Chapter 32
Bella
I’m so happy my baby sister is home with us and untouched by that bastard and his goons. I love her, but I could throttle her ass for this stunt she pulled. I was so relieved when Gio returned home and woke me up. When I saw her run into the room to me with Dusty behind her, I knew things had changed between them, I could see it in their eyes. She needs him and loves him like I love Gio.
Once I got her in my arms, I didn’t want to let go. Thankfully, my dear loving husband understood and felt the same way. None of us really wanted to let her go. So, the four of us got comfortable in the bed, together - Gio’s old bed. We all slept the rest of the night holding her.
After breakfast, Gio and Val left us to take care of the business, the bastard. I dragged my baby sister and Dusty to the media room with everyone to talk. Well, not exactly dragged, Romeo carries me, on Gio’s orders, and Jules, Ces, Lorenzo, and Bash follow us.
“You know Sissy, I don’t know how Gio does this all the time without complaining. You’ve double your weight with these babies. You’re killing my arms, but I still love you,” Romeo says with a smile. He’s not trying to be mean.
“Maybe you need to work out your arms at the gym more, big brother,” I say, and laughter sounds off around us.
“I love you too, Rom,” I say placing a kiss on his cheek.
We make our way to the media room, and he places me on the couch.
My brothers yell at Gigi and hold her for a few minutes. Then we lay down the law, for her and Dusty, especially her. After the guys have their say, Gator comes to collect them to join Gio and Val.
We stay in the media room talking with all our guards and then decide to watch a movie.
I’m so uncomfortable, and all I can think about is saying my peace and hurting that bastard. I want five minutes with him. I should have that right, as closure for me.
I know Gio and my brothers want me to stay away, but I just can’t. I have to figure out a way to get out to that shed. I have two willing, loving, supportive besties that will help me do just that.
I just need to figure out how to get away from our bodyguards. Gio has Snake, Skull, and Wolf watching over Jules, Ces and me. He ordered Snake to keep a close eye on me. He ordered Dusty to watch my sister like a hawk, and not let her out of his sight for a second. Or anywhere near his phone, for a while.
I think I have a plan, a full proof plan if I do say so myself.
“Snake, umm... I have to umm...go to the bathroom again. Umm... Guys... will you let Jules and Ces take me. We’ll just be down the hall. I may be a while, I umm...” I say, and I can see Snake squirm in his seat. Just like I planned, I made him uncomfortable.
He raises his hands to stop me from going on. I inwardly smile, my plan is working perfectly, and I’m going to get out of this building.
“I don’t need to know, sweetheart. Go with your friends, if you need anything, one of you just yell,” Snake says waving us out.
Jules and Ces help me up and have no idea what I’m up to, but they know I’m up to something. We get in the bathroom, and once the door is shut, I hurry into the stall and do my business.
No need in having a delay once I get out there. I leave the door open and tell them my plan, quietly. I don’t need one of the club whores hearing and tattling on us.
When I finish, they help me, and we carefully make our way out the back of the Clubhouse. For a full house, none of the guys are in the kitchen or the backyard. They must all be in the bar drinking or out front.
So, without being seen, we walk as fast as we can over to the shed. I don’t waste time or care at this point. I’ve come this far, and I’m not going back. I need to do what I came to do. Jules and Ces will hold anyone back from stopping me.
I throw the door open and walk in without a care. Of course, I see my husband first, and he looks pissed. He’ll get over it, I’ll make it up to him later, in private.
My brothers are going to need to give me a little more sympathy. I’ll butter them up to let this one go.
My man runs over to me and lifts me up into his arms, and I stare into his eyes. The room is full of all the men in my life that care and love me. They all want to send my monster to hell. I love all them for that and more, but I need this.
So, without any concern for my man’s tone and the angry men in the room, I give it to them all straight.
“I know you all want to protect me, but I have some things I demand to say to him,” I declare to the room angrily. Yeah, I’m frustrated, and I need to say my peace.
Then I turn back to my love. “Amore mio, I want closure, I need this closure and the only way to do that... The only way for me to do that is to confront him and end this for good. This is something I must do. Gio, please let me talk to him.” I say sadly, pouting out my lip to get my way.
He watches me for a minute, everyone stays quiet waiting for his response.
“You know that shit doesn’t work on me, baby. Stop pouting. I’ll give you this, but you have to promise me that you will stay calm, and not work yourself up into a frenzy, mio angelo,” he says. I can’t help but smile and nod. I claim his lips in a passionate kiss, which ends too quickly because my brother speaks up.
“You can’t be serious! Get her the fuck out of here! She doesn’t need to be in here, seeing this shit!” Bash growls loudly. He doesn’t get it, he just wants to protect me. Even if I am his big sister and it should be the other way around.
“Bash, relax, bro. She’s not a kid, and she can handle it. Let her do what she needs to, and we will stand back and support her,” Gio says to my brother next to us. He steps back, not happy at all that Gio is siding with me.
“I demand you send her back to the Clubhouse, now!” Val screams at Gio. My man shakes his head no and before he can reply he tries another tactic.
“Gator, I demand you have your men escort the three of them out of here this instant. She is my baby sister, and I want her gone.
“Can’t do that, man, she’s Beast’s, and he has final say on this, not me,” Gator says.
Gio’s eyes haven’t left mine as they all debate between one another if I should stay or go. After a minute of listing to them, Gio turns us to address the room.
“Shut the fuck up!” he shouts to quiet them all up. He places me back on my feet and grabs my hand in his. I place my other hand on my belly and rub circles over my babies. They can sense their mommy is about to have an adrenaline rush. They are moving around, kicking and playing in my tummy.
“Y’all don’t have a say in this,” he says, and I can feel him tensing up.
“Y’all didn’t see her or spend every minute of every day with her after this asshole did what he did to her. I did... I saw it firsthand, and it was the worst pain I have ever experienced in my entire life.” He turns to face Antonio leaving me with Val.
He walks over to him as he speaks with a tone I’ve never heard from my husband before. His anger is pouring out of him in droids. This is him as the beast.
“I had to see the pain in her eyes... The pain you put there! The fear you placed in her! The guilt you made her feel! The anger she felt not only just towards you, but towards herself too!
“The countless fuckin’ breakdowns she endured, in my arms.” He swings his fist at Anton’s face a few times. His breathing is ragged. Tears are streaming down my face, remembering the horrible things I felt when I first came here. I lean into my big brother for support as he holds me.
“She thought you broke her in so many ways. You made her feel like she deserved everything you did to her. She thought... She thought she was unlovable after that shit. You shattered my beautiful, loving, caring, giving, selfless woman’s heart, spirit, and soul for your own goddamn benefit.” He throws a few more punches at him, this time at his body. My tears fall as furiously as the blood dripping from both of them.
“I put her back together. I mended every piece of her beautiful heart, soul, and spirit. I will never allow you or anyone to ever hurt her again. You’ve taken too much from her, from us already. It’s time she takes it all back for herself. She’s stronger than any person I have ever known, and if this is what she needs, she’ll get it.” He turns back to me and extends his hand for me to come to him. Val walks me over to my husband, my biggest supporter, and I wipe my face with the back of my hand.
“I got your back, baby. You do what you need to, and I’ll hold your hand the whole time,” Gio says. I clear my head and get my thoughts together. Then, I face off with a battered-looking Antonio.
Gio stands behind me a little bit still holding my hand for support, and his other hand is around my waist.
There is no fear inside me, just anger. Fury at the max now, looking at his beaten face and naked ugly body.
Before I can speak, Gio sets him straight. “My girl,” Gio says emphasizing his words for him. “is going to be the only one to speak. If you say one word to her, I will cut you. You got it fuckface!” He doesn’t respond or look our way. His head is down to the floor, his chin resting on his chest. That works for me, I don’t need to look him in the eyes to say these words.
I take a couple of deep breaths and compose myself before I speak.
“I have never hated a person in my whole life, until you... I hate you, Antonio. I hate you, with every fiber of my being and more,” I stop and take another deep, cleansing breath.
“You had been ordered by my father and Val, many times, to stay away from me. Why couldn’t you just follow them like a good little soldier you vowed to be? Why couldn’t you just leave me alone and move on?” I take a deep breath, shaking before continuing.
I’m not waiting for an answer to the questions I asked, no, I said them more has a statement.
“I may not have been the happiest girl in this world, but I was a whole girl.” Tears run down my face, but no sobs come out of me. I look down at my belly. My boys are moving around, going wild. I rub over them to give me strength.
I can do this. I’m stronger than I think I am. Gio tells me that all the time and I’m going to be a mommy soon, a good mommy. A mommy that will protect her baby boys with everything she has in her.
“I never in my whole life indicated to you that I wanted you. As a matter of fact, I was very honest and clear with you, I never wanted you or liked you in that way. You should have respected that fact and me. Instead, you disrespected me and humiliated me in the worst way possible, for your own benefit!”
I’m furious, my breathing is erratic, and it’s not helping my nerves at all. I take a few more deep breaths to calm myself.
I hate that I have to say these next few words with my brothers and the other men in the room. I don’t want them to see this part of me, but they already heard Gio go off on this bastard.
I’ve come this far, and I’m not going to back down or stop now or bow to my fears.
“That night you killed my parents and broke into my room... You did so much to me. Not only did you take my parents, my siblings’ parents, my baby sister’s parents away from us. You took so many things, personal and special from me! Things I can never have back.” I look up now and see him watching me with a blank look on his face.
“The night you violated me...the night you RAPED ME!” I scream in his face and don’t stop.
“You took my virginity that was never intended to be yours, never yours! It was always intended for my husband, Gio!
“That night you took my innocents, my sanity, my security, my strength, my will to live a normal happy life... My trust in the world! You broke me in countless ways, which I thought I would never be able to repair!
“You had no right to touch me, you bastard!” My hand flies up, and I slap him hard across the face taking him by surprise. I take a deep breath and feel Gio squeeze my hand to calm me down.
At my pause, the door slams open and Snake, Skull, and Wolf rush in. They go over to Gator, staying back and watching the scene unfold in front of them.
“I will never forget what you did to me. I will have to live with that nightmare for the rest of my life. But... but, I will forgive you, though... Though I probably shouldn’t, but for me to move forward with my happy life, for my family, I have to.
“I wouldn’t have Gio back in my life, as my husband if things didn’t... I wouldn’t be strong enough to stand up to you. To the monster of my nightmares and rid you from my mind. I wouldn’t have Gio’s babies growing inside me if...” I have to take a minute to compose myself before I can move on. If I don’t, I may lose it all together right now.
A sob catches in my throat. The anger is becoming too much for me to bear. I can literally feel my blood pressure rising extremely high, too high to be healthy. I need to end this and lay down, the dizziness will soon take me over.
“I hope you rot in HELL, you BASTARD, for what you’ve done to me and my family!” I slap him across the face twice this time.
“I hope the devil rapes your fucking ass every goddamn day for eternity, and you feel everything I felt that night you tore me apart.” I let go of Gio’s hand and punch him again and again through my sobs. I hit him like he’s my very own punching bag until my legs begin to give out. Gio scoops me up in his arms and removes me from his sight.
I wail into his neck, letting it all go. I extinguished the darkness and the demons from my heart and soul, forever. This was a sort of cleansing for me, a rebirth. All the bad is gone from my soul, and only good is to come.
“Please, God, make him suffer like I have. Make him feel like I did,” I babble and weep into Gio’s chest.
“Give her to me. I’ll take her to your apartment to lay down,” Bash says to Gio, and I feel my husband shake his head no.
“No, you guys have your fun for a while. I’ll be back later. My place is with Bella right now! I’ll be back later after I get her to sleep for the night.”
He turns us around to all the guys and Jules. “Snake, I want you at my apartment at 9. Jules, Ces I want you two to stay with her tonight. I’ll be gone all night.” They all agree, and Gio takes me home.
I’m wiped, my adrenaline rush is dropping fast, and I need a nap to reboot.
That’s exactly what we do until dinner time.