CHAPTER 51
Theo
The knock on the hotel door came shortly after midnight. I’d already been to the gym, showered, and paced the floor a few hundred times to distract myself from blowing Lex’s phone up while I waited. When I opened the door and saw my woman standing there in the same pink-and-black outfit she’d worn to the party, I knew the wait had been worth it.
I watched her as she walked in and took in the massive suite I’d secured for us. “Your key is on the desk. Come here whenever you want. Sleep here whenever you want. It’s ours.”
She flipped around, her skirt swaying slightly on her pivot. The smile she gave me next lit up my chest. “I can’t believe we’re doing this.” Her finger landed on the desk and traced the outline of the key. “Amie passed out before I could talk to her. I didn’t want to risk her waking up if I showered, so I just left.” She looked up, shyly, like the girl I’d first met in that theater. The girl who’d driven herself under my skin without any effort at all.
“I’m glad you didn’t change.” I stepped forward and brushed her arms with my fingers. “I’ve wanted to take that dress off you from the moment I saw you wearing it.”
Her lips curved into a smile. “Is that why I’m here?”
My heart pounded. “You’re here because you want to be here.”
There was a seriousness in her eyes that I couldn’t ignore. “Is that why you’re here?”
I shook my head. “I’m here because I’ve fallen in love with you, Lex. Madly. And I can’t imagine another day without you.”
I didn’t expect her to say it back. I didn’t deserve the words after the way I treated her this morning, but I needed her to know how I felt. How I would always feel, together or apart.
Her lip quivered, and she slid her arms around me, pulling me close. “And I’m here because I love you too. I’ll take the risks. We’ll find a way.” She looked up into my eyes with a sheen of emotion glossing hers, and a thickness rose in my throat. “Thank you for talking to me tonight. For explaining. I know you were only trying to do the right thing.”
I pressed my forehead to hers. “Thanks for listening.”
We smiled at each other, and for the first time in my life, I wanted to make love to a woman. Not just any woman. I wanted to make love to Lex. I wanted to feel every beat of her heart and come so deep inside of her, she would feel me everywhere.
I placed my hand on her cheek, stroking it softly with my thumb while my other fingers played with the thin silky bow of her skirt. “This outfit. I almost had a heart attack when I saw you tonight.”
Her eyes shone with amusement. “That was kind of the plan when I splurged with my slot winnings.”
I glared at her, a rumble igniting in my chest. As much as I wanted to be gentle with Lex, I also had the insane desire to fuck her like a madman. When she teased me like that, she sparked something in me. Something desperate and wild.
My hand fell from her cheek, and both palms gripped her ass, lifted her into the air, and dropped her back down on the desk. She gasped, and I brought my mouth to hers. I slid a hand under her skirt, skimming her thighs then gripping them. Her tongue lashed mine, and she groaned, the vibration hitting me deep in the chest.
I was trying to slow my heart rate when she opened her legs, placed her hands on my ass, and pulled me in. My cock slammed her hard through our clothes, and I growled before pulling my head back. She continued to roll her hips and grind against me, her panties wetting my slacks. I took one of her straps and slipped it down her arm until she pulled out of it completely. And then I released the other strap until the fabric fell, revealing Lex’s perfect tits and firm abs. I slipped her skirt around her, lifting as the material slid over her ass and down to the floor until she was completely bare except for a pair of pink panties. She was trying to kill me.
I sank to my knees, checking out the heels that were strapped around her ankles, skimming her skin with my fingers. Everything about Lex was so beautiful. The velvety softness of her bronze skin. Her smell. I reached for one heel to unhook it when she stood, shaking her head. I watched as she turned so her back was to my front, and she leaned over the desk, her ass in the air and her pussy in my face. “Kiss me, Theo.”
I shook my head, which was still in a fog. I thought I’d imagined her words. How innocent they sounded but how truly dirty they were.
My hands moved back up her thighs, unable to get enough of how she felt beneath my palms. With one finger, I slid her soaked panties away to reveal her pink lips, swollen and glistening. I swiped against them with my tongue. She shook. I swiped against them again, and she moaned. When I swiped against her a third time, my mouth stayed there, closing around her, and sucking before I began to whip her clit with my tongue.
She fought against the desk while her legs quivered above me. And then she came, loud and hard, and I thanked the stars above that I’d managed to get us a room on the other side of the hotel from the crew’s tower, where she could scream my name without fear of exposure.
I stood and turned her around then wrapped her legs around me. I carried her to the bed and laid her down before stripping myself bare. My palm squeezed myself as I looked at her splayed out on the bed, breathing heavy as she came down from her orgasm. What I would have given to push inside her without a fucking rubber separating us. I wanted to feel her more than ever. Her warm, tight cunt slipping and sliding against me.
She reached out her hand. “Come here.”
I squeezed my lids shut with a growl. “I need to go get condoms, babe.”
“No, you don’t. Come here.”
“Lex,” I said with warning. What the fuck is she thinking?
She sat up, her eyes pleading. “What if I told you I’ve been on birth control since I was seventeen?”
My heart leapt, and in that moment, I didn’t have any questions. I heard the words I wanted to hear, and I climbed over her, positioned myself, and slid into her, slowly.
And for the very first time in my life, I made love to a woman.
My fingers skimmed over delicate skin, from her arm, to her legs, and then up again. I loved these moments with Lex. Lying here, relaxed, and taking her in from every angle possible. We probably should have been sleeping, but knowing Lex, she was ready for round two.
“Why didn’t you tell me about the birth control?” I made sure my tone wasn’t accusing, but I was curious. I’d told her how much I wanted to feel her before, and she had mentioned it only today. Why?
Lex shifted a little, as though trying to get comfortable, and I knew something was off. There was something else she hadn’t told me. Anxiety pricked at my chest as I thought about the morning after we’d had sex for the first time, when she’d confessed to being a virgin.
“I could give you the easy answer and tell you that we barely knew each other and that no matter what, I wouldn’t have let you come inside me without a condom.”
My hand slid up her waist and gripped it slightly. She got the hint and turned so she was facing me. I stroked her cheek with my fingertips, my eyes making a trail of the freckles that filled her face. “And what’s the difficult answer?”
She looked away, and something about the fact that she couldn’t even look at me stopped my heart. I moved my hand from her face and drew her closer before pressing my lips to her nose.
“I was dating this guy, kind of,” she began slowly. I feathered her arms and stomach with the tips of my fingers as she told me her story. It was all I could do to tell her I was there as she shook around her words.
“Please tell me someone murdered the son of a bitch,” I growled after hearing everything she was willing to share.
She smiled through her pain then laughed through her tears. “Shane was the one who found him on top of me. He beat the shit out of him. I wouldn’t have been surprised if he had killed him that night. But it wasn’t Shane who killed him.”
Whoa. “Someone killed him?”
Lex shook her head, wiping a tear from her eye. “He got into his car drunk and drove it into a tree that night. No one knows why he left or where he was headed. I figured Shane scared him shitless.”
“Sounds to me like he got what was coming to him.”
Lex grew pale by my insinuation. “Death?”
The truth was, if this fucker were alive now, he’d be dead tomorrow. “You never know what would have happened if he was still around. You might not have been the first. You definitely wouldn’t have been his last.”
Another tear fell from her eye, gutting me. What the hell did I know? Lex was the one who suffered through a night with that monster. Yet she’d wanted to lose her virginity to me. Something clicked in my chest, and I reached up and swiped the tear from her eye with my thumb.
“I’m sorry. I don’t know what I’m saying. I’m glad Shane was there that night. And I’m glad you trusted me to be your first.”
Her eyes locked on mine, and she smiled. “Yeah, me too.”