What an unbelievable day I’ve had four-wheeling with Zac and Brody. Testosterone overload. These two are crazy ridiculous. We all had fun, but damn the tension that went with it was off the charts. There’s no way I can make a choice between these guys with the way they’re acting. If Zac would open up to me, this would be so much easier. Brody is going full speed ahead and laying it all out there. I’m still convinced that Zac doesn’t want me, so why is this so hard? There shouldn’t be a choice. Right? Damn it to hell! I need my sisters. I pull my phone out of my pocket and send them a message.
Me: Need a sister meeting stat.
I tap my thumb against my phone, waiting for them to answer. My phone dings as I step out of the front door in order to sit on the porch swing. I swipe the screen on the phone and pull the door shut behind me.
Cydney: On my way
Then, just like clockwork, my phone dings again. This time it’s Callie.
Callie: I’m upstairs. B down in a sec.
What the hell? I didn’t even know she was home. Maybe she was napping or something because the guys are out. No matter what happens in any of our lives, we are there for each other. A few minutes have passed when Callie finally walks out the front door. “Hey, Cayd. What’s going on?”
I wave her over to take a seat next to me on the swing. “Let’s wait for Cyd to get here.”
Callie sits down and we hear Cydney drive up. Getting out of her car, Cydney makes her way over to us and announces, “Sister pow wow shall commence.” Once she takes her seat with Callie and me, I swivel my ass around and lay down, stretching my legs out over Cydney’s lap and placing my head in Callie’s.
Releasing a sigh, I close my eyes. “Brody and Zac, that’s what’s goin’ on. They’re pulling me in too many fucking directions.” My mind wanders and I instantly daydream about them, my body tingling with heat. “Hot and cold, sisters. I’m running hot and cold.”
Callie strokes my hair. “Cayd, what’d you expect? We tried to tell you that Brody had real feelings for you, but you didn’t listen. And Zac, well, he’s Zac.”
“Shit, Callie, Brody knew there weren’t any feelings involved. Zac–let me tell you something about Zac–he’s a mystery. A flat-out enigma.” My sisters look at me like I’ve grown an extra head. It doesn’t help that they don’t know what happened the other night when he ran away.
“Cayden! It’s not like we all haven’t had issues with our guys. Callie had hers with Dex and I’ve certainly had mine with Mav. And now it’s your turn with Zac,” Cydney adds her two cents.
Fuck! I slap my hand against my thigh. My frustration with these two guys is getting the best of me. Making my heart race faster and giving me a fucking headache. “What the hell am I supposed to do? The chase is fun and being home is comforting, but damn!”
“Cayden, did you ever stop to think that Brody would be the easier way to go. He’s comfortable and you’ve known him forever. He gives you feelings of home, but do you truly want that?” Cyd asks.
“Yeah, it is comfortable, but I don’t know if that would be something I’d want to spend the rest of my life with,” I respond.
Callie pipes up, “You know, sometimes the harder choices that we have to make in life need time before a clear decision comes to us. You need to let your heart guide you. What does your heart want?”
“There’s one other thing you could do…you could talk to Momma. I guarantee you that she will tell you what you need to hear,” Cydney recommends.
“Yeah, I talked to Momma before she left, and you’re right, she definitely told me what I needed to hear.” I push myself back up to a sitting position and lean my head against Cydney’s shoulder. “What am I gonna do?”
Cydney wraps her arm around me, letting her wrist rest on my shoulder. “You’ll figure it out.”
Callie moves closer and places her hand on the top of my leg. “Yeah, you’ll figure it out. No matter what, we’ll be behind you one hundred percent.”
“Thanks, sisters. Damn men!” I exclaim.
“Yep, dicks and balls. Can’t live with them, and you can’t not squeeze and play with them.” Cydney puts her hand out in front of her and makes a grasping motion.
The three of us bust out into a full belly laugh. I keep wiping the tears from my eyes from laughing so hard.
We finally catch our breath, and Callie says, “In all seriousness, Cayd, figure out what you want and don’t get swallowed up by all of it.”
“Right, because spitting is so much better.” What the fuck? Only Cydney would make the connection between swallowing and spitting.
I think Callie and I will end up with whiplash from the way we suddenly swiveled our heads. Again, the laughter implodes.
I stand from the swing, giving Callie and Cydney each a hug before heading back toward the front door. It was great timing too because Dex and Maverick arrive just as I’m about to walk in. Not wanting to stop and be social, I keep moving.
When the door is almost closed, I catch a glimpse of Zac approaching the porch. He has a fierce glint in his eyes, and then it hits me full force, I want to know more about him. Who is Zac? What is it about this man that makes me crazy? Why do I always want him? I’m not giving up. I want to find out more, and I’m gonna rock his world…whether he likes it or not. No more mystery Zac Benson. Get ready because I’m going to figure you out.
After grabbing a Dr. Pepper from the kitchen, I come out to the living room to see Zac entering the house. We lock eyes, and I give him a smile. “Zac.”
He winks, smirking as he passes me to walk up the stairs. I watch him. It was a joy seeing the fun-loving Zac today. One day, I hope to see his barriers come down completely so that all of Zac is present with me.
I drink some of my soda and decide to go to bed. As I’m changing into my pajamas, I hear the shower running, and I figure Zac is probably cleaning up.
My bed is calling my name after the adventurous day. Wrapping myself up in the sheets, I start to close my eyes, but I hear banging coming from the bathroom. Jeez. Zac’s going to tear up the shower. Then there’s a groaning sound. Oh shit! Is he…oh fuck! I just heard my name. Well! Well! Well! I cock my eyebrow as an idea forms…a plan. Zac, you just opened a door. If you want to play games, I can play games.