CHAPTER 37
Theo
I want to break all the rules with you.
My own words drifted through my mind as rays of sunlight leaked through my lids.
My eyes were heavy after hours of familiarizing myself with all the parts of Lex I’d been aching to know, to taste, to touch. But instead of this quelling my desire, as I’d imagined, I’d slipped off to sleep a short while ago dreaming of more. More Lex. Fewer rules.
Fucking rules.
My hand drifted across the bed in search of Lex’s firm body. I needed to feel her to convince myself it hadn’t all been a dream. When my search came up empty, I sat on the edge of the bed, feeling as if I’d just been doused with cold water. Panic filled my chest as I looked around. She wasn’t on the balcony. The door to the bathroom was open, the lights off. She was gone.
The first thought that hit me was that she woke up and regretted the entire night. My next thought was that she’d gotten what she wanted and left. It wouldn’t have been the first time I’d been used in such a way, but Lex wasn’t like that.
And then I heard the faint sound of a door opening, followed by footsteps in the hall. Lex appeared in the doorway of my room, her hair wet from a recent shower, her body covered by an oversized salmon-colored muscle shirt that did little to cover the sides of her breasts.
“Hey.” She smiled shyly from the doorway.
“Hey.” Something stirred in my chest. “You could have showered in here.”
Pink crawled up her cheeks. “My stuff was in there. And I didn’t want to wake you.”
“C’mere.” My voice was still filled with sleep, but my insides were wide-awake.
She walked to me, and I pulled her so she was standing between my legs. My hand slipped under her shirt, searched for her panties, and slipped them off. They pooled around her ankles, then I looked up. “Oops.”
She laughed as I pulled her onto my lap, her thighs around my hips and her fresh pussy directly over my cock. I fingered the sides of her shirt next, opening the loose material and pulling it over her firm breast and exposing it. I looked into her eyes and placed my thumb to her lips. “Suck.”
She was hesitant at first, as though she didn’t understand my request. She would soon. Her mouth moved around my thumb, and her tongue darted out before she wrapped it around her lips. I flashed her a smile and pulled it away, moving it down to her nipple.
“I didn’t know where you were,” I said, rubbing her light-pink peak between my thumb and pointer finger. I could practically feel the clenching and unclenching of her insides in reaction to my touch. “I was worried you left.”
“I didn’t know if I should.”
My eyes shot to hers, the panic that had set in earlier back with a vengeance. “Why?” She looked away, so I released her breast to turn her face back to mine. “Why, Lex? Last night was okay, right? Did I hurt you?”
She tilted her head. “Last night was more than okay.”
“Then what’s wrong?”
Her eyes searched mine, hesitating to deliver the truth. I could feel it, the thick cloud of tension weighing us down. “I didn’t know where we stood today. Last night we agreed to no promises. I didn’t want you to think I had expectations.”
I frowned, understanding everything she was saying. When I woke up this morning, the first thing I wanted was to feel her beside me. But my wants and our reality were two different things. “I didn’t mean that we should put an expiration date on it.”
“Maybe we should.” She said it gently, but something stirred in my chest. “If we know it’s going to end, then it will be easier, right? No one gets hurt.”
Would it be easier? Somehow, I didn’t think so. All I knew was that I wasn’t ready to let her go.
“What do you suggest?"
“We leave for Vegas in a week. I’ll need to be completely focused.”
“Then we give it the week.” I searched her eyes, looking for the words she hid. Was this really what she wanted? “You stay here, you share my bed, then we fly to Vegas and focus on work.”
“And then that’s it. No more—” Her conviction at the finale of us heated my chest.
“And then we reevaluate things after Vegas. When the contract ends.”
She smiled in a way that lit up my insides, as if I’d just given her hope. “Okay.”
Relief whooshed around my chest. I kissed her and pulled away. “If I only have a week with you, I don’t want to waste any time.” My hand slipped down to her ass and gripped it, holding her to me as I reached over to the nightstand and grabbed a condom. I held it in front of her face. “Put this on for me.”
She looked at it, confused, then took it from me, slid off my lap, and lowered herself to her knees below me. She took me in her hold, one hand at my base, the other gripping me firmly and stroking. I watched her hungrily while my curiosity spiked.
There was something different about Lex, besides the fact that she came off shy in the bedroom. I kept waving away the thought that she was exploring a man for the first time. That couldn’t have been it. Lex was twenty-two and gorgeous. Any guy before me would have been crazy not to chase her. Not to say Lex would have given it up to just anyone. She wasn’t like that. But my curiosity was piqued when she dipped down to taste the tip of my cock.
My abs clenched with pleasure, and I leaned back slightly to give her more room, watching in awe as her mouth moved down around me. She dragged her tongue up the underside, then moved it back down, cloaking it with her lips. She seemed to be so into it, exploring me, swirling her tongue around the tip, moving her mouth as deep as she could go without gagging. It was all so innocent and sexy as hell.
She pulled off of me, unexpectedly, looking up, her eyes unsure. “Was that okay?”
I chuckled and immediately regretted it when I saw the crushed look in her eyes. “Lex, you’re killing me. Haven’t you ever sucked a dick before? It’s hard to get it wrong.”
She didn’t respond. Instead, the familiar flush crawled up her neck and cheeks, and my eyes opened in surprise.
“You haven’t? Ever?”
She shook her head, and my curiosity from the night before came slamming back. “But when I went down on you last night, that wasn’t your first time…” I didn’t ask. There was no way, but the shake of her head told me different. “Fuck, Lex.” Disbelief whipped through me. “You’d had sex before last night, though, right?”
She shook her head again, and I wanted to explode. Why hadn’t she told me? Not that it would have made a difference. I still would have fucked her, but maybe I would have done things differently? Given her a bit more attention before going all the way. Asked her if she was okay a few dozen more times. Fuck.
“It was perfect,” she said before answering any of my unasked questions. “I didn’t want to ruin last night by making a big deal of it.”
“You were a virgin, Lex. That’s a big fucking deal.”
She smiled, despite my outburst, and inched her way up my lap, taking my face between her palms. “I’m not a virgin anymore.”
In that moment, I might have fallen in love.
Lex kissed me then, her soft lips firming against mine. She rubbed herself against my lap, coming dangerously close to inserting herself on my bare cock. I shifted her and took the condom from her hand and placed it around me. She stood and started to straddle me, but I stopped her and spun her around and bit down on my lip at the sight. “I just needed to look at you.”
“At my ass?” she said with a breathy laugh.
“I love your ass.” I squeezed her cheeks with my palm and then spread her wide. “Fuck.” I moved a hand to her waist. “Sit down. Slowly.”
She did as I asked, the back of her legs pressing against my kneecaps as she descended. I opened my legs slightly and pulled her down, groaning as her heat sank around me. She was so fucking tight, I knew I was stretching her wide, filling her full. And the fact that I’d been the first to ever make her feel that way drove me fucking insane. If I had felt possessive of Lex before, I sure as hell did now.
She started to move above me, and as she did, I caught her peach scent and groaned. Everything about Lex drove me so crazy, in no time I was fighting my release to wait for hers. I pushed aside the fabric of her shirt, exposing her breast again, pinching her nipple with one hand and finding her clit with my other.
“Come for me, babe.” My words hit her one second, and she was screaming the next. I wrapped my arms around her as she rode out her orgasm, then I finally let go.
I pulled her onto the bed when we were finished. As I slipped out of her, I rid myself of the condom and wrapped my arms around her body. My heavy lids succumbed to exhaustion, but not before muttering into her soft skin, “For what it’s worth, I’m glad I was your first.”