan is the last thing I’d ever do, and my sluttiest bridesmaid, Mysti May, just came back from her honeymoon with her sexy Hispanic billionaire new husband—so at least as far as this rule goes, we’re in the clear.

“No problem,” I say, beaming at the cream-colored pantsuit—which suddenly doesn’t look so frumpy after all.

“And Becky-beans?”

“Yes, Dan?”

“I want you to make sure you wear your engagement ring the whole time. It cost a million dollars, remember—that’s how much I love you.”

“But…that’s four.” The words are out of my mouth before I can fucking stop them.

“What?”

Dan sounds irritated. I can tell that the big Dan the Man brain of his is already moving on to something work-related.

“Love you, Dan. See you Saturday.”

I’m about to hang up but Dan has one very last thing to add.

“And Becky-beans…”

I sigh. I hate when he calls me that.

“I’ve left you the name and number of my step-brother. He’s there when you are. Call him if there’s anything you need. Beware, though—he’s an asshole. I don’t want you interacting with him if you can help it…but I’m going to be difficult to reach. Emergencies only, okay?”

“Got it.” I’m only half listening again. My eyes have wandered from the cream-colored pantsuit and landed on the absolutely most perfect Viva Las Vegas dress.

“I believe in you, Becky-beans. I know you’ll make good decisions even if I’m not there to look out for you.”

“Uh-huh.” I nod. The dress is red. Strapless. It’s got a huge side split, a suggestive cut out on the right side of the abdomen and it’s so fucking short it barely covers my ass.

“You’re going to be a Hardbottom soon, Becky-beans. I love you.”

I try not to think about Dan’s terrible last name as I make heart-eyes at the dress.

I’ll be a Hot-bottom in this little number, is what I’ll be.

“Love you, too,” I say into the phone, but Dan’s already hung up on me.

I hesitate as I reach for the dress.

Good choices. I need to make good choices.

I snatch the dress up and toss it on top of my suitcase, throwing in the pantsuit as well.

I can make good decisions. I know I can. And if I look like a hot piece while doing it…well…

It’s my bachelorette party, for fuck’s sake!

Dan’s rules are rough, but they’re fair.

The girls will be bummed, but they’ll understand.

I slip Dan’s black card into my purse as I sit on my suitcase, which is the only way I can get it zipped. Along with it, I pick up the business card from the package. It has the name Liam scribbled on it and along with a phone number.

For emergencies only. Not that I’ll need it.

I’m going to be a good Becky. The best Becky. A brave new Becky, hitting up Vegas like a responsible fucking adult instead of a hot fucking mess.

But Dan’s step-brother’s number…I slip that card into my wallet as well.

Just in case.