Chapter 2
Johnny had visited his attorney and wasn’t in the best of moods. But Sally still wanted to talk. He had been honest with her. The night had been Mary’s idea and he had gone along with it. Now he wished he hadn’t, and it didn’t look good for him.
Mary wasn’t budging from her lie, and the other girls were along with her to the end. At least that was what his attorney had stated. “I don’t know we might have to plea bargain this one out. If we go to trial they might sentence you for 20 years or more.”
“But I didn’t do it, why should I even serve one day?” He questioned.
“Look your past few months have been tough. You’ve been arrested and charged with assault. Even though Denton dropped the charges it still shows there. That doesn’t look good at all. It isn’t hard for people to imagine that you might be a bit of a loose cannon.” The attorney explained.
“Fuck this is bullshit. How much time do you think you can get it plea bargained down too?” Johnny asked.
“I don’t know, I was hoping for maybe a year or two. But I might just be dreaming. I might be able to get the DA to agree to it.” He said.
“Let me think about it okay. The last thing I really want to do is go to jail after Sally just got home. Fuck she’d leave me, I’m sure of it.” Johnny had answered.
The whole drive home he had imagined it, her leaving him again. He really thought it might send him over the edge. He could see his anger spilling over and beating the life out of someone. It wasn’t hard to imagine lately, with all the anger he had inside.
He had hoped that once she was back he would feel better. Had wished it, but he had discovered that he didn’t trust her fully. Johnny was just waiting for her to turn her back on him and say she was moving somewhere else.
When she had asked him about that night he hadn’t wanted to discuss it. But he knew at least she would hear the truth from him. Anyone else would tell her the lies that had been weaved by the girls and Mary.
Johnny looked at her now as she slept in his arms. “I don’t deserve her anymore. I’ve made too many mistakes and she’s going to pay for them too.” He shook his head. If they weren’t at his house he might just get up and leave and never come back.
But he had to admit that he would never be able to stay away from her for long. If he had to go to jail, it would kill him being away from her. He had felt like he won the lottery when he had seen her back in town. Johnny hadn’t believed his eyes at first.
Then when she had turned around and he could see she was crying, he had felt like a heel for everything he’d done since she was gone. He felt bad for having sex with Mary, for trying to hurt Sally, and so many other things. But deep in his mind he knew that she had been the cause of it all.
However, he loved her and was in a fight with himself about what was the best thing to do. “You know the best thing is to leave her and let her be with someone who isn’t thought to be a rapist.” He murmured under his breath.
“I can’t though, she makes me feel better. I love her.” He thought to himself. Why isn’t life fair, why did she have to leave in the first place? If she would have just stayed, none of this would have ever happened.
Eventually Johnny fell asleep as well, his mind stopping just long enough for it to take over. In his dreams he pictured a sentence of 5 years being handed down in court. He looked at his attorney a question in his mind and he asked. “I thought you said one or two years, how did it change to 5?”
His attorney looked at him and said. “It was the best I could do I’m sorry. You’re lucky it’s not longer.”
He turned to see Sally sitting in the court room and her face was hard. He tried to talk to her, but she ignored him and turned her back. Johnny watched in the dream as she walked out without looking back at him once.
When he woke up he felt horrible, he wondered if it was a prophecy of what would happen. Not that he had ever believed in anything like that in the past. But the fear of her turning her back on him was real. He could feel the fear through to his every bone.
He felt her moving and she looked up at him and kissed him. Her hand roamed down his body and felt the new muscles that he had gotten in the past month. Then she stopped and focused on one muscle that was already reacting to her touch.
“We shouldn’t do it again.” He pulled away.
“Why not?” She questioned.
“What if I go to jail? Will you wait around for me?” He asked.
Sally looked at him. “How long will you go for?” She asked, and then stopped him from answering. “I’ll wait.” She answered.
“I might be in for up to 20 years if it goes to trial. But my attorney thinks I should go for a plea bargain and I’ll serve less time.” He told her.
“20 years, that’s a long time.” Sally said and realized that she wasn’t sure if she could wait for him that long. “I’ll wait for you though.” She finally said again.
He looked at her cautiously. “You don’t sound too confident about that. I’m telling you it would be better if you just leave now and never look back.” Johnny told her.
“No I don’t want that. I want you.” She murmured and kissed him deeply.
Johnny didn’t stop her this time, he made love to her. Even if he wasn’t sure if she would stay, at least he could enjoy her while she was with him. He looked down at her and said, “I love you Sally, but I really think you’re making a mistake being with me.”
“Johnny Young all these years you’ve been proclaiming to me how much you love me, and now you’re telling me its wrong. I don’t think so; I think I’ve just finally realized the truth.” Sally said.
“Remember this when people start saying stuff to you in town, because they will. I get looks all the time now, and they aren’t nice ones.” Johnny commented.
“Johnny Young I love you and that’s all there is to it. I’m behind you 100 percent of the way.” Sally commented.
“Sally why did I have to change for you to love me though?” He asked.
“I think you’re still the same boy deep down, you’ve just changed on the surface.” She stated.
“I don’t feel like the same person.” He admitted.
“But you are.” She kissed him.
He only wished it was that simple, but he knew she wasn’t looking at the full picture. Only time would tell if she was being completely honest with him or not.