Chapter Seven - OLIVER
An hour goes by. Then two. Ariel and the office ladies return, get back to work, and still nothing from my old acquaintance.
So I do what I should’ve done immediately. Look her ass up.
Katya Kalashova. Twenty-two years old.
God, how can she still be so damn young?
No education found, but I already know what happened with Harvard. It was her whole excuse back when I confronted her about her… job. Said she needed money for school.
I half suspected it, but when I do a search on her IP address from the Hook-Me-Up site, it comes back as Fort Collins.
Of course it does.
If there’s one telling detail gleaned from my past experiences with Kat, it’s that every move she makes has purpose.
She wouldn’t bother contacting me if she wasn’t nearby. She knows I’m a paranoid motherfucker and I don’t make business deals online.
I stand up and go to the window. The afternoon is waning and the sunset is getting ready to make the mountains bloom with orange, and pink, and yellow.
She’s probably very close by.
I scan the buildings all up and down College Avenue. The street levels are all shops but the upper floors are expensive apartments and lofts.
She could be in any one of them. I scan the upper floors, looking for her. She could be there, or there, or there.
I step back from the window and press a button on the wall to close the curtains, my paranoia getting the best of me as I look longingly at my laptop sitting on my desk.
Ding, motherfucker. Ding me with a notification that she responded.
I’m half afraid that I scared her away and half afraid she’s really gonna do it. But she’s an addiction for me. Some people have drugs, or alcohol, or cigarettes.
I have Katya Kalashova.
What will she ask for?
What will she want from me?
Sex? Oh, fuck, yeah. But that’s not business. Not for me. If I get close enough to touch her, it’s all over. I’m gonna fuck her where we stand.
Money? I can’t see it. She never wanted my money, even when I tried to sneak it into her bank account.
Then what? Why is she here? Why is she trying to get my attention? Why now, in the middle of all this Mister shit. Why now?
My phone rings on my desk, almost making me jump. I tab the accept button and sink into my chair. “I figured you’d be calling.”
“We’re not coming.” Nolan’s voice is calm, controlled, and emotionless.
I have always thought of him as high-strung. Kinda like one of Paxton’s mother’s horses. “Were you even invited?”
“Are you gonna play games with me, Match? Because I can play along if you want. I’m a player.”
“I’m just fucking with you. It’s—”
“We’re not coming.”
I sigh. “It’s just a few days. Ariel wants to see Ivy and shit. All the other girls are here.”
“Ellie’s not there.”
“I think they’re coming though. Last I heard one of the girls was gonna call her up and send and invite. For dinner tonight, I think.”
“Don’t count on it.”
“Why? What’s going on?”
“Do you really have to ask? Your ass is hot, Shrike. You’re next, motherfucker. And my wife is pregnant, do you get me? She’s not coming all the way out there just to be dragged into whatever bullshit is coming your way.”
“Nothing’s happening.”
“Yet. I’m sure it’s only a matter of time before some girl comes knocking on your door. Some long-lost friend, lover, whatever it is you have going with the girls you fuck these days. It’s only a matter of time. And you know what?”
“What?” I ask, getting back up to look out the window again. Maybe when it gets darker I’ll be able to see into some of those lofts.
“I wouldn’t even trust you to tell me first.”
“Don’t be a dick, Nolan.”
“You’d tell Five, probably. Pax. Your sister. But that’s it. You’d let my wife be bait. Because that’s just the kind of guy you are.”
“Whatever. Don’t come then. Like I give a fuck. As I said, this was Ariel’s idea, not mine. Everything is cool here with me. No long-lost girlfriends have showed up. No weird knocks on the door.”
Dead air.
I look at my phone and shove it in my pocket, still scanning the buildings across the street.
What if she’s got an apartment on my side of the street?
I look out at the Fort Collins Theater across Jefferson Street. Katya’s not in there. There are no apartments on the upper floors, only offices. Besides, all of them belong to Sparrow’s family and most of that building has been turned into the new haunted house in town.
I look to my left. My feet are moving that direction and I’m pulling the curtains aside before I can even process.
My window is glass on three sides. A bump-out. A bay, whatever the fuck you call them. So I can see a lot of things up here. And there is a building. Brand new, sleek, and modern lofts priced in the high five hundreds. Two buildings down, six stories high—which makes it the highest building on the block and gives a clear view right into my office. Every light is on in the windows facing me. Every light but one.
“I got you, Kat. I got you.” I’m pulling on my jacket, about to do some recon over there to try to flush her out, when Hook-Me-Up dings me a notification on Katya’s profile.
I sit in my desk chair and just stare at the video. The still shot is her. Her whole body, including her face. The scar I thought I’d grown accustomed to all those years ago shocks me tonight. She has no makeup on. Nothing to hide the elliptical white line that starts at one ear, crosses her throat in a near-perfect arc so clean it looks surgical, and ends at the other.
My fingertips reach out to touch it. “What really happened to you? Why wouldn’t you ever tell me the truth?”
She doesn’t answer. She never did, never will. I begged her once. I was drunk and sad and I begged.
But her lips are silent. Her secrets safe.
“They’d be safe with me too,” I say out loud.
But it’s a lie and she knows it. If she told me I’d never stop looking for the bastard who did that to her. I’d never stop until he was dead.
I have to take a deep breath to calm the thumping inside my chest and then I press play and wait for her voice. Some kind of greeting, or explanation, or direction.
None of that ever comes. There is no smile, no tears, no emotion at all. Just her, in the bathroom, undressing, then fondling herself. Scratching at herself to make those long red marks appear on her milky-white breasts. On her ribs, across her hip. All places I’ve kissed, over, and over, and over. All places I’ve left my own marks.
And then she gets into the tub and bathes in the glow of a million flickering flames.
I am transfixed. Caught in the spell she cast on me four years ago. Lost. My finger clicks the heart button underneath her post and I start writing a comment.
“Knock, knock?”
I slam the computer closed and stare at my sister, standing at the top of the stairwell. “Fuck, you scared the shit out of me.”
“Not an easy thing to do.” She takes a step towards me. “Which makes me very curious what you were watching on that screen.”
“Nolan’s not coming.”
“I know. I talked to Ellie.”
“He thinks I’m using him as bait.”
“He’s a dick. But Ellie and Mac are here. And they’re all at my house right now making dinner. So let’s go. I’m fucking starving. Did you eat lunch?”
“Lunch?” My thoughts are still on Katya. That scar across her throat. There is only one explanation for it. It was a threat. It’s too clean to be an attack.
“Yeah, you know, that meal between breakfast and dinner? Aren’t you hungry? You’ve been locked up here all damn day.”
“I wanted to get the deletes done,” I say, pointing to the empty folder on my desk. “So no time.”
“OK,” Ariel says. “Great.” And then we just stare at each other for a moment. “What?”
I shake myself out of it and smile. “Nothing. Yeah, I’m starving. What are you guys making?”
“Victoria has some Argentinean meal—”
“Aw, fuck.”
“Don’t be an asshole.” Ariel laughs. “Cindy says it smells great and she’s picky. So just relax. You look tense. Are you tense?”
“No,” I say, shrugging. “Not at all. Things are fine. Great, even. The website is having a great month.”
“Hey,” Ariel says, grabbing my shoulder as I try to pass her to go down the stairs. “If something was happening”—she looks me dead in the eyes—“you’d tell me, right?”
“Of course,” I say, smiling in that charming way I like to use against people. “You’re my best and favorite sister. So of course I’d tell you.”
She stares at me a little longer than necessary, which says, without saying, that I’m a bullshitting liar. But she nods and drops it. “OK. Then let’s go eat.”
We hop down the stairs, both pairs of boots clunking on the old wood, and head to the back door once we’re on the first floor. “You wanna ride bitch tonight? Or you gonna walk home?”
She always walks to work. She only lives a few blocks down on Mountain Avenue. Hell, I only live a few blocks down Jefferson in the other direction, but I ride the bike every day. Fuck that walking shit.
“Sure,” Ariel says, smiling at me, making her blue eyes bright in the glow of the yellow-colored streetlamp. “I’ll be your bitch tonight. Why not?”
I shake my head at her. I do trust Ariel to have my back. I should tell her about Katya. Not that she’s ever known anything about us, what we had in the past. But Ariel would not tell anyone. Especially Nolan Delaney.
I don’t though. I don’t say shit. I just hand her my spare helmet, put on mine, and swing my leg over the seat. I kick the starter and walk the bike backwards a little before Ariel settles in behind me.
I take off down the alley, looking up at the condos two buildings down.
I gun the throttle on the bike as I pass.
Making Katya a promise to come back.