COMMANDER VYCON DASE
I was in a lot of trouble. I had betrayed my own kind. Now that I had sampled Nicole, the human female, I felt extreme guilt. What was I to do? I didn’t know if I could have any more restraint.
I felt the light of the sun come up and radiate through the window. It hit the bed on Nicole's resting face. She was wonderful. She was fragile and petite. She looked so delicate dozing there. I never desired to wake her up.
"Hello, and good morning to you, alien soldier," she said as she opened her eyes and grinned at me. Her arms came up over her head, and her toes extended toward the edge as she stretched out in front of me naked.
"Great morning, human female," I said. "It is nearly time for you to check in at your building of work, the tower."
"No, I would prefer not to leave this bed. I need to lie here with you," she said as she moved into a fetal position by my body.
"I feel a similar way, Nicole, yet we have our duties to attend to. The Leader will expect me back also," I said as I kissed her cheek. She moved her face and pushed her lips out to get a kiss. I didn't disappoint her. I kissed her lips for a long moment. But I needed to stop. At long last, I escaped the bed and got dressed.
"Did you mean what you said?" she said as she got up and wrapped the sheet around her.
"Yes, I would not joke about this. I watch over you, Nicole, and it has made me desire you."
"There is no other option for us. We need to keep what we did a secret. You will get stuck in an unfortunate situation with your people. I will get in a bad position with the Leader and my entire race. It is not worth it. I don't need you to get into any kind of trouble as a result of me. Keep this to ourselves,” I said to her.
"I will keep it a secret. Yet, you don't leave for a few more days, so we can have some more fun, can’t we?”
"Yes," I said with a grin. She smiled back at me and afterward moved into her washroom to prepare for her work day. I kept on getting dressed and after that moved into the kitchen to get some water. It would be difficult to abandon her. I didn't know whether I had it in me. But I could not do this again. I had to tell the Leader I could not watch her anymore. I had betrayed my race and broke all the rules. I couldn’t do it twice.
The workday was much the same as every other day since we landed on Earth, with one special detail: I couldn't quit thinking about being inside of Nicole.
The whole thing replayed again and again in my brain. It was a distracting. Today was a critical day of meetings.
There were many inquiries to deal with from both the Earth soldiers and the Grantsion commanders. The Waysaw could arrive any day now.
As the day wore on, Nicole and I subtly gave each other different looks.
But I knew that I would not be able to see her that night. I had to remove myself from her altogether. I did not have a choice in the matter. I was feeling all kinds of regret. I did not want to give myself any more reason to want to go against my own race. One time with her was enough to make me question everything; if I were with her again, I would completely lose myself. I had to go with my loyalty. If anyone found out, I could be exiled from the Grantsion Village.
“Leader Nizok, may I speak with you?” I asked as I found the Leader inside the military barracks talking to Captain Bidu.
“Of course,” he said as he nodded at the captain and then followed me to the corner.
“I regret to inform you that I cannot watch the human female this night. I have too much work now that Lieutenant Yata has arrived. I will need to take him to see the copper mine first thing in the morning,” I said.
“Yes, I understand. I think now that you have set up the soldiers at the home of Nicole, they should be fine without you,” he said.
I left the barracks and prepared a couple of landspeeders to take Lieutenant Yata out the next day. He was working on the engineering for the shield that we would be working on out at the copper mine. I was glad that the lieutenant had arrived. The faster we got done with this work, the faster I could get back to Anvin and away from her. So why was my mind constantly thinking of the human female Nicole? It was wrong; it was very wrong.
Hours went by as I worked, and I found myself walking down the wide path that separated the Earth battalion from the Grantsion battalion.
“Commander, there you are. I was looking for you,” Nicole said as she came up behind me.
I turned to her and smiled slightly. I looked around. Were we being watched?
“I was in the kitchens, and I think I found a more substantial meal for us this evening when you escort me to my apartment,” she said.
“I have news; I will not be able to escort you and be your guardian this evening. The Leader has asked me to get a substantial expedition together to take the engineer to the copper mine first thing in the morning. I must prepare, and I must get my rest,” I said.
The smile fell from her face. It pained me to watch that, but it was necessary.
“Oh, I see that is very important work indeed,” she said. “Then perhaps the evening after,” she said.
“Possibly, but I am very busy until the day of our departure. You do see how important this shield is and it is the entire reason that I am here: nothing else,” I said once again using a cold tone.
“I understand. Sorry to bother you,” she said as she walked away. I could tell that she was very angry, possibly even sad. But it was necessary. I needed her to hate me. If she hated me, then she would not want me anymore. It was the only way.
I avoided her the entire day, the next day I was off to the copper mine with Lieutenant Yata.
“That is a substantial mine. I can see why the Waysaw would want to get their hands on it,” Lieutenant Yata said as we flew over it.
“Precisely, and we cannot let them. It would be detrimental to the Grantsion village back home,” I said.
“That is understood, Commander Vycon Dase. That is why I am here. Why else would we be giving the humans our engineering specialties?” Lieutenant Yata said.
“Yes, I understand. But some of these humans aren't so bad in temperament after all,” I said.
“It strikes me as surprising that you would say such a thing, Commander. You have always been very adamant about not helping the humans. I remember you saying they were weak, dumb, and fragile and needed to be conquered,” he said with a grin.
“True. I have said those words in the past. But the humans being conquered only makes the Waysaw stronger, and we will suffer. But as I said, some of the humans have grown on me,” I said.
“Any particular humans? Are we speaking about the females?” he asked.
I gave him a look not wanting to speak of this any longer. “We are here,” I said as the landspeeder landed next to the mine.”
“Good, let's get to work,” he said as the door opened, and we stepped out.
I was glad to not have the same conversation again. But he was right; I had a reputation on Anvin as someone that disliked the humans. Now I was being completely hypocritical to that reputation and everything I had said in my past. I was no better than the Waysaw that had used the human females to mate with. I was just as bad as they were.
We went to work. We trained the Earth engineer soldiers as well as our own on setting up and activating the shield. It was going to take several days of work, at least ten. I was happy. I could convince Nizok to let me stay out here this entire time. It would keep me from wandering over to Nicole. The further away from her that I was, the easier it would be to not want to be inside of her again. Just seeing her beautiful face and delicious feminine figure made me feel like a weak soldier. So, staying away from her was good.